wasteland

[deadbyinsidee]

by: @desnos

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“I sat in the shower for hours hoping your presence would be swallowed by the drain But it wasn’t I stared at the wall for hours hoping your memory would diminish But it didn’t You ripped me apart from the inside out And left me to bleed on the cold tile of my dark bathroom floor My coughs and my gags were like music to your ears I can still feel your teeth digging into my skin And I have never felt so empty and hollow “You good?” still rings in my ears as if you didn’t know you had just annihilated my body and my sanity My throat still burns and my body still aches and my heart is still so unbearably heavy But its okay, Because boys will be boys.”

— No wasn’t enough

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[openblogtomyabusivemother]

This is hard. I try. I’m still learning how to love when it comes to myself. The hardest thing in the world to me is to not see myself as an awful, worthless fuck. That self perception is as deeply ingrained as my urge to breathe. But I try. I always try to be loving to others and when the feeling isn’t there, whenever I can manage it, I fake it. Because others don’t deserve to pay a price for the crimes my parents committed and that is all too often the outcome of child abuse.

[mostofmylifeisnotthere]

All the survival skills I learned as a kid are now holding me back as an adult.    

 I survived hell and now I can’t survive outside of it.

[hellfreeway]

I felt a tremendous distance between me and everything real.

Hunter S. Thompson, The Rum Diary (via hallucination)

[inhal3-paradis3]

I sat in the shower for hours hoping your presence would be swallowed by the drain But it wasn't  I stared at the wall for hours hoping your memory would diminish But it didn't  You ripped me apart from the inside out  And left me to bleed on the cold tile of my dark bathroom floor My coughs and my gags were like music to your ears  I can still feel your teeth digging into my skin And I have never felt so empty and hollow “You good?” still rings in my ears as if you didn’t know you had just annihilated my body and my sanity My throat still burns and my body still aches and my heart is still so unbearably heavy But its okay, Because boys will be boys.

No wasn’t enough (via inhal3-paradis3)

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