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About a year ago I was sitting in a really shitty corporate cafe and reading a book about medieval astronomy. There was a passage about how when we look up at the sky, we see titanic balls of gas all whirling about according to physics, but when a medieval person looked up at the sky, they saw literal divine clockwork turned by uncountable invisible spirits.
I was sitting in a shitty cafe, and I had a moment of realization. I knew logically that's how people used to see the night sky, but something about that moment just clicked. I felt what I can only describe as intellectual vertigo, as I realized "holy shit the world is really different than it was 700 years ago."
When medieval folks looked up at the sky, it wasn't with wonder or optimism. It was with the exact same boredom that we look at the sky with.
"yep. It's the sky. Stars are pretty."
The fact that they were seeing the divine clockwork of the universe was exactly as commonplace and uninteresting as it is to us. Sure there are some folks that really like the sky, some folks devote their lives to studying it, but to most folks it's just the sky.
It wasn't wonderous or enchanted, it was just the sky. Yeah the heavens are a great machine powered by innumerable spirits. This was exactly as normal as the sky being filled with impossibly large and distant fusion reactors. The heavens were full of living spirits that tended to their divinely appointed tasks, and nobody really gave that much of a shit.
In the same vein, I think that it's relevant to note that, however they looked at the night sky, "clockwork" would almost certainly not have been their go-to metaphor.
You would be surprised! The more literary end of Christian metaphysics tends to describe god with the terminology of contemporary technology! Christian priests writing serious works generally didn't the night sky as clockwork, but the idea of creation-as-divine-clockwork actually goes back pretty far!
You gotta remember that some of the first mechanical oscillators in European history were actually just church bells rigged to water wheels so they would go off at regular intervals!
i do also feel the need to add that phil8248 really liked the joke. he said his wife had always had a dark sense of humour, even about her illness and death, and seeing the joke made him feel like he was laughing with her one last time.
When creating a character, thereās a lot of questions you ask yourself. Whether itās an original character or one youāve been playing for a long time, using a character sheet to get to know your character better can always be a nice idea. With itās help, youāll be able to think about things you didnāt necesarily thought about, and ask some important questions to yourself that might activate your characterās voice, or help you to get your muse back with them. Everyone has their favorite character sheets, some people prefer to have a lot of questions, some others like it a bit more vague, so hereās a masterlist of the character sheets I found on various websites and found quite interesting, plus some other things that could be used to help you see, for example, how other character view yours.Ā
Blank Character Sheet (+370 Questions)
Abridged Character Sheet (100 Questions)
Big-Ass Character Sheet
Character Creation Form
Character Sheet by Jody Hedlund
Creating a character Bio Sheet
Character Analysis Worksheet
100 Character Development questions for writers
Create a Character Profile
Character Development Worksheet
Original Character Bio-Sheet
Character Chart for Fiction Writers
A Character Chart By Charlotte Dillon
Fiction Writerās Character Chart
Detailed Character Sheet
Character Sheet Template
Character Twenty-Question Worksheet
In-Depth Character Sheet
Character Worksheet
Character Interview Sheet (First Person)
Background Questionnaire (First Person)
Characters Perceptions (How do other people perceive your character?)
With these sheets, you could also try to find your characterās Jung and Enneagram Type or use the Moral Alignment tool. All of these things can be really useful to get a better grip on a character.
Then, if youāre trying to create a character, and do not have many ideas, or get stuck, Iād suggest for you to roam around TVTropes, which gives you a lot of tropes used for character creation. Maybe you could try to mix a few of these and create an original character?
Or, if youāre a skillful writer and know how to make your character different from another, make a list of characters in fiction you happen to find interesting and why. Try to keep it short. Then, maybe, try to mix and match things from two or three characters, take a character and change their backstory, to see what would change. Play with them to inspire yourself and create something new, original and truly yours.
Oh, and hereās a little guide to Mary-Sues and OCs, just in case you want to make sure your character isnāt going to become a Mary-Sue or a Gary-Stu
And last but not least, this article about building fictional character definitely seemed interesting to me, and is full of many other links that could guide you during the creating of your character and help you file one of these sheets.
sfw + nsfw. rut. knotting. premature ejaculation. service top!johnny (?)
you meet johnny at a bar.
the place is old but well-kept, a place thatās obviously seen its share of rowdy nights and heavy pours but still holds its charm. dark wood, polished by time and restless hands, stretches beneath your fingertips. liquor bottles line the shelves behind the counter.
the air humsā conversation rising and falling in waves, punctuated by the occasional burst of laughter, the sharp clink of glasses meeting in messy toasts. the dim lighting catches on old brass fixtures, scuffs on the floor telling stories of countless nights just like this one.
and behind the bar, johnny.
he moves like he owns the place, because, clearly, he does. he reaches for bottles without looking, flicks open the tap with a smooth twist of his wrist. the other bartenders glance his way for cues. itās plain that johnny doesnāt just work here. he runs the show.
and it's that experience that has him spotting you immediately.
āwhatāll it be, sweetheart?ā the words roll off his tongue, practiced but not indifferent.
"a mocktail.ā
johnny pauses, processing, then snorts. āthatās tragic. you say that like you mean it.ā
"i do."
he clicks his tongue, shaking his head, the motion loose. āwaste of a perfectly good night, that.ā
"iām the designated driver," you shoot back, somehow feeling like you have to defend yourself, jerking a thumb over your shoulder.
your friends are deep in itā half-dancing, half-stumbling, belting lyrics to a song that isnāt playing. one of them throws their arms around anotherās neck, nearly taking them both down in the process
johnny follows your gaze, lets out a low whistle. āah. the shepherd of the drunk.ā his tail sways behind him, amused. āa noble role.ā
"someone has to get them home alive."
he drums his fingers against the bar, eyes flicking between you and the mess unfolding on the dance floor. āyou sure you donāt wanna let natural selection do its thing?ā
you huff a laugh, shaking your head. "tempting. but iād rather not explain to their mothers why they woke up in a hedge."
he grins. āfair enough. guess that means you get a drink that doesnāt kick back.ā he rolls his shoulders before reaching for bottles. āwhatās the call, then? fruity? sour?ā
"surprise me."
johnny hums, tilting his head, eyes narrowing slightly like heās sizing you up. ādangerous words, that.ā but heās already moving, rolling up his sleeves as he reaches for a shaker. āhope you like a bit of bite.ā
"that a threat?"
ānah,ā he says. ājust a promise.ā
you watch him work.
his hands move fast, sure, an efficiency that only comes with time and muscle memory. bottles tip, liquid pours in smooth arcs, ice clatters against the tin before he seals it with a sharp tap. he doesnāt fumble, doesnāt second-guessā he moves with a rhythm stitched into his bones.
and heās a hyena. no mistaking it.
the broad grin, all sharp teeth. the spots dusting his forearms, darker markings trailing up his skin where his sleeves are shoved back. but more than that, itās how he carries himselfā as if he was built to be here, to take up space without hesitation.
he shakes the tin with quick jerks, wrists rolling, muscles shifting under skin.
āso,ā he starts, barely looking up as he strains the drink into a glass, āyou always this responsible, or is this a special occasion?ā
"i like knowing iāll wake up in my own bed."
he hums, dropping a garnish into the glass with a flick of his fingers. ācanāt argue with that.ā then he slides the drink toward you, tapping the rim lightly with one claw. āstill. shame to waste a night like this on sobriety.ā
you lift the glass, taking a slow sip. citrus, something tart, something fizzy at the edges, a hint of spice lingering at the back of your tongue.
"not bad," you admit.ā
johnny leans in slightly, bracing his forearms against the bar, grin widening. āācourse itās not. you think iād serve you shite?ā
"i've known you for all five minutes. forgive me if i didnāt know what to expect."
he chuckles, head tilting, ears flicking forward. āstick around, sweetheart. iāll raise those expectations in no time.ā
"confident, arenāt you?"
ādamn right.ā his eyes flick over you. āwhy? that a problem?ā
"just wondering if it ever gets you in trouble."
his grin turns wolfishā if a hyena could pull off wolfish. āconstantly.ā
you donāt take him home that night. not because you donāt want toā because you do, god, you doā but because youāve got a job to do.
instead, you spend the next hour wrangling your friends, guiding them into overpriced rideshares, confiscating a stolen pint glass, and prying one of them away from a very ill-advised conversation with a married senior executive.
by the time you finally collapse into bed, your jacket still smells like whiskey and citrus, your ears still ringing with laughter.
you tell yourself you wonāt think about the bartender with the easy grin and the voice that curled around your name like it belonged to him.
you tell yourself a lot of things.
the work gala arrives like an obligation dressed as an opportunity. the invitation promised networking, an open bar, and a celebration of months of labor.
but you donāt want to go.
you doubt anyone does, but itās not really a choice. the project your team has spent months sweating over is finally seeing the light of day, and the higher-ups need their captive audience. they need applause, nods of approval, praise whispered over crystal flutes of overpriced champagne.
so you go.
you let yourself be swept inside, past sleek decor and halfhearted compliments, past handshakes that mean nothing and conversations that mean even less. the champagne is crisp, the hors d'oeuvres bite-sized and forgettable, and the smiles around you all feel the same.
the work gala is everything you expected.
the kind of event that looks dazzling in photos but feels hollow in person. the chandeliers glisten, the glasses are always full, and the music hums soft and unintrusive, a backdrop for corporate egos to stretch their legs. itās all smiles that donāt reach the eyes, laughter thatās a beat too polished, and conversations that carry the distinct flavor of ambition disguised as small talk.
the dress helps, if anything. a deep color, clean lines, the kind that turns a glance into a second look. a little armor against the monotony of handshakes and careful smiles.
you last about ten minutes before you seek out the bar.
and thatās when you see him.
johnny.
standing behind the counter like he owns the place, despite the fact that he very much does not.
his sleeves are pushed up, forearms bared, and his tie is hanging loose like it barely survived a halfhearted attempt at professionalism. he looks like someone who should be on the other side of the bar, drink in hand, making people laugh too loud. but heās here, somehow, and heās already watching you.
he leans into the counter, the soft golden glow of the pendant lights casting sharp shadows across his grinā and it looks suspiciously like heās been waiting for you to notice him.
and of course, you do. how could you not?
johnny isnāt just attractive.
that would be too simple. attraction is easy, common. but johnny is something else. something loud and impossible to ignore, the kind of presence that bends a room around him, that demands attention without asking for it.
you stop short, fingers tightening around the stem of your glass. ājohnny?ā
he grins. ālast i checked.ā
your eyes flick down to the neatly pressed vest, the gleaming bar, the expensive bottles lined up in perfect order.
then back to him.
āwhat the hell are you doing here?ā
johnny reaches for a glass, inspecting it against the light before setting it down with a soft clink. āservinā drinks, apparently.ā
your brow lifts. āyou own a pub.ā
āthat i do.ā
āso why are you working here?ā
āmoneyās good.ā he shrugs, as if thatās a reason.
you give him a look. āyou couldāve sent someone else.ā
his smirk twitches into a grin. ācouldāve.ā
you narrow your eyes. ābut?ā
johnny leans in slightly, resting his forearms on the bar. ābut then i wouldnāt have run into you, would i?ā
heat pricks the back of your neck. āyou expect me to believe you took this job on the off chance iād be here?ā
ānah,ā he says easily, reaching for a bottle, twisting off the cap with practiced ease. ābut itās a hell of a nice surprise.ā
you exhale, shaking your head. āunbelievable.ā
āwhatās unbelievable is that youāre still holdinā that same drink,ā he says, nodding toward the half-full glass in your hand. āstartinā to think you donāt trust me.ā
āi barely trust this event,ā you say dryly. ālet alone the bar staff.ā
johnny places a hand over his heart, mock-wounded. ācut me deep, sweetheart.ā
you roll your eyes, setting your drink down. āfine. impress me.ā
his grin turns sharp, all teeth. ādangerous thing to ask.ā
he moves with a kind of effortless confidence, each motion smooth, deliberate, like he doesnāt need to think about it. bottles spin in his hands, liquid pours clean, precise. the scent of citrus and something smoky rises as he mixes, the clink of ice against glass filling the space between you.
when he slides the drink across the bar, he taps the rim lightly with one finger. a challenge.
you take a sip.
pause.
lick the taste from your lips.
his smirk lingers, watching. waiting.
āā¦damn it.ā you exhale. āthatās actually good.ā
johnny laughs, pleased. āyou planninā on apologizing for that remark earlier?ā
your pulse jumps.
āand how exactly would i do that?ā
he tilts his head, considering. āstick around. drink somethinā strong. keep lookinā at me like that.ā
and just like that, youāre in trouble.
you donāt mean to get drunk. you came here to be seen, to endure, to let your boss soak up the credit for your work while you nod along. but then johnny makes you a drink, and when you finish it too fast, he makes you another.
responsibility starts as a whisper.
drink slower. be professional. donāt plant yourself at the bar all night.
then he tilts his head just so, watching you like youāre a puzzle he intends to solve and the whisper fades.
you order another.
somewhere around your third drink, your laughter turns ease. johnnyās grin mirrors it, fingers working effortlessly over glass and steel as he keeps the drinks flowing.
fourth drink, you tell him he has unfairly nice hands. he nearly spills a cocktail laughing.
five drinks in, you go for a napkin, miss entirely, and send a row of garnishes tumbling. staring down at the mess, you seriously debate the logistics of picking them up without falling under the bar.
johnny exhales, tossing a rag over his shoulder. "i think that means youāre cut off, sweetheart."
"you think a lot of things," you mutter, blinking up at him, heavy-lidded and unbothered.
his laughter softens, turns fond. "and iām usually right."
you pout at him until you sway a little too much, and the world tilts just slightly before a hand reaches over the bar to steady you.
he exhales through his nose, shaking his head, muttering half-amused, half-exasperated, "jesus."
for a moment, johnny considers just throwing you over his shoulder and dealing with the consequences later. heās a hyena, after all, and hyenas take care of their own. youāre his, in some loose, nebulous way, and it wouldnāt be difficult to make sure you got home safe.
but even in your current state, he figures you wouldnāt be thrilled about waking up in a strangerās bed with no memory of how you got there.
so, he does the next best thing.
he steals your phone.
you donāt even notice, too busy playing with the condensation on your glass, and he sighs as he tilts the screen toward your face.
the lock screen slides open instantly.
"oh, sweetheart," he murmurs, shaking his head. "youāre makinā this too easy."
he scrolls through your messages, thumb tapping with sharp efficiency, scanning over names he doesnāt recognize until he finds a group chat that looks promising. lots of emojis. lots of inside jokes. someone had typed in all caps at some point about a brunch reservation, so yeahā thisāll do.
he thumbs out a message: āyour friend is very drunk. come get them before she pukes over my bar.ā and attaches the location.
and then, because he can, because he wants to, because some part of him already knows heāll be seeing you again, he puts his number in your contacts, too.
you wake up to a headache and a mistake.
the headache, at least, makes sense. it splits through your skull the second you shift, a dull, relentless throb pulsing behind your eyes, pressing into the backs of your sockets like a vice tightening around your brain. your mouth is dry, tongue thick with the stale aftertaste of liquor, and your body feels like dead weight, limbs tangled in sheets that are too warm, too heavy. everything is stiffā your neck, your shoulders, your stomach twisting in protest as the memories of last night flicker back in fragments. a bar. dark wood. golden light. laughter that lingered low in your chest, warm and sweet, andā
him.
your stomach flips before your brain can even process why.
you groan, rolling onto your side, pushing your face into the pillow to block out the morning. you want to sleep, to bury yourself beneath the covers and pretend none of it happenedā whatever it is. but your body betrays you, instincts dragging your arm across the mattress, fumbling blindly for your phone where it mustāve slipped from your hand sometime in the night.
your fingers brush cool metal. you blink blearily at the screen.
the glow cuts through the dimness of your room, soft and insistent, illuminating the single notification waiting for you.
a new contact.
johnny ;)
your stomach twists harder.
you blink at it.
once.
twice.
the emoji taunts you, cocky even in pixels, a playful little wink that makes something hot curl at the base of your spine. the name itself is bad enoughā too much of a reminder of how his mouth quirked up when he poured your drink, and the warmth of his fingers when brushed against yours as he slid it across the bar.
your pulse ticks up. you hesitate, thumb hovering over the screen, torn between the impulse to check and the ridiculous urge to just not know.
but you already know youāre going to look.
you swipe, and the screen shifts.
one unread message.
johnny: still alive, sweetheart?
your first instinct is to throw the phone across the room. your second is to type something back. something quick, something effortless, something that wonāt make it obvious that your pulse just stuttered in your throat.
you fail spectacularly.
you: barely. might never recover.
his response is immediate, and it makes you wonder if he was already waiting.
johnny: tragic. if iād known, i wouldāve given you a proper sendoff
heat prickles at the back of your neck. you stare at the message for a second too long, then lock your phone and press it flat against your chest as if that might do something about the way your heart is suddenly working overtime.
and just like that, it starts. small things, at first. quick, snappy messages.
johnny: remind me to never let you near tequila again. i donāt think youād survive round two.
you: bold of you to assume i wouldnāt win.
johnny: bold of YOU to assume you won anything last night. you begged me for water.
you: lies. slander. i demand proof.
johnny: aye, sweetheart, iād send the security footage, but i think the sight of you poutinā at me over a glass of water might be too much for your fragile ego.
you donāt have a response for that. you lock your phone, toss it onto your bed, and roll onto your stomach, groaning into your pillow.
but the messages keep coming.
johnny: howās the hangover? or should i start gettinā that funeral procession in order?
you: surprisingly not dead.
johnny: pity. i wouldāve made a great eulogy.
itās easy, too easy.
he starts asking about your day. you start telling him.
johnny: howād the deadline go? survived it?
you: took three cups of coffee and some questionable life choices, but itās done
johnny: questionable life choices, huh? do i even want to ask?
you: if you must know, i impulse bought a croissant the size of my head. no regrets
johnny: i admire the dedication. although iād be more impressed if you could finish it.
you: challenge accepted
he keeps talking to you. keeps pulling you in, coaxing conversation out of you and somehow it all feels natural, effortless.
he makes fun of the salad you regret ordering for lunch.
you: i donāt know what i expected. itās lettuce.
johnny: truly a tragic meal. if you die from boredom, i promise iāll give a heartfelt speech at the funeral.
you: thatās the second time youāve threatened to monologue at my funeral. should i be worried?
johnny: just beinā prepared, sweetheart. never know when tragedy might strike.
he complains about a difficult customer but immediately follows up with ānot that i'm whinin'. boss canāt be seen whininā."
the more he texts, the worse it gets.
you catch yourself checking your phone too often, waiting for his name to light up your screen. you start carrying your charger everywhere, the battery never allowed to dip low, just in case. when he texts, you answer too fast. when he doesnāt, you fight the stupid urge to stare at your phone, to wonder if heās busy, to think about what his hands might be doing instead.
somewhere along the way, the teasing shifts into something else. something a little slower.
johnny: long day?
you: feels like it
johnny: go easy on yourself, sweetheart. tomorrowās just gonna show up and make a mess of things all over again.
your fingers hover over the keyboard. something about it makes you pause, makes your stomach do that stupid little thing where it twists up in knots.
you: thatās bleak
johnny: nah. just means thereās always another chance to make somethinā good out of it.
you donāt have a response for that either.
turns out you don't need one because then he follows it up with aā
johnny: what are you doinā friday?
your stomach flips.
you: depends. why?
this time, the response doesnāt come immediately.
you watch the typing bubble appear. disappear. reappear.
johnny: takinā you out. thatās why.
your breath catches. your hands hesitate over the keyboard, mind racing, running in circles. you type something and delete it. type again. delete. finally, you settle onā
you: at your pub?
his reply is fast.
johnny: christ, no. my staff would never let me leave alive.
you: fair point. so where, then?
johnny: youāll see ;)
you are, without a doubt, in trouble.
johnny is ready. more than ready. too ready, if you ask his staff.
heās been buzzing since you said yes, practically vibrating through the walls of his pub, too restless to stand still. his staff have been suffering through it for daysā watching him plan the date down to the minute, pick out the restaurant, polish his shoes, practice his stories in the backroom mirror with an alarming level of dedication.
āyouāre a grown man,ā gaz mutters at one point, rubbing his temples as johnny rehearses a joke for the fifth time. ānot a schoolboy with his first crush.ā
heās taken people out before, sure, but thisā this is different. his fingers twitch when he thinks about it. his pulse kicks like itās trying to outrun him. he shoves it all down, tells himself to act normal, be normal, but his body betrays him at every turn.
and then, just as he reaches your door, just as he lifts his fist to knockā
his rut slams into him like a sledgehammer.
hyena ruts are brutal.
unlike wolves or big cats, they donāt creep in slow, donāt build over days like a fire waiting for kindling. no, hyenas go from zero to hundred in the space of a breathā one second fine, the next wrecked by an all-consuming need, by instincts that donāt care for reason or timing.
johnny staggers, barely catching himself before he hits the wall, his shoulder slamming into brick with a dull, shuddering thud. his claws scrape at his own arms, blunt nails dragging hard enough to leave welts beneath his fur, but it doesnāt help, nothing fucking helps. his body isnāt listening. his breath stutters, fast and uneven, catching in his throat like heās choking on something thick and hot. sweat beads at his temples, slicks the back of his neck, soaks into his shirt despite the night air.
his stomach knots, muscles pulling tight, something twisting low in his gut like a wire wound too far. his mouth hangs open, his tongue thick, saliva pooling behind his teeth like his body is preparing for a bite, for a kill. his canines throb, the dull ache settling deep in his jaw, instincts curling sharp beneath his ribs, thick and hungry and dangerous.
and fuck. fuck, heās so hard he canāt breathe.
his cock strains against his trousers, the fabric pulled taut over the thick, aching line of it, every throb so deep it rattles in his bones. he shifts, trying to ease it, trying to will it down, but the movement just grinds the swollen head against the seam of his fly, drags coarse fabric over his leaking tip, makes him hiss between clenched teeth. his balls are tight, drawn up so high itās like theyāre trying to retreat into his body, his whole system locked down, caught in something primal and unforgiving.
he clenches his fists, claws digging into his palms, every muscle in his body coiled and trembling with the effort of staying still, of not grinding down against something, of not reaching between his legs and squeezing his own cock in his fist just to take the edge off.
and then he fucking whimpers.
the sound wrenches out of him, cracking at the end. his breath stutters, catches in his throat, his body too hot, too tight.
johnny's head tips back, knocking against the brick, his hips twitching forward in a broken little jerk, chasing nothing, his cock pulsing angrily, trapped and swollen, sensitivity that borders on pain. he squeezes his eyes shut, teeth grinding, sweat rolling down his spine, but it doesnāt help. nothing helps.
and thenā the door creaks open.
he flinches, his whole body jolting, his breath shoving out of him in a ragged, shaking gasp.
youāre there.
crouched beside him, close enough that he can catch your scent, something grounding and unbearable all at once. your hand hovers near his arm like youāre about to touch him.
no.
āno-ā it breaks from his lips before he can stop it. āno- back inside-ā
his fingers barely catch your sleeve before slipping off, his limbs weak, useless. ācall-ā he tries again, panting through clenched teeth. ācall for help- call for- fuck-ā
but you donāt move. you donāt go back inside. you donāt slam the door shut. you donāt listen.
you reach for him. and he folds.
the second your fingers brush his skin, johnny's whole body caves, shaking apart under the weight of whatever the fuck is happening to him. his forehead knocks against your shoulder, a shuddering noise ripping from his throat as he clings to you, his fingers fisting into your shirt like youāre the only solid thing left in the world.
āoh, fuck-ā his cock aches. throbs. pulses against the stiff, unforgiving line of his zipper.
he grinds against nothing, every twitch of his hips sending another spike of sensation shooting up his spine. his balls are heavy, swollen, so full itās like they might burst, like they might spill just from the way his trousers dig into them, the way his body is wound too tight, too fucking close to something he canāt control.
he needs. he needs.
fuck, but he shouldnāt.
āi-ā he tries to pull back, tries to put space between you, but his fingers wonāt listen. instead, they curl tighter, dragging you in, his body betraying him in real time, his cock pressing flush to your thigh, the heat of it scalding even through layers of fabric.
a noise breaks from him, sounding dangerously close to a sob.
he canāt. he canāt.
āfuck-ā he buries his face against your neck. āmāsorry- māsorry, just-just a second-ā
heās trembling, breath stuttering, little whimpers breaking past his lips no matter how hard he tries to choke them down.
you say something and he barely registers it through the thick haze clouding his head but your warmth weight, and the press of your body against hisā
it helps. just a little.
and youā well, you know exactly whatās happening.
you donāt waste time pretending this is something johnny can just ride out alone. you grip his arms, drag him inside, shove the door shut with your heel and twist the locks tight. then the deadbolt. then the security chain.
your fingers are practiced, muscle memory guiding you through the steps of securing the space.
just in case. just in case someone else nearby is in rut or heat, just in case some poor bastard catches wind of johnnyās scent and decides to come sniffing around.
(he smells good. too good. sharp and heady, the scent of him curling in the air, thickening with every ragged breath he lets out. you, even you, feel your own instincts stirring, muscles tensing in awareness, your body recognizing his rut and urging you to stay close. to soothe. to let him take what he needs.)
johnny is shaking against you, his whole frame shuddering with the effort of keeping himself together. his breath is hot against your skin, slipping out between the low, broken whimpers he canāt seem to bite back
āfuck-fuck, māsorry,ā he stammers, voice catching. ādidnāt- didnāt mean-ā
his claws twitch against your arms, not quite gripping, afraid to hold on too tight.
his tail flicks behind him, anxious, ears pressed flat against his skull. his pupils are blown wide, swallowing up the blue of his eyes, his whole expression caught between shame and need.
āwanted this-ā his voice cracks, something dangerously close to a whine. āwanted this to go well. wanted- wanted tāplease you.ā
johnny shudders, forehead knocking against your shoulder as another tremor rolls through him. āwanted you to- to see me. see me as a good mate. confident.ā
he breathes in, sharp, and his whole body locks up for a moment, every muscle going tautā then a full-body shiver wracks through him, cock pulsing hard enough that you feel it, even through his trousers, even through your own clothes.
your throat goes dry.
you reach up, smoothing your fingers through his fur, brushing a hand along his back, trying to offer somethingā some kind of grounding touch, reassurance.
ājohnny,ā you murmur, voice steady, firm. āitās not your fault.ā
his breath hitches.
āi really donāt mind,ā you say again, softer now, pressing the words into the shell of his ear.
a noise catches in his throat, something small, choked and helpless, and he drags his face away from your shoulder, tilting up to look at you properly.
his pupils are still wide, expression still hazy, but he searches your face with almost terrifying seriousness.
his tail flicks again when he seems to find nothing or what he was looking for.
āā¦can i make it up to you?ā
your brows lift.
his ears twitch, jaw flexing, uncertainty plain with how his teeth catch on his lower lip, his eyes flicking down to your mouth and then lower, dragging slow over the curve of your body.
you shift, tilting your head. āhow?ā
johnny's tail twitches again then stills. he swallows hard, nostrils flaring, then lifts his gaze back to yours, something new burning in the depths of his expression.
āā¦can i lick your pussy?ā heās puppy-eyed and pleading, expression screaming with āplease let me- please let me take care of you- please, i need this.ā
his breath ghosts warm over your lips, fingers flexing where theyāre still curled weakly around your arms.
heās trembling, cock leaking. and youā
you nod.
his ears twitch, breath shuddering out in a sharp little gasp, grip on your thighs tightening. fingers hook into your waistband not a moment later, and he yanks, dragging your pants down, underwear with them, his movements are frantic, almost clumsy in his eagerness. he groans, wrecked and relieved, the second you're bare in front of him, pupils blown, tail wagging, whole body thrumming with āplease, please, please.ā
and thenā
oh.
his tongue is warm.
hot and wet and wide, the rough texture of it dragging over your slit in a slow, open-mouthed lick, firm and eager like he's trying to taste every inch of you.
your breath stutters, hands flying to his head, fingers curling into his thick fur as he groans against you, the sound vibrating up through his tongue, sending sparks of pleasure shooting through your spine.
and he doesn't stop.
doesn't hesitate. doesn't tease.
no, johnny dives in, pressing his face right up against your cunt, burying his nose in the soft flesh of your inner thigh, mouth sealing over you like he's starving.
his tongue flicks, curls, scoops into you, lapping up your slick with these obscene little slurping sounds, breath coming fast and desperate through his nose.
"fuck," you gasp, hips jerking, but he just growls, arms wrapping around your thighs, locking you in place.
his tongue drags up, then circles your clit, flicking once, twice before sucking it into his mouth, lips sealing around it with wet, sloppy pressure.
a sharp, helpless sound breaks from your throat, fingers spasming in his fur, tugging hard, but he just whines, pushing closer, pressing his face deeper between your legs, like he wants to drown in you.
his tail thumps against the floor, hips shifting, rutting, desperate little movements like he needs the friction, like eating you out is wrecking him just as much as itās wrecking you.
johnnyās tongue works you open, the rough drag of it lighting up every nerve in your body. heās sloppy with it, messy and eager as a puppy, sucking and lapping and groaning like he canāt get enoughā like he wonāt get enough, not until youāre shaking, not until youāre breaking apart in his hands.
his nose presses in, nuzzling against your clit as he angles his tongue deeper, the slick heat of his mouth sealing around you, sucking, devouring every drop of slick that spills from your pussy. his grip tightens, claws pricking your skin, grounding you against his face as he buries himself in your cunt, breath ragged.
his ears twitch at every moan, every gasp, tail wagging, thudding against the floor in frantic, jerky movements. his hips roll, little ruts against nothing, cock straining in his pants.
and fuck, the way youāre squeezing around his tongue, the way youāre whining, the way your fingers are tugging at his fur, yanking him closer, using him for your pleasureā
itās perfect.
his tongue flicks against your clit, so fast he feels like his jaw is gonna cramp and your whole body locks up, muscles tensing, thighs clamping around his head as your pleasure slams through you.
"johnny-!"
you break, back arching, fingers spasming in his hair as your orgasm rips through you, cunt clenching.
and johnny loses it.
his hips snap forward, grinding down against the floor, cock pulsing in his pants, the thick length throbbing in time with your orgasm, so turned on with how youāre gushing into his mouth.
"fuck-ā johnnyās body shaking, arms tightening around your thighs as his own climax crashes into him, his whole frame jerking with it.
his tail spasms, ears flicking wildly, and he ruts with mindless abandon, his tongue still lapping at you as he comes, soaking his trousers, thick spurts spilling out in his underwear, making a mess of himself, of the floor beneath him.
johnnyās breath stutters, his tongue slower now, softer. he whimpers against you, his hips giving these tiny, involuntary twitches, pleasure still rattling through his system, buzzing under his skin.
heās a mess. ruined. wrecked.
but heās still got his mouth on you. heās still hard.
even after all that, after coming in his pants like a desperate thing, heās still thick and straining against the damp fabric, the outline of his cock pressing against his zipper, a dark stain spreading where his release had soaked through.
but heās smiling up at you, lazy, hazy-eyed satisfaction, ears flicking, tail giving a slow, contented thump against the floor. he looks pleased with himself, looks like he just had the best meal of his life, tongue flicking out to lick the last traces of you from his lips.
you swallow, your gaze flicking down, heat curling in your stomach.
"johnny-" your voice comes out soft. "do you- do you wanna fuck me?"
his ears perk up. his breath hitches.
"fuck," he gasps, pupils blown, hips giving a helpless little jerk, grinding into nothing. "fuck, yes- yes, please-ā
your voice comes out soft, barely above a whisper, but he hears it like a gunshot.
"fuck me..."
johnny whines. heās so happy, so relieved, so thrilled that his hands are already moving before his brain catches upā grabbing at your clothes, tearing them off your body, dragging fabric down your arms, over your hips, tossing them aside like they offend him.
you barely have a second to breathe before heās fumbling with his own clothes, his pants sticking to his skin, soaked through with his release, and he growls under his breath, impatient, frantic, tearing at the fabric.
you hear the sharp rip before you see him, and by then, itās too late.
his hands are on your hips again, tugging you back against him, the heat of him pressing up behind you. bare now, nothing between you, andā
oh.
oh.
there is a lot of him.
you don't see it, but you feel it, the weight of him pressing against you, the head of his cock nudging at your entrance, leaking precum against your folds. your brain catches up in a single, dawning moment of realization.
"u-um- johnny, wait-"
he doesnāt wait. he pushes in.
your mouth drops open around a soundless scream, arms giving out beneath you, sending you down onto your hands as your body stretches around him.
"hnnngh- fuck-ā
johnny groans, hands locking around your hips, fingers digging in, holding you still as he sinks in deeper, his fat length forcing you open, your walls struggling to accommodate the sheer size of him.
his cock is thick, veined, hot as a brand against your insides, his knot still deflated but already pressing against your entrance, teasing the stretch thatās still to come.
"sāgood- fuck- so warm-" he babbles, hips twitching. rolling. driving him deeper. deeper. deeper.
you can feel every ridge, every pulse, the wet sounds of your slick mixing with his precum, making everything so messy, so hot, so unbearably good.
your fingers curl against the floor, nails scraping for purchase, breath coming in ragged gasps. you can barely speak, but you manage a single, broken soundā
"johnny-"
he whimpers, hips jerking forward, sinking the last of himself inside.
heās so deep you swear you can feel him in your stomach.
he snaps his hips forward, slamming into you with a force that knocks the breath from your lungs.
again.
again.
again.
itās feral. frantic. mindless. his claws dig into your hips, keeping you locked in place as he fucks into you with the wild, unrelenting pace of an animal.
"fuck- fuck- fuck-"
heās babbling now, every noise ripped straight from his chest. heās gone, lost to instinct, breath ragged, panting against your back.
and youā youāre drooling.
your mouth falls open, a string of spit slipping past your lips, eyes hazy, unfocused, body pliant beneath him. itās like youāre the one in heat, like his need has infected you, sinking into your skin, making you just as desperate, just as mindless.
his knot isnāt even swollen yet, and stillā stillā it feels like too much, like your body is barely keeping up, like youāre caught in the eye of a storm and all you can do is take it.
and heās loving it.
ās-so good-" he whimpers, his voice shaking, thick with pleasure, his ears twitching. "sātakinā me so well- fuck- made fāme, yeah? made tābe bred-"
his teeth graze the back of your neck, not quite biting, but close, breath hot against your skin.
"tell me- tell me yāneed it-"
his hips snap forward, hard, cock grinding against the deepest part of you.
"tell me, bonnie-ā
you somehow managed a choked moan of his name which seems to please him enough. āj-johnny!ā
"hah- hah- hah-" his panting is ragged, tongue lolling out between sharp teeth, drool slipping past his lips, dripping onto your back. his claws dig into your hips, dragging you back onto his cock with every thrust.
you're reduced to a mess of slick and sweat and open-mouthed moans. your vision swims, breath stuttering, drool slipping past your own lips. your cunt grips him tight, sucking him in, slick coating his cock, dripping down his balls, wetting the base of his knot as it starts to swell.
"pretty..." johnny fucking giggles. itās breathy, boyish, downright giddy as he snakes a hand down between your legs, fingertips dragging through the sticky mess between your thighs, rubbing over your swollen, aching clit.
"pretty clit⦠so soft... sācute like this, all swollen fāme..."
he snickers to himself, his other hand coming up to your lower belly, pressing down, feeling the bulge his cock makes inside you. his hips snap forward hard, pressing down at the same time, making you feel every inch of him.
"fuck-" he whimpers, laughter breaking into a moan, tail flicking wildly behind him. "y'feel that? sāme, bonnie- deep inside- fuck, sāgood-ā
your orgasm crashes over you like a tidal wave, your body locking up, cunt milking him as you shake. your mind goes hazy, all-consuming pleasure buzzing through your nerves, and you barely register the way his rhythm faltersā
until he gasps, breath catching, his whole body trembling, hips stuttering against you.
but he doesnāt push his knot in.
his cock throbs, leaking, twitching inside you, but his knotā still swollen, thick and pulsing at your entranceā doesnāt breach. he was too caught up, too lost in you, and now.
well, now itās too late.
"fuck- fuck, bonnie, ām sorry-" his voice is frantic, hands shaking where they grip your hips. "i was sāposed tā knot you, i- fuck, i know it hurts-ā
and it does.
the ache of being left open, empty where you should be full, the throb of your walls still pulsing around nothing.
johnny knows.
he knows it hurts to push his knot in if youāre not distracted by your orgasm. he also knows the second the high fades itās going to leave you aching, needy, sensitive in a way that burns.
"i got you, bonnie-" he murmurs, voice soft, affectionate even as he drives into you again, already chasing another orgasm from you. "gonna make it up tāyou, promise-"
he grabs your hips, yanking you back onto his cock, fucking you harder, faster, desperate to fix it, desperate to make sure you donāt feel the pain.
his fingers find your clit again, rubbing quick, his touch clumsy, eager. āfuck- ām sorry, sāgonna feel so good, swear it-"
and heās right.
your body canāt fight him, canāt deny him, the overstimulation pushing you right back up that peak, another orgasm slamming into you not even a minute later.
your walls clamp down around him, milking him, and he chokes on a moan, his whole body tensing. "fuck, fuck, thatās it- thass it, bonnie-"
his knot swells, stretching you wide, pushing in finally, locking him deep inside youā
and then he comes.
he fills you, cock pulsing, spurts of cum pouring into you, stuffing you full. his hips twitches, grinding against you, voice breaking on your name.
johnny's arms wrap around you, hugging you tight, chest pressed to your back. "s-sorry," he breathes, still panting, nuzzling against your shoulder. "sānever gonna happen again, promise-ā
oh but it does. it happens multiple times, in fact.
you donāt know how long itās been. you lost count after his fifth load. time has lost all meaning, swallowed up by the relentless rhythm of johnnyās rut.
heās insatiable. a desperate, panting mess, rutting into you over and over, knotting you again and again, rolling his hips even when heās still locked inside you, grinding his over-sensitive cock against your walls like he canāt stop.
his hands wonāt let go of you, always grabbing, always holdingā your hips, your waist, your thighs, your wrists. pulling you back onto him, keeping you flush against his sweat-slicked body.
johnny's all heat, burning up against you, whining your name in between frantic, slurred murmurs of "so good, so good, my bonnie, mine-"
but eventuallyā finallyā the first wave of his rut starts to fade.
he slows. his thrusts lose their urgency, grip loosening, breath evening out, the feverish need in his eyes softening into something dazed, exhausted.
you take your chance.
"johnny-" you murmur, shifting slightly beneath him. "you need to drink some water, love."
he doesn't seem to really hear you, nuzzling into your neck. "mmm⦠laterā¦"
"no, now," you insist, stroking a hand through his sweat-damp hair. "youāve- we've been going for hours- we need to hydrate, okay?"
he grumbles, but when you finally manage to untangle yourself from his grasp and sit up, he whines, reaching for you again, ears flattening against his head.
"no- bonnie- come back-"
"drink first," you say, grabbing the water bottle from your nightstand and holding it out to him after you've had your own fill. "then Iāll cuddle you."
he pouts but takes the bottle, chugging down greedy gulps, tail flicking sluggishly behind him.
you press a granola bar into his hand next, watching as he blinks at it, then at you, before finally taking a bite.
he chews slowly, brows furrowing like heās thinking about something, the fog in his brain is clearing just enough for rational thought.
and thatās when you pick up his phone from the mess of clothes, phoning his emergency number.
a guy nicknamed š».
you hesitate, fingers hovering over the call button.
johnny tilts his head at you, ears twitching. "whatcha doinā, bonnie?"
"calling your emergency contact," you say, glancing at him. "someone needs to know youāre in rut."
johnny groans, flopping back against the pillows, rubbing a hand down his face. "oh, fuck me-"
"i did," you deadpan. "for hours."
he snorts, but his face is already going pink. "fuckinā hell⦠heās never gonna let me live this downā¦"
you press the call button. the phone barely rings twice before a gruff, sleep-roughened voice answers. "this better be important, mactavish.ā
"uh- hi," you say, gripping the phone tighter. "this isnāt johnny, but i feel like i needed to call his emergency contact so..ā
thereās a pause. a sharp inhale. thenā "ā¦what happened."
you glance over at johnny, whoās sprawled out on the bed, still naked, still flushed, body twitching with the last remnants of his latest orgasm. his tail flicks, ears pinned back, eyes half-lidded and dazed.
"heās in rut," you explain. "we- uh- handled it. but heās still got waves coming, and i donāt think i can keep up with him forever."
"fuck," the guy mutters. thereās some shuffling on his end, the sound of movement, a door creaking open. "how longās he been at it?"
you hesitate, looking at the clock. "uh⦠at least five to six hours?"
"jesus fucking christ." more rustling. "iāll drop some suppressants off. you got any blockers up?"
"yeah, doors are locked, everythingās secure," you say. "no one else has caught onto his scent. hopefully."
"good. last thing we need is someone else getting ideas."
you nod, happy you're both on the same page.
"iāll be there in twenty," he continues. "keep him calm, get some fluids in him, and donāt let him knot you again unless you wanna be stuck for another hour."
you open your mouth to answer, but before you can, johnny groans, rolling onto his side, tail swishing, his voice petulant.
"is that ghost?"
"is that his name? i mean, i guess so-"
"tell him heās a fuckinā cockblock," johnny whines, pouting up at you. "cannae believe this- rut suppressants? really? yer ruining all my fun, mate."
"oh, fuck off," ghost deadpans. "youāll thank me when youāre not dead from dehydration and a broken dick."
johnny grumbles, burying his face into your thigh, huffing dramatically. "donāt wanna suppressants. wanna keep fuckinā my bonnie-ā
ghost sighs, long and heavy. "jesus christ. twenty minutes."
Listen if the study of ancient humans doesnāt make you at least a little bit emotional idk what to say.
I started crying today at the museum because they had reconstructed the shoes of Otzi the iceman.
Either he or someone he knew who cared about him made these shoes out of grass and bear skin and twine and he was wearing them when he died over five thousand years ago.
And a Czech researcher and his students did reconstructions of these shoes and wore them to the same place where he died to test them out and they were like yep! These shoes are really cozy and comfy and didnāt give us blisters while hiking!