ok, listen, killua's aftercare is very practical and quiet, but my king is absolutely thorough. never, EVER doubt that shi
he's the type to immediately grab you water, wipe you down w a warm towel, and toss you one of his shirts without asking if you want it
he's going to make sure ur hydrated, he'll pull your hair back if it's damp, shift u so ur neck isn't at a weird angle, etc.
he acts all casual and nonchalant abt it ("you're fine, right?") but the second you even HINT at anything being even remotely wrong, he's moving to fix it before you even finish ur thoughts
overcompensator asf... but it's ok we can't blame him
he def won't sit there making a big mushy speech (thank GOD.), but instead, he'll lay next to you, arm behind his head, glancing over every so often to make sure you're okay🥹🥹🥹🥹
i feel like if you seem even slightly uncomfortable, he'll adjust pillows or change the temp without a word (and no, the tsundere stereotype is so bull. like when killua loves someone, he LOVES them. anyone who says otherwise is delusional #sorrynotsorry #watchtheshowyoublindfuck)
this mafaka notices the little things (e.g., if your breathing's uneven, if you've gone quiet in a not-good way, if you're overheating, etc.)
Body part (favorite on partner's):
i can think of a few: thighs, collarbones, necks, but he's obsessed with your hands. like, not "obsessed" in a cliché way or whatever, but bc they lowk tell him so much
he lowk loves the way u fidget, the heat in your palms, how they fit against his...
i feel like he def likes them on his face (but like, cupping his cheeks and like doing sweet things... not sticking them in his mouth or whatever...) or tugging at his hair. he loves the tugging at his hair
and, listen, hands are a big thing for him, sure, but it's the dexterity that gets him, yk? like how you can curl your fingers into his shirt or skim them over his skin without thinking (orrrrr js in the moment🙈🙊🙉)
also will watch your mouth when you're talking, even (or, especially) if he doesn't realize it
Cum:
if we're in agreement that killua's not into being messy for the sake of it, then you're welcome to stay on my page. if not, gtfo.
this bih prefers control. he likes finishing where he wants to (usually on ur stomach or chest bc it's easy to clean)
if it's more intimate, he likes finishing inside and watching you react to it
bonus: if he's finishing inside, there's lowk almost this lazy satisfaction in watching it drip just enough before he's grabbing a towel for you.
guys why is that so hot
GUYS ALSO WHY AM I LOWK SO KNOWLEDGABLE ABT THIS IM A VIRGIN😭😭😭😭😭 (and no, i don't gaf about "tmi." y'all don't know me, i don't know y'all, so i don't have a reason to not share!)
Dirty secret:
he's 10000% way more possessive in bed than he lets on outside of it. sorry, guys, but ion make the rules.
he'll never admit it, but part of why he likes leaving faint marks in hidden spots is bc he likes knowing they're there where/when no one else can see them. i feel like this gets him going hellaaaa
also, half of his "innocent" smirks in bed are him quietly thinking about how good you look totally focused on him
i think we can agree this bitch is highkey ego-centered asf (ok i lied a bit. like, well, he's not really ego-centered, but you know what i mean. he def gets off on praise a tad little bit). he def gets this insane ego boost when you can't look anywhere else but at him (but also, why is that kinda hot?!?!?! like, listen, i HATE guys who are egotistical in any way, but zoo wee mama, iykwim!)
guys that lowk didn't make sense and idek what i js wrote, but it's currently exactly 3:20 am and i am reserving the rest of my cognitive abilities for the rest of the alphabet(s)
Experience:
alr, imma keep it a buck, even tho we love to think (yes, we; me included. it's fun to think about, yk!) killua would be some sort of playboy or whatever, it's not character/canonically-accurate
realistically? not overly experienced by the time he's 18+, BUT he's extremely quick to learn bc he's observant and competitive (the holy duo🥹)
i genuinely feel like the first few times, he's def focused on reading EVERY reaction you give him, and by the third or fourth time, it's like he's been doing it for years. like, he's got you fully clocked, ho
if ur goated asf and a real one (ahem. understanding the show. and his character. ahem.) then you'd know that his baseline skill comes from observation first—this would lowk first be as seeing what flusters you in a non-sexual way and logging it away.
once he has firsthand experience, his learning curve goes crazyyyyyy!! basically, it goes steep. he's strategic asf about everything
Favorite position:
anything where he can see your face.
i feel like he's not really locked to one, but he likes positions where his hands are free—either to hold your hips steady or to brace himself close to you
i also feel like, once more comfortable, he'd be into holding you up (but like, gently... kinda... sorta... a little....) against a wall and just going at it #freaky!!
also loves you on top for the control it gives you (though, i wouldn't be surprised if he had a secret kink for losing control the tiniest little bit...)
he likes watching you take the lead but will prolly still have his hands on your hips, guiding ur rhythm if he wants it faster or slower #lowkguyswhyamilowkcreaming.... #jk #jkiliediwasnotjk
Goofy (in bed):
listen, he's not a constant joker, but you will get the occasional smirk or dry and/or cocky comment, especially if you're flustered
it's not in a mean tho, like, he js likes seeing you react
his humor is sharp and timed asf... he'd prolly make a sly comment mid-movement js to see your reaction, and then smirk like he didn't js throw u tf off
Hair:
now, listen. grooming is part of his routine; not because he's overly vain or whatever, but bc precision is essentially his second nature
he keeps himself groomed, fs, but doesn't care too much about body hair on you, i also feel like he likes it when you're comfortable enough not to overthink it
but listen, it can go either way, too: i feel like the little shit would like it bald... which gets an ick from me.. like who are u...
Intimacy:
listen, chat, he's more intimate than you'd expect. like, not in a sappy way, but in the way he'll hold eye contact for js a bit too long, or like tilt his head into your touch mid-thrust/movement
in rare moments, he'll lace your fingers with his mid-pace and keep them there. like, i swear he fw this so heavy
dude, i swear, there's something about the mix of closeness and control that hits him differently and basically ends him
ALSO, he loves the chance to be intimate, too. like, listen, not in a performative ahh way, but like in his own little extra, tiny killua-esque way
Jack-off:
listen, killua's got a healthy drive, no doubt about it, but he's not constant about it. like, he's (hopefully...) not like milluki's fat, gooning-ass
and lowk, he does, it’s usually because he’s been thinking about a specific moment or expression from you
like, listen, when you're not around, he's not doing it constantly, BUT when he does, it's focused asf, and usually after a build-up of tension from seeing you (or, not seeing you...?) all day
Kink:
this fucker DEF likes control and sensory play
i feel like he likes knowing exactly how much pressure or pace you can take and pushing you just to the edge without going over
sensory control in his case means he'll switch between gentleness and intensity js to see you unravel
also prolly gets a kick out of blindfolding you, but like not in a dramatic way... more like so you're extra reactive to touch
Location:
tbh i feel like he prefers private spaces where he can relax (think: bedrooms, hotel rooms, somewhere he’s completely sure no one’s going to walk in)
once he's secure in a place, he relaxes into it fully (dimly lit rooms, spaces w a locking door, somewhere w soft surfaces for you to move around on without worrying—or, really, without thinking about noise
Motivation:
your body language is his BIGGEST trigger
if you touch him in a way that’s different from normal (slower, lingering, those eyes iykwim—even if it's "unintentional")
OOOOH or if you look at him with that “you know exactly what you’re doing” face, he’s done
like, even brushing his shoulder a lil slower than usual, or leaning in during a conversation flips a switch in him he can't always hide
No:
he’s not into anything that strips either of you of control in a dangerous way
also lowk hates the idea of anyone else being involved
i also 100%, wholeheartedly, absolutely think he'd shut down anything humiliating, degrading, or dangerous with NO hesitation. like, listen, if you suggest it, he'll give you that look that says "you really think I'd do that to you??" hell, he might even say it out loud
Oral:
receiving — don't get me wrong, he likes it, but he’s quiet and more focused on how you look doing it than making a ton of noise. his control almost slips when it's good, which is why he tries to keep quiet (he doesn't like giging too much away (?? like girl bye) mostly, tho, i feel like he's more you focused than anything else when having sex
giving — he’s patient, but RELENTLESS, methodical, and stubborn about not stopping until you’re shaking. lowk prolly competitive asf w himself to get you to cum faster than last time, and 10000% gets cocky afterwards. don't even play.
Pace:
this bitch is controlled but adaptable, like, he knows when to slow down to drag it out and when to go all-in
lowk, he has a "measured push." like, even if he's going fast, it's not sloppy or whatever,
i feel like he's more intense rather than "fast," yk?? like i don't see him ramming violently and extremely fast into someone... that js doesn't seem like him, yk?
100% keeps it tight enough that you can't fully relax unles he wants you to
Quickie:
meh, like, he’s fine with them if the situation demands it, but he’s not a fan of leaving things half-done
like, ngl, this bitch would lowk be calculating them... i feel like he knows exactly what to do to leave them satisfying instead of rushed and frustrating (leorio could neverrrr)
Risk:
OK SO, he'll flirt with the idea (e.g., a door not fully shut) but won't acc jeopardize your safety or privacy
you alr know he’s careful about location risk. this mafaka won’t mess around somewhere that actually risks getting caught by strangers
he’s more into the idea of danger than the actual execution
zoinks!
Stamina:
insanely high, we alr know this.
he can keep going longer than most people can stand, and his recovery time is ridiculous
like, deadass, he'll keep going until you're the one tapping out, and if u don't he's taking that shit as a CHALLENGE
Toys:
listen, he's open to them... kinda. he likes relying on himself first before any toys or whatever
if you bring one in, he’ll learn exactly how to use it to get the reaction he wants
now, yk how i mentioned that he likes relying on himself first?? yeah, so he uses them to supplement, not replace. for example, he'd start with a toy to get you close, then switching to himself to finish it. dare i say when he's better than the toy??????
Unfair:
let's be honest with ourselves: it's very fair to assume that killua can be very unfair in a teasing way; like stopping right before you finish, drawing out foreplay, pretending to be unaffected until you’re the one getting desperate, etc.
you alr know he's ruthless abt finding a pace or angle that keeps you right at the edge for as long as possible
then he acts like it's js a coincidence when it is absolutely NOT
Volume:
low groans, occasional sharp breaths
he’s not loud unless you push him out of his usual control, so like, if u do... u cracked him fuh real
he's a quiet groaner, might lowk say "fuck," when he's getting there, but it's his breathing that's the giveaway (sharper inhales, occasional hitched exhale when you do something unexpected and/or hot, etc.😛)
Wildcard:
NGL BRUH I HATE WILDCARDS BC WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY. LIKE I HAVE TO THINK OF SOMETHING BUT IDK FROM WHICH CATEGORY TO PICK AND CHOOSE FROM.
soooo anyway. you’d never guess from how chill he acts, but he’s very tuned into scent (freshly showered skin, your shampoo, the faint smell of sweat after training) ts drives him nuts more than he’d ever admit
ok and his actual wildcard is how much he likes the little details before it even gets sexual (think: the brush of your arm against his in a crowd, the weight of your knee resting against his under a table, like AWWW)
X-ray:
PHATTTT DIHHHHH GIMME THAT SHI PLSSSS GIMME THAT DIH
toned but lean; nothing overly bulky
proportionate and realistically on the larger side, but nothing extreme. like, listen, as much as i'd like to say his dih is like 8 inches long and 3 inches of pure girth, that's js not realistic (or even sensible for his character). if anything, i sincerely believe gon's would be bigger (not in a weird way tho, i promise this is js for comparison) like with other things yk??
HOWEVER, that being said, he wouldn't be average or below-average at all. realistically, he'd lean a little bit above above-average; when you're doing shi tho? it's his confidence that makes look (and feel) like more
Yearning:
when he wants you, he’ll hover
he's def the hovering type; his version of missing you shows up in physical proximity. think: leaning against the same wall, casually touching your wrist when he talks to you, stretching out beside you like it's second nature, glancing at your mouth without realizing it, walking just close enough in a hallway, etc.
Zzz:
usually a light sleeper, but post-sex, if he’s in a safe space, he’ll knock out with one arm still draped over you
like, it's acc endearing asf, yk? his arm across your middle, head tucked close enough to feel your breathing, and he does NOT budge unless you acc push him (like hell, though)
SFW KILLUA ALPHABET
Affection:
killua’s affection is subtle but constant. the best kind, tbh
he’s not the clingy type (like, once actually dating, and being more ahead in his arc), but he always makes sure you know he’s there (he'd lowk have a hand brushing your arm when you walk together, sitting close enough that your knees touch, stealing your drink just to annoy you, etc.
if you’re someone he really trusts, he drops the casual act and lets himself be lowk softer (?!?!?!1!!??!) this means lingering in hugs and/or letting his hand rest on yours without making it a big deal (and that's when you've bagged-bagged him!!!!
Best friend:
YOU ALR KNOWWWWW he's got that ride-or-die loyalty
killua doesn’t just “have your back” n shi. like, he plans for things that could hurt you before they even happen
like, he’ll roast you to your face, but if someone else tries? it's over for them; adieu asf!!
Cuddling:
see, i really don't think its his default unlike what many people may think, but when he’s in the mood, he’s in the mood
he prefers sitting or lying where he can watch your face, one arm tucked behind your head. tbh, he might even sometimes start with his arm draped over you and end up pulling you fully against his chest without realizing it
guys why is that kinda hot
Domestic:
well!!!! he's messy-but-functional
his space is never filthy, but he’ll leave a shirt on the chair or an empty candy wrapper on the table
but also, he’s weirdly fast (and good?? like hello??) at chores when he feels like doing them
Expression:
killua’s feelings show more in tone and timing than in big facial shifts, like, if he’s happy, his sarcasm is lighter, and he’s more willing to tease without being a cunt
if he’s annoyed, his voice gets clipped asf and he gets more bitchy (like damn, ho, is u a girl...)
Fights:
lowk, bro, ion see him as a guy who gets into arguments often. like, fights rare and, like, calculated (idk what else to say for "well thought-out or that shi) w him. he's very... idk how to say it... like, victimizing isn't quite the word. like, i feel like he's very martyring of himself, yk?? which can lowk get tiring and annoying (and maybe even give pick-me/nice guy vibes) FAST (i know i'd get tired of it realll fast)
if he’s mad, he’ll prolly (depending on his arc, tbh) step back and figure out exactly what he wants to say before coming back to talk
if it’s someone else starting the fight? he’ll verbally cut them down and he might stay pissed for a few hours
Gentle:
ah! so, he's gentle in function, not necessarily in tone
like, listen, he’ll handle you carefully when it matters (steadying you if you stumble, holding something for you if your hands are full, etc) but he won’t always sugarcoat his words. in fact, he lowk never does this, which i think is huge for a relationship, yk?
like, i feel like he'd be hella transparent... just, good luck prying the info outta him!
Hugs:
GUYS, THIS IS KILLUA ZOLDYCK. HE'S NOT GONNA BE SOME MAGICALLY-NORMAL GUY ONCE HE GETS A GF. in public? he's lowk secretive, shy, and gets flustered easily
ngl he'd prolly give usually one-armed and brief hugs in public, but if you’re alone, he’ll hold on longer, resting his chin on the top of your head or against your shoulder🥹
Impression (first):
comes off as confident and a little smug, but in a way that’s intriguing rather than arrogant
idk tho, i would lowk get the ick from this kind of irl behavior... like, if a real guy did sum like this he would never hear from me again
Jealousy:
goes quiet, positions himself between you and the person, throws in a pointed look that says “this is my territory” without words
def gets more quippy and snarky to the person and sometimes even to you
Kisses:
with killua, they're short and casual most of the time, but he’s always paying attention to how you react
if you linger during a kiss, he’ll deepen it without hesitation
pre-makeout tension king!
Love language:
acts of service & quality time
he shows love by doing things for you (fixing something, bringing food, adjusting plans so you’re comfortable, etc.)
also i see him as being the most lovey fuck by js existing near you without distraction.
Memories:
i can almost guarantee killua’s memory is annoyingly sharp when it comes to you
typa bitch that'll bring up something you said offhand months ago like it’s nothing and get joking-teasing w u bc u can't do the same (unless... you can?)
Nicknames:
keeps it simple, absolutely NO pet names (sorry guys, but killua js wouldn't—that's not him). maybe check out leorio??
if he uses a nickname, it’s either very teasing or genuinely affectionate (and hella fucking rare. it's likelier to find a fist-sized gold nugget in ur asshole), and even then it's js something like "dumbass," "fatass," and he's def the type to call u a retard
On cloud nine:
more talkative, more animated in his expressions, and he’ll tease you without the sharper edge.
Pet peeves:
fake-deep/fake-smart people, slow walkers, and anyone who underestimates him or the people he cares about, etc
Quirks:
constantly fidgets (spinning a pen, flipping a coin, tapping his fingers on his leg, etc)
Romance:
with him, it's not about grand gestures (and thank whoever is responsible for it); he makes ordinary moments special. sitting on a rooftop eating snacks, late-night walks, swapping jackets without thinking about it.
Secrets:
good at keeping them, bad at sharing his own. if he does, it means he really trusts you.
Touch:
likes casual touch + tension, like brushing past you in the kitchen, leaning against your shoulder, etc.
but he needs to feel in control of when and how
Understanding:
we know killua reads people fast. like, he can pick up on shifts in your mood without asking and adjust his behavior accordingly. hooray!!
Value
loyalty, independence, and competence
typa guy who wants you to be able to stand on your own but also let him be there when you need it
Wildcard:
typa guy who might text you at 1am to “go do something” and actually mean “get snacks and walk aimlessly around the city"
X-factor:
IM SOOOO TIRED BUT IM ALMOST DONEEEEEE
he has the mix of sharp intelligence, confidence, and unexpected and lowk irregular asf softness makes him magnetic without him even trying
he's also hot asf.
Yearning:
im he won’t outright say “i miss you." instead, he’ll show up more, send short texts just to check in, or suggest doing something together
Zzz:
killua is def light sleeper unless he’s somewhere safe
if he’s out, he’s out. the bitch is sprawled across the bed, w one arm prolly (usually) thrown over you
HOLY SHIT IM DONE ITS 5:16 AM AND I DIDNT GET A SINGLE BIT OF SLEEP. ANYWAY IMMA GO NOW LMK WHAT YALL THINKKKKKKK
Set in the same universe as : "I'll go to hell if I have to" (for more context, feel free to read that part first!)
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-He remembers that you and he shared a notebook. Your own diary.
-On days when he feels less like himself, more than usual, he starts writing in the diary and imagines you answering him.
-Mikey has always had many people he cared about. Most of them were connected to his brother in one way or another.
-He is deeply attached to his childhood friends. Baji, Emma, Draken… They are the ones keeping the vase of his heart from shattering completely.
-So it’s no surprise that he was very attached to you, too.
-You were Emma’s friend. Naturally, you often came over to the Sano household. That’s how Manjirou and you met.
-You were like Emma’s conscience, so in a way, he respected you. He knew that even though his little sister had a naturally good heart, you helped guide her toward making the right choices.
-You didn't really talk much, but Mikey liked hearing you tease Draken and Emma. You had guessed that their feelings were mutual, but Mikey wouldn't let you know because he’d promised not to say anything.
-He didn’t contradict you, though.
-He wasn’t sure what you thought of him, but you always tended to talk to him as if he were a child who needed to be treated with affection. Even though he was a year older.
-Honestly, Mikey found you strange. When he was in elementary school, it even annoyed him because, my god, didn’t you know he was literally the invincible Mikey?
-Emma and his friends liked teasing him about it. Although you never took it too far in public.
-Now that he thinks about it, maybe you were just teasing him. You always had a good sense of your surroundings and other people’s feelings, after all.
-He no longer remembers how or why it was just the two of you that day—him and you—since you were usually with Emma, nor what you were originally talking about.
-He remembers you left and suddenly came back with a notebook covered in silly stickers (which you thought were cute). You had named it "the magic diary."
-Originally, it was meant for writing down things you didn’t dare say out loud for one reason or another.
-But without explanation, you ended up using it regularly. As if you were both sitting across from each other and started writing in the notebook and passing it back and forth instead of just speaking out loud.
-When it ran out of pages, you were the one who bought a new journal.
-It was just a silly childhood idea, but you kept it up for a while.
-You were often at the Sano house, and Mikey and you attended the same school, so it wasn't hard to pass the magic notebook around.
-Emma and Draken were curious about the diary, but when they saw that you only wrote ordinary things to each other (most of the time), they became exasperated.
-They wondered why on earth you didn't just talk like any normal person, but eventually just accepted it.
-Emma often told Manjirou that she was really happy he was close to you.
-Once, she wondered if there were romantic feelings between the two of you, but she didn't want to seem pushy until she was sure.
-You were "Emma's best friend," but also "the Invincible Mikey's friend."
-However, after Shinichiro's death, you devoted all your time to your best friend, doing whatever you could to help her feel better
-even now, Manjirou is truly grateful to you for that.
-You had given him the "magic diary" so he could write in it when the weight on his shoulders became too heavy,
-but he never wrote anything. Mikey had to stay strong; he had to fight. He thought expressing his feelings like that would only make things worse.
-After all, admitting something you can't change… There’s nothing worse. It won't make anything better.
-The first time you two really talked after Shinichiro's death, Manjirou mentioned that you should stop using the notebook. Saying that now that you were in middle school, you needed to mature.
-Often, you would write things and hand the journal to Mikey, but each time he refused to read it.
-You were realistic, but also braver than anyone. You stood by your principles.
-If some stupid delinquent made a remark about the death of the first Black Dragons leader, you wouldn’t hesitate to argue with them.
-Often, he, Draken, or another member of Toman would end up helping you because you had no talent for fighting.
-Your childish side was always about protecting your friends, even at the risk of your own life.
-Even if he could go back in time, Manjirou wouldn’t let you join Toman. So, upon discovering this trait of yours, he simply thought you were the strongest woman he knew.
-Mikey never refuses to meet someone. His heart has no fences, but few can boast of having truly entered it.
-You were one of the rare people who managed to.
-When Mikey thinks about it, he tells himself that maybe that’s why fate targeted you.
-Before the incident with Moebius, two years earlier, Toman’s leaders had faced another dispute.
-Emma was really affected by it.
-You had advised her to directly talk about her feelings to her brother and the man she loved.
-Emma had seen Draken and decided to talk to him. You had accompanied her to give her courage.
-Mikey doesn’t know what they talked about, but his little sister was angry and crossed the road without paying attention to the cars;
-Protective as you were, it was no surprise that you didn’t hesitate to push her out of the way to save her.
-Unfortunately, you were also the type to put your own life last on your list of priorities.
-When Mikey learned what had happened to you, he felt a part of him shatter.
-Manjirou still remembers how heavy his heart felt, how much he trembled, how suffocating his breathing became.
-You weren’t dead, but you had fallen into a deep coma.
-He also remembers how utterly heartbroken Emma was, more than anyone. When she saw your parents, she couldn’t stop apologizing.
-Dealing with the grief of seeing you in a coma and his little sister’s immense sorrow was difficult. But he had to do it.
-Draken too, Draken felt guilty. If he had acted like an adult and hadn’t deliberately tried to make Emma angry, none of this would have happened.
-Mikey doesn't even remember why anymore, but back then he didn't do anything to comfort Draken. Was it to devote himself entirely to his little sister? He doesn't even remember himself.
-Emma visited you at the hospital every day. Mikey would accompany her, of course, though out of respect he would let his little sister talk to you; sometimes he'd just wait in the waiting room to give you privacy or to be alone with his thoughts.
-Sometimes, he would visit you. Alone.
-Sometimes he would just watch you thoughtfully, and other times he'd tell you things about Toman or its members.
-Unlike others, Mikey talked to you about things he never told you before. You weren't a delinquent, so he expected you wouldn't have understood before the accident.
-After you fell into a coma, he felt he needed to tell you these things.
-Though, often, it was just a way to try to find himself again and to prove to himself that you still existed.
-Because as the days and years went by, he became less and less aware of the difference between death and your current state.
-And one day, Emma was killed too.
-The most important person to you.
-The most important person to him.
-Emma died because she got caught up in the conflict between Tenjiku and Touman.
-Emma died innocent, even though she had no enemies.
-Emma died knowing she would cause the same pain she herself felt after losing all the loved ones she had lost.
-And like some of them, she died without being able to say goodbye.
-Mikey no longer knew just how broken he was by then. Had he lost everything? Or could he break even more? He himself didn't know.
-He hadn't told you about his little sister's death.
-In fact, he had stopped visiting you altogether.
-What was the point? The only difference between you and the dead was that your consciousness could only be found in one place. In that damned hospital bed.
-Mikey later learned that Draken was the one who had told you everything and that he had taken over from Emma as the one who talked to you every day.
-Mikey sometimes hated you. And when he realized that, he would end up hating himself.
-Sometimes he hated you because before Emma died, he used to hold onto the hope that you would wake up. That you wouldn't die. But you never got up. You never blinked. You never stirred. And it had been years.
-And at that point, what could he possibly say to you if you woke up?
-That he failed?
-That he failed to protect those close to him? That he failed as a leader? That he failed as a person?
-Mikey tended to act only on instinct sometimes, without really thinking.
-Which might explain why he went to your house a few years after his sister's death.
-Maybe, unconsciously, he wanted to find traces of your presence somewhere other than that repetitive hospital bed?
-Maybe he also wanted to remember why there was a time when he waited for you so much. When he hoped—not just for his sister’s sake, but for his own—that you would wake up.
-He saw your parents there. Did they know about Mikey’s new reputation? Mikey never asked.
-As usual, they were kind. They explained that they were moving and that only your belongings were left.
-"Manjirou, you used to talk with my daughter using these notebooks, right?" your father handed him a few notebooks—the old ones, along with the one that was never completed.
-Mikey was genuinely surprised. He didn’t think you had kept the notebook or that you had saved some of the old ones.
-He doesn’t remember how the goodbyes went, but Mikey ended up taking the notebooks.
-Mikey sometimes wonders if he should check on you. Are you dead? Are you still in a coma? Or have you finally woken up?
-And so, on the days when he no longer feels like himself, he starts reading the pages of your journal.
-Each time, Mikey feels drowned in nostalgia, and the next second he remembers what he has become. What he is, now.
-Mikey has never directly checked on you since Emma’s death, not even once.
-After killing all the members of the former Toman, he asked a subordinate to send you a letter with a meeting place and date.
-And here he is, on that very day, waiting for you as he used to when he was younger.
-Mikey doesn't know if he was going to kill you, or ask you to kill him.
-Mikey doesn't even know if he's going to see you, since he doesn't know if you're awake or "dead".
-He lightly chews on the tip of his pen and contemplates a new notebook—for the first time, he was the one who bought it.
-Mikey has mixed feelings, but the only certainty he has is that he hopes this notebook will be used.
-He hopes that this time, you’ll really answer him. You, and not his imagination.
-You used to hand it to him.
-This time, he wants to be the one to hand it to you.
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This draft has been lying around for literally a year, lmaooo. It was supposed to be longer, but I honestly didn't know how to finish it, I hope it doesn't show too much
You can imagine platonic or romantic feelings between the Reader and Mikey; I intentionally left nothing official so you can imagine freely
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this work, and thank you for reading this far!
(For those who have read the version from Emma's point of view. Mikey never knew that (Y/N) cried.)
In the longer deleted version, there was a part where we see what Mikey writes, imagining that you are responding. What you wrote but Mikey never read when you were awake, and it was specified that Mikey was happy about the pain he felt when he read the notebooks because it confirmed your existence and that he hadn't waited in vain.
It's deliberately an open ending because nothing exceeds your imagination, but if there were a real ending, I imagined (Y/N) not coming and Mikey finally doing his research and killing her (whether she's awake or in a coma) and then committing suicide out of self-hatred and "love."
Well, please if a similar situation happens to you, stay dignified and leave the person who cheated you.
I think Takemichi and Emma are simply separating love and sex.
That day, Emma wanted to sleep with Takemichi. To attract Draken's attention, she must have known that Takemichi and Draken had met.
But somehow, she remained faithful to the man she loved by refusing to be kissed. (Character book 1/manga)
Obviously, she wouldn't have done such a thing if she'd been officially in a romantic relationship with Draken. It was just her way of trying to get his attention.
Kiss = for the one she loves
Sex = everybody except if she isn’t single
About Takemichi… Well, yeah. The young version of him was ready to cheat his gf. Fucking virgin. So there's a timeline where Takemichi cheats on Hina. (And Hina being Hina probably forgave him.)
But our Takemichi is actually canonically faithful
See?
Takemichi had refused to go any further with Emma out of loyalty to Hina
But about the episode 23…
Well, Ig Takemichi is one of those men who thinks that sleeping with a prostitute isn't cheating.
In fact, I'm sure of it. Considering that it was 2005, this mentality was even more prevalent.
Soooo, yeah he’s not exactly cheating here.
Idk if some people saw it romantically, but I think Takemichi didn’t.
He was kinda desperate here and Senju is fucking strong so there's no chance he would decline and again, I don’t think he saw that in a romantic way?
Translation: Toman Tengoku Showdown from the “Tokyo Revengers Exhibition The Final World Line SILVER” Book
In Roppongi’s TR exhibition, they had a section where they had an installation of the final timeline story drawn by Wakui-sensei. This installation had a mix of the printed manga panels and voiceover drama to cover more backstory and content because the man can only draw and cover so much.
Luckily, they included the transcript to the voice overs and are divided up into chapters with titles, which I'll mark with --.
I was lucky enough to my my hands on the book directly from their limited time merch site (https://mikey-mart.online/); unfortunately, they ended all online orders by 2/4.
Out of respect for the exhibition and the hard work put into this entire thing by Wakui-sensei and the staff, I will not be posting any images of the panels from the booklet and will post whatever the official exhibition's Twitter account have posted. I’ll do my best to put scene descriptions where I see fit. I have seen there are some JP vloggers who've done content on the exhibition itself, but don't know how much they were able to film.
They also have an interview with the artist who made the statue installation of the Tenjiku arc scene where Takemichi raised his fist up when Mikey appeared, an interview with the Japanese VAs and Wakui-sensei himself. If there’s enough interest in any of those sections, I’ll do my best to translate them.
Note: Translation isn’t 100% and I may take some liberties in translating certain things for a more colloquial approach. Anything in brackets are my personal notes.
Intro: This is the story about our final time leap and battle.
Kisaki: The Toman Tengoku Battle will take place one week from today. It will take place at the Roppongi 3rd multi-story Parking Lot.
Panel Card: Tokyo Roppongi Manji Tengoku Summit Meeting
[This is the panel they teased in the YT video where Toman, Tenjiku and Black Dragons were sitting in a private room in a Chinese restaurant].
Kisaki: There are three rules: No weapons! No retaliations! The gang that wins will absorb the other gangs! No objections?
Takemichi: None.
Taiju: There’s nothing left to say at this point!
Izana: This’ll be a festival to decide whose fist will rule over the biggest gang in all of Japan; a huge feud between the three of us.
Kisaki: This concludes the meeting!!
(Each respective gang make their exits)
Takemichi: The next time we’ll see each other will be at the battlefield.
Mikey: Get ready to be beaten to a pulp.
Taiju: Ha! Back at you!
Izana: Hmph.
Kakucho: Are you okay with this, Izana?
Izana: With what?
Kakucho: Isn’t Mikey Shinichiro-san’s younger brother? Are you gonna go all out?
Izana: … Haha. Idiot Kakucho. This will be the second time Mikey and I go at it.
Flashback quote: “Even if we’re not related by blood, Shin-nii is my brother!!!”
--Get blood out of a stone--
Young Hanagaki Takemichi CV: Watanabe Akeno
Young Sano Manjiro CV: Fairouzi Ai
Young Kurokawa Izana CV: Tanezaki Atsumi
Takemichi: This is your hardest mission, Mikey-kun.
Mikey: Got it.
(Takemichi and Mikey are standing in front of the orphanage talking to each other secretly)
Takemichi: I don’t know what kind of scary thing will happen if we tell Izana-kun suddenly. That’s why I thought of this strategy.
(Takemichi starts shaking as he opens his hand with a piece of chocolate)
Mikey: Chocolate?
Takemichi: Yes, chocolate. [Oh you sweet summer child…]
(He begins to explain his strategy with confidence.)
Takemichi: This is how you’ll lure Izana-kun in and with time, you two will slowly start getting along and gradually tell him the truth.
(Takemichi clenches his fist, immersed in a monologue)
Takemichi: This is a perfect plan, if I do say so myself… With this, Izana-kun will also…
Mikey: Yeah.
(Mikey runs in before Takemichi realized)
Takemichi: Mikey-kun…?
(Mikey punches Izana and sends him flying, landing firmly on the ground.) [Good job following the plan.]
Mikey: You’re Kurokawa Izana!
(Takemichi is so surprised, he’s rendered speechless)
Takemichi: Mikey-kun?!
(Izana stands up)
Izana: What the hell’s up with you?!
Mikey: I’m Sano Manjiro!
(Takemichi noticed Izana is surprised by Mikey’s words)
Izana: You said you’re Shin-nii’s… younger brother?
Takemichi: Mikey-kun…
(Mikey throws another punch)
Mikey: You and Shinichiro aren’t connected by blood!
Takemichi: Mikey-kun!
(Izana returns the punch)
Izana: What the hell are you goin’ on ‘bout, y’bastard?!
(The fist fight between the two turn into an argument)
Mikey: There’s no way you two are siblings! Why would you trust my idiot older brother like that!
Izana: What?! The hell’s wrong with you? Are you an idiot for comin’ here?!
Mikey: You accepted Shinichiro’s words without even questioning it ‘cus you’re lonely, right?! That guy did some digging, but now he can’t take back what he’s said and didn’t even mention he had a younger brother!
(The two face each other)
Mikey: I bet you must’ve noticed it too.
Izana: … Shut uuuppppp! What do you know?! My parents threw me away… I’m here while you have a warm family to raise you. You understand nothing! What if we are blood related?!
Mikey: Is it really that important to you?!
(The two start their fist fight again and eventually lay on their backs on the ground)
Mikey and Izana: Haa haa…
Izana: … Shin-nii is my brother! Even if we’re not blood related, he’s still my brother!
Mikey: … Shinichiro said the same thing.
--End--
Taiju: Mitsuya. Is Hakkai gonna go at us seriously?
Mitsuya: … Stop calling on the enemy to check up on your baby brother. You and Yuzuha are a pair of spoiled siblings. Hakkai’ll end up that way too.
Flashback quote: “No matter how violent you get on us, mom will never come back!!”
Taiju: Hmph.
--Let’s drop it--
Young Shiba Taiju CV: Tomozaku Sugita
Young Shiba Yuzuha CV: Komatsu Mikako
Young Shiba Hakkai CV: Hatanaka Yu
Young Sano Manjiro: Fairouzi Ai
(A door forcefully bursts open into a room, where an angry Taiju enters in)
Taiju: Who forgot to turn off the bathroom light?
(Yuzuha and Taiju become frightened)
Hakkai: A… A--
Yuzuha: It’s me!
(Yuzuha protects Hakkai)
Taiju: … Why are you lying?
Yuzuha: Eh?! I’m not lying! It was me!
Taiju: The toilet seat was up. Only men do that.
(Hakkai’s hand clenches tightly at Taiju)
Taiju: Hakkai! Come here!
(Yuzuha interferes to stop Taiju)
Yuzuha: Wait! Don’t beat Hakkai anymore! Let me take his punishments instead! Please!
Hakkai: Sis…
(Hakkai hangs his head down, unable to say anything)
Taiju: You said it. From now on, you’ll take the beating for two people. Is that fine with you, Yuzuha?!
Hakkai: …
(A mysterious voice flashes in Hakkai’s memory!)
Mysterious voice (Mikey): Hakkai!
Hakkai: …!
(Hakkai stands up and faces Taiju)
Hakkai: Stop this already, Taiju!
Yuzuha: Eh…
Taiju: !
(Taiju gets violent with Hakkai)
Taiju: What’re you tryin’ to do here, Hakkai.
Hakkai: Don’t beat up sis anymore! This is ridiculous at how crazy you keep going at us.
Taiju: As I thought, you’re the one who forgot to turn the lights off. How many times have I told you to fix that?
(Hakkai gets hit and falls down. Yuzuha stands and goes beside him)
Hakkai: … I’m sorry for everything up to now, sis.
(Yuzuha is surprised)
Yuzuha: Hakkai.
Hakkai: … My friend told me.
(He recalls Mikey’s voice)
Mikey: It’s okay if you lose. Fight him.
(Taiju turns toward Hakkai)
Hakkai: Cut it out already, Taiju! No matter how violent you get with us, mom’ll never come back to us!
(Taiju is surprised)
Taiju: !… Hakkai.
(Hakkai starts crying)
Hakkai: ‘Cus I’m… I’m lonely…!
Taiju: You…
--End--
Kokonoi: Inupi. How’s Akane-san doing?
Inupi: Yeah. I’m gonna go for it.
Kokonoi: … I see.
Flashback quote: “Leave Inupi-kun to me! Hurry up and go back to save Akane-san!”
Inupi: Well, didn’t you say first loves usually don’t go as planned?
Kokonoi: Shut up.
--Every cloud has a silver lining--
Young Inui Seishu: Koichi Makoto
Young Kokonoi Hajime: Igarashi Hiromi
Young Inui Akane: Ueda Rena
Young Hanagaki Takemichi CV: Watanabe Akeno
(The house is burning with a roaring sound as Kokonoi runs toward it)
Kokonoi: Haa haa… Akane-san!
(Kokonoi desperately addresses someone)
Kokonoi: Fire trucks… Have you seen anyone leave the house?!
Old Lady: I… I’m not sure. I haven’t been able to see anything. I’ll call for the ambulance and fire truck right now!
(Kokonoi turns and suddenly decides to run into the house)
To loosen up you partied in Roppongi you took one too many shots. you wobble accidentally bumping into someone. he has short white hair with a middle part undercut hairstyle and a Bonten tattoo on his nape with a He is noted to be thinner, deranged, and with heavy bags under his eyes.but you being drunk didn’t notice the tattoo instead you flirted with the man you bumped into “Hii~ hot stuff” you commented on his appearance. He tilted his head looking confused with a stoic expression.He pushed you aside tired of your antics.
But you still continued to pester him. “Cutie please one chance—-“ every time he ignored you before. “Please make it all go away” he paused, staring at you, his onyx eyes boring into yours making you shiver. He suddenly grabbed you by your wrist and you looked scared. “I—-“ you stuttered, unable to speak, he dragged you to a room. and slammed the door, throwing you on the soft plush of the bed. “You wanted this, didn't you?” He asked, tilting his head slightly to the left. fear in your veins but drunk as hell. you nodded your head, unable to think straight.His cold finger ghosted your neck you slightly trembled.No words needed to be spoken before he grasped your neck choking you.Sound’s heard of you struggling for air echoed through the room.
He glared at you “I’m fucking married you whore even if someone was drunk, I sure they would know I’m the boss of Bonten. know your place I could never fuck a slut like you” He spat voice laced with disband tears pricked your eyes you didn’t know. You really didn’t but it was too late you started crying.Letting out choked sobs a ghost of a smile on your assaulter face.Before you blacked out seeing nothing but darkness. You awoken with a banging headache and a sore body you tried to get up. but fear set in when you realized you were restrained. with chains adorning your wrists and ankles.Yea this wasn’t the best situation in an unfamiliar place. chained up with a banger headache.
Now that you notice this chair is uncomfortable as hell.Joking and acting like you are not in a terrible situation is your coping mechanism but with this damn headache you tried to remember what happened.And yea everything was fuzzy. Before you recalled, no wonder why your neck especially hurted.But Bonten you rarely heard of it but from bits and pieces from the news they were bad news. You bitterly laughed, yeah letting loose turned to this bullshit.Sounds of expensive ass shoes clacked towards wherever you are. You could just tell whoever it is rich rich anyway.You pondered on what to do in this situation before the door swung open.
A man with rosy pink hair styled like a mullet, and pretty blue eyes along with diamond shaped scars, on the corner of his mouth a crazed smile is evident on his face.He is wearing a striped suit that’s pink and a black tie.He has a Kanata strapped to his hip.After analyzing him.You begun to take in your surroundings more seriously..“Y’know your such a pretty little bitch it’s a sad your gonna die HAHAHAH” He manically laughed you glared. Who cares whether you got a fucking terrible headache. And your chained up your not taking disrespect. “I’m not a bitch!” you stated
He finished laughing and glared at you. Grabbing something he whipped out a gun. “Fix the way your speaking to me darling I am allowed to torture you” Yeah that would’ve shut me the fuck up. I’m sorry anyway back to y’all,you weren’t trying to find out wether he was bluffing or nah so your stayed quiet. “Oh—-it seems the little mouse knows it place” He said in a sang-song voice. Before getting closer to you bursting your personal bubble, and caressing your cheek. “If you weren’t a dumb whore I would let you suck my dick” He commented with a smirk. You wanted nothing more then to backhand him. but you stayed silent.
“But our fun have been cut short~” Then you heard heels hitting the floor. The door opened and a beautiful woman entered,along with the man who choked the living daylights of you out. “Oh—! my this is terrible Mikey don’t treat her like this she didn’t know” She pleaded now that you look at her ass more. she has waist length black hair and a hime cut,she also have well plucked eyebrows and long eyelashes. along with cinereal colored eyes,and she’s wearing a black dress that has rose lace flare,at the the end of it she also have on a red corset,with black lace and have on black high heels, and cherry tinted lips she’s certainly a looker but talking knocked you out of your trance.
“No she deserves it pick her punishment she had the guts to try to even think she had a chance with me” He said it in such a apathetic voice.And with a expression filled with nothing but hate.That you knew he was dead serious. ” U-uh um just…work her?” She was clearly distressed honestly you felt bad for her. He pulled her close. “Take her to the prostitution ring get her ready” never mind you hate her ass. “Yes my lord!” the pink haired man said before unchaining you,and roughly holding your arms.Forcing you to walk forward and finally
You arrived in the stripper ring and was thrown inside forcefully.”rude much” you muttered before getting up and dusting off imaginary dirt. You looked around and covered your nose it smelled like stink okay.Nasty as hell in here you walked around.”I want her” some old dusty crusty musty looking ass old man. said pointing at you. And yeah me personally I couldn’t take that disrespect. “Me?” you questioned pointing at yourself. He walked towards you “yea” he confirmed a purple haired dude clapped his hands. “She costs 1 million” he stated “a grand for a used slut like her?” The men asked
“Yes we don’t sell our livestock cheap” The purple haired male said making you snap.”For one I don’t even know who the hell any of y’all is and your not selling me for two let me the fuck go for three I’m leaving” after you spoke it was silent in the entire ring “HAHA-! I like her” said the purple haired male. Before he grabbed a gun and shot the dude who offered to buy you. “You shouldn’t have acted so unruly” He commented,You looked confused as hell.”Y/n L/n right? the woman who tried to fuck boss” weird way to meet someone “Yeah” you approved he lifted up your chin kissing you.”Mh!” You squirmed
