Earlier this morning, I cleaned my room and found my old book which I used to wrote down every inspirational story from my daily life. Felt nostalgic by some beautiful stories of the past year, I started read it page by page when eventually, at the last page, made me stop suddenly with only the title : 2016 RESOLUTIONS.
I remember wrote it in the middle of January, even put the day of writing. Back on that day, I thought that I had to set goals for this year so I wouldn’t waste my time and have things to be my motivation. I see an ambitious girl, a dreamer, with insane goals and that makes me smile. Some of it are just little goals, but have a big meaning for my life. And some of it? Insane. I repeat. INSANE. Yup, insane is my middle name.
For a moment, I go back on everything happened this year. How crazy life could be, how months (even days and hours) can change many things in your life. (yes bruh, hours can change you. Like few hours that change my mind and convinced me that it’s time to move on from my ex :D) And how hard it is to stay on the track to reach your dreams. Setting goals? Easy. Stick on it? Ha ha I don’t even remember few points of my 2016 resolutions.
I did work on some of my goals but can’t reach it by the deadline I set for myself. Hey, don’t judge me, I’ve tried my best, but bruh… you can’t control your circumstances. You can’t get everything you want. And the funny thing is sometimes you get something that you didn’t want but life shows you that you need it. Quote from Steve Jobs “Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick, don’t lose faith.” Nothing wrong with that, but let me tell you a more real quote of life : sometimes life hits you in the head by the brick then hits you again with thousands tennis balls until you fall down, then smacks you by refrigerator from nowhere in the sky then invite friends to surround and laugh at you. Scary? Yes, life is scary, old sport. But is it scary enough to make us down? No. It will never scary enough. Don’t forget the rest of Jobs’s quote : DON’T LOSE FAITH.
We were born to fight, we were born to never give up. I have attended few job interviews which ended badly. Couple of times they invited me for interviews, in their room they asked me many things then tells me that I’m not suitable for the position. Not suitable. Yeah, that’s what they said. When they invited me, they should have read my CV and know my skills, right? And now they say that they’re not searching for candidate like me. LIFE.
I already told that real life is hard, I have to be different to beat the world. I have to be extraordinary in the middle of ordinary others. But I never prepared for life until I learned it myself from my own experiences. And every single day I learn, hopefully growing too. This page of my old book reminds me to stay on track. Motivates me to never give up cause few months ago, there was a girl who brave enough to dream big and believed that she could approached it all.
It’s funny to know that I wrote this when I ain’t in my best. Just experienced terrible breakup, job interview which ended badly, homesick, alone in this strange big city. Anger, disappointment, undesirable, all mixed together in my mind. I’m losing my sleep this week. But thank God I found this book again. It reminds me that the journey is still far ahead, it isn’t the right time to give up. Moreover, as long as you need oxygen for your lung, there is no right time to give up.
There’s six more months to go, it’s never too late to try. Just never forget to stick with your goals. Do it for yourself, not for other. Hope you guys feel the same too. Good luck!
