thickcrskiin:
  her eyes may have fallen shut at the feeling of fingers in her hair, but her brows still seemed to stay furrowed in frustration with her ever-present frown. not being really happy seemed to be a common theme between herself and others sheâd known.
    âlogically, iknow heâll never be happy. and logically i know itâs nobodyâs fault but his own. but i still canât help but feel that twinge of guiltâ- âcause he says i donât care, and that i just decided he wasnât worth it anymore.â in reality, it had been more like sheâd decided she valued herself more and that she deserved better. but some part deep inside of herself hat still cared for him in some part still wouldnât stop with the guilt. a small smile seemed to pass across her lips, however, at kennieâs wordsâ a small one, but it was there nonetheless.Â
     ââŚ.gay. but i do appreciate it. iâm justâŚso tired all the time. i donât have the energy to fight him physically, but he just pisses me off so much now. every time he shows up, i just wannaâŚpunch him, or something. but heâs got a new mom now, and sheâs doing everything she can on her end to keep him in line, too, soâ thatâs nice, i guess.â
âHeâs a toxic, manipulative sack of crap, of course heâd say that. Thatâs how assholes like him work. They make you feel bad for not wanting tâbe hurt anymore because they think theyâre the center of the universe, and that your happiness can only come from them. But thatâs a load of barnacles.â her lips twitched up a bit seeing sheâd caused a smile.
âAnd I'm an actual, real life Gay, so that shouldnât be surprising,â she softly caressed the side of Janâs face before going back to play with her hair. âYou deserve all the happiness in the world, sweetheart. Not a lack of it.â














