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Angel, 23, Northern Ireland, studying in Kingston, enjoying life, food, music, gamer. Hi

[dailyscrolls]

I am a firm believer in true love. I do believe that there is someone out there for me who will eventually sweep me off my feet and make me wonder why I ever settled for anybody else. There is a man out there for me, with whom I will celebrate countless anniversaries, Valentine’s Days and birthdays. There is a man with whom I will be able to get through any fight, distance or hardship, knowing that nothing will ever change. There is a man out there with whom I will share an unbreakable bond, held together by the deep desires of love. But not today. I don’t want someone I “won’t be able to imagine my life without.” I don’t want someone to “have my whole heart.” I don’t want someone to be “my whole world,” or “my rock,” or “my better half.” I don’t want somebody who can understand me better than I can understand myself. I want to feel whole. I want to be my own rock, my own anchor, my own soul mate. I want to understand myself better than anyone else can. I don’t want to look back and hate myself for altering my future for someone else when I know I wasn’t ready to. That’s why I don’t want to find the man I will love forever today. Or tomorrow. Or the day after that.

For those who know me, you know that when I fall, I fall fast and I fall hard. I am a hopeless romantic who wears my heart on my sleeve. I simply love the idea of being in love. I can’t remember a time in my life when I didn’t have some type of interest in a guy. I love having a “texting buddy.” I love feeling desired. I have gotten hurt a few times, but I always pick myself up and try to move on. Moving on is hard for me, though, simply because I love being in love. I’ve called guys my “better half” and my “rock.” I’ve convinced myself that I couldn’t picture my life without them. I’m starting to realize now that that’s the last thing I want in my future relationship. Especially as a young woman in my early 20s. Before I enter into any serious relationship, I need to feel like I’m complete. And I need to be able to feel complete while completely alone.

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[yarter-deactivated20170523]

You should never feel like you’re on someone’s waiting list.

[wordsnquotes]

To stand in front of a person who is your whole world and be told you are not enough. You are not the choice. You are a shadow to the person who is your sun.

Victoria Aveyard, King’s Cage (via wordsnquotes)

[itsagifnotagif]

I am deceased

[virguin]

how can i be ready for future when i’m not even ready to get up in the morning

[quotethat]

You ruin your life by desensitizing yourself. We are all afraid to say too much, to feel too deeply, to let people know what they mean to us. Caring is not synonymous with crazy. Expressing to someone how special they are to you will make you vulnerable. There is no denying that. However, that is nothing to be ashamed of. There is something breathtakingly beautiful in the moments of smaller magic that occur when you strip down and are honest with those who are important to you. Let that girl know that she inspires you. Tell your mother you love her in front of your friends. Express, express, express. Open yourself up, do not harden yourself to the world, and be bold in who, and how you love. There is courage in that.

Bianca Sparacino (via quotethat)

[quotethat]

Be alone. Eat alone, take yourself on dates, sleep alone. In the midst of this you will learn about yourself. You will grow, you will figure out what inspires you, you will curate your own dreams, your own beliefs, your own stunning clarity, and when you do meet the person who makes your cells dance, you will be sure of it, because you are sure of yourself.

Bianca Sparacino (via quotethat)

[senseitive]

yeah hes cute but does he care about your mental health

[unshrink]

its so hard for me to calculate anything in inches without thinking about dick

[guiltygirl]

i like to pretend i’m emotionless but i have at least 200 mood swings a day

[thegoodvybe]

[venus-is-in-bloom]

i enjoy video games because they let me live out my wildest fantasies, like being assigned a task and then completing that task

[wherewritersblockcomestodie]

“I don’t want to face a day without him,” she told me. She could hardly breathe and I could hear her runny nose through the phone. “I don’t want to go to sleep and wake up in a world where he doesn’t love me anymore.” Until that exact moment, I had no idea that hearing others suffer was much more painful than suffering yourself. I let the tears fall down my face silently, but I made my voice stay level. “But you will,” I told her. “You will wake up in the morning, and he won’t love you anymore. But I will still love you. Your friends will still love you. Your family will still love you. And you will learn to love yourself. You will pick yourself back up, and you’ll become someone stronger than before. Edgier. Funnier. Just..better than the old you. And you’ll wake up in this new world, as a new girl, and you’ll keep living. Each day, it will stop hurting as much. You won’t notice it at first, until one day you wake up and there’s nothing to miss.” I paused, swallowing the lump in my throat. “You just have to make it to that day, okay?”

excerpt from an unfinished book #132 // Phone calls you wish you never had to receive (via un-predictible)

[shewillfeatdrake]

people who read while listening to music are very talented and are probably going to hell 

[vampiregerards]

me, writing academic text: these words make no sense but they sound impressive next to each other. this sentence started four lines back and has 4 commas but i haven’t reached my point yet. help me

[bpdjanedoe]

My English teacher: This assignment is fairly easy! Just write about your happiest moments! :)

Me: my what now

[flowerinaflame]

Know and make an effort to interact with your partner in their preferred love language their needs re: displays of affection most likely differ from yours