Inner Monologue

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[innerthoughtsmonologue]

About me

Hi, so, in this age of AI content, I just want to assure you that I'm real (unfortunately) so, here are a few things about me.

You may know me as inner/ aka error_404, but you can call me Jax :)

23 yo

eng/spa/pt

bi

My favorite movies and series are the ones that make me cry, although I also love romantic comedies.

Fav movies: Past Lives, Set it Up

Fav series: Living with Yourself, Fellow Travelers, Heartstopper, Invincible, The Boys

Fav music albums: Trench (Twenty One Pilots 4life), Model from Wallows and dying lately from iamjakehill

Fav book: Looking for Alaska

About my current proyects

About the innerthoughtsmonologue blog

I started this blog because I really enjoyed writing to manage my pain and anything that disturbed my peace. I usually wrote in the morning hours and I have been doing it for years now.

Seeing my feelings written from years ago to the most current ones even seemed poetic to me, so I thought about publishing them because I believe that from any open wound flowers can come out.

About my WIP: Before we collide

Nora Pierce is a recent graduate who has just started her life as a writer. She thought that was the biggest change she would experience, but she was wrong. She would soon realize that there was more to discover from that moment on, not only about the world, but also about herself.

Nora lives in the shadows of her own heart, aware that something beats differently inside her, but she hides within herself so as not to crumble under the expectations of others.

There is something inside her of which she is unaware and which, like the flowers, seeks the light. But just when Nora thinks she can follow her heart, she is faced with an unbreakable barrier that stands between her and the truth.

Soon she will realize that she is so close, yet so far away, from finally being who she is. Unafraid, free from the shadows that haunt her.

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Available in English and Spanish:)

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I hate living in my head, I always miss the present.

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I discovered most of the music I like because I once loved someone very much.

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I would rather be left to suffer thinking about why I am not enough than to think about why I may be desired but not loved.

[tenderwatches]

sometimes you need dialogue tags and don't want to use the same four

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NEW CHAPTERS OMG WTFFFF

HAPPY (late, sorry) NEW YEAR EVERYONEEE, I hope this year we end all of our drafts and get millions of views.

ANYWAY, HERE´S MORE CHAPTERS OF BEFORE WE COLLIDE

Click to check it out!

[happiest]

can I stay in bed until 2025

[jdididydog]

Wake up bitch

[memepocalypse]

Gentle Care

Taking care of them...

"Hey, it's okay. Show me?"

"What did they do to you?"

"Don't cry - I've got you."

"That's okay - get it all out."

"Deep breath, I have you."

"Sh, sh, I'm going to patch you up."

"I've got a bandage for you."

"This is going to sting, but we have to clean this."

"Oh - okay - we're hugging about this, okay."

"It'll all feel better in the morning."

"I can't believe someone would do this to you..."

"I'm going to protect you."

"Get some rest. I'm not going anywhere."

"You're safe now."

"I'm just going to wipe your face."

"When's the last time you cried like this?"

"There's nothing wrong with you, I promise."

"One day, you'll be okay. For now? It's okay to hurt."

"You want a hug?"

"I've got a blanket for you."

"Nice and cosy..."

"It's okay if you fall asleep."

"Just get some rest. You need it."

"Hey, I made you food."

"I know it's easy to forget to eat when you feel like this."

"You don't need to feel guilty."

"It wasn't your fault."

"Do you want a hot chocolate?"

"There's nothing better than a toasted marshmallow."

"Just hold onto me. There we go."

[silent-insanities]

Let this year be different.

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Love is a language my soul will never learn and for someone whose veins bleed ink, it’s a cruel joke, to create beauty from a pain so endless, knowing I’ll only ever write about love, never feel it.

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Always the poet, never the poem

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Last year we started to talk again when you wished me a happy new year.

I was hoping you'd do the same. But you didn't.

I didn't receive any message, not even a missed phone call. And I guess that was the message.

It's time to face it, what we used to have had to stay in 2023, and that's okay. It's time to move on, to grow, to leave.

Thank you for not calling.

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Your worth doesn't reflect on how hard you work or how many nights you're willing to stay awake just to meet your deadline. Your worth is in how you treat people, how you treat yourself, in who you are when there's only you in the room.

You're not defined by grades or how many degrees do you have but in simple actions that you do for others.

Happy New Year :)

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I used to think I would only find peace in death, silence, or oblivion, but maybe peace is elsewhere, in parts I haven't discovered yet or didn't even know existed.

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I want to be everything

The other day, I attended the New Year's toast of the company where I work. They were giving awards for years of service, including awards for people who had been working there for more than 10 years. I was just thinking about how sad it was to have been in one job for so long. It saddens me to think about being just one thing for the rest of my life. I don't want to be just one thing forever.

I want to be everything.

[perfectquote]

“You’re still my favorite ‘what-if’.”

— just-useless-things // 3 years later

[swedenis-h]

Wife lovers till they die

[grayandbleu]

my art from 2024 :3