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✨ 18 | lesbian | nonbinary (they/them)

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helloooooo i don’t work this weekend, so im going to try to sit down and write a bit! i’m not sure what im gonna write, ive got that WIP of geto and choso but honestly i dont even remember where i wrote it down. if u have any requests pls lmk

#choso #choso kamo #jjk #geto suguru #jjk fanfic #jjk smut

insidethewallss

yes master!

✨ pairing: choso kamo x reader

✨ 1.6k words

✨ cw: sub!choso, pathetic!choso, pet names (master, baby, good boy, pretty boy), cross dressing, footjob, cock-stepping, orgasm denial, face sitting, praise, squirting, pegging, sex toys, handjob, overstimulation

✨ MDNI

✨ an: everybody say thank you to my beta reader, soph!!

choso was completely and utterly infatuated with you. everything you do was so mesmerizing to him. you’ve taught him so much about human culture and he could never repay you. so of course, he does anything you ask him to without question. need your sink fixed? hes watching a youtube video and getting it done. need someone to hold your bags when you go on a shopping spree? he’s there, swiping his card every time.

so when you asked to dominate him, of course he said yes. he didn’t know exactly what all that entailed, but he knew that you would take care of him, he trusted you.

“do i really have to wear this, m-master? it’s so embarrassing,” choso whines, his face heating up. he’s dressed in a tight crop top, a short skirt and knee high socks. the skirt is just barely long enough to cover his hardening erection. when you brought out the clothes for him to wear he was kind of confused. weren't these women's clothes? was he even allowed to wear them? why would you want to see him in them? but after you explained the appeal to him, he started to understand. it was still embarrassing, but if it would turn you on, he’d do just about anything.

“yes baby, you look so pretty on your knees, all dressed up for me. don’t you feel pretty?” you say, a grin on your face. you knew choso was down bad for you, but you didn’t realize just how far he’d go to please you.

the praise made choso turn even redder, his cheeks heating up in flames. he tries to look away, but you turn his chin back with the toe of your black heels. choso’s always loved those heels on you, and he couldn't deny how much it was turning him on to be touched by them.

you slowly drag your heel down his neck, down his chest, briefly stopping at his nipples. “do you like my heels baby? i wore them just for you,” you say, enjoying how much choso was already squirming.

“y-yes baby, i love them, i love your heels,” he stammers out. you push your pointy heel into him, and he yelps out.

“what did i tell you to call me? are you purposefully disobeying me?” you ask, piercing him with your gaze.

“n-no master! i would never disobey you! i’m so sorry, please forgive m-me!” he stutters as you drag your heel lower and lower, over his abs, stopping just before the place he needed you most. the imprint of his hard cock was visible through the little skirt, a wet spot already forming from where he was leaking.

“do you want me to step on your cock? hm, baby?” he nods quickly, but you tap your chin and hum. “i dont know baby, have you been a good boy? do you think you deserve to get off using my foot?” you ask him, taking pride in how desperate he looks right now.

“yes master, i’ll be so good for you! i’ll be your good boy, just please step on my cock, please.” you smile sweetly at his pleas as if he wasn’t falling apart in front of you. you softly ghost the toe of your heel over his cock and he whines out. you move up and down, adding slightly more pressure each time.

“p-please master, harder. i want you to step on my cock h-harder.” you grin at his eagerness. you press down harder and he whimpers loudly, leaking so much that the wet spot on his skirt gets bigger. you move your foot up and down, keeping the pressure steady. choso starts panting and you can feel him shaking, you know he’s getting close.

so of course, you completely remove your foot from his cock, ceasing all his pleasure.

“wh-what? master why did you stop? i was so close! please, please! i need it!” he begged. you shake your head at choso, and he whimpers. he snuggles his face up to your legs, looking up at you with teary eyes. you almost caved and let him finish, but you held strong.

“get on the bed choso, on your back. be a good boy for me.” you command, and he gets up on wobbly legs and makes his way to the bed. he lays down, and you crawl on top of him. without warning, you sit your warm pussy right on his face. his eyes go wide with surprise that turns into pleasure as he starts to eat you out.

“fuck baby, you loved being used as my seat don’t you? you’re such a good chair for me, i love you,” he nods from under you, his cock leaking onto his stomach. your praise makes him go crazy, makes him wanna work harder for you. hearing you call him a good boy always makes him so happy, even if it’s for something small like making you a snack.

you grab ahold of his hair, grinding on his face, using him to get yourself off. choso wraps his arms around your thighs, pulling you down harder on his face. from the looks of it, you’d think he wanted to suffocate himself with your pussy, which isn’t entirely wrong.

choso uses his tongue and nose to fuck you, and he uses his fingers to circle your clit. fuck, he could come just from this. you taste sweet, yet also salty, like dipping french fries in your milkshake. but no food would ever compare to your taste. no, nothing could ever mesmerize him as much as the taste of your cunt.

you tighten around his tongue, your movements getting sloppier the closer you get to your climax. one suck to your pulsing clit, you spray clear liquid all over choso’s face. you gasp in surprise, you’ve never had a man make you squirt before.

as you get up off of choso’s face, you notice something quite peculiar. choso’s cum was all over his abs, he had come completely untouched. he noticed too, and tried to hide his face in his pillow. you grab his chin and make him look at you.

“my pretty boy, got so worked up over eating me out, yeah? you made me feel so good, you’re such a good boy,” you say, leaning to capture choso in a kiss. you can taste your cum on his lips, his chin still dripping.

“m-master, i um, i have a request,” choso stammers, his face turning red again.

“what is it baby?”

“can you um, can you peg me?”

you almost came again right then and there. you’ve had a strap-on for a while, but choso has been too shy to ask for it, until now that is. he’s never been fucked before, minus a finger here and there and the occasional anal plug.

“of course baby, you rest here, let me go get ready,” you kiss him on the forehead and get off the bed. you walk over to your closet and reach into the drawer holding your sex toys. digging through bullet vibrators, hand cuffs, and butt plugs, you find the harness. you pull it over your legs and tighten it. choosing which dildo to use was difficult. you knew he could take a big anal plug, but dildos were a whole other ballpark. you chose a medium sized one, maybe 6.5 inches, bright purple, and just slightly curved up.

you turn back to choso, who is now on his hands and knees, pretty ass up in the air.

“look at my pretty boy, so eager to get fucked. you’re all ready for me aren’t you? i might not even need to prep you,” you grab a bottle of warming lube, and pour it onto the dildo.

“yes master, i’m all ready for you. please just fuck me!” you walk over to where he lies on the bed and position yourself behind him. you line your silicone cock up with his tight hole. you tease his rim with the dildo, earning a muffled whine from choso. “please master, no teasing, i’ve been so good for you.”

you push halfway into choso’s ass, giving him a few seconds to adjust to the new sensation.

“ah-! that’s oh i’m- i- it feels so um, different… but i like it. please give me more!” he whimpers as you push the remaining inches into his ass, almost reaching the base of the silicone cock. he yells out in pleasure, earning a big grin from you.

“do you like my cock baby? you like how much i fill you up?” you start a slow pace, pulling out and pushing back in. as choso starts to get comfortable, he begs, no, pleads, for you to move faster, and how could you deny him? hes been such a good boy for you.

the sounds of skin slapping and loud moans echo in your shared bedroom. choso can’t even squeak out words anymore, just slurred sounds and whimpers. you love seeing him fall apart in real time, you should have convinced him to let you fuck his ass sooner.

you reach down around his torso to reach his cock. he’s leaking onto the sheets, and you scoop up his precum and use it to lube his cock. choso jolts from the sudden overstimulation. his body starts shaking, and you know hes getting close. with the combined pressure from your dildo fucking him and your hand jacking him off, he slams into his climax and cries out.

“that’s it, good boy, cum for me. let go for your master. good job baby,” you coo, slowly pulling out. choso slumps onto the bed, exhausted, but pleased. as you struggle to get out of the harness you hear him trying to get up to help you.

“no baby, just stay there, you were so good for me, let me clean you up.” you grab wet wipes and a towel to gently clean him up. you sit him on the floor while you change the sheets. once the bed is clean, you guys cuddle up close, choso already softly snoring.

insidethewallss

wdym this is at like 200 likes 🫪 guys maybe i should try to write again. sighhhh not enough time in the day

#choso #choso kamo #jjk #jjk smut

jxcyt

top 5 (technically 15) jjk writers but no one asked

jujutsu kaisen only..

literally no one asked for this but I hope some accounts get more recognition from this.

this is NOT in order from how much I like the accounts this is just a list of accounts

top 5 writing accounts

@sukunahs - has some genuinely heart wrenching and amazing stories. sukuna x reader focused. writes everything and anything its amazing and I love them. (I'd recommend reading To Distant Lands. it made me sob)

@madamechrissy - I have cried to her fics more times then I'd like to admit. amazing at writing smut, fluff, angst. basically a jack of all trades. (reccomend reading Pour It Up, super interesting premise and very well written)

@5yzygy - another sukuna centric blog, mostly writing smut, but ofc they write angst and fluff too. great vibes all around BE CAREFUL IF YOUR ADVERSE TO REALLLYYY FREAKY STUFF(nothing ilegal)

(recommend reading Someone Call HR read the tags before you read it... you have been warned)

@blkkizzat

literally on the same freakquency wavelengths... I love it so much. not afraid to go into full details, and I love that in my writers

(recommend Make Me Sweat, Make Me Water genuinely made my mouth water...)

@gwonty

a relatively small catalogue but absolutely NO MISSES... can y'all tell I'm FREAKED OUT yet??

(recommend self sucker!gojo part 1 is good but it really just sets up for the masterpiece that is part 2)

smau writers (4)

@thebussyinspector

FREAKKKAYYYY smaus. if you wanted sub- jjk men(I do) they will provide. pegging CENTRAL

@poptherox

actually so underrated they cook SOOO goddamn hard.. I love their pre- hidden inventory yeaner gojo smaus

@bluebaerie

technically not JUST smaus but that's the main focus of their content

@saintkaylaa

makes smaus for like a millionnnn different fandoms hehe. angst hurts

5th is in next category

smaus AND regular writers (6)

@nanaslutt

currently on semi-break. smaus are 10/10, fics are appropriately kinky

@reignpage

honestly take a day off to read EVERYTHING on their account... NO MISSES.

@caramelluxe mootie

hella funny smaus and COOKS when she writes

@bluukive

is superrr creative and writes stuff ive never seen other writers touch

@retiredteabag

healthy mix of written and smau, noooo nsfw!!

@coralbae

another just genuinely good writer with a large variety

i hope these creators don't mind me tagging them :'(

insidethewallss

love how this list is just my fyp

guys i’m back, and im writing geto x reader x choso

uh. so having a job sucks and uh. i haven’t been writing. SORRYYYYYY but!!! i’ll try to find time this weekend to write!!!

ID GIVE U MY SOUL FOR THAT GETO X CHOSO FIC WITH VOYEUR READER OMLLL

it will be written don’t worry heheheh right now the poll says the nanami fic is winning, so i’ll probably write that first but fear not my child! we will see geto and choso getting freaky

(follow to see it)

what should i write next

divorce lawyer!higuruma

geto x choso (voyeur!reader)

nanami wants a baby

shoko angst :(

Voting ended onSep 28, 2025

#jjk #jjk smut #jjk angst #jjk fanfiction #jjk fanfic #choso kamo #choso #higuruma hiromi #shoko ieiri #shoko #smut #angst #nanami #nanami kento

insidethewallss

one like and ill post choso x reader x yuki smut 💕

insidethewallss

it’s posted

help us!

✨ pairing: bf!choso x reader x bff!yuki

✨ 2.7k words

✨ cw: threesome, oral (m and f recieving), making out, groping, sub!choso, softdom!yuki, switch!reader, nicknames (sweetheart, baby, good boy), titty sucking, dry humping, fingering, squirting, pussydrunk!choso (ngh), cock piercings, cum eating, possible polyamory?

✨ MDNI

✨ an: i already have a part two planned.... lmk if yall want it

your boyfriend, simply put, was not good at eating pussy. you didn’t blame him, you were each other's first everything, and choso was always so eager that you just didn’t have the heart to tell him that he wasn’t doing it right.

“girl you need to talk him through it! tell him what you like, what you don’t like, you know, praise him when he does good.” your best friend yuki says with a grin.

yuki was somewhat of a professional. she was into casual hookups and had a lot of experience with both men and women. you’d always been a bit envious of her, not because you were unhappy with choso, god no. he was the perfect man in every way… except in the bedroom. she just always seemed so knowledgeable about these things in a way you and choso weren’t.

so when yuki offered to teach your boyfriend a thing or two, you practically jumped at the idea. you knew choso would be difficult to convince, he never so much as glanced at another woman, so letting one into your bedroom seemed impossible. but you had a plan.

you, choso, and yuki were sitting in the living room of your apartment. you and yuki share a look, and you took a deep breath.

“cho, you know i love you right?” choso’s face immediately descends into panic. “no, you can’t break up with me! please baby i love you!” he drops to his knees in front of you, tears already forming in his eyes.

“oh my god! choso, im not breaking up with you! please calm down baby,” you caress his face and wipe away his tears. choso sniffles, getting back up from his knees and sitting back down on the couch.

“cho baby, i was talking with yuki, and i think she might be able to help us in some areas where we aren’t.. um.. as connected.” you try to sugar coat it, but by the confused look on choso’s face you can tell he doesn’t understand.

“honey what are you talking about? am i doing something wrong?” you sighed, knowing that you were just going have to say it outright.

“baby, yuki is gonna show you how to eat me out. i love you so much and you’re so good for me, but yuki is just here to guide us, i think it will be helpful”

choso pauses for a minute, clearly processing what you had said. he knew that he usually took a more submissive position in the bedroom, but he never thought that would contribute to him not being able to please you properly. he thought you were satisfied, but he was obviously doing something wrong. this realization only fueled his desire to become better for you.

“well… if you really think she would be able to help us, i guess i’m okay with it. i’ll do anything to make you feel good.” he said with the oh so familiar puppy dog look in his eyes.

“so where do i start?” the three of you were sitting on your king sized bed, you in the middle of choso and yuki.

“well, foreplay is always first. do you know what gets her fired up?” yuki questions him. choso looks down shyly. “um, i think so?”

yuki shakes her head. “that’s not good enough. you need to talk to her beforehand and ask her these things, your sole focus should be on giving her the best experience.” choso hesitates, looking over at you. you give him a small nod, and he smiles softly, slowly gaining confidence.

“sweetheart, what do you like during foreplay? is there anything specific i should know?” you smile at him as your cheeks heat up, thinking of a response.

“hmm.. well i love it when i’m on top while we’re kissing. i really like it when your hands are on me, specifically my waist, chest and neck.” choso nods, taking in the information. “ooh! i also really love it when you kiss my neck and chest!”

yuki smiles at the two of you, happy that she’s already helping, and clothes haven’t even been stripped off yet. choso turns and looks to yuki for guidance, seemingly over the discomfort of looking to another woman for advice in the bedroom. his sole focus is on pleasing you.

“go ahead cho, do what she says. be a good boy.” yuki guides, and he turns red at the use of the nickname. choso picks you up by the waist and sits you on his lap. he slowly moves his hands up and down your waist, just observing your body like it was a sculpture in a museum. his hands gently moved up to your chest, groping and squeezing through your shirt. he tugs at the hem, and you take that as a sign to pull your shirt over your head and toss it across the room.

after admiring you for a second, and leans forward and takes one of your nipples into his mouth. his warm tongue swirls around your bud before giving it a playful nip. with his other hand, he gropes your other breast, before switching sides, making sure to give them both equal attention. your arms find their place resting on his shoulders and he slowly starts to move his mouth upwards, kissing and sucking your skin, leaving a trail of marks on his path.

he gets to your neck, kissing and licking until there it is! he finds the one spot on the side of your neck that makes you melt. your head tilts back in pleasure, and your hips start to grind down on his lap. choso moans into your neck, clearly enjoying the friction.

you suddenly feel hands on your waist from behind, and you hear yuki giggle at your startled face. her hands move down to your hips, helping them roll over choso’s lap.

“f-fuck it’s hard to keep going when you grind on me like that.” choso groans, but yuki gives him a strict look.

“no, this is about her, you don’t get to stop.” choso whimpers softly and starts kissing up your neck, moving to your chin, and finally he kisses your lips. it’s soft at first, loving and calm. but the harder yuki forces your hips down the sloppier you and choso get.

you bite his bottom lip and he whimpers, and you take that opportunity to slide your tongue into his mouth. tongues swirling and saliva swapping , you moan into each other's mouth until a firm hand gently pulls your face away from choso’s.

“alright, you two are clearly worked up enough,” yuki says, eyeing the wet patch on choso’s sweatpants. “now on to lesson two. let’s get you moved into a more comfortable position.”

yuki lifts you up off of choso’s lap with ease, turning you around so that now your back is to her chest, and choso is in front of you. she snakes her arms around your bare chest, hands resting just below your boobs.

“cho, i want you to slowly take off her bottoms.” yuki commands, and choso swiftly obeys. he unbuttons your pants, and pulls down the zipper. he lifts up your hips and pulls your pants off. feeling exposed, you try to close your legs, but yuki forces them open again.

“yuki, tell me what to do next please! i want to be good!” choso begs, already glued to your thighs. yuki laughs at his eagerness. you really weren’t lying when you said he’d do anything for you. “feel her through her panties. feel how wet she is, cho.”

choso swipes his thumb over your covered slit, surprised at how soaked you already are. he drags his finger up and down, before experimentally licking you over your panties. the gasp you let out pushes him to keep going, licking and sucking on you through your panties. you hear yuki chuckle from behind you as she grabs your chin and turns you face towards her. she captures your lips in a kiss and a muffled sound of surprise comes from choso. he always thought he was a one girl kind of guy, but the way his cock throbs at the sight of you and yuki making out might just change his mind.

yuki shoves her tongue in your mouth, kissing you open. she gives a small side glace to choso, and she smiles into your mouth when she sees his pout. she pulls away, pressing small kisses into the side of your cheek and down your neck.

“looks like someone’s jealous,” yuki says with a grin. choso looks away, clearly upset that you were giving yuki so much attention when he was being so good for you. you grab his face and lean down to press a kiss to his forehead.

“cho, you’re doing so good for me baby.” his face (and cock) perks up at the praise, you swear if he had a tail it would be wagging right now. “go on baby, take off my panties.”

choso wastes no time, lifting your hips to peel your underwear off, not so sneakily putting it in his pocket. he hesitates, knowing that he can’t mess up now that yuki is watching, but he’s nervous. what if even after all of this he can’t please you? what if yuki can make you feel better than he can? he shakes his head. no, yuki is just here to help, she would never take you away from him.

“yuki, um… what should i do first?” choso asks sheepishly, now a lot more embarrassed he’s asking her for help. yuki smiles sweetly before reaching her hand between your thighs. she uses her skilled fingers to spread your wet folds and you jolt at the sudden touch.

“go ahead and lick her, try to go as deep as you can with your tongue. you can do it choso, i know you can.” yuki says encouragingly, and choso does just that. he licks a long stripe up your cunt, flicking his tongue just before he reaches your sensitive clit. with yuki spreading you apart, he has a clear view of your warm center and it makes him drool. you attacks you with his mouth, fucking his tongue in and out of your tight hole. it feels good, but it wasn’t enough.

“choso, she needs more. use your fingers.” yuki instructs him, and honestly, hearing her tell him what to do only gets you wetter. choso slowly inserts one of his thick fingers, letting you adjust to the sudden intrusion. he focuses his tongue on your throbbing clit while thrusting his finger in and out of you.

“m-more cho, please give me more,” you moan, breathless as he adds another finger in. his fingers are working like a piston, but it’s not quite right. you look up at yuki panting, and she understands.

“cho, curl your fingers up, you have to find her g-spot. just thrusting your fingers won’t do any good unless you find that spot. he nods, determined to make you cum on his face. he curls his fingers up slightly, trying to find the spot yuki was talking about. a yelp from you lets him know he found it, and he takes advantage of it. he abuses that sensitive area with his fingers while he uses his tongue to suck your bundle of nerves. “damn, you’re a quick learner choso.”

“i- i think- it feels, yuki it feels weird. i th-think somethings wrong,” you stutter. a strange feeling builds up in your core, one you had never felt before.

“it’s okay baby, just relax and let go.” yuki reassures you. one last strong thrust to your cunt and you’re spraying on choso’s face. his eyes widen in surprise as he realizes whats happening, and he goes back in to drink it all up. the look in his eyes makes him seem drunk, and he is. he’s drunk on your pussy.

choso sits back up, and takes your face in his hands. he kisses you deeply and you can taste yourself on his lips. you softly push on his chest, needing to catch your breath. he looks at you with those sweet brown eyes, clearly proud of himself.

“did i do it baby? did i make you feel good?” you stare at him in disbelief. you just squirted for the first time, on his face, and he has the audacity to ask if he did a good job.

“yes baby you did so good for me,” you squeak out. your eyes trail down choso’s body. his shirt is soaked, probably with a mix of sweat, drool, and your release. your eyes land on his crotch, or rather, the big ass cum stain on his sweatpants. “cho… did you cum in your pants from eating me out?”

choso covers his face with his hands, but you can see his ears reddening. you and yuki share a laugh, amused by his fluster. you grab choso’s hands, pulling them down from his face.

“oh cho, don’t be embarrassed,” you say to him sweetly, “me and yuki think its very hot that you came in your pants.” he looks at you for any hints of sarcasm but he can’t find any.

“in fact,” yuki says, lifting you up and sitting you on the floor before sitting next to you, “let us clean you up. you were such a good boy for us, it’s the least we can do for you.” you nod enthusiastically, and choso thinks hes going to pass the fuck out.

“o-ok,” he stutters, but you were already pulling his waistband down, revealing his cock, already hard once again. it was pretty, not too long, but thick, with pretty piercings that you loved so much. seeing his pretty cock covered in his own cum made you and yuki drool.

yuki starts at the base of his dick, licking up the dripping cum. you lick at his tip, right where you know he’s sensitive. he shudders, leaning back and breathing heavily. you and yuki take turns sucking, one of you taking him down your throat while the other one uses their hand on what your mouth can’t reach, as well as massaging his balls. you swirl your tongue around his dick, paying special attention to his piercings. after all, he got them just for you after you told him how hot you think they are.

the overstimulation is too much for choso, he grabs onto the back of your head, gripping your hair. he guides you up and down on his cock, fucking your face how he desprately needs, and who are you to say no?

“i’m- i’m gonna, fuck, im gonna come. where do you want me baby?” before you could respond, yuki answered him for you.

“down her throat, she can take it all.” you nod, eager to taste more of him. you take him down as far as you can, gagging a bit, and choso comes with a whimper. you take it all, popping your mouth off his dick and swallowing what's left of his cum.

“oh my god” is all choso can say before flopping down on the bed. you join him, cuddling up to your boyfriend. yuki stands off to the side, seemingly feeling shy despite taking the lead this entire time. “what’s wrong yuki?” choso asks, also noticing her strange behavior.

“oh well i mean i helped you guys, so i guess it’s time for me to leave right?” she starts grabbing her things, but choso grabs her sleeve.

“you don’t have to leave. i know you’re just as tired as we are. come lay with us for a bit. she hesitated at first, she didn’t want to intrude on your alone time. but then she realized how stupid she sounded. she just sucked your boyfriend off after watching him eat you out, you really can’t ‘intrude’ any more than that.

yuki puts her stuff back down and gets into bed with you two. you’re all tired, but choso and yuki are still in caretaker mode, so they don’t dare fall asleep before you. once they hear your soft snores, they relax, both drifting off to sleep. yuki could get used to this, and from the looks of it, you and choso could too.

an: so uh... part two?

#jjk #jjk smut #jjk fanfiction #choso smut #chosoyuki smut #yuki smut #yuki tsukumo #choso kamo #chosoyuki x reader #sub!choso #softdom!yuki #i need them to sandwich me #pls fuck me #ngh

one like and ill post choso x reader x yuki smut 💕

#choso x reader x yuki #chosoyuki x reader #choso #choso kamo #yuki #yuki tsukumo #jjk #jjk smut #choso smut #yuki smut

can't sleep?

✨ pairing: megumi fushiguro x reader

✨ 1.7k words

✨ cw: angst, comfort, mentions of death, m*hito mentioned, sad megumi

✨ an: this fic is sfw, but MDNI regardless

every night, you saw him. the stitches on his face, his long blue hair, his maniacal laugh echoing in your mind. you’re always running as fast as you can, but you were never quick enough. never able to reach her, never able to save her. it always ends the same. the look of despair on her face as it contorts into a monstrosity is forever ingrained in your memory.

your eyes shoot open, your mouth still screaming as you were in your dream. your sheets are soaked with warm sweat, and yet you’re still shivering as if it was the middle of winter. you hug your knees to your chest and stare at your feet.

‘why am i not fast enough? why am i never enough? why couldn’t i save her?’

your thoughts are interrupted by the sliding door to your dorm room slamming open, revealing a concerned looking megumi. he rushes to your side, cupping your face in his hands.

“are you okay? are you hurt?” megumi asks in a panic, silently surveying the room for any sight of danger. it doesn’t appear as if you were attacked by a curse, but your screams were full of pure terror, so he had to make sure. you look up at him with tears forming in your eyes, and his face softens.

“it was another dream, wasn’t it?” you nod, looking away in shame. why weren’t you brave enough to handle this on your own? its been 6 months since she died, why can’t you move on?

megumi briefly leaves your side to grab a cup of water and a dry towel. he hands you the cup and pats you dry as you drink. he looks at the soaked sheets, the blankets and pillows thrown on the floor, and he sighs. you haven’t told him what your dreams were about yet, but he knew it was bad. he just wanted to help you, he hated seeing you in pain like this.

“you should get out of those wet clothes, i’ll leave the room.” megumi turns to leave but you grab his sleeve.

“i- i don’t want to be alone right now. please don’t leave me. just… turn around.” megumi hesitates, but in the end he turns around and covers his eyes. if it would make you feel safer, he’d do just about anything. you change into different pajamas, some shorts and one of her shirts. it makes you feel safe, like maybe she’s still around.

“you can look now, i’m dressed.” megumi turns around slowly and walks over to you. he grabs your hand and leads you out of your dorm room. without a word, he leads you to his room and points to his bed.

“you can get comfortable, i’ll go get us some water and snacks.” megumi leaves you alone in his room, but you know he’ll be back. you look around his room. you’ve been in here before, obviously, but its so different at night, its calm. you glance at his bed, nervous to intrude. you sit politely on the side of the mattress, looking down at your intertwined fingers. he’s always been so kind to you. he’s a little off putting to others, the rbf will do that, but he’s never looked at you the way he looks at everyone else. there’s always been a soft protectiveness in his eyes, ever since the day he and gojo saved you.

megumi walks back into his room, a confused look on his face when he sees you barely sitting on the bed.

“i told you to get comfortable, didn't i? you can lie on the bed, it's fine. i just didn’t want you to have to sit alone in your damp sheets.” he sets the snacks and drinks down, and motions you to move further into the bed. you grab one of his small blankets and wrap it around yourself. it smells like him, you can’t quite pinpoint what the scent is, but it's warm and comforting. megumi scooches on the bed next to you, careful not to get too close in case you didn’t want to be touched. you’re sitting side by side, legs almost touching.

“thank you megumi, you didn’t have to do all of this. i’ve gotten pretty good at taking care of myself after nightmares.” he shook his head with a sigh.

“no, i know what its like. i’ve had nightmares for years, there’s a difference between ‘taking care of it’ and actually being okay. i want you to be okay.” you smile at him and lean your head on his shoulder. he stiffens up slightly, but relaxes once he realizes you’re comfortable with the physical touch.

“can i, can i tell you about my dream?” you turn and look at megumi, and he looks back down at you with a small smile. you make eye contact for a second before he turns away, blushing slightly.

“you don’t have to. i don’t need to know about it to help you. but if you want to, i’ll always be here to listen.” you lay your head back on his shoulder and take a deep breath.

“we were just walking home from school. we never caused any trouble. my best friend, she was my world. my parents passed away five years ago in an accident and her family took me in. they treated me like i was their own. i knew there was something different with me, a certain aura that had always followed me around. the other kids stayed away from me, i think they could sense something was off with me. i think she knew it too, but she never let it affect the way she saw me.” you smile fondly on your good memories, before frowning, remembering what you were supposed to be talking about.

“we decided to take a short cut home that day, and thats when we ran into him. mahito,” you shudder at the name,but you continue one.

“we thought he was just some homeless man, begging for money,” you giggle, “but then he smiled. he started walking towards us, picking up pace the closer he got. we bolted down the street, but he caught up. my friend was ahead of me, and mahito ran towards her. its like i wasn’t even there, he just sprinted right past me. i tried, i ran as fast as i could. but i wasn’t fast enough.” a tear slides down your face, and megumi reaches a thumb up to wipe it away. he nods, listening intently. you take a deep breath in and smell her lingering scent on your shirt. its faded, but you would never mistake it. the memory gives you the strength to keep going.

“when he caught up to her, it was instant. just one touch of his hand on her shoulder and she was contorting and transforming into a monster. she looked back at me, begging to save her, but i didn’t. i couldn’t. i was a coward. her arm reached out for me, but i had already turned and started to run away. i ran away from the one girl who never judged me. i abandoned her. thats when i ran into you and gojo. you’re the only reason im alive.”

megumi looked at you with pain in his eyes. he remembers that day vividly. he was being dragged around by gojo to a new kikufuku stand when you ran right into him. megumi was about to scoff and tell you off, but then he actually looked at you. your hair was a mess, mascara running down your face, and your clothes were ripped at the sleeve. he immediately sensed your overwhelming cursed energy, but you didn’t seem to sense it yourself. gojo took you to the school, where you’ve been for the last six months.

“you didn’t abandon her,” megumi says softly, his hand laying on top of yours. “you couldn’t have saved her. if you hadn’t started running, you could have been hurt too.” you sniffle, tears still running down your face.

“i get bad dreams too sometimes. mostly it’s just of me dying or my friends getting hurt, but every so often i’ll get a dream of a man with a scar on his lip. he’s always glaring at me as some woman leads me away, but i always get the feeling that i’m supposed to stay with him. i don’t know who he is though, i’ve asked gojo about a man with a scar on his lip, but he says he doesn’t know who i’m talking about.” megumi pauses, mouth open as if he was going to say something else but decided against it.

“keep talking, i like hearing your voice,” you say, breathing deeply as your body calms.

“there’s another dream i have… it’s not a nightmare though. its… its of my mom.” megumi’s voice cracks, and you look up and see his eyes watering. he shuts them quickly and regains his focus. “i don’t remember much about her, i was very young when she passed. i don’t even remember her face or her name. but i remember her warmth. she was gentle, with the most loving smile. i- i miss her. i just… want to feel her warmth again.” you see a tear falling down his face, and you reach up and wipe it way. he holds you hand there in place, just staying still for a minute.

“i’m sure she misses you too megumi.” you say, and he pulls you into a hug. you’re a little taken aback, megumi isn’t really a hug kind of guy, but then again, he was always different with you. you take him into your arms and just hold him. you’re both lying down at this point, cuddled together, embracing the comfort of another person. you pet his hair, and give him a small kiss on the forehead. his eyes are shut, but he hums in content.

you’ll probably be teased by yuuji and nobara in the morning, but right now, you don’t care. you’re not sure what this means for your friendship, but that can be a tomorrow problem. all you care about is staying here with megumi in your arms, drifting off to sleep to the sound of his soft snores.

i love him sm im gonna throw up