hi, if at all possible your thoughts on ritsus kinks and turn ons? I adore him so much,,
👀 i’ll see what i can do
♡ let’s start with the obvious and get it out of the way— biting kink, naturally. whether it’s a light nibble or full-on sinking his fangs into your skin to indulge in some of your blood, ritsu wants to bite you and mark you up. it’s a very easy way to mark you as his so everybody else knows that you’re taken— bite marks take a good while to heal, especially when they’re as deep as the ones ritsu leaves on your pretty skin.
♡ drinking your blood while having sex with you really, really gets him going. fucking you missionary style and pressing his body against yours before diving in to bite into your neck makes him come so hard— getting to fill you with his cum while your blood fills his mouth? god, is there any better way than to claim you as his all at once than that?
♡ he can be pretty demanding during sex, so i definitely think he’s into a dom/sub dynamic during sex. he’ll demand you pet his head and tell him you love him while he’s inside of you, purring your name and teasing you all the while. he’ll demand you pose a certain way for him, say a select few phrases/lines that really get him going (saying things like “i’m yours, ritsu” are some of his favorites), and suck him off whenever he wants you too. i think bratty and demanding ritsu is <3
♡ thigh sex + consensual somnophilia + cockwarming are right up his alley, too. he’s a lethargic boy and he adores napping, and what better way to cuddle and drift off to sleep than with his cock between your thighs as he melts in the warmth of your soft skin? slowly thrusting as he drifts off to sleep until he eventually falls asleep, cock hot and leaking precum between your thighs. perhaps you’ll jerk him off and make him come while he sleeps?
♡ cockwarming him in public is great for him, too. another anon mentioned cuddling with him under a blanket in a practice room and he just… slips his cock into you or between your thighs like that while the rest of knights practices and i adore this idea. hopefully nobody comes and pulls that blanket off anytime soon because they’ll be met with the sight of your wet, soaked cunt squeezing around ritsu’s cock as he drifts off to sleep, lulled to rest by the warmth of your pussy around his cock <3
♡ he has a bit of a belly kink methinks… he just thinks that soft, squishy bellies make the best pillows so he just looooves laying down either on your belly or your bust while he naps; you’re just so warm and soft and comfy! every part of your body makes a nice pillow in his eyes, though <3
♡ ritsu with a mutual masturbation kink… he likes watching you moan and whine and fuck yourself on your fingers while he lazily jerks off to the sight. if you beg for him to fuck you instead of you playing with yourself, he’ll offer you a sly smirk and go “ah, you’re so desperate, cute, cute~ but i’m too tired, so you’ll have to do it on your own~” that teasing bastard; he’s not “too tired” at all! he just likes watching you play with yourself.
♡ he is the Worst i swear. while you’re busy begging for his cock inside of you in place of your fingers, he’ll jerk himself to orgasm and blow his load onto your thighs and pretend that he’s too tired to continue, laying back against the bed and offering a “good night”. he’s not very convincing, though, because his cock is still hard and flushed and begging for more attention… i guess you’ll just have to ride him if you want his cock that badly!
ritsu’s always making jokes about him and mao having a baby so ritsu very obviously dreams about having children of his own someday... but what if we just. gently shoved mao to the side and made you the subject of ritsu’s not-so-subtle breeding kink? ^w^
between rei and ritsu, it’s plain to see that breeding kink runs in the family (lmao) so i am completely in favor of breeding kink ritsu... you almost wonder where all this energy suddenly came from, really. he’s usually so languid and almost teasing with his thrusts, hips slapping slowly against yours as he purrs your name and little declarations of how cute you are and what a good wife you’re going to be for him someday. the ritsu that’s on a mission to breed you, however, is anything but slow and gentle. the thought of you bearing his child gives him all the energy he needs to fuck you relentlessly, hips ramming into yours so hard it makes your head spin. he’s finally putting that energy he stores up from napping all day to use-- he’s on a quest to put his baby in you, and nothing’s going to stop him from doing just that!
oh, he’d be running his mouth nonstop, too. “hey, hey, (nickname)-chan,” he groans into your ear as you’re effectively bent in half for him, legs wrapped around his back. “hurry up and get pregnant already~ i want to have a baby with you, so please give me a baby already, okay?” mmm i love ritsu teasing hour. pumping you full of his cum while he groans about how he’s gonna make you the mother to his children and how you’re going to take every last drop he gives you... you’re so spent and tired that you have no choice but to lie there and take it all, body too exhausted to even think of moving away from him.
with all of ritsu’s vigor and determination to make you a mother, perhaps it doesn’t come as a surprise when the two of you are inevitably blessed with twins <3
Okay time to join the horny folks ( but on anon ahshshs)
Let me just talk about Ritsu. Him tightly wrapping his arms around you and snuggling up to you as he lazily thrusts into you slowly and deliberately as he teasingly bites you. I think he would love being close to his s/o while fucking them.
On the other hand I can also see him get kinda aggressive actually when he feels particularly jealous ( not that it's hard to do). Just thrusting into you wildly while saying how you belong to him and no one else, how you can't leave him when he makes you feel this good. Cumming inside you over and over again to really claim you as his
Anyway thank you for listening to my Ted Talk
THIS IS SO IMPORTANT?????????? ritsu being clingy and a little lazy during sex... <3 ritsu being a lowkey pillow princess and commanding you to suck his cock while he lays back and watches omg
he’s extremely clingy, lying you down on your side, spreading your legs, and pounding into you lazily and leisurely as he rests his head in the crook of your neck or on your chest; arms wrapped around your waist to keep you pulled up close to him. he likes being able to hug you and you sometimes wonder if he’s actually falling asleep on you, haha. his eyes flutter shut as he rests his head on your breasts, thrusts slowing almost to a halt at times before he suddenly picks the pace back up and pushes himself deep inside of you again.
“ritsu, are you going to fall asleep here?” you tease with a giggle as he latches his mouth onto your nipple as he continues to thrust lazily into you.
“(name)’s body is so warm... makes me so sleepy... you’re so warm and so soft, i want to hug you forever...”
he absolutely prefers positions that give him the most access to your body and allow him to hug you, lay his body against yours/on yours, and touch wherever he wants to his heart’s content. he likes being able to hold you as he fucks into you lazily-- his slow thrusts allow you to feel every single inch of his cock pushing into you before he slowly pulls it back out again; filling you up on each slow thrust and relishing in how your pussy squeezes up around him in a wordless plea for more. his fangs trace over your neck and he only nibbles at your skin-- he doesn’t quite break skin with those sharp, pointy fangs of his, and he whispers teasing little remarks about how he could actually bite into your neck and drink until his stomach is full, but he won’t because he’s feeling nice today.
on the days where he isn’t feeling nice, though, he’s a whole lot more energetic. if he’s accusing you of going behind his back to flirt with other guys or even just giving a little too much attention to a guy other than him, it overwhelms him with the simple desire to remind you who you belong to. he pounds into you so roughly and so quickly that it has your head spinning and your toes curling, and you’re left to wonder where your boyfriend, who’s always so slow and borderline lazy with sex, has gone and where this boy, who’s pounding into you hard enough to force the air out of your lungs and cry his name, has come from.
“(name) belongs to me, and only me... seeing you talk to other guys is annoying, you know... did you forget that you’re mine?”
he’ll absolutely make you say that you’re his if you want to come any time soon. he’ll make you repeat “i’m yours i’m yours oh god ritsu i’m yours i promise i promise--” over and over like a mantra, frustrated tears prickling at your eyes from how badly you want to come. he’ll fill you up with his cum and watch it drip out of you-- it’s proof you belong to him, after all! he’ll mark you up with bites and maybe he’ll actually break skin this time-- he has to leave his mark on you to remind you that you’re his.
taking a break from my jp homework to answer some Sin... yandere kaoru (and yandere womanizers in general as i’ve said before) is a very dear concept to me. let’s go yall!
kaoru starts off relatively fine and normal -- you’re cute, you’re into him, he’s into you, what could possibly go wrong? he’s done this plenty of times before; he’s dated plenty of girls before, he’s certainly not new to love.
if he’s so experienced, and if he’s so confident in his romantic expertise, then why do you feel so different? why does seeing you talk to other guys make him feel a jealousy he’s never felt before? in the past, he knows he wouldn’t have cared all that much about seeing you talk to other guys, so why does it make his stomach wrench now?
even just seeing rei whisper into your ear and teasingly lace his hand through yours makes kaoru bite down into his lower lip and clench his fists -- this feeling is awfully foreign to him, and he has no idea how to cope. jealousy? on kaoru hakaze? surely such a concept is impossible -- how can the token Flirty Boy, who was known for nothing but flirting with entire groups of fans at once, feel jealousy towards you?
it’s fine, kaoru thinks, brushing it off at first. no big deal; all guys get jealous at least once, right? he’s living in denial, you could say-- some level of jealousy in a relationship is normal, but how normal is being jealous over the person you like when all they’re doing is talking to your friends?
it’s especially bad when you’re talking to rei, who has a habit of teasing you. kaoru watches your face go beet red when rei teasingly breathes into your ear and chuckles at your reaction-- if you like kaoru, why are you getting so flustered over rei’s teasing? you don’t like rei more, do you?
kaoru makes it a point to be more physically affectionate with you as a result: if you like it so much when rei holds your hand or teases you, you’ll like it more coming from kaoru, who’s actually your boyfriend, not rei, right?
kaoru’s already affectionate enough as is, but his jealousy takes the PDA up to eleven; if you and him are in the same room (which he does as often as he can, he just doesn’t want to leave you in the presence of any other guy alone), you can guarantee he’ll be hugging you, kissing you, holding your hand, burying his nose in your hair, nuzzling into your neck, the whole nine yards. it’s an easy way to show his love for you while showing other guys that you’re his.
kaoru’s still in the denial phase, needless to say
when you are apart, he asks you for selfies constantly-- “(name)-chan, show me your pretty face~ i miss you so much while we’re apart, y’know?” he’s so obnoxious lmfao. he just wants to see you so bad.
that’s no cause for alarm either, right? there’s nothing wrong with a guy just wanting to see his s/o’s face, right?
there’s nothing wrong with him screenshotting your selfies and printing them out to keep them in his wallet, in his pocket, on his desk, and in his phone case, right? there’s nothing wrong with wanting your face everywhere, right?
“you know, (name)-chan... i’ve never been this serious about anyone else before. we’re gonna be together for a long time, alright?”
Ritsu is someone who expresses affection openly, not minding the stares or troubled groan of the person he’s crushing with his weight because he’s showing them love; it’s his way of affection.
He’s rubbing the skin of your forearm lightly, tracing patterns only his mind can see. His eyes are droopy, heavy with the weight of the day but he’s not really tired. It doesn’t particularly mean he won’t fall asleep though.
“I dreamt about you last night,” he murmurs softly into the material of your shirt. Ritsu sighs, burrowing his face further into your chest as if attempting to suffocate himself.
You blink, putting a finger on the end of the sentence you’re reading and closing the book between your fingers to peer at the too-large-cat snuggling close to you. You study his expression, soft and serene as if he hadn’t just piqued your interest with such ambiguous words.
“What was it about?” You prod gently, poking the area under his ear and Ritsu squirms from your touch.
“Don’t know,” he mumbles, biting your shirt and chewing. He lets go and grins when seeing the look of mock disgust on your face. Ritsu places his chin on your chest, pushing forward so he’s on top pf you and you’re forced to let go of the page on your book. He smiles wider when seeing the pout on your lips at having to give up your silent form of entertainment.
“Can’t remember what it was about. But you were there,” he explains, words spoken like morning coffee; mundane yet important to start fresh in the morning. His hands snake under your shirt, rubbing the skin there and you look at the ceiling in thought.
“Was it a good dream though?”
Ritsu shakes his head, huffing and hiding his face in your shirt again. His hand rubs circular patterns on your sides. “The worst dream,” he bemoans, biting your shirt collar and you swat at him. He gasps, grinning when you look at him in triumph. “Couldn’t touch you. Which is why it was so bad.” He insists, rolling his eyes dramatically and you laugh.
“Right. A terrible dream, then.”
Ritsu smiles, hugging you to him a bit tighter and you think he’s purring softly, content in your hold. He falls asleep soon enough after that, dreaming about you and waking up to a reality much nicer with you in it.
anonymous asked: Octavinelle crush hcs were so good! ☺️ Could you do one for Heartslaybul as well, please? 💕
ofc nonnie! part 3 of the crush series! this one is a lil shorter than others because i’m writing for more characters, and i’m not too read-up on the heartslabyul boys? if i’ve mischaracterised them, i’m sorry ^^ i hope you enjoy this, though!
ace trappola
ace is stupid and has negative three braincells. he isn’t subtle at all; as soon as it’s registered in his gremlin brain that he has a crush on you, it’s game over for any chances of him appearing cool and slick. he manages to be both completely clingy and obvious yet freak out at the slightest bit of reciprocation— ace will yell for you and try to watch your attention all the way across the hallways (regardless of how much professor trein scolds him later for being so loud), but grow red and start stuttering as soon as you cheerfully match his enthusiasm and meet him halfway down in a big hug.
he gets a little possessive, almost; when ace has a crush, he tends to make it unintentionally very obvious as he gives you cute nicknames and gets up close and affectionate with you. if someone else acts like he does with you— even cater, whose default mode is ‘way too close and doting’, or floyd, who has no concept of how his mindless actions register ever— ace will swoop in and tell them to back off! watch as he grows as red as his hair is you curiously inquire as to why he got so defensive over a platonic hug or hand kiss.
gets huffy when teased, which is bad because just about everyone is teasing him or otherwise making comments on his blatantly obvious crush. even riddle will add in some exasperated remark about how ridiculous ace starts acting as soon as you see him, much to the first year’s chagrin. put him out of his mercy and confess, please, he can’t deal with cater teasing him anymore (until you do, and cater promptly starts changing his teases to be about ‘cute li’l ace and his new relationship~~’. the teasing never stops!)
deuce spade
the reverse of ace— where ace is overly affectionate and blatantly obvious by how he’s always clinging to you, deuce goes red at the slightest compliment from you and acts as if he’ll die if your hands brush. it’s almost offensive at first, and you’d take his sudden avoidance the wrong way if it wasn’t so painfully obvious he was just a lovestruck schoolboy with no idea on how to handle crushes.
deuce is an old-fashioned boy with a good heart, though, and he’ll be very traditional in courting you. he keeps his manners in mind and stays as polite as possible. need a help carrying your groceries? don’t worry, he’s got it! you’re feeling a little thirsty? wait just a second, he’ll go buy you a drink— his treat!
he goes about it with such an adorable blush you can’t help but want to squeeze him close and plant kisses all over his face, though— since when have you turned into floyd? voice these thoughts, though, and deuce will be unable to form a coherent sentence for at least 10 minutes. you’re bad for his heart, you know! he exclaims. deuce won’t get too mad at you for teasing him, though… he won’t lie, he likes it a little.
trey clover
thank god, the first (and only) member of heartslabyul who can go about a crush in a responsible and mature way! trey is a respectful person who values you as a friend, classmate, and (even if he won’t say it) love interest. he respects your personal space, doesn’t make you feel uncomfortable, and will help you out with whatever you need— extra help with your analytical magic homework, a new recipe to try out for your friends, dealing with some bothersome underclassmen; just say the word, and he’ll be there.
will definitely take advantage of his fantastic skills in the kitchen to whip up your favourite treats! attentive and observant, trey will pick up on your favourites amongst the things he’s cooked and will make a mental note of them so he can serve them more. being a vice dorm leader and overworked third year means that trey doesn’t have a lot of free time, but when he does you can probably find him learning how to make a pastry you like and mentioned to him offhandedly in conversations. he’ll even try his hand at difficult or laborious recipes if it means he gets to see you smile and thank him cheerfully!
fairly calm and composed— you can’t reduce trey to a blushing mess like you can with ace and deuce. but he’ll definitely melt when alone; after taking you back to ramshackle dorm post spending a day together shopping for ingredients in preparation for an upcoming unbirthday party, trey will retreat to his room and silently go cherry-pink as he recalls your beaming smile and jovial laugh from earlier on in the day, and he indulgently wishes for a time when he’ll get to see them everyday as your boyfriend.
cater diamond
mr. magicam whore is used to feeling attraction and fleeting crushes on people, so he doesn’t take anything too seriously when he starts to feel awfully charmed by you. it’s when this feeling lasts longer than expected and doesn’t show any signs of going away that cater starts to realise that he might actually be in love this time.
and it’s good! suddenly it feels ten times better when you return his hugs or get a little closer to him while the two of you take a selfie for cater’s magicam feed. he’s always been pretty affectionate with you, but now cater gets to indulge in the good feeling is of his crush happily accepting the fond way he strokes their hair or holds their hand while running away from an irate riddle.
cater takes you to trendy cafés and chic fashion boutiques, claiming that they’re far too à la mode on social media for him to ignore. in his head, he knows it’s not the platonic outing between friends he makes it out to be, but that’s fine— sooner or later, these charming days where you pick out new outfits for him or he leads you to ‘secret gems’ in the nearby town will become blissfully romantic dates between you and your loving boyfriend— who cater will make sure is him!
riddle rosehearts
you think heartslabyul teasing ace was bad? the whole dorm practically has a field day as soon as they realise riddle’s all-too-obvious crush on you. well, it’s not obvious, per se, but anyone who speaks riddle-language will know just how blatant he’s making it. what you see as him being fussy and hot-tempered over the tiniest things is what trey sees as riddle trying to express his concern over you and show affection by fixing your posture and complaining about the way you hold your fork (…well, riddle’s not perfect, but he’s trying).
riddle is painfully inexperienced in love, and he initially has a minor freak out over how to deal with his blossoming feelings. up until that point, he’d counted his intimidating attitude and strict reputation as a blessing that helped keep his misbehaving underclassmen in line— but what if it was just going to scare you off now? also, what constitutes a smooth way of charming you, and how does riddle even plan a half decent date? ah, help, he doesn’t know what to do!
it’s a team effort from heartslabyul, honestly. everyone plays their part in assisting riddle win your heart— they can complain about his strictness, but in the end riddle is well-loved by his friends, and they’re all too happy to help him with this romantic little mission (plus, it gives ace and cater extra teasing material). chances are that when riddle invites you to a tea party— which he insists is just a chance to test some of trey’s new tarts, and not at all a date, so don’t get it wrong— there’ll be four heads popping out of bushes, making sure everything goes smoothly for this wonderfully lovestruck boy. riddle may be the dorm’s ‘queen of hearts’, but now you’re the queen of his heart!
i'd love to hear some rei and kaoru boyfriend hcs :33
gooood mooorning anooooon! thank you very much <3 wanted to give this a try and i think this is now my favourite—im seeing a lot of undead requests tho you all are acting a little sus.. i hope you enjoy!!
SAKUMA REI
you're in for a ride :thumbs up: a whole rollercoaster. buckle up really good.
rei is a little unusual and sometimes even unconventional—the dude sleeps in a whole coffin, tells you he is a vampire (**REAL** NOT CLICKBAIT!!!) the day you meet, speaks like he's from ancient rome or something and he doesn't really have a problem with people knowing. he starts monologuing about creatures of the night right infront of you. if you're not scared off, congrats.
he will warn you tho. its very dangerous to get involved with vampires ohoho oh yes it is. but it's reverse psychology please get involved with him he is extremely lonely. :(
he will be the kind of bf that is more subtle and more verbally affectionate. he's the dude that stands behind you and takes your hand and start reciting something from a book or a poem. something that makes you feel warm. he's not a milk and honey type guy, talks more about 1800s literature. sometimes you do not understand and he will not explain.
sometimes he'll leave you in the dark and have you figure out things—may be fun for some people, less fun for others. he finds it entertaining. part of being with a vampire i guess :shrug:
"the sun has made place for the moon for long. do you not want to sleep, beloved?", he asked, sitting across from you, looking a little smug as he always does—you guessed it was just his face, usually, but his lips curled higher than normal. he is entertained. he is teasing you.
you are not entertained. you've been trying to figure out what in gods name rei told you a while before and all hints he gave you were to look in the history section. "i'm trying to figure out weather you actually complimented or insulted me."
with a hum and a chuckle, he slid a book over the table. and when you looked at the title your heart dropped into your stomach. "..thy eternal summer shall not fade, nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st.."
its translations of shakespearean sonnets.
there's some sad truths here—rei is an idol so he doesn't always have time, and his disease prevents him from going outside at daytime. you may be a little restricted in what you can do when you decide to go out somewhere. at dusk or dawn when you both are awake, he may take you out for a walk.
if you're willing to change up your schedule and stay up longer at night with him sometimes, that would be cool—but it would be basically throwing your whole life upside down so he won't make you do it
if you decide to stay up with him one time though, you won't be able to get enough of it. he'll make your nights worth it. :thumbs up:
rei will teach you how to dance—maybe an old waltz. so you two get to dance in the moonlight. he finds it very romantic. you'll see the adoration on his face when he's facing the window, but only for a split second before you only see his shilouette. and he'll take you on walks to pretty places and hold your hand.
he has kind of made it his mission to keep you safe. rei loves you lots and he wouldn't want anything to ruin your smile. he won't make the same mistake twice, so when you call him, he'll be there immediately.
best bf number 2 :thumbs up: you get the whole package. just help him find his humanity again and heal his wounds from the past!! loving him will still be just like fairytale, still. :)
bonus: this mans coffin doesn't have wheels for nothing. motorcycles are too modern he puts you on his lap and drives you down the hallway. have a race with koga and his brand new racecar adonis.
HAKAZE KAORU
kaoru is to you like... a beach in the morning. it smells fresh, maybe a little salty. the sun makes you warm and the wave cools you down. sit down in the sand and take a break. :)
what i mean by that—YOU'RE ON ANOTHER ROLLERCOASTER WOOOHOOO!! but your rollercoaster is more chill kaoru is very chill. he'll tease you and be a little mean (jokingly) but he cares about you lots and will help you out when you are down. he is very new and different to you. no wave hits the shore the same. you'll have a great time again for sure. :thumbs up:
he has lots of experience, but with you, he's just kind of lost. from you, he doesn't want that motherly affection. he just wants you. his goal is different, so his usual approach wouldn't work. so if you don't have experience either, you're both beginners now.
his love language is a bit of everything. a mixture. every action towards you shows a little bit of love. a gift, a whisper of a compliment, a kiss, a letter.. you get the whole package again. he has no limits on this but if it does overwhelm you he'll calm down a little.
kaoru will take you surfing.
"you're shaking like a leaf in the wind—when the wave comes you're going to flip over, y'know?", he said, as he held your legs on the surfing board. you were pretty sure that you wouldn't even need a wave to hit you to fall over. "relax. it's like riding a bike, you have to find some balance so you don't tip over when we get to the big waves. let me come on top."
kaoru let go of your legs for a moment to hoist himself up on the board—and if he grabbed you again one second later you were pretty sure you would have gone deep-diving. "can't go without me, huh?", he told you, hands on your waist, "maybe we can just stand here for a while. you're just learning balance.."
you stand on the board with him in the middle of the sea first. bet he'll tease you a little as he holds you there—but he thinks it's very brave that you went with him. when you have to learn to stand up on the board though you may regret it. (speaking from experience)
when he sees something that reminds you of him he has to instantly send it to you or if it's something in the store he has to get it.
hi babe this reminds me of you (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧
and then its that video of that litol angry kitten biting the vet or a picture of a rat photoshopped in a shirt you own. something stupid or cute you get no inbetween sorry
he is your beach bf. he'll get some conches from the shore and go to the handicrafts club so they can help him put that stuff on a string. he'll get the pretty ones with the pinkish tint on the inside that are blue on the outside. it's a necklace for you he made it please take care of it it has a picture of you two in it
kaoru takes you out to a lot of places!! lots of the money he gets through his idol work he invests into you. he slams his credit card on the table the moment he sees something you would enjoy. be it a fancy restaurant or a cute cat café.
bonus: you're that couple that wears the ugliest matching outfits to ever exist. like straight up hideous graphic shirts and those ugly round sunglasses. you rock it both of you :thumbs up:
bonus bonus: he literally attempts to serenade you the first time you meet because he has no idea how to start it and a little further in your relationship he sings you to sleep with that exact song
spoil him please he enjoys being spoiled and coddled too dare i say that he is a little spoon........ hold him real tight ok??? love the kaoru. take care of the kaoru.
last bonus i swear: he plays x and 0 on your forehead when you are asleep and vulnerable. how you get revenge is your choice :)
helllo! may i request ritsu sakuma [ensemble stars] with the song prompt 4.?? ["The lonely moments just get lonelier the longer you're in love." House of Memories - Panic! at the disco]
be sure to take breaks when you need them! self-care vvv important
4. "The lonely moments just get lonelier the longer you're in love." House of Memories - Panic! at the disco.
from the lyric prompt list!
thank you for your request! i love ritsu <3 i love all five members of knights so much <3 ritsu was one of my first favorites! ever since i became more of a switchp i haven't really read much of his newest stories though... anyway, i hope you enjoy it!
warnings: gn reader, reader went to yumenosaki's regular studies department, light hurt/comfort.
word count: 1376 words
Ritsu struggled with something.
And that something was his feelings for you.
He pried one of his eyes open as he, or rather, his friend, got closer to the school. There, he saw you. Ever so punctual, wearing the same uniform as him, holding your student ID for the security guards to let you inside. He follows your silhouette through the crowd of students until you're out of sight, long gone into the buildings of the regular studies department's campus. Far, far away from the area designed for the idol course (and temporarily production course) department
He frowns after he's taken to his classroom and rests his head against his desk, unmotivated to do... anything at all.
It had been like this ever since he noticed he had fallen for you.
He would watch you go into your building, never really caring for whatever the hell was going on with the idol department's affairs, which was something strangely common for the students of the regular studies department; you all would always hear all the gossips and rumors before anyone else outside of the school but couldn't be surprised at all by anything anymore.
"All departments of this school are filled with weird people, after all." It's what you once said. "Even us, old boring regular students, have our own, big share of eccentricities and drama, you know? You just never get to hear our stories unless you're there to live them!"
Sometimes, Ritsu wished he could be there.
While there was nothing enticing about being a boring, as you put it, regular student, there was something he felt he was lacking during his daily routine.
That something being someone, and that someone being you.
His friends, unit mates and the producer were nice company, and he, of course, had fun with them. But... they weren't you.
They weren't you, who he was in love with.
How long has it been?
Ever since he first entered this school, in the same year as you, he has been in love with you. Even though you went to different departments, he had fallen for you from the little interactions you shared.
Eventually, he thought, these feelings will disappear.
But they didn't.
Instead, they kept growing the more he started to go out of his way to look for you, even if your time together was often cut short due to his schedule becoming busier and busier each time.
"I get it, you all are pretty popular these days. Can't go anywhere and not see your faces almost everywhere..." You'd say to him each time. "I have to study for my college entrance exams anyway... See you around." And then you'd walk away, as always.
And it's okay, he thought, you two could still meet up some other time.
But he was wrong. So wrong.
"It's not like you have a contract forbidding you from dating, but you have to look at who your target audience is," Anzu had scolded him after she caught him speaking with you, almost physically clinging to you, stopping on his way to the Ensemble Square. She continued: "And think of your current position in the industry before risking throwing it all away."
While that bothered him, he knew she was right.
Making a move on you was risky for the both of you.
...But then again, it wasn't like he was making a lot of progress in that aspect.
Still, he should've accepted it from the start. He should've already known from the start, and he still choose to cling to this very small, tiny piece of hope that he could grasp you and have you for himself as his lover.
So you both had very different life styles, very different paths you choose to walk through; you walked as parallel lines, living in two worlds that were too different from each other, it was as if you were always out of his reach, too far high for him to touch.
While he and his unit partners step into the stage for their final encore song, he's surrounded by blinding lights and the deafening sound of cheering coming from the audience. Truly in the center of attention, being praised and loved by so many people, and yet he feels alone.
And when he spots someone who looked like you holding an uchiwa fan to cover their face at the very front row of the stage he feels as if his heart would go out of his chest to chase after that image, after that silhouette that resembled yours. But it wasn't you.
You were somewhere else, maybe with someone else.
Ritsu longs for your company and affections, he really does. But you're too far away from his reach. He can't get a grasp on you, on how or what are you doing when his schedule gets more and more and more packed with new jobs and more industry nonsense everyone seems to dramatize too much for some reason he cannot comprehend---
But then he spots you in the crowd from the window of the van they were riding to get to their next job together.
When he sees you hold hands with someone whose face he doesn't recognize, whose name he doesn't know, whose life he doesn't understand, he realizes.
How lovely it is, falling in love.
How lonely it is, falling in love.
He can never have a normal life like yours.
He can never step away from the spotlight you seem to hate having on yourself to give you all of his love and attention.
He can never be with you.
And it all just gets lonelier. The more he repeats to himself he can't have you, the deeper he falls in love with you. And all those moments just get much much lonelier the longer he's in love.
But then it happened at a coffee shop during winter, six years later.
His mouth is agape and his eyes widened the moment the person in front of him steps away to let him have his turn in the counter.
"...Ritsu? Ritsu Sakuma from Yumenosaki's Idol department?" Your voice asked him from behind the counter, polite, client-service smile long gone to let a genuine, big smile form on your face. "It's been a really long time! Do you remember me? I'm that one kid from the regular department you sometimes talked with!"
"...Of course I remember you. Y/N." Your name rolled from his lips naturally, as if it was always meant for him to say out loud. "I couldn't forget you even if I tried."
You giggle at his words, your cheeks flushing slightly.
"So, which one did you want?" He told you his order, and while you started preparing it, he took some courage and spoke up:
"When do you get out of work today?"
You stop to look back at him, before turning towards the board where your and your co-worker's schedule was at and then back to him again.
"Today at nine p.m., and you?" You handed him his order. "It'll be two hundred yen."
"I'm free for this whole week." He said while handing you the money.
"Wow, that's nice." He dreaded the conversation would end there, abruptly, then, you continued talking. "I still have to work until the night and go home but, are you up for catching up tomorrow?"
He could feel his heart beating aggressively against his chest, as he immediately answered:
"Yes."
You giggle at his speed to answer.
"Alright, alright. Your LINE ID is still the same, right?" He nodded.
"Did yours change after graduation?"
"Nope, still the same after all these years!"
He smiles at you, feeling his cheeks heating up.
"Then I'll be texting you to plan our date for tomorrow." You don't complain about how he used the word 'date'. Instead, you nod.
"It's a deal, then." You give him a kind, gentle smile that brings him back to when he was still a highschooler. "Thank you for your patronage, dear customer."
As he walks away from the cafeteria, hot beverage in hand while his shoes crushed the snow underneath them, he smiles to himself.
Hello admins! i loved the s/o feels insecure dating an idol with ritsu and mao and i was wondering if you could write the same with chiaki and rei :o Thank you so much!! And this blog is awesome
i’m crying thank you for liking the older things i’ve written for this blog! that one started a lot of things uwu ;A;
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Morisawa Chiaki :
Chiaki, as people would describe him, is a very energetic person. He oozes energy into every action of his life. His smile is always present, like a lingering tattoo that never fades.
To you, Chiaki is… an enigma. He’s someone you can’t possibly fathom in just… a couple of words from the dictionary because it’s not enoughー it can’t possibly be enough to describe Morisawa Chiaki.
He breaths life into your lungs and sprinkles happiness into your being. If you were to describe him… He’s like the sun. The epitome of brightness because Morisawa Chiaki is someone who touched light into your life.
But just like the sun… his touch sometimes burn.
Alone in an empty bathroom stall, you’re pathetically hugging the toilet seat after emptying the contents of your breakfast into the toilet bowl fifteen minutes ago. Now, going on your sixteenth minutes crying on the bathroom floor with a flushed toilet as your companion, you tap your cheek to feel the dry crisp of tears that trailed non-stop like a broken dam earlier before.
Admittedly, you weren’t even sure why you had a mental breakdown suddenly when you saw your lover performing from backstage. His smile radiated so much joy and endless energy you think he’s completely pulling you in; into his his gravity because Morisawa Chiaki is the sun and in that moment so captivated by his performance, you felt like you were going to burn.
“Ahh… Dammit,” you curse quietly, flushing the toilet again for good measure before trying to stand. Your legs are a little wobbly and with little bumps on the toilet ledge and bathroom walls, you manage to unlock the wooden door and swing your cubicle open before coming face to face with the sight of Chiaki’s hand raised as if wanting to knock.
He looks just as surprised as you are, smiling sheepishly but his eyes are looking at you in worry and you panic, slamming the door shut in his face. You slide down the door when you’re legs feel like jelly and thank the facility for having full covered cubicles and not those bottom opened to exposure type of bathroom stalls.
Chiaki knocks on the door quietly in time with your racing heartbeat. He’s still in his performance uniform meaning he came here right after his performance and that.. you don’t want that. You don’t want him focusing on you when he has other things better to doー
“Hey… I heard.. I heard that you ran off suddenly and got worried. Are youー I mean, no, you’re not okay right now, huh? But please,” his voice dies a little and you can feel the small crack in his heart when he whispers your name as if testing the waters. “If you’re upset with me, you don’t have to open the door. But please talk to me.”
You think you’re heart might stop. He’s head thumps against the door when you remain silent. “Chiaki, I… I can’t do this anymore.” You whisper, spilling the contents of your heart because the walls are slowly crumpling.
“What-” he hiccups, panic in his voice and knocks again. “What do you mean? Talk to me please.”
It’s hard to breath suddenly and a wrench sob escapes your lips because- because, “Chiaki, you’ve given me everything and I’ve given you nothing in return. Chiaki I can’t live with the fact that this relationship is just me taking and you giving. You deserve better that that.”
It’s silent again and you can hear the sound of glass breaking; cracking and shattering and you know it’s the sound of Chiaki’s heart. “You… You don’t know?” he whispers sadly but manages a broken chuckle. “You’re my light. You keep me going. It’s- I don’t think I’ve said it enough which is why feel like this, huh?”
“No, it’s not-” he cuts you off with another small laugh and you stay silent.
“I have my bad days too, you know? But.. I can’t show that to the other members but you.. I don’t have to say anything. You just know and that means a lot to me. I don’t mind giving you everything because you’ve already given me so much already. You’re my motivation- my air because it’s easy to breathe around you. I know you’re hurting right now but please, let me help you. It hurts me to see you suffering like this.”
It takes a few ticking seconds before you unlock the door quietly. It swings open, revealing Chiaki; tired eyes and warm smiles. He wordlessly opens his arms and you collapse into them. “I’m sorry,” you whisper but he shushes you quietly.
Morisawa Chiaki is the sun; burning passionately and touching light into your world but to him, you’re the wind. A cool breeze, balancing his heat and gently blowing life into his days.
Sakuma Rei :
You sit across from Rei, an oceans distance between the two of you and a line consisting of piled up clothes that separates you. You lean back against the wall, sitting weakly on the floor and you’re eyes are swollen from the nonstop crying you displayed minutes ago.
Rei is across from you, eyes closed and tiltied up towards the ceiling. He’s on the floor as well, legs pulled up with his elbows on his knees. A heavy sigh escapes his lips and the rim around his eyes are a little red from unshed tears.
The fight you had with Rei, if anything, is undoubtedly pathetic. It brings dark and ugly colours into your mostly warm life. You had grabbed the pile of clothes thrown across the couch and suppressing the urge to throw it at him, piled the clothings on the floor in a line and pointed at it angrily with harsh whispers of “do not cross this,” because no matter how angry you are with Rei, no matter how much you want to scream and shout- you can never hurt him; it hurts you.
You sat on the floor after setting the boundaries, suddenly breaking down and crying almost hysterically. Short, uneven breaths and twitching fingers rubbing at your face to feebly stop the tearsー you think you must look like an absolute mess to Rei who sits across from you.
He sits quietly on the floor, emotions already coming down and he takes a good look at you breaking down on the dirty apartment floor. The sight is anything like the usually graceful poise you normally have. Hiccups and broken whimpers leave your lips in succession. In that moment, watching you from oceans away separated by this wall of soft clothing, Rei’s heart is shattering into pieces of atoms.
He can’t possibly recover from this- not when you’re crying on the floor and he can’t touch you; can’t comfort you and hold you. Rei feels his heart breaking, clawing in his chest and his eyes are blurring a little. He doesn’t say anything because he knows you need this. To let your emotions out and cry it out.
It’s almost a half hour later when you’ve finally calmed down and things are eerily silent.
“Rei,” you whisper, throat hurting and he perks up. “I’m really sorry.”
Your words only seemed to spur Rei into action and he stumbles towards you, a look of panic in his eyes. He whispers your name firmly stopping just in front of the lines of clothes. “Don’t apologise, please.” He glanced at his sweater separating you in disdain, glaring at the dark article of clothing and reciting all the curses in his head before looking up at you with all the tenderness in the world.
“It’s my fault. I know that now. I never.. I didn’t accept your help when you only wanted to comfort me. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
You blink, shuffling closer to Rei quietly and he smiles a little, fatigue hitting heavy for the both of you. You grab the edges of the self made barrier and fling it away. Almost instantly, Rei grabs hold of your hand and pulls you to him, the force driving him back with you on top of him as Rei clings to you.
You hug Rei just as tight and the warm colours return to your life. “It felt like you didn’t need me, you know? When you kept pushing me away and I just- I was sick of it so I called you out on it-”
He interrupts you with a brief kiss to your lips and you quiet down when Rei caresses your cheek with the hand not wrapped around you. “I was the fool pushing you away. I apologise for that- I promise to try better.” He kisses the corners of your eyes and you feel your heart swell.
On the floor, no longer separated by walls of barrier, you spill your heart on to Rei and this time, as promised, he accepts it with gentle hands. No longer the dark colours painting your sky, it’s all warm when you’re with Rei.
a/n: just some self indulgent fluff because i miss them.
( childhood friends to lovers. )
ACE TRAPPOLA.
when you first kissed ace, he blanked for a minute. you’d just kissed him, his crush for who knows how long had just kissed him out of the blue. he’s gonna stay silent for a minute trying to think of some kind of ace comment to say, but his mind just draws a complete blank as he stares at you and keeps thinking about how soft and plush your lips felt against his rather rough and dry ones. it gets him a little embarrassing.
his face turns red as he looks away, gulping as he shifts nervously. when he came back for summer break, he hadn’t expected his childhood best friend to kiss him on his lips when they went to see the fireworks, and they hadn’t even started yet! — he thinks he might kiss you back once they do if he hasn’t already ruined this whole damn thing by his silence — you’ll be the one saying something to him to drag him away from his overthinking, asking if it was okay to do that and if he doesn’t feel the same. an innocent and love-filled spark in your eyes as you stare at him, your tongue darting out of your mouth to wet your lips makes him do the same thing.
and the only way he can respond to your words is to pull you in again and press his lips firmly onto yours, kissing you deeper than you had him. holding onto your face as he almost knocks the two of you over. and for once, he’s glad he came home.
when you’d invited him to see the fireworks, saying how it’d be great to see them before he was off to night raven again, he never expected you to kiss him, especially on his lips. maybe the cheek he’d expected while getting ready, but it really makes him wish he’d slipped chapstick on them.
when you pull away from him, his eyes are large and he has a bead of sweat dripping from his forehead, only staring at you as you look around nervously, most likely waiting for the fireworks to fill the silence that he’s created. his mouth is agape, and he’s trying to form words as he stares at you, have you always looked like this? when did you get so beautiful?, is the only thought behind his stupid face, is he allowed to even be close to somebody like you? is he allowed to even say anything?
when you clear your throat, he immediately captures your lips in a deep kiss, his hands holding your face a bit too tight but he’s unaware, only thinking about making sure this kiss lasts forever. and when he pulls away, he only gives a second before going back in, you’ll have to push him off to actually be able to breathe, laughing at him as he looks confused, only them kissing his once again.
DEUCE SPADE.
if you seriously kiss deuce, he won’t say anything for the rest of the night, only staring at you in shock. why would you want to kiss him? you’d known him since and before his nasty delinquent days and still want to kiss him!? it makes him re-think every life choice he’s ever made as he stares at you with big, wide eyes and a dropped jaw. he can’t process that you’re scared and incredibly nervous from his reaction, all he can is that you’ve kissed him, deuce spade a former delinquent who’s not doing the best at becoming better. yet, you’ve still let him feel your lips.
when you’re getting up to leave — since who wouldn’t after an embarrassment like that!? — he’ll grab your hand and yank you into him (maybe a bit too hard) and kiss you, it’s clumsy and very poorly thought out & done, but deuce can’t find it in himself to care. you’re his first friend (one from his childhood), his first crush, and now the first kiss. you’re everything and more to him at this moment and when he pulls away, he’ll be nothing short of extraordinarily embarrassed and can’t look you in the eyes.
he’ll probably go back to night raven without another word to you, but when he gets there, the first thing he’s doing is blowing up your phone with messages. talking all day & night with each other until ace shouts at him to shut up and you two say goodbye. it only gives him yet another thing to look forward to once he comes back home for a break.
when your lips slip onto deuce’s, he freezes up, his body going completely stiff as you try to make it deeper, his own lips not being able to kiss back. it’s embarrassing for you as you pull away, wiping your mouth as your eyes avert his. he’s staring at you with his own, wide and huge, his jaw dropped to the floor as he thinks about how you just kissed him.
it closes soon enough, though, being able to find some sense and shake himself from the thoughts of your kiss. he hears you clear your throat as you stand up to go, his instincts telling him to grab onto you and never let go, to kiss you back 100x better, more passionate and deeper. which he wishes he could, but when he does return the kiss, it’s disgustingly clumsy and poorly thought out, the only thing obviously being the want to kiss you.
and you don’t mind, happily falling into it with a little bit of shock at first, and then even more shock, when he pushes you back and runs away — to what you presume, is his house — leaving you there, thinking about everything and just being able to laugh on your walk back home. maybe you’ll sneak into his house and surprise him.
aa, do you mind if i request something super fluffy with rei? the past weeks i've been really stressed bc of school and i'd love to read smth like rei's s/o being super affectionate and clingy and just like needy for cuddles and attention after school?? i thought it'd be just so cute nnhh thank u so much honey, we love u ♡
Sorry for this being delivered late!! I just wanted to say me and MOD Chu hope everything had gone well for you and please don’t stress yourself out too much!! Be sure to always take care of yourself!
And remember, get calcium! ♠
You knocked on the door as softly as you can, unsure if it was the appropriate time to be coming in. Right on cue, the door opened up and the band members began filing out, and you quickly move to the side not to be crushed by them and their instruments.
They notice your presence and bid their greets of ‘hello’s’ and ‘goodbye’s’, Kaoru doing you a favour with mentioning that Rei is inside, much to your surprise of not seeing him come out.
You watch them all leave, their voices echoing in the hallway, then turn and waltz into the club room, to see Rei intently observing a few sheets of paper. What they were or how important were they wasn’t your concern - in fact, there was only one thing that was going through your mind that was blocking out everything else that would usually grab your attention.
Hugging Rei.
When was the last time you two properly hung out? Or talked in the comfort of each other’s presence and warmth? You were determined to spend sometime with him now after school, before any of the concerts’ dates get much closer.
Tiptoeing towards him, you wrap your arms around him tightly from behind, pressing yourself against his back. It just dawned on you how much you’ve missed his warmth and the feel of holding him; feeling a sensation akin to goosebumps, you felt his warmth engulf you and instantly you felt so secure. You heard him chuckle, and felt it rumble from his chest as your ear was pressed against him; perhaps he knew it was you from the way you acted.
“You’ve never hugged me this tight before, is something on your mind, my love?” Rei questioned your sudden rise of affection, though he didn’t turn around yet, still absorbed in whatever he was handling at the moment.
You pressed your lips together to a thin line nervously, feeling your heart beat speed up in pace, contemplating whether to say it or not, then whispered; “You, if I’m honest.”
It came out so soft, you weren’t sure it was even audible, but the way Rei flinched and turned around quickly told you otherwise. He definitely didn’t see that coming, you entertained the thought if perhaps your words gave him a little heart attack.
His expression contorted to concern, and he was about to voice them until you looked up at him with an innocent smile, he felt the words die right there and then. He studied your expression critically, before relaxing in your arms and breaking into a gentle smile. He reached out his hand to your face slowly, like perfectly calculated movement, and pushed a strand of stray hair away from your face to the side, and slowly dug his fingers into your hair.
The movement was all slow and soothing, it felt like he was purposefully dragging out the motion. You wouldn’t know, but he was doing so to saviour every moment with you.
“You’re cloying…” He locked eyes with you, the soft smile never leaving his face. He spoke in a hushed tone to match your whisper, neither of you wanting to break the comfortable silence that surrounded this small room.
“No,” you giggled, drawing absentminded circles on his back, “why would I? Is it wrong to be thinking and admiring my one and only?”
“It’s not, when it’s me,” He smirked, leaning his face closer towards you. His scent was sure intoxicating, and you felt his warm breathe on your lips.
You squeal and slap his chest playfully, “you’re such a flirt when you want to be!”
You two share a laugh together, and return to embracing one another contently. All was bliss when you heard the rustling of papers, you peeked to see him returning to read what seemed to be the rules and regulations of the performance on stage.
You stomp your foot, groaning, “can you just pay attention to me for two minutes and forget about the live concert?”
“Two minutes won’t do you justice, my love.” He dismissed, too distracted with reading.
“I’m being serious,” You looked up at him with a pout, and saw that he was still far too engrossed in his work to pay attention to you fully. You were going to make him snap out of work mode, no matter what it takes.
Abruptly, you pushed out of his loose embrace and snatched the papers from his hand. That certainly took him by surprise as he watched you wide eyed for a second or two before standing up, registering the events that transpired a little slower than expected.
“Hey now, I need those back,” He demanded, seemingly cross with you, “they’re important, I’ll work on them and then we’ll hangout.”
You raised the papers over your head as a challenge, raising an eyebrow with a smug smile, while placing your free left hand over your hip, “no, we hangout now. You want those back? You’re going to have to get them back.”
Everything seemed to be at a standstill, clockwork freezing as he just stood there and watched you; it made you want to believe that time froze, if it weren’t for the distant clicking of the clock and birdsong outside. He stepped forward careful, and you stepped back, causing his patience to be tested further.
And suddenly, the music room became a playground. Rei broke into a sprint to catch you and you screamed, running to the side to avoid his tackle. You laughed as you watched him try to catch you, and you found yourself thanking all the years of experience playing tag.
You turned around to face him as you ran backwards, and he seemed to be grinning from ear to ear until he gasped. “Hey watch-”
You felt something trip you from behind, and you fell backwards into soft, dark red cushion. You fell in his coffin! and it sure was stuffy. He came right after, kneeling over you, inspecting if you were hurt as you wriggled around and giggled, feeling rather ticklish wherever he touched.
“We’re too old to be playing tag.” He berated, panting slightly as he let you go, concluding that you were fine.
“Oh, sorry grandpa,” you teased. He shakes his head at that with a soft smile, and everything went quiet. You watched his complexion, and almost mechanically reached out towards his face, fingers ghosting over the dark shadows under his eyes, tracing them ever so slightly. He closed his eyes at the sensation.
“Look at you, Rei…you look exhausted.” You whispered sombrely. It was your turn to crease your expression with concern. He opened his eyes slowly and sighed, he couldn’t deny that all the work recently has started to take a toll on him.
“Just two minutes,” you continued at his silence, “you and I both know you need this break, the papers can wait.”
To your great surprise, he conceded, “alright.” he smiled, “just two minutes.”
And two minutes was perfectly enough to cuddle inside his coffin, somehow managing to fit the both of you in. He wouldn’t tell you, but he was happy to be able to hold you again, even if it were for a little while, because your presence alone, made it all worth it.
do you have sfw rei hcs? I love being freaky with rei but hes a soft man also i know it
😌🙏 absolutely
first and foremost, rei is an attentive boyfriend who’s very in tune with your feelings and your needs. honestly, he knows what you need more than you know it yourself— you don’t have to say a single thing and he can already tell what you’re thinking, what you’re feeling, and what you need. say you have certain habits you do when you’re feeling a certain way— whether you notice it or not, you always bury your face in the crook of his neck or rest your head on his shoulder when you’re tired, so he always suggests a nap when you do this. perhaps a nap with him? he’s always napping himself, and what better way to nap than with his beloved?
honestly, sometimes he’s so attentive and doting that you joke that you need a boyfriend, not a babysitter. he always means well, though, so you don’t mind— you’re happy to let him dote on you because he always makes your needs his top priority. i like the idea of rei bringing you snacks and water and silently kissing the top of your head while you’re studying/working hard because he worries that you haven’t been taking enough breaks to eat or drink water. he’s better at taking care of you than you are at taking care of you, he jokes.
he’s not the best with technology, and phones are no exception, but he always does his best to text you good morning, good night, and little things throughout the day like how excited he is to see you later and how he hopes you ate breakfast before you left the house. i like the idea of him using little emojis and kaomojis because he picked them up from the aoi twins and kaoru lol
rei: Good morning, my dearest (๑♡3♡๑) Did you sleep well?
you: wtf is that
rei: A ‘kissy’ face. Please pretend I’m kissing you good morning since I’m not there to do it in person ❤️
some would say there’s only 5 love languages, but i think there’s 922938394. one of those 922938394 is Silently Spending Time Together— i think there’s a certain beauty in just sitting with someone you love and not talking or really doing anything. it’s nice to just enjoy each other’s company and sit together, and i think this fits well with rei. he’s more than content to just sit by your side as you both read. he’s more than happy to just sit with you and have you by his side, even if you aren’t necessarily doing anything.
oh, he does enjoy napping with you, though. he’s always sleeping during the day, and he likes napping with you, too. what better way to fall asleep than with his beloved by his side, nuzzled up against his body as they sleep soundly? he thinks you’re beautiful even as you sleep— he’s not above watching you for a bit before he drifts off himself.
honestly, it reaches a point where he can’t nap without you anymore— even if he manages to fall asleep without you by his side, he’s since found that the sleep isn’t nearly as fulfilling and that he doesn’t wake up feeling as rested as when he wakes up with you. having you by his side helps him fall asleep and stay asleep, so make sure to cuddle up close to him, alright?
he loves it when you cuddle up closer to him or reach your arm out as if you’re searching for him while you’re asleep— he thinks it’s absolutely adorable how you seek him out even in your sleep, and he’s always more than happy to hold you close to him while you two drift off together <3
helllo! may i request ritsu sakuma [ensemble stars] with the song prompt 4.?? ["The lonely moments just get lonelier the longer you're in love." House of Memories - Panic! at the disco]
be sure to take breaks when you need them! self-care vvv important
4. "The lonely moments just get lonelier the longer you're in love." House of Memories - Panic! at the disco.
from the lyric prompt list!
thank you for your request! i love ritsu <3 i love all five members of knights so much <3 ritsu was one of my first favorites! ever since i became more of a switchp i haven't really read much of his newest stories though... anyway, i hope you enjoy it!
warnings: gn reader, reader went to yumenosaki's regular studies department, light hurt/comfort.
word count: 1376 words
Ritsu struggled with something.
And that something was his feelings for you.
He pried one of his eyes open as he, or rather, his friend, got closer to the school. There, he saw you. Ever so punctual, wearing the same uniform as him, holding your student ID for the security guards to let you inside. He follows your silhouette through the crowd of students until you're out of sight, long gone into the buildings of the regular studies department's campus. Far, far away from the area designed for the idol course (and temporarily production course) department
He frowns after he's taken to his classroom and rests his head against his desk, unmotivated to do... anything at all.
It had been like this ever since he noticed he had fallen for you.
He would watch you go into your building, never really caring for whatever the hell was going on with the idol department's affairs, which was something strangely common for the students of the regular studies department; you all would always hear all the gossips and rumors before anyone else outside of the school but couldn't be surprised at all by anything anymore.
"All departments of this school are filled with weird people, after all." It's what you once said. "Even us, old boring regular students, have our own, big share of eccentricities and drama, you know? You just never get to hear our stories unless you're there to live them!"
Sometimes, Ritsu wished he could be there.
While there was nothing enticing about being a boring, as you put it, regular student, there was something he felt he was lacking during his daily routine.
That something being someone, and that someone being you.
His friends, unit mates and the producer were nice company, and he, of course, had fun with them. But... they weren't you.
They weren't you, who he was in love with.
How long has it been?
Ever since he first entered this school, in the same year as you, he has been in love with you. Even though you went to different departments, he had fallen for you from the little interactions you shared.
Eventually, he thought, these feelings will disappear.
But they didn't.
Instead, they kept growing the more he started to go out of his way to look for you, even if your time together was often cut short due to his schedule becoming busier and busier each time.
"I get it, you all are pretty popular these days. Can't go anywhere and not see your faces almost everywhere..." You'd say to him each time. "I have to study for my college entrance exams anyway... See you around." And then you'd walk away, as always.
And it's okay, he thought, you two could still meet up some other time.
But he was wrong. So wrong.
"It's not like you have a contract forbidding you from dating, but you have to look at who your target audience is," Anzu had scolded him after she caught him speaking with you, almost physically clinging to you, stopping on his way to the Ensemble Square. She continued: "And think of your current position in the industry before risking throwing it all away."
While that bothered him, he knew she was right.
Making a move on you was risky for the both of you.
...But then again, it wasn't like he was making a lot of progress in that aspect.
Still, he should've accepted it from the start. He should've already known from the start, and he still choose to cling to this very small, tiny piece of hope that he could grasp you and have you for himself as his lover.
So you both had very different life styles, very different paths you choose to walk through; you walked as parallel lines, living in two worlds that were too different from each other, it was as if you were always out of his reach, too far high for him to touch.
While he and his unit partners step into the stage for their final encore song, he's surrounded by blinding lights and the deafening sound of cheering coming from the audience. Truly in the center of attention, being praised and loved by so many people, and yet he feels alone.
And when he spots someone who looked like you holding an uchiwa fan to cover their face at the very front row of the stage he feels as if his heart would go out of his chest to chase after that image, after that silhouette that resembled yours. But it wasn't you.
You were somewhere else, maybe with someone else.
Ritsu longs for your company and affections, he really does. But you're too far away from his reach. He can't get a grasp on you, on how or what are you doing when his schedule gets more and more and more packed with new jobs and more industry nonsense everyone seems to dramatize too much for some reason he cannot comprehend---
But then he spots you in the crowd from the window of the van they were riding to get to their next job together.
When he sees you hold hands with someone whose face he doesn't recognize, whose name he doesn't know, whose life he doesn't understand, he realizes.
How lovely it is, falling in love.
How lonely it is, falling in love.
He can never have a normal life like yours.
He can never step away from the spotlight you seem to hate having on yourself to give you all of his love and attention.
He can never be with you.
And it all just gets lonelier. The more he repeats to himself he can't have you, the deeper he falls in love with you. And all those moments just get much much lonelier the longer he's in love.
But then it happened at a coffee shop during winter, six years later.
His mouth is agape and his eyes widened the moment the person in front of him steps away to let him have his turn in the counter.
"...Ritsu? Ritsu Sakuma from Yumenosaki's Idol department?" Your voice asked him from behind the counter, polite, client-service smile long gone to let a genuine, big smile form on your face. "It's been a really long time! Do you remember me? I'm that one kid from the regular department you sometimes talked with!"
"...Of course I remember you. Y/N." Your name rolled from his lips naturally, as if it was always meant for him to say out loud. "I couldn't forget you even if I tried."
You giggle at his words, your cheeks flushing slightly.
"So, which one did you want?" He told you his order, and while you started preparing it, he took some courage and spoke up:
"When do you get out of work today?"
You stop to look back at him, before turning towards the board where your and your co-worker's schedule was at and then back to him again.
"Today at nine p.m., and you?" You handed him his order. "It'll be two hundred yen."
"I'm free for this whole week." He said while handing you the money.
"Wow, that's nice." He dreaded the conversation would end there, abruptly, then, you continued talking. "I still have to work until the night and go home but, are you up for catching up tomorrow?"
He could feel his heart beating aggressively against his chest, as he immediately answered:
"Yes."
You giggle at his speed to answer.
"Alright, alright. Your LINE ID is still the same, right?" He nodded.
"Did yours change after graduation?"
"Nope, still the same after all these years!"
He smiles at you, feeling his cheeks heating up.
"Then I'll be texting you to plan our date for tomorrow." You don't complain about how he used the word 'date'. Instead, you nod.
"It's a deal, then." You give him a kind, gentle smile that brings him back to when he was still a highschooler. "Thank you for your patronage, dear customer."
As he walks away from the cafeteria, hot beverage in hand while his shoes crushed the snow underneath them, he smiles to himself.
