synopsis ; you decided for your one year anniversary with your boyfriend to wear black laces for the first time ever.
content ; first time!reader, experienced!maki, pussy eating, p in v, lack of confidence fem!reader, etc…
notes ; idk, well i saw a tiktok of a cockroach wearing laces with some sad text under it and thought I i should write a fic. bc we are allowed to feel a bit too vulnerable in front of loved ones. (PS: it's okay to take your time girly..!)
Maki wasn't the guy you first thought you'd end up with. He's the total opposite of you: outgoing, talkative, bold… And you're just a cockroach. You hide behind people, you're too shy, and you don't go out of your room much. You don't understand what you had that made Maki fall for you.
The first time you ever saw him, you ran into him in the campus hallway. You made all of your stuff, and his flew around. You were so sorry and stressed about being late to class that you gave him your number so he could contact you if he needed anything, because you wanted him to forget this little incident.
At the end of the day, he just lied to you, saying he wanted a favor from you, but instead of doing what he texted you, he just took you on a date in a cozy coffee shop. Two weeks later, you two started dating. Maki is your first boyfriend. You talked to guys before, but it always ends up at the talking stage.
Each time, the guys wanted to have sex with you even tho you didn't feel ready to do it. You're scared. Terrified even. But Maki always understood and held back. And he has held back for a year now because today is your first anniversary. You decided that this time, it's going to be special. You wanted to reward him for being such a sweetheart to you.
Earlier today, you went to an underwear shop to buy a black lace bra and a little thong to match it. You wanted this to be perfect. You put candles all over the bedroom and sprayed the perfume he loves so much everywhere, too. You thought about buying red roses and throwing the petals on the bed, but you thought it was a bit too much.
Now you were waiting for Maki to come home from work. He wanted a day off to spend with you, but he couldn’t. His boss gave him a bit too much work to have a rest day. That's what he told you.
You thought about it for a moment while putting on the satin dressing gown that matched your underwear. What if he's too tired and wants to watch a movie? You're scared you're doing too much. You stared at yourself in the reflection of the bedroom mirror. Look at you, it doesn't look like you. Where are your soft pajamas? Where's your bare face? You don't recognize yourself anymore.
When you were about to remove everything and go under the sheets to read and finish the night in Maki’s arms while watching y'all favorite movie, you heard the front door open, followed by a loud sigh. He's here.
Before he could do anything, you walked up behind him, taking your courage by both hands and putting your fingers delicately on his eyes. “Don't open your eyes… I-.. I have a surprise for you!”
You heard him laugh and drop his bag on the floor at the entrance.
— “Alright… I let you guide me, babe…”
You remove your fingers carefully away from his eyes, watching to see if he opens his eyes without you having to say so. “You open when I told you!” You said, as you took his big, warm hand in yours. His body warmth gave you more strength to keep going.
You set him down on the bed. “Did you put on the perfume I bought for you?” You laughed and nodded, then remembered his eyes were closed, so you mumbled a little yes.
When you let go of his hand, everything felt ridiculous. You looked at him, his eyes closed, waiting for you to ask him to open them. To see what? A literal cockroach who thinks she's a bold and confident woman. You shakily sigh.
Maki, feeling in your sigh that something was wrong, furrows his eyebrows. His eyes were kept closed, and you found this moment really cute. “Everything’s okay, love?” The sound of his voice vibrated everywhere in your half-naked body. “Mhm…! Huh- Yes! Just-… Wait a second.”
After looking at your body one last time under those underwear, you looked back at Maki with much more determination. You're not a pussy anymore. You can do it. You're a grown woman…! You can…- Oh fuck. No, you can't. Tears started to roll down your cheeks.
Your boyfriend, hearing you cry, immediately tries to take your hand. This lovebird didn't even open its eyes yet. You took his hand and squeezed it. “What's going on? Why are you crying? Can I open my eyes?”
— “Yes… You can.” You said, wiping your tears away.
To your surprise, Maki didn't even acknowledge how you were dressed. He brought you towards him to stand in front of him, his eyes full of worry. “I wanted tonight to be… special. But- But I'm just a pussy, I don't even dare to be in underwear in front of my boyfriend… It suck!” You said, crying.
After you finished talking, it was like Maki really understood where he was and how you were dressed. You looked at his reaction, even tho your vision was blurred because of your tears. His eyes roamed over your body, scanning every part of you like he was scared to miss something. His cheeks began to turn crimson when he finally looked up at you, his eyes full of something you had never seen in his eyes before: lust.
You stopped crying. And look down at him. He didn't even know where to put his hand. “Maki…? I just… I trust you.” You simply said.
You looked shy and vulnerable in front of him, dressing like that, saying with the most adorable voice that you trusted him, which made his heart twitch. “You… You look incredible y/n. I mean it. But you don't look comfortable-..”
— “No! I want it, I just need to find the strength to. Please Maki… it's a big step that I'm taking right now. I can't just throw everything away.”
Maki looked at you, unsure. But for the first time, all he saw was his not-so-confident girlfriend, determined. He sighed and nodded. “Alright… But if anything I do feel uncomfortable..-”
— “Yes! Maki, I know!” You said shaking his shoulders a little.
— “I'm just saying!” He sighed again. But this time, his face was more serious; he was literally eating you with his eyes. “Come here…”
He put his warm hands just under your ass to make you flush against him. He looked up at you. The rose of his cheek came back, and the little look in the eyes made your stomach twist. He made you lean to kiss him, but before your lips touched, you pulled back. Taking a step back, holding your arms. “Can we turn down the lights?”
He looked at you and chuckled. Even if you didn't want to, you light up the mood. You felt less stressed, and Maki's attention was completely on admiring you and not trying to scare you away. He nodded, and you made your way to blow out most of the candles. You just lit two candles. Now, you couldn't see much, but you could imagine most of the bedroom and Maki’s body now pressed against your back after you stood up and blew out a candle.
Maki’s hand roamed to the side of your arms, caressing your skin up and down. His breath was slamming your neck. His face was completely buried in the crook of your neck as he pressed soft kisses. “Relax, won't you…?” He said in the softest and most trustworthy tone. You nodded and let out a breath you never thought you were holding.
At the feeling of your body relaxing under him, he smiled and lingered his hand on the curve of your waist. “Let me take care of you… Can I?” His deep and slow tone made your body shiver. You nodded, and you felt that feeling, the one you were scared to feel until now: you started to get turned on.
Maki wrapped his arms around your waist and guided you toward the bed. He made you lean forward; his body now pressed against yours. You've dreamed of this moment for a long time. Now, you're reflecting on all the times you should have had the courage to take the step. Maki pressed kisses along your jawline and collarbones. “You're so pretty like that… Only for me,” he growls between kisses.
He looked up at you, his eyes asking if he could go lower, and you nodded. He smiled against your skin as he began to kiss each of your breasts. His kisses lingered longer than before, and he was now biting your skin. You could tell he was trying to hold back. “Maki...” You ran a hand through his hair so he would look at you. “I trust you; you can do whatever you want with me…”
His eyes darken even more. “Don't say that to me, sweetheart, or I'll forget that it's your first time…” He kissed your skin under your breast and moved his hand up the fabric of your bra. “Even the thought of this being your first time turns me on… Don't dare push it.”
His voice was so low that you began to feel a hot wave spread through you. His hand moved behind your back to unfasten your bra, then slowly slid it down. You kept your eyes on his face with every movement.
His eyes widened briefly as he admired your unclothed breasts before looking up at you again, as if to seek your permission. You ran your hand through his hair and gently pressed his face toward your body. He grinned broadly and finally one of your nipples into his hot, wet mouth.
You recoil instantly when his teeth meet your sensitive nipple—causing you to whimper. Maki groans against your skin. One of his hands moves up to cup your other breast, while his mouth leaves the first to trace wet kisses down to your stomach, toward the hem of your panties.
He was gazing at the piece of fabric as if it hid the most beautiful thing in the world. “Maki, I swear to God if you ask for my permission again…”
He chuckled softly. His deep voice sent a wave of heat coursing through you. His grin widened as he took the hem of your panties with his teeth and slowly pulled them down, his dark brown eyes never leaving yours.
He put your panties away and looked at your core like it was his favorite meal in front of him. He licked his lips and approached his face towards your entrance. His hand that was massaging your nipple left your breast and went down to spread open your legs. “You're so pretty… You're already so wet for me, baby.”
He blew on your pussy just to watch you jump a bit. Even his breath feels so good on you, how are you gonna end up with his cock inside you? You can't imagine because Maki’s already giving your pussy her first kiss. His lips brushing your clit, then his tongue.
“Fuck, that feels so good…” You shot your head back. Maki chuckled against your cunt as he was fully eating you out now. He wasn't holding back. Your hand instantly took his hair between your fingers to burrow Maki’s face deeper into you. “You doing so good… Don't hold back, my love; I wanna hear every beautiful little sound you make…” He said before he suck hard on your clit, making you moan shamelessly.
Maki was having the time of his life, making you whimper and moan his name just by the bias of his tongue and mouth. “Maki… Fuck I think I'm gonna cum.” You moaned, hardening your hold on Maki’s hair.
He smiled against your core and pulled back just before you could arrive at your climax. You looked at him confused. “It's been a year since I wanted to do that… I want the suspense to last at least a few more minutes.” You let out an uncontented whimper as you got on your forearms to look up at him undressing.
First, his shirt, revealing his well-toned abs, muscular chest, and, finally, his big biceps. You love his biceps with all your heart. You want to bite on them; you want him to put you in a headlock and choke you because of them. You bite down on your swallowed lips as he pulls down his pants and boxers.
At first, you didn't want to look at it; you felt too overwhelmed and shy, but after a few seconds, you turned to him again and took a look at what was waiting patiently for you. This tip of his cock was already as swallow as your pumply lips, a cherish red color emanates from the skin of his cock, a bit of pre-cum already came out from how hard he is. Veins started to appear the longer your gaze lingered on his dick.
You look up at him again, and he looks like he's proud of his cock. A little grin met your eyes, a reassuring and loving smile. He lay down on top of you again. “You sure you want to do this?” He said, seriously. You nodded. “I so fucking am.” He smiled widely before kissing you passionately while shifting position to move his tip at your entrance.
He broke the kiss and looked down at you. “I'm going, alright? I'm going bit by bit… If something's wrong… You scream. And I'll stop.” You laughed and nodded. “Alright.” You smiled as you wrapped your arms around his neck.
Maki's eyes never leave yours even when you feel the tip of his cock slide inside you. Your walls were stretched so hard it hurt. But it hurt so right. “Fuck, you're so freaking tight,” Maki whispered in your ear.
Inch by inch Maki slides inside you until the base of his cock meets your skin. Maki shoved his head into the crook of your neck with a low growl. He started to thrust into you slowly, making you moan directly in his ear. After a moment, you adapt yourself to the size of his dick, so Maki started to move faster, without holding back this time.
—“You feel so right under me…” He whispered before sliding kisses down your neck and joining your lips with his in a messy kiss.
The bed was moving with each thrust Maki was giving you, and you couldn't hold back any moans that were escaping your mouth. Maki kept telling you sweet things directly in your ear, while you couldn't even say one thing because of how much you were overstimulated by your boyfriend's sudden touch at your clit.
— “I'm coming… Please let me come this time…” You asked. Maki laughed and gave you a big wet kiss on your neck. “Come on my cock, my love…”
I nodded, throwing your head back because Maki was going faster, you could feel yourself hitting your climax. Your legs were shaking under him, while you were searching for air because of how strong the orgasm was. Maki was still thrusting into you before pulling out and cum all over you tits and stomach.
He looked at you after he let out a moan, after releasing. You two were out of breath. Then, as nothing happened, he took your body and made you lie on his chest while he was brushing locks of your hair between his fingers. “How do you feel?” He asked before giving you a sweet kiss on the top of your head. “Empty…” You laughed.
He looked down at your smiling face. Oh, now you've started to know this look. “Want me to fill you up?”
