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12,000 words deep into my revised rough draft and I'm getting the squeeblies
Is it all about yaoi for you
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flamingos flying over tanzaniaโs lake natron, a salt lake which is home to three quarters of the worldโs three million lesser flamingos, as well as toxic multicoloured extremophile cyanobacteria that thrive in water so hypersaline it would strip away human skin. for the flamingos, however, the tough skin and scales on their legs prevents burning, leaving them uniquely free to drink from the near boiling freshwater found from springs and geysers at the lakeโs edges.ย (x, x, x, x, x)
I need to finish heated rivalry so that i can read dungeon crawler carl
There is a huge appeal ... to black and white thinking. It's the easiest place to be and in many ways it's the safest place to be. If you take an all or nothing position on anything, you will definitely find comrades, you will easily find a community ...
I feel very strongly we should mistrust ourselves most when we are certain, and we should question ourselves most when we receive a rush of adrenaline by doing or saying something. Many people mistake that rush of adrenaline for the voice of conscience ... in my world view, conscience speaks in a small and inconvenient voice and it's normally saying ... "Think again."
JK Rowling to Megan Phelps-Roper, The Witch Trials of JK Rowling, Episode 2.
getting a little too excited about fighting kefka and realizing that i am in fact the horny one in the static :[
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I wonder how the Chinese and Russian fanfics compare to the English ones
Despite the overwhelming amount of positivity on my take about why women are often unable to choose where to eat, many people have respondedย โOR sheโs just not picky! OR she just wants to shoot down all my ideas! OR sheโs just indecisive! Itโs not that deep.โ
Female socialization MAKES us more indecisive. We grow up being interrupted more. We grow up being discouraged from leading our peers for fear of being called stuck-up. We grow up with more restrictions on our movement and our activities. We grow up without the amount of attention and conversation that more disruptive boys often get from adults. We grow up with the knowledge that if we donโt defer to our friendsโ preferences, we are dismissed as bossy and mean. Personally, I think that for many women, this means we have a hard time actually identifying if we have a preference at all (let alone what that preference actually is) because we are not in the habit of actually considering it. Weโre so used to automatically deferring because weโve done so all our lives, in fear of being inconsiderate or callous or bossy.
Often, when Iโm asked about a preference of mine, my immediate thought isย โI donโt feel like defending a choice, I just want to be agreeable and have a nice time, so whatever they want is okay. I donโt want to force the other person to have something they donโt want.โ I have to literally force myself to take a second to actually thinkย โWait. If I could choose an optionโฆwhat would I actually choose? What do I feel like right now?โย
And sometimes I canโt even come up with one! And then I take another second and really consider each option. And I discover that I do in fact have a preference after all! If I had the choice all to myself, I know what I would pick. Iโm not indecisive! I DO care!
We literally have to re-train ourselves to identify our preferences. And thatโs fucked up.
Until I was in like third or fourth grade, I literally had no idea that there were types of music other than country because thatโs what my dad liked and therefore thatโs what the whole family had to listen to. Itโs not like he was morally opposed to other genres or anything; he just had zero comprehension that we might enjoy something else. He liked it, so thatโs all that mattered. Even though I found out years later that my mom doesnโt even particularly like country music, she still listened to it even when she was by herself because it was a habit and it was โjust easier.โ But as soon as my parents split up, sheโd play classic rock and showtunes all the damn time because she was finally allowed to enjoy the music she actually liked. Turned out my dad complained and berated her and made fun of her taste for years before I was born, so eventually she just gave in and quietly listened to whatever he wanted.
To this day when I find myself making choices, I have to pause and think, โDo I really WANT to do this or am I just going along with it because itโll make it easier to interact with someone else? Am I the one whoโs actually interested in this or was it pushed on me?โ And even with that learned self-awareness, Iโm still surprised how often itโs the latter.
Iโll also add, how often do women get ridiculed for what they like?
A woman likes Starbucks, sheโs a basic bitch.
A woman likes BBQ, sheโs trying too hard, sheโs a big eater, try to be more lady like sweetie, nobody wants to see a woman eat like that.
A woman likes Freshie? Donโt be so high maintenance, no man wants to eat rabbit food like that, be more adventurous.
A woman likes beer? Sheโs a pick me. Sheโs posing. Sheโs trying to get guys to like her.
A woman likes cocktails? Stupid broad canโt even drink a real drink.
A woman doesnโt drink? Ohhhh someoneโs special ๐
There is literally NOTHING a woman can openly enjoy, in terms of food/drink consumption, that wonโt be ridiculed. Weโre trained from youth to not be too decisive because it will be too much.
tgis is so fucking funny to me. they accidentally Rock Lee'd a retired racehorse
imagine youre a fat horse and your new neighbour is a personal trainer
horse that reads Marcus Aurelius
I was wrong. they didnt rock lee him. this horse is literally Gai. and i wish he was my dad
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itโs 2026 i think itโs high time we left mind-body dualism behind us as a species. letโs go into 2027 with the full understanding that we are our bodies and that our consciousness cannot be separated from them thank you
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this is going to be a silly reblog but i have kind of a fixation on animal qualia and the idea of an animal's umwelt, so i ended up wondering whether pudding was actually "enjoying" this.
which meant i went and read about snail brains.
here's the bad news, at least by human standards:
snails do not have anything like a centralized brain. their nervous system is made up of small clusters of neurons (ganglia) that mostly handle very local tasks. they don't have a cortex, they don't build big integrated models of the world, and they almost certainly don't experience things like appreciation, anticipation, or savoring.
pudding is not looking at the sky and thinking it's beautiful.
snail eyes are basically light sensors - they can tell bright from dark, but not form images. snail "taste" is done through chemoreceptors on their tentacles and around their mouth. those receptors don't produce flavor the way ours do; they just detect chemical compounds and sort them into "approach," "ignore," or "avoid."
so there's no evidence that snails enjoy food, or wind, or views, the way mammals do.
and that does sound kind of sad. but then i thought that maybe we are asking the wrong question.
snails do have valence. they detect aversive things (like salt or dryness) and withdraw from them. they detect non-aversive or beneficial conditions (like moisture) and stay extended. when pudding is stretched out like this, it means his nervous system is basically saying "this is safe; nothing is wrong."
if we define pleasure not as our human experience of dopamine and reward chemicals but instead as "the absence of aversion" - a state where the organism is open to its environment instead of defending itself - then this does count as something positive, even if it's extremely nothing like human enjoyment.
pudding isn't appreciating the wind. but his body is registering humidity, safety, and the ability to keep functioning, and that matters to him in the only way his nervous system can make things matter. he does not think "this is great, this is awesome, i love the weather", because he doesn't think in the way we do at all, but the neurological action in his ganglion tell his body that he is safe, that the moisture is an acceptable level, that it's not too dry or windy, and that there's nothing imminently threatening.
i think a lot of the sadness comes from assuming that a good life has to look like ours: full of enjoyment, meaning, and aesthetic experience. but a snail isn't missing those things. its world just isn't built to include them.
snails don't have a sense of flavor. they don't even have tastebuds. this seems like a gimme, right? but again that might be asking the wrong question about what "taste" is. biologically speaking, it's chemoreception. we taste sweet because it indicates high value, high calorie sugar molecules. we taste salty for salt, umami for proteins. so in what way does pudding's chemoreceptors differ from ours instrumentally? we can say "by our human perspective, pudding can't experience "preference" or "savoring" or "anticipation of delicious food"", but from pudding's perspective we have radically overengineered ourselves for the task at hand. pudding can tell what's salty, what's high value, what has the chemicals he needs. the functional outcome is that he can discriminate food souces based on their composition. is that not taste?
so maybe the point isn't "this is sad because he can't enjoy it," but "this is a reminder that minds come in radically different shapes, and value doesn't have to be rich to be real."
๐ฅน I'm ok I swear
Ed Yong has a wonderful book, An Immense World, all about the senses as nonhuman species experience them, and itโs great.
@primarchpenissucker obligatory tag. This reads so beautifully.
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