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23 | German | rad-leaning | questioning transition| homosexual | autistic | bug lover

[incognitoradicale]

honestly the thing is no matter what I will ultimately do, whether it is detransitioning (and to what extent) or not, whether I will call myself just feminist,radfem, marxfem or whatever is something I can not foresee,just as I never saw myself 5 years ago in the position I am now. Maybe I will have gone back to using my birth name and will have changed legal documents and whatnot. Maybe I will stay as I am now - but acknowledge my femaleness nonetheless.

What I do think right now is that the trans movement as a whole is at a massive crossroads and needs a reality check and not just mindless validation at the cost of hurting women but realism.

I personally do believe that sex dysphoria does exist and transition can, I want to emphasize the word CAN, canbe a valid treatment. But to deny any of the facts of sex based oppression that women face and to be like 'dont question the science' validation cult bs while the science is still being evaluated and is subject to change is stupid and the fact that even that can already get you labeled transphobic and whatnot aggravates me. I personally do not think children should access medical treatment and lockdown coming outs have especially shown me how there needs to be a system to make sure people really explore and don't just make hasty decisions (as someone from Germany it was shocking for me to read how easily Americans can access hrt or surgeries while also intentionally being kept in the dark about its effects,here it is slowly being loosened which I dislike but it is much more rigorous here). I think prisons and sports are extremely important subjects, and not just sidelines. I think it is important to center women's feelings in these aspects and not keep them unsafe just to validate some feelsies.

To suppress any conversation,any debate on the topic of transgender because of fears of "hurt" (speaking from personal experience here, in the local left scene there was a debate of exactly that) to see if there is a way to find common ground instead of just hurling insults (which funnily enough,those who accused the speaker of transphobia did,they just hurled insults and accusations)

Ultimately,in an ideal society that we have not yet achieved, the patriarchy and as one of the forms of it gender (which I understand a system of oppression of women) does not exist. Bodies will be appreciated in their natural form. But the thing is,we are not there yet. The world is yet subject to change and I have a feeling the next few years will be crucial.

I don't know if I will look back at this in the future and think "Jesus was I naive". I am still growing and learning.

What I am thinking right now is "Jesus fuck please sleep"

[woman-for-women]

You are not trapped in your body. You feel trapped by how others perceive it.

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[boethiah]

no such thing as wasting your 20s your 20s are for recovering from whatever the fuck happened to you as a kid so that youre ready to get weird with it in your 30s

[forgondor]

i have a friend who has kinda bad eczema on their right hand but their left hand is fine and thats because acidity makes eczema worse and that includes vaginal acidity and my friend is both a lesbian and a slut so they finger a lot of people and that fucks up the hand they use (their right hand). Anyways do you think BBC sherlock would deduce that by looking at my friend’s hands

[sanjidysphoria]

nothing couldve prepared me for the last sentence

[cleansingreflections-deactivate]

well poll time

never had tiktok

i had tiktok and deleting it had a positive impact on my mental health

i had tiktok and deleting it had no impact on my mental health

i had tiktok and deleting it had a negative impact on my mental health

i have tiktok but i think deleting it would have a positive impact

i have tiktok and i think deleting it would have no impact on my mental health

i have tiktok and i think deleting it would have a negative impact

Voting ended onMar 12, 2023

[castiel--for--king]

Listen if it wasn't for tiktok literally none of us would know what is going on in the world. What are we gonna do? Watch the news?! They don't report anything they're not paid to.

Ya'll gotta learn how to tailor your algorithm properly and your experience will be much better

[blissfulascension]

[vayena]

“Pornography is to sex as McDonald’s is to food. Often in America, when you give a talk like this, they accuse you of being anti-sex. Have you heard that term? ‘If you’re against pornography, you’re against sex.’ So let me ask you a question: if I had come here today to talk about the fast food industry, to talk about how it causes obesity, how it destroys the environment, would anyone accuse me of being anti-eating? You would all understand that I was [against] the industry. So why, when I criticize pornography, do I suddenly become anti-sex, as if pornography is sex?”

— Gail Dines, How Porn Creates the John: Porn, Trafficking, and the Social Construction of Masculinity

[brainrotdotorg]

Pussy corrosive. Pussy explosive. I look at that pussy, it’s what I need a dose of. Pussy eroding. Pussy abrasive. I look at that pussy, it’s what I need a taste of. Pussy be stinging. Pussy be hurting. Pussy be sizzling when it’s supposed to be squirting. Pussy disintegrating. Pussy dissolving. Pussy turning heads, that shit is revolving.

[brainrotdotorg]

Pussy potent. Pussy persuasive. Pussy not local, that shit is invasive. Pussy feeble, pussy pathetic. This pussy ain't meta, this shit's diegetic. Pussy ambush, pussy boobytrap. Pussy equipped with a glock and a strap. Pussy not rude, this pussy's the meanest. This pussy's a pussy but it's also a penis

[brainrotdotorg]

Pussy flexible, pussy twistable, pussy compelling, that shit's irresistible. Pussy bewildering. Pussy perplexing. Pussy be cursing and pussy be hexing. Eye of newt and turkey gizzard, drink a potion from the pussy wizard. This pussy tells the truth, this pussy tells lies. Can you see through my pussy disguise?

[brainrotdotorg]

Pussy sopping. Pussy sweating. Pussy complicit, it’s aiding and abetting. Pussy disco. Pussy rave. Put that pussy on the radio waves. Pussy be zesty. Pussy be spiced. Serve up that pussy in a bowl with some rice. Pussy helter. Pussy skelter. I get more pussy than an animal shelter

[bigmeansweatydyke]

[seraphinesaintclair]

Emily Dickinson, “I Felt A Funeral In My Brain”

[panaeolus-fimicola]

why did like half the people in the 2000s/90s punk rock/whatever scene have to all be fucking creepazoids

[panaeolus-fimicola]

>listen to a band

>love the sound of the music

>look up the artist

>pedophilia/sexual assault allegations

WHY COULDNT YOU BE NORMAL

[madeingodsimage]

mountaineer's axe with heart-shaped holes and bronze reinforced shaft. japan, muromachi period, 14th century

[fiddlysticks-deactivated2024070]

so much rage for anyone who tells the story of the radium girls like “ohoho weren’t people in the 20s fucking stupid” and not like “corporate greed has always cost people’s lives and health”

[dr-falcon-fox-and-coyote]

History Lesson:

The Radium Girls were factory workers who painted glowing markers on watches. They pointed their paint brushes with their lips after being told do so and that it was safe for them to do so by their managers. The paint had radium in it to promote the glow.

Dentists became the first people aware of the medical complications happening amongst all the women working in this factory. Complaints of loose bones, teeth, ulcers, etc. began to circulate amongst the staff.

Eventually, the girls started to die. The first one’s jaw literally came off her skull before her death as a result of radiation poisoning.

Perhaps all of that you could say was “stupidity” on behalf of the workers and corporation.

But what came next wasn’t. The corporation, the U.S. Radium Corporation, originally called the Radium Luminous Material Corporation, lied to the public and said that their workers were dying from alternate causes such as syphilis. They continued to instruct their staff to work business as usual, perpetuating more deaths and illness amongst their staff so their product could continue to be made.

The Radium Corp offered to change the method of painting dials, but the alternative brushes slowed down work and they were paid by the dial. To continue earning the wages they needed, the girls were forced to continue to use the brushes that they had to wet with their mouths.

The girls eventually took the matter to court. They took it to court eight times because Radium Corp continued to appeal until 1939.

As a result of their win, which provided a settlement to each girl a lump sum, a yearly stipend, and medical expensed paid by the company, LABOR LAW changed to ensure that companies could be held accountable for not properly protecting their employees from disease. New health regulations and standards were put in place to keep workers safe and they stopped using the brushes after that point.

(I don’t have the data to say if there was a corresponding wage increase to factor for lost wages due to a slowing down after new regulations were made).

The point, though, is that this company willfully knew that its staff was geting sick and dying from the procedures they put in place, and lied to their staff and started a public smear campaign saying these women had sexually transmitted diseases instead.

That’s not on the “stupid” women, that’s corporate greed.

[sashaforthewin]

I’d also like to add that they were intentionally delaying the court case so there would be less girls left alive to be there. Even after they’re caught, they are still heartless shits. Don’t ever forget these poor women and the company that thought cycling through workers and leaving a trail of bodies was worth making more money at the top.

[incognitoradicale]

kinda wanna go to the local iwd protest on Wednesday but I fear I will be kicked off for a prostitution critical sign idjdjdjdj

[antigendersurge-deactivated2023]

okay but its actually so fucked how a woman could be like "yea if you cant orgasm without watching porn thats a sign of an actual porn addiction" and some mf thinks he's doing the world a favor by saying he only watches and orgasms to porn occasionally. like ok??? jerkin to the exploitation of women's bodies every other week as a treat are we? oh just objectifying women sometimes?

how about you just get castrated?

[mommy-issues-haver]

i think the most “dangerous” thing about trans ideology isn’t trans women coming into women’s bathrooms, because truly most aren’t predators, even those who are autogynephilic, but what it means for feminism as a whole and the conception of sexism as sex based oppression. most people already don’t see the female body as a site of oppression by default but instead rely on gendered conceptions of the body to determine the category of oppression that one fits into. this is the problem with the way people see intersectionality today — as a further and further separation of forms of oppression when one is compounded with another. it is a methodology that above all divides. therefore instead of seeing racism and misogyny as compounding issues that must both be addressed, the viewpoint is that misogyny, as the “lesser” form of oppression can never be addressed separately from racism. please do not misinterpret this — it is extremely important to address how racism and misogyny do intersect and how that compounded oppression affects women, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t a worthy cause to fight sexism with a wider angle. it doesn’t mean that feminism that isn’t specifically addressing racism isn’t valid. look at it this way: antiracism that is not specifically addressing sexism is seen as valid. the inverse is not. but sex remains a legitimate axis of oppression that must be discussed. feminism, real feminism, has been over for perhaps the last forty years. since then, we have lived in a post-feminist society that feels feminism has served its purpose and now is irrelevant because we have sex and the city and elle woods and bridget jones. here’s the thing: by referring to transmisogyny or misogynoir, there is a tacit confession made that misogyny, of course, is real, but alone, it is not an issue worthy of attention. yet if there were no misogyny, those issues would not exist, not in their current form, at least. and that’s why i’m a radical feminist — we need to go at it from the root, or else nothing will change. because not much has changed.

[incognitoradicale]

A longer rant/vent so bear with me if there's typos or sudden jumps

The more I question my transition the weirder I feel. I don't have much access to feelings I had as a child aside from the fact I had a literal alter ego that was a boy aka I kinda played my own brother? But other than that I don't know much anymore,mostly because it's so far away

I always did feel disconnected to femaleness,in a way until I started puberty I was sure I wouldn't develop in any way. I kinda knew I had to but was like "nah won't happen to me". Ironically enough I was pretty much an early starter and that also caused me to just hate myself even more.

I really don't know if any of the following feelings of "this isn't supposed to happen" or prior ones were genuine sex dysphoria, or just an amalgamation of the effects of misogyny,ableism and fatphobia (since I was the autistic fat girl and therefore fair game for feeling like I don't belong anywhere and I just wrongly attributed it to dysphoria).

I really wish I could undo my years of internet socialization. I wonder if a different environment,one that wasn't ripe with abuse,bullying and pain would've meant something else in my development.

I feel lost. So fucking lost.

[she-is-ovarit]

Please hear me.

Being tired isn't normal. It doesn't matter that you're aging. Being fatigued is a serious sign.

It might be difficult to judge "normal tired" from "bad tired". Rule of thumb is that if you notice that other people seem to be on another plane of existence with alertness, you're not "normal tired".

I slept for 10-12 hours a day at least and still was tired for most of the day but "functioned" (went to work).

It turns out it wasn't just one thing. It was a lot of things. I went on liquid vitamins first because that's all I had energy for—to throw money at something that can be delivered to me. And it was crucial. I went off my heart medication after my doctor let me know my active heart rate was way too low (prior to the vitamins). I felt super improved and this went from feeling super improved to extremely improved after I began to eat more healthy fats (avocados, eggs, nuts, vegetarian-friendly animal products). I cannot emohasize the eating more fats thing enough. Did you know that due to our biology women are supposed to have way more healthy fats than what we're typically told?

I had struggled with other symptoms I brushed off as normal too. My hands and feet being cold all the time. Turns out this wasn't normal. How many women and girls have cold hands and feet constantly? I was "adoringly clumsy". Balance issues from vitamin B12 deficiency. Foot cramps. Magnesium deficiency. Generalized anxiety disorder. Still have it, but significantly improved because my body isn't fighting for it's life. Lack of focus/concentration issues to the point where I worried I had ADHD or something since that's all I know about that mental health condition.

Constant cravings I blamed on emotional eating. Increasing my healthy fat intake all about cured this—helped more than protein. I began to lose weight when I increased my healthy fats because I was no longer seeking out sugar or bad fats. Iron deficiency and vitamin D3 deficiencies were also confirmed on blood tests before I started liquid vitamins.

When I went off my heart med and bought those dumb electrolyte packets for my water, my arrhythmia is now hardly noticeable physically.

And to circle back—I am awake. And I sometimes break down and cry because I can't believe how I was functioning now that I understand what having energy feels like. I didn't know. I didn't know there was even anything wrong with me. I thought I was just a tired person. That being tired was normal to being female and aging.

Chronic fatigue is extremely serious. It's not normal. You're not just a tired person.

[she-is-ovarit]

Hoping to add more to this post if it helps more people. Even if it helps just one person, you're worth it to me. I don't want anyone to suffer how I suffered for years.

Basically what I struggled with in a nutshell has been: deep in my bones chronic fatigue, "slow thinking", poor memory, random balance issues, cramping, rare migraines, near constant state of severe anxiety, very poor sleep (waking up early, unable to fall asleep, waking up repeatedly throughout the night), brittle nails, dry skin, muscle weakness, focus/attention issues, communication issues due to brain fog, irregular menstrual cycles, severe shortness of breath triggered by something as benign as talking on the phone, intense food cravings and also complete loss of appetite, and just generally feeling "run down".

In addition to liquid vitamins (which I described in the replies within this post (not trying to form a cult around liquid vitamins lmao)), I also purchased sunlight bulbs (different than grow bulbs), and I finally felt well enough and had more energy to actually start spending time at the gym which has in turn provided an outlet for stress and helped me physically and like a circle has contributed to less fatigue in that regard. It's like a feedback loop - I'm now cooking more which has saved me more money, I'm able to attend more health appointments, be more social, get more things done, etc.

But I'm still working on it. My working memory, for example, is still really bad and that's scary. That part of my struggle has been terrifying. I'm not sure if that will improve with proper nutrition and exercise or whatever, or if that's rooted in trauma. But even though PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder are still there, I think I'm in a place where I can soon begin to really work through those things instead of being immobilized because my body's been functioning off life support for however long.

[cator99]

I was so weird about lesbian sex for a long time because when I was 14 I hooked up with an older girl at bible camp and suddenly got my period during it and I was so embarassed but she didn't care so we kept going and then I suddenly got a severe nosebleed for no reason while I was on top of her kissing her and you can imagine how that went so there was my blood everywhere all over both of us and this sounds like I'm making shit up but it was insane and k i was panicking but she was like all about it so we just kept going and like it was too late, there was already blood on both of us! Like all over us. and I thought it was kind of powerful. so I let myself get blood all over the cabin. we were feverish. At first I just let my nosebleed drip on the floor and we both laughed like fuck this place yeah lets get blood everywhere. And we did. This is just what makes us girls. We had this cabin entirely to ourselves too for 3 whole nights!! They didn't check on us in there even once!!! Not even the counselors wanted to be near us- we had wanted to be alone and not participate in the religious activities so we told everyone we were sick, however the absolutely insane family who single-handedly ran the camp (the mom was rarely seen of course but the dad was this freaky cult-leader type preacher named Greg, and they had ummmm I think 15 kids or something, most of whom were adults, so they had no issue running this camp on an acreage they owned with very little outsider involvement) genuinely thought we were just posessed by demons, and in response they gave us our own cabin in order to ensure that we were kept away from the other kids there. Major oversight on their part and also sounds illegal but I could tell they were scared shitless of me (weird hair I cut and dyed myself, 3 lip piercings, septum ring, mid kandi kid phase so I had rainbow bracelets up past my elbows) and the girl (who had a jugalette tattoo and was the only black girl at the camp, I think ever)... I ended up getting banned from bible camp for other reasons... lesbian sex blood rituals aside....... (a kid saw me smoking something in a pipe and snitched, and they thought it was weed but it was so obviously just mint tea...) yeah after that I was like "was god punishing me for being a lesbian by making me bleed everywhere during sex oh god I'm going to hell forever and ever waaah" because even though I didn't believe in that shit in any real way at all I still had raging paranoia about being punished for being gay... regardless I came to the conclusion that if all that bloodshed was the price of homosexuality then I'd just have to learn to enjoy it. And I was so right for that . But yeah when I did have sex again after that I was like Ok hellooooo God where is the blood are u there God...???