it was a week of negativity because my partner’s close friend just suicided on wed and confirmed brain dead although the heart is still pumping with the help of machine, body still warm, slight eye twitching & facial hair still growing although his neck is badly bruised & tongue’s out. they’re stopping the machine which kept the heart pumping later today.
i guess it’s how detailed my partner shared with me for triggering the F in my personality haha which is coming out too strong? of cos i know my partner got to offload his feelings somewhere. afterall it’s a close friend that passed away that came without warning becus they never knew how much he was going thru with life? for someone that don’t know him, i am already extremely affected seeing little remarks here and there abt the situation. i just can’t imagine how the family and friends is feeling? losing a good same age human/friend, or even losing your own kid that is still young and have so much potential to excel in life? it’s not even losing life to illness but becus the person decided they dw to do life anymore?
too many thoughts with no answers LOL
does it make sense to unplug the machines when the person actually seemed like he is sleeping?
but if not unplug, who’s gonna be able to cover the extremely high cost of the bills? to fulfill the hope that he may wake up or his brain is still not dead like what the machines say?
how is the mom gonna recover from this? she is still holding on to that little hope while she cry and told his son on the bed to “stop sleeping and wake up because your friends are here”?? hoping that the son could wake up before they officially declare him as dead??
is it selfish to want someone back alive when the person already decided that he want to stop doing life?
or is it selfish for the someone to choose death when he has so many other people that really cared for and loved him?
what would the rest of the humans eg those suffering from disease, like cancer, are trying to live their life think of this?
what went through his mind before he actually did the deed? family? partner? friends?
should everyone had been slightly kinder to him that day, would things have been different?
