Have you Ever?! 🥹
Have you ever felt like if you disappeared, no one would notice or care? Like your presence didn't matter to anyone?
Have you ever wished you were born more beautiful, thinking maybe people would value you more?
Or that if you were rich, people would treat you with respect, like you were actually important?
These might just be silly thoughts, but they've always been with me.
No matter how hard I tried, I was never good enough.
And people never missed a chance to remind me of that.
They reminded me in the way they spoke, in the way they looked at me, or sometimes, in the way they ignored me completely.
I used to think if I worked harder, if I became smarter, kinder, or more useful, maybe they d see me differently. Maybe they'd finally accept me. But no matter what I did, it was never enough.
Every failure, no matter how small, became a reason for them to tear me down. Every success felt hollow because it was met with silence or jealousy instead of encouragement.
I started to wonder if the problem wasn't them but me. Maybe I really wasn't enough. Maybe I never would be.
And that thought, it sticks with you. It creeps into your mind at night and whispers in your ear during the day. It makes you question every good thing that happens, every compliment, every bit of kindness, because deep down, you feel like you don't deserve it.
It's a lonely way to live, constantly fighting to prove your worth to a world that seems determined to deny it. But the hardest part?
It's starting to believe them.