Inner Misfit

Not fitting fits

[innermisfit]

The abyss inside you doesn't really get smaller. You just grow bigger and older.

[innermisfit]

The longing, the crying, and the hurting become worse as the days go by; it gets heavier as time passes by. But as it gets worse, as it gets heavier, it also gets closer to coming to a halt. You come to know how to work around it, how to live with it, and how to not let it consume your whole being.

[innermisfit]

People discuss and encourage you to just get up and leave once they start mistreating you, failing to give you the love you deserve, and make you feel like the most precious person in the world. But what they forget to talk about is the pain that comes with the decision of deserving better. The longing, the sleepless nights, the sudden breakdown at any time of the day, the urge to just get back together, the constant battle between oneself whether or not they should come back, and everything else in between - they don't tell you that. They don't equip you for what's about to come with the decision of getting up and just leaving. They don't.

And that's what hurts the most. You have nowhere to go and no one to turn to. None. You'd just have to deal with it yourself, every single day, every single night. On your own. Alone.

[innermisfit]

Insecurities tend to get louder, bigger, all-consuming when people are around... Specially, the ones I know.

[innermisfit]

My brain just always decides to refuse operating.

It's like, "Okay, for today's video, I will just... *bloop*."

Always.

[innermisfit]

[innermisfit]

There's been this uneasy, inquiring feeling in me about why I feel this way - why I think this way.

I know I am loved. I sure know that. But the thing is, I don't feel it.

There is a difference between knowing there are people around to support you and feeling that they are there to support you.

A difference between seeing and hearing all these friends and family talk about how they'd be all ears if we needed them, and actually feeling comfortable and assured that there is someone waiting for you to open up anytime, without making you feel guilty for taking up their time.

That is when it dawned on me, there's a difference between knowing you are loved and feeling you are loved.

I know I am loved. I sure know that. But the thing is, I don't feel it.

[chocolatecroissant]

a gentle reminder that you don’t have to have it all figured out now. if everything seems overwhelming right now, try focusing on getting through the next hour, and if that’s too much, the next minute. you got this <3

[innermisfit]

Chapter 1 Lesson 1.pdf

Because the author is such a noob when it comes to posting things here in Tumblr, I’ll just give you guys the link :’)

Hi! Eigenwelt of Inner Misfit here. If you’re interested in psychology, here’s the first lesson of our project entitled ‘Psychology for Beginners’. There’s nothing much to say other than we hope you guys stick with us until the end.

One more thing, you are all free to download our lectures since they’re posted on google drive ^_^

(P.S - author is so bad at summaries since I’m severely sleep-deprived. Please forgive me for giving such a horrible note sksksk)

[innermisfit]

[historicalemily]

lets remember all the information y’all

[innermisfit]

Memory is prone to decay.

[mysharona1987]

[innermisfit]

Let’s learn not to belittle other professions :) Everyone is trying their best to contribute to this society so we should learn how to be inclusive, loving, and understanding.