Let me just brag about my boyfriend for a little bit. I’ve never really written anything on here about him but now I’m going to.
My boyfriend. Is the greatest human bean out of all the human beans. Me and him fight what seems like constantly but regardless, he’s the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.
Since the beginning of our relationship, things have changed in ways that I would say are pretty drastic. We aren’t as lovey with each other anymore and we bicker about the stupidest shit and he makes me cry and I hurt him but under all that, we do love eachother. And I know that for a fact.
I’m part of a generation where people give up on everything so easily. If things don’t go their way, they give up. If they don’t want to do something, they won’t do it. If their relationship has some bumps along the way, they just give up on it and let what could potentially be a good love - go.
I’m not gonna do that. I said I wasn’t going to do that from the beginning. I remember telling myself when i was about 16 (when I first met him. I’m almost 18 now) that when he was finally mine, I would NEVER let him go. Mostly because it took me forever to get him to finally open up to me and like me and ask me out, but also because I knew that we were going to be something great.
When I first met him, we went from complete strangers who only saw eachother once in a while in the hallway, to friends to best friends all in a matter of like 4 or 5 months. We started talking in a romantic way and then he started talking to my bestfriends sister (shitty right?) but even then I knew she wasn’t right for him. I knew he was the person that I wanted to be with and I knew I was gonna be the person to treat him the way he needs to be treated.
You see, he’s been through a lot of shit. He fell in love with a girl who had a boyfriend. She played him so bad. Both of them. She cheated on her boyfriend with my boyfriend (who wasn’t my boyfriend at the time) and told him she was gonna leave her boyfriend for him and this that and the third. I guess my boyfriend tried to stop talking to her multiple times but she said she would kill herself and all this stuff so he stayed with her because he still loved her and didn’t wanna hurt her. You know how strong you have to be to do that? To be completely in love with someone and stay with them and be there for them even when you’re in that situation? It’s crazy actually. He’s so strong for that and he doesn’t even realize it. She put him through so much shit.
Anyway, back to how amazing he is. He doesn’t know this but I’ve been in absolute love with him since the moment I laid eyes on him. Well he does know, cause I told him. But I don’t think he believes it. Up until about 7 months ago, I don’t think he could believe that anyone could actually love him for him. (Mind you, we’ve been together for 13 months.) but I did. I do. I always did and always will. He doesn’t see how fucking great he is and I wish he did.
I went through a lot of shit too. I’ve been depressed for years. I’ve cut. I’ve tried to kill myself multiple times just because I didn’t wanna live the life o was living anymore but as soon as he came into my life, he made everything so much better on so many ways i can’t even name them. All I know is that I’m the happiest now than I’ve been in a long ass time and it feels so good.
Basically the point to this post is .. Well there really isn’t one. But all I’m going to say is that if you got a good thing going with someone, don’t fuck it up. If you got something going with someone you know you love and things aren’t going so good right now, hold the fuck on. Because you can’t just end things. You’re gonna see him/her with another person in a few months and be like damn. That should be me. You’re gonna sit there thinking that as Justin Bieber’s ‘that should be me’ plays in your head. Even if you never heard it before, you’re gonna hear it that day. Just hold on to whatever it is that you have. Good or bad. You never know how things are going to play out.
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