Em’s

18 | #certifiedfreak #letmesee&teamin4K

[makiiislovers]

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— ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ?

✩°｡ ⋆⸜ 🎧 ~ 𝙀𝙢𝙢𝙖

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★ ・．❕「𝘽𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙈𝙖𝙠𝙞 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣 𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙀𝙍𝙍𝙍𝙍𝙍𝙍𝙍 #𝙬𝙖𝙨𝙞𝙖𝙣」

☆💬。・ 𝙁𝘼𝙉 𝙁𝙄𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉 𝙒𝙍𝙄𝙏𝙀𝙍 ✍️

➜ MASTERLIST (⸝⸝ᴗ﹏ᴗ⸝⸝) ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

.ᐟ 𝘿𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙝𝙤𝙡𝙙 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙚 𝙖 𝙢𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙖𝙜𝙚 𝙄'𝙢 𝙤𝙥𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜!! 💬 ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

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𝙀𝙢’𝙨 ♡

[samwspn]

tag game ֶָ֢ᐟ — 3 animals that represent you?

⋮ ⌗ ┆ deer, bears and wolves :3

npt:: @wintrynightz @heart-of-alex @pittsick @rogersgal @kismetsfawn @amourflores @userhotd @im-miss-worldblog @prettysouled @severedlamb @dontlistentodaisy @deadbeatpup @fawnrott @gilmrres @gengarwebs @heapingfern @lilahthedoll @carmysdoll @cup1dssorrow @cumkissed @vlarrtrgryn @beafond @nuitts @meiyokstarr

[meiyokstarr]

tag game ֶָ֢ᐟ — 3 animals that represent you?

ˎˊ˗ puppies , bunnies and penguins <33

𓈃❛⃯ npt @skiendielific @sturnsfavgirl @s0nnielvr @lamourdmavie @xavanzinilover11x @meretzinis @rajzini @godspeedfike @williamssbabydoll @glocer @geekzini @groovywaves @2pac-wrld @spoonisnotcat @yourdecayedfaith @yearnmachine @mykhq @myfemmefatales @reiziji @miagamegirl @rninne

[mykhq]

tag game ֶָ֢ᐟ — 3 animals that represent you?

— Otters, Bernese puppies, and ladybugs⭑.ᐟ

npt: @sorry-babyx @unfinishedsoull @mangomohyo @m4nonz @m6eusss @baredbloody @rajzini @mayzini @stupidogz @lovelee4u @loseryok @meretzini @nayloni @roansverse @gabsrevival

[nayloni]

ty this is cute - hermit crabs turtles cats

@meeerlmorp @goodmorningfromthesunn @nakylvr @meifixblr @shiho0pirate @that1fangurl @herestoallmytgirls

[that1fangurl]

aww ty loni i feel like i haven’t talked to you in a minute!

-bunnies bc that’s what illi says i remind them of

-i really love any type of bear but polar bears are my personal fav

-and fenex foxes are my favorite animal!

i just feel like there all me…..uhh tags @wonbubee, @kittyxcams, and anyone else!

[nichoberri]

tags game! what animals represent u!

aheh this is adorableeee n I just wanted to bother my mootz lol :3 (I adore you all <3)

— bunnies, pandas, and fawns ~ (I’m just an anxious little fluffball basically)

tags (not required!): @irichooe @euijooswife @wanyangii @jyuugoyasmine @sunmoonnie @takifusion @smidare @7yataki @fumasannn

[irichooe]

thank you for the tag love :3

-- puppys, hamster (clearly w glasses), and donkeys. Keyword - dark big eyes :P

tags (not required!!): @n1conekoz @makiiislovers (+ whoever wants to do it ;3)

P.S - I need more moots, please come to me, I'm too shy to come to you :(

[makiiislovers]

thank you sm iri for the tag!!

— golden retriever (bc i really really have a lot of energy daily lmao)

— capuchin monkeys!!! (i’m a playful person and by the many videos i saw of those monkeys, i feel that they represent me well)

— and finally, red panda (just because they're really cute and love to eat)

tags (not required!!): @r4ny4a @euijoojoo @fumasannn @muratamame (or whoever wants to do it!! ^^)

[meluneira]

[paperheartsofia]

[makiiislovers]

「 ✦ 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐞 ✦ 」

synopsis ; who said marks were only made by fist and blood? teeth and lips can do the same job. in better sometimes…

content ; blood, fights, (very light, almost none) gore, violence, smut, Mafia!Nicholas, Boxer!fem, pussy eating, fingering, oral (fem receiving), street fights, manhandling, many others…

word count ; i don't count anymore 🤞 (around 4, 5k maybe)

notes ; MDNI (+18). the name of the new &Team cb really gave me ideas lmao. but idk i feel like i should do a part two?

masterlist <3

❝⸺ chapter one

                          CLASS FIGHT❞

You threw your first punch in middle school, in the courtyard. One of the popular girls kissed your first-ever lover. You fell in love with him, but he wasn't in your life. You wanted to be in her shoes for one day, so you waited for recess to make her pay.

Her face was fucked up, and your hands were bloody. You were in the playground, and things were getting muddy. The teacher broke y'all after you broke her. And your one true love called you a monster.

That fight brought something to mind for you. Since that day, because of your lack of communication, and mostly because you were too shy, you talked with your fist.

Your parents enrolled you in a boxing club, thinking you might need to burn off some energy. And you fell in love with this sport.

You won every fight you had and brought home many prizes and trophies. But then you had to move away from your hometown and go to Tokyo. A prestigious boxing club recruited you.

You lived alone in Tokyo when you were only fifteen. You get to school, and right after, you spend all your end-of-afternoon and night training to become the new best thing.

In the first three competitions you fought, you won everything. Everyone was happy and proud of you; they were so sure that you would become a big boxer. But that is without counting this day when everything changes.

One of your opponents gave you a forbidden move during your fight. Your wrist broke into a million pieces. Your heart followed right after. The doctor told you that your wrist was too damaged and too fragile to continue boxing.

Your whole world collapsed. You would be a failure to your family, you knew that. Your parents put so much money into you when they didn't have any. And that's how you thanks them?

You didn't tell them. You didn't tell them that you were obligated to stop boxing. So you continued to live a life in Tokyo. You found a little job to pay your rent and keep updating your parents about the fake training and competition you fought in.

After a year, your wrist was doing okay, but you didn't have the same level as before. Since you had stopped boxing for so many months, you needed to join a club to get back in shape.

You tried to join a new boxing club, but none of them wanted you. They kept finding your boxing style too dangerous and animalistic. And that was too much for you. So you officially stopped everything related to boxing.

Even tho you used to fight here and there throughout your teenage years.

Then, three days after your nineteenth birthday, a man approached you and asked if you wanted to join an underground boxing club. You hesitates a lot. You often fought without anything, so you'll be used to it, but you would be too tired the next day for work.

The businessman brought up the subject of the money. You will gain almost three times your actual one-week salary in just one fight. So you accepted; little did you know you would end up entertaining the Mafia bosses and their henchmen.

Another day as a boxer, yet a killer, you fight tonight. You were preparing in the changing room, applying a bandage to your hands and knuckles. Those fights end only when one of the two fighters is dead or completely knocked out and won't wake up for days. So you'd better be prepared, because anything goes. Some of them use knives hidden in their shorts; others, like you, use little fine iron strips on their knuckles to make the punch hit harder.

You managed to always win your fights with those. Your dangerous, animalistic fighting style is useful after all. You may be made for these kinds of things, who knows? At least that's what you said to yourself. When you were walking to the MMA ring, you could hear loud cheers and screams around the big parking lot, equipped like a complete boxing arena.

The most important Mafia gangs were in the highest seats. They always watch for opportunities to recruit new people for their gangs. You always refused all the proposals. You thought that was just for people who liked killing. And even tho it doesn't look like it, every time you end a man's life, you hate all of this. You're getting used to seeing dead people after killing them, but the feeling after the adrenaline wore off was what made you throw up every time.

When your feet were finally on the ring, you could see all those men screaming for you to kill whoever would walk in and try to kill you, and win the right to say that they killed you. When your opponent came in, you didn't turn your tired, used eyes right away; the reaction of the guys in the audience made you realize that tonight might be your last night on earth.

When your gaze finally found the person you had to fight, you immediately looked at M. Moon. Is this even allowed? And by the way he looked away, you could tell that yes, this was allowed. You got in front of the colossal fighter in front of you. The biceps of this man's arm might be as big as your waist. But you didn't discourage yourself either. Even tho you had no one to live for, since the day your parents learned about the injury, they completely cut off all communication with you. You still needed to get out of here, and then you could die peacefully. No one wants to die like this, even if you had all the prizes, fought everyone, gained a lot of money, and weren't scared of dying. Everyone wants to end their contracts and then jump off a cliff.

The fight started. Of course, the guy wanted you to make the first move. If he did, it wouldn't be fun to watch. And then you remember one of the first rules that you learned through the months: Always entertain. Like this, Mafia bosses can order their made men to throw some weapons or pay the opponent to stop moving for an unknown amount of time. And since you was clearly in a good position for that, you played with that.

After some seconds of turning around the ring, the big guy finally made the first move and threw a punch directly towards your face. You were quicker than him, and more skillful, so that little powerful punch didn't even touch your hair. You were able to move aside in a rapid motion and punch him right in the liver. The little iron strip, covered by the white bandage around your hand, left a big mess on his skin. The power and speed of your punch left an immediate red bruise. The men staggered. The audience cheered even more. The little and thin woman caused the first damage in this fight. You were getting ready again; he might rush to you at any moment.

Your eyes met, and all you could see was the determination to kill in your opponent's eyes. The cold of this gaze made you stop for a moment, just a fraction of a second. But enough for him to attack you with a punch on your jawline. You fell onto the hard, stained with old blood floor of the ring. He really did a good job with that punch. When you were still trying to wake up, even tho you were still conscious and could move even a bit, the big guy got on top of you and started to strangle you with so much strength that we could hear people finding the man ridiculous by trying to kill a woman who was his weight divided by three like this. Maybe because the man heard them, he let go and shook you a little to wake you. Of course, you were already awake, so you just gave him the most powerful headshot ever. He fell back, and you finally could get up, even tho everything around you was turning. Your nose was bleeding in little drops onto the floor, but you didn't mind and moved into your defensive stance.

The man was so angry that he turned red. Without realizing it, you let out a mocking laugh, and the man took a small knife from his shorts. He really wanted to end you, that's what you thought. That's what they all thought. Surprisingly, the arena became more aware. This wasn't a fight anymore, just an assassination attempt in front of their eyes. You, even with bruises on your jawline and throat, didn't feel any pain. The feeling of pain and the fear of death suddenly left your body when you saw that knife. If you were going to be murdered, at least you would fight for it.

The big man rushed towards you and tried to cut your cheek, but you moved too quickly for him and got behind him. You kicked him from behind to make him stumble and for you to gain more space in the ring. The man's face hit the fences before he turned around, and without giving you a moment of rest, he ran towards you and took you by the hair, before throwing you with a lot of strength against the fences. Your body hitting the ground made a big, deep sound. You coughed up blood as you were trying to get up. When you looked towards the man, her gaze flickered back at a group of maybe nine guys in all black suits. Your gaze met one of them; you never saw a Mafia guy this clean on him. He was looking at you with hope. Hope? Or maybe pity. And you never liked being treated because of pity.

With that regain of energy by being angry and without at any moment breaking eye contact, you walked up to the angry and beastly colossus. This guy tried to cut you again, but with an unknown force, you stopped his wrist, making the knife fall, before giving him a pretty good punch in the liver again, then in the face, then in the face again. You didn't know why the guy wasn't doing anything. After maybe five good punches to his face, making his nose and eyebrow bleed, he finally decided to move and push you hard to the floor, before punching you on the face, opening your forehead. With an effort moan, you managed to push him away from you by spitting on his face; the saliva mixed with the blood made a pretty pattern on his face. Then, with your shoulder and knee, you pushed him away.

It was getting hard to see because of the blood falling from your forehead. You looked for the knife, and when you found it, you walked up to the guy. The endless fight was coming to an end. Finally, you didn't care how you killed him. You just wanted to prove to that guy that you, little Miss, doesn't need that kind of glance to be strong.

So you almost ran to your opponent, who was on his knees, trying to get the split away from his face. You took his hair and shoved his head backward towards you. You never kills someone face-to-face. You thinks that the victim wouldn't want their last moment of life as their opponent winning. So while looking straight into the Mafia guy's eyes, you slit the big guy's throat without hesitating. A thick silence settled over the arena. The blood spurts all over your face and the ground. You were covered in blood, your eyes cold, empty of emotions you had to throw away months ago. But you were alive.

The presenter of this event walked up onto the ring, taking care not to stain his white suit with the blood that was coming out of the guy's throat. He took your bloody wrist and, with a quick movement, moved your hand in the air, showing who the real winner is here. The cheers remain. Even tho you couldn't hear anything, all of these shitty people were made in silence by your brain. Your eyes locked again with this sharp-featured guy, and even if you looked like a crazy bitch, he was smiling. Because you won? For the first time in a long time, you smiled back, amused. Because how could he be so satisfied with you looking like this? You were covered in blood, so when you smiled, you white teeth showed up even more.

    When the presenter let go of your wrist, you felt your body give out. Still looking at him, smiling, you fell to your knees, then crashed to the hard floor, using up all your energy.

You woke up in a nursery room—a very familiar scent came to your nostrils. You sat on the very uncomfortable mattress and looked around the small room. Your eyes landed on a man’s figure sitting across the room. His head looked down, his chest moved up and down in soft motion. He was dead asleep.

Even if you couldn't see his face, you knew who it was. The guy from earlier. Why did he wait for you? Does he want to make you an offer to join his Mafia? Well, you don't want to know. You got up carefully, took your stuff, and started walking towards the door.

— “Where do you think you're going?”

His voice was cold. Too deep. Deep enough to make your heart flutter. Did you mention earlier how handsome he was? Because he is. And you could swear that he knows it too. You slowly turned around; your vision was still blurry from the earlier fight. And you finally recognized him. Nicholas Wang. Or Nico, like you loved to call him back then.

His eyes were sharp. That's the first thing you saw back then. You could literally drown in those pretty eyes of his. You swallowed hard when he took a step towards you. “What do you want?”

Your voice tried so hard not to be shaky. Because what do you mean you're not afraid to fight to the point of dying, but the only action of a man you find attractive makes you lose all your means?

— “It’s been a long time since I last saw you. Not even a ‘I missed you, Nico’?”

— “I'm not interested in any form of contract with the Mafia. If it's for that you came… I already told you.”

He was just in front of you now. His dark gaze looks down at you. You looked so vulnerable in the lack of fabric you had because of the fights, compared to him, with his heavy black coat and perfectly sewn suit.

— “Who said that I wanted you to be in the Mafia? I just… I missed feeling your pretty fingers tightening on my back…”

He brushed a string of hair out of your face, tracing your jawline absentmindedly. You shove his hand out of your face in a quick movement. It's been too long since he last touched you like this. He can't just come, empty himself, and then go without any warning or news to you for the few months after that.

— “Listen, Nicholas, we really had fun back then, but we can't anymore. Like, I can see you have become a really high-ranked Mafia guy or whatever, so if people see you with me, a little underground fighter, your reputation will be fucked-”

His hand carefully cupped your lightly swollen cheek before tilting your head up even higher. “Shh…” He said. Just before he crashed his lips into yours. Well, you said you weren't going to be easy. You're just another brat liar.

You completely melted under his hard kiss. Oh, you missed being under his mercy like this. Your hands instinctively reach the back of his neck to press his face closer to yours and deepen the kiss even more. You could feel his hands roaming all over your body, to your hips, towards the bottom of your breasts.

You let out a little whimper when he took one of your breasts in his hand and squeezed it. You could hear the sound of his large coat being thrown away in a corner, before his hands started to caress slightly under your ass before lifting you up.

This scenario. You've lived it so many times in the past. That's wild how unbelievable can maridiculousu forget everything. How can he make you forget about all those months when he didn't come into your apartment and left you moaning and taking care of yourself alone? Because none of the other men can fuck you as he does.

He took you to the counter where the medical supplies were and sat you down on it. His lips never leave yours. The feeling of his tongue against yours made you want it on another part of your body. You were so vulnerable under his touch…

Nicholas broke the kiss, and a big string of saliva was hanging between your mouths. You both were panting, reaching for air. He started to kiss your jawline, then your neck, and moved lower so his face was facing your cunt. A sly grin came across his fucking dumb face, seeing you so needy and desperate under his touch.

His hands travel all the way to your waistband, and slowly he pulls it down, slowly enough to give you time to tell him to stop. The only thing you did was to look at him with those big, lusty eyes he loves so much, permitting him. He pulls down your shorts and tosses them to the other side of the room. He carefully opened your leg and let it rest on his shoulder. You moved your waist towards his face so he could fasten his movement and finally capture his lips around your clit.

— “Because you think I'm going to give you what you want right away? Let me laugh…”

He chuckled. His warm breath hits your inner thigh, making you shiver. You were already so wet, it was embarrassing to see how much you reacted to him.

He leans just a bit and lingers with some hot kisses from your thigh to your inner thigh. His lips were so close to your heat, and yet so far away. Tears of frustration began to fall from your face.

— “Hey, it's not my fault you don't communicate… Just say it. And I'll give you all you want.”

If Nicholas’s eyes could fuck you, you thought you would already be shaking and pleading for more right now. You whimpered, frustrated. You hate expressing your emotions, even more when it's love or even sexual need. “Please fuck me with your tongue.”

— “Here you go…” He grinned annoyingly.

He tosses your panties to the side, approaching his face dangerously towards your cunt. You could feel his breath on it, and it made your head fall back. Then, his tongue finally met your entrance in a quick lick. You let out a moan at the satisfying feeling.

Then began a series of licking and sucking your clit and your walls. Your moans were getting louder and louder, making Nicholas shut you up by putting his fingers into your mouth to suck on them. “Shh… You're doing great, baby. Just keep down your tone. You don't want anyone to hear us and kill both of us because I made you feel so good?”

— “No…” You shake your head, moaning at the same time. The sound was muffled because of his fingers.

— “Tell me…” He started, hovering at your entrance with his two fingers. “Does anyone make you feel that way? Say it.”

He took his fingers from your mouth and began to take off your sports bra slowly. “Nobody-… Fuck, Nico, just put those damn fingers in me.” You let out a choked moan at the feeling of his two fingers stretching you apart.

It burns so much, but in the best way possible. Nicholas waited for you to adapt yourself to his large fingers, massaging slowly your clit with his thumb. You were out of breath, trying too hard to catch your breath between whimpers.

His mouth was working on one of your tits. You didn't even realize that you didn't have your bra anymore. When did he take it off? “Fuck Nicho…” You moaned. Your sound, on its own, could make him come right away; he could listen to it for hours and hours. He began to thrust his fingers into you, curling each time his fingers touched your g-point.

You couldn't help but curl your hips under his touch. The sensation of satisfaction grew increasingly intense. Nicholas could feel it, so he sped up his thrust with his fingers. “Come on my finger, love…” He whispered, his voice huskier than usual, in the crack of your neck. You nodded; you couldn't even say a word properly because of how good he was with his fingers.

Your chest was rising and falling less steadily now, your moans became louder, so you had to bite down on your lower lip to the point where you could taste blood. And you came, your legs trembling, your head falling backward. The orgasm made your eyes roll at the very back of your head; if you concentrated just a bit, you could see little stars appear under your eyelids.

— “Open your pretty eyes for me, babe…” He tilted your chin up. “Look at you… Are you all messy for just my fingers?” He grinned widely as he put your panties back on while giving your shaky legs a soft caress.

— “Nicholas…” You started to talk, but you heard voices of men coming towards the nursery room, where you and Nicholas were. “Fuck.”

You jumped off the counter, never leaving Nicholas’s gaze as you put your stuff back on. When you got up from putting on your pants. Nicholas leaned against your back, arms resting around your waist as he buried his face into the crook of your neck. Leaving you soft kisses. “Next time, I'm going to make you plead my name. And I'll personally make sure no one will ever bother us.”

Nicholas got away from you at the perfect moment. The two bodyguards were here for Nicholas because his teammates were wondering where he was and why he was taking so long. He shook your hand. “Promise me to think about this offer..” He said, his mask back on.

You nodded, shaking his hand absentmindedly. You tried to avoid falling as much as possible because of your weak legs. When they got out, without Nicholas giving you a knowing discreet look, you sat down immediately on the floor. “Shit.” You mumbled.

That's wild how unbelievable, still ridiculous, the orgasm is even minutes after it, as he left you with a part of him inside you that you couldn't take off. And as you look into the mirror of the nursery room, you can see at least 10 violet marks remaining all over your body.

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𝙀𝙢’𝙨 ♡

tag: @yvalrik

[sunmoonnie]

Cool for the summer.

surf instructor!nicholas x fem!reader

🌊summary : moving to Hawaii with your boyfriend opened up more opportunities than you would ever have thought so. In so many ways, you have been feeling trapped in your relationship. You went to multiple therapists, but they could never give you good advice. But it seems like therapists in Honolulu had a different mindset than in Portland. So, what happens when you go to a surf instructor your therapist recommended, who is way hotter than you expected? And you don't even know it yet, but as time passes even more opportunities will open up for you when you get closer with him...

🌊 genre : angst, smut, strangers to lovers

🌊 tags : cheating (kinda) , soft nicholas, gentle nicholas, pussy drunk nicholas, eating out, cowgirl, experienced nicholas, kinda inexperienced reader, jealous nicholas (YUMMM), unprotected sex (don't do this folks), whiny nicholas and lowkey a little bit submissive, dacryphilia , whimpering, usage of jagiya, harumaki if you squint but only if you squint, hickeys, nicholas loves tits, missionary

🌊wc : 14k

๑ ๑ ๑ song: cool for the summer - demi lovato ๑ ๑ ๑

🌊notes : first fanfic posted on here yeeeey!! sorry is anything is inaccurate i never been in either portland or hawaii lmao. i thought this was going to be a small ff, smut with some plot but... angst happened. BUT this is not a problem since we love drama obvi. reblogs, comments and likes are very much appreciated, they keep me motivated🥹 but even if you just take your time and read this, it means a lot. hope you enjoy!!

He set his cup down on the glass table and crossed his legs. Sitting in a red velvet armchair, he looked like a therapist straight out of a movie. Was it a great first impression? you didn't exactly know either. 

On one hand, he looked trustful for sure. Maybe you've been watching way too many dramas with the same plot. A teenage girl has problems in school, then flashes to a few scenes with her therapist, who makes her realize that all she needs is love. And the girl is just like 'wait, yes' then just goes and dates the basketball captain. 

You wish it was easy like that. But you weren't in school anymore, and it was never really that easy for you. In highschool, quite literally you were the biggest loser in the world. Someone who even grimaced at the thought of someone loving her deeply, cause even the thought made you seem like it was a joke or something. 

Looking back, high school was the most horrible thing to happen to you. You had friends, but nobody was ever interested in you. And missing out on that well-known teenage romance was a hard pill to swallow, but you accepted your fate after a while.

Then, in your last year, it happened. The thing that you thought never would. Someone asked you out, and that someone was none other than Byun Eui-joo, one of the players of the local water polo team. Everybody knew him as EJ. 

He wasn't the most popular and known guy in the school, but he was for sure one of them big dogs. After all, he got a nickname, and not everybody was important enough to get a nickname. For example, you didn't get one. Never, from anybody.

So, after EJ asked you out, you obviously agreed right away. The first date was so awkward you would never go back to that again, but he was so giggly and cute that your heart nearly melted. Soon, you guys started dating.

But after five years, here you are in your freshly chosen therapist’s room, telling him all about EJ and how he's annoying you even more by every passing day. He's looking at you through his square glasses, and he would look intimidating if you would think deeper into it, but you are too carried away. Your words just flow out of your mouth like a waterfall, and someone finally listens. That's all you wanted, since your boyfriend is not capable of that. 

“That's interesting” The therapist looked down on his notes and flipped a page, looking like he would rather be anywhere than this room.

Your eyes nearly twitched “That's all? Interesting?” 

He looked up without lifting his head, eyes glancing up above his silver glasses. “Is this your first day here? In Hawaii”

You nodded your head “Yes. I just moved here, like two days ago, but we could call it my first day. I haven't had time to get out of my new house. There's too much unresolved stuff”

He hummed, and for a moment you swear you could feel his judgement. That can't be true, right? This is his job, he is supposed to listen.

“You are telling me that the first thing after you got out of your house was to go to a therapy session?”

You gulped. Well, if he worded it like that, it for sure seemed like fatal trouble. But you weren't desperate for answers. You just wanted good advice, or just anyone to listen to you. 

“I mean— I—” you stumbled over your words “I just can't take the arguments anymore. I need a solution”

He wrote something down, the silence in the room suffocating. The only sound being his pen as it chiseled into the paper was the most embarrassing thing you have experienced in a while. It made you think about what he could be writing. 

He turned his head to look outside on the big window that screeched from the room’s ceiling to the floor. The view was straight up amazing from the small room, the beach and the sea’s beautiful image seductively calling you to go down and dip into the water.

The whole session felt so odd. You were uncomfortable, and as the time kept passing and you kept glancing at the clock on the wall, you realized this is surely not how it was supposed to go. 

He wasn't even replying to you most of the times, he just scrabbled down stuff in his notebook like it was some fucking interview. 

You were about forty minutes into the session when you let out a sigh and let your back hit the backrest of the cushion. 

He glanced up from the notebook, eyes heavy on you. 

And before you could stop and think, the words slipped out of your mouth “Do you have a solution or any advice? Or should I walk out helpless?”

One more moment of silence. A big one. 

He pushed his glasses up on the bridge of his nose, since it began to slide down. Then, he lifted his chin up. “Yes, actually”

The words made your eyes widen slightly. You didn't think this session was going to end up anywhere. In fact, the past forty minutes seemed like you wasted it from your precious life. 

You sat up straight “And what is it?”

“Try a sport” 

You knitted your brows together in confusion. This was an answer you should’ve seen coming, just pure bullshit that doesn't make sense. 

As if he could read your mind, he began to explain. “I know what you think. But I’m not insane, I promise. We just have our things… different here. You said you came from Portland, right?”

You nod your head.

“You probably had a way more different life so far than you will living here. Look outside, it's so sunny, and happy, isn't it?”

You turn your head to the gigantic window you were just looking out on a few minutes ago. The beach life was still active, loads of people were in the water, or on the sand tanning. 

“Yes, it is” You agree.

“Have you ever tried any watersports?” He asks kindly, a subtle smile on his face now. Okay, that proves he may not be that bad after all. At least he doesn't look like a serial killer now. He should smile more.

You think it through, but you realize you don't have to think that much when you can barely even swim. “Not really” 

“Great!” He claps his hands together, pure excitement radiating from his expression “Now it's time, then.” He looks at the clock, then stands up to guide you out when he sees the one hour has passed.

“Sadly, our time is over” He says, and you stand up too to shake hands.

“Thank you, and I will take your advice” You say slightly bowing to show respect as you shake his hand. 

“It’ll help, trust me. I’m going to send you one of my friend’s social media pages, if that's okay. That man is an expert!” He even lets out a laugh, and you respond with a chuckle on your own too.

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Two days have passed since the therapy session with your new therapist, but you still haven't gotten that message. Honestly, you weren't even sure if he told you the truth or not. What if he just made that friend up in his own mind? He seems like the kind of person who would do that. 

You kept on wondering while standing in the kitchen, slicking up tomatoes for your and EJ’s lunch. It has been a while since you and him ate together, and you thought it might be a good idea to make his favorite dish for this special event. 

He wasn't home since he already found a job, though you moved in only a few days ago. When he stated that and you questioned him, he just said he already got the job when you lived in Portland. He just didn't tell you about it.

Typical EJ. Sometimes you catch yourself wondering: when did you ruin your relationship with him? But every time this crosses your mind, you shake the thoughts away.

Now there's a different thought that gets into your mind. Was it worth it to move to Hawaii? Will things work out with him? You wanted to believe that you moved here for fun, and to change the environment around you. But deep down, you knew the truth. Of course you did, because you and him talked about it. 

Because your old therapist told you on the couple therapy sessions every time. ‘Try a vacation. You don't have to move if it's not that bad… even a simple vacation could help’

Seems like it was that bad that you had to move. And that made your heart ache, every time you remembered his face, his emotionless face when he told you he thinks it could be the best if you move out of your hometown. You lived your whole life in Portland.

But EJ was the only boy who ever loved you, and you knew you can't lose him. Even if he doesn't feel anything. Even if you don-

The buzz of your phone on the countertop makes you get out of your head, the sudden sound scares you so bad that you accidentally cut your index finger with the sharp knife. 

You cuss, then look at the phone. 

[phone]: Here's the guy I was talking about. 

LINK

Have a nice day!

You almost immediately drop the knife on the countertop to suck the flowing blood from your finger while with your left hand, you clumsily pick up the phone to open the message.

Opening the link your therapist sent you, even your breath stuck in your throat. You were expecting everything but this sight. 

A guy, probably around the same age as you, in his early twenties. His social media account didn't look like some millennial or a pr team made it. Instead, it was filled with pictures where he was with his friends, pictures of him, places he went to and stuff. Just like if he had a normal life. 

This wasn't shocking just as itself. The only thing that shocked you was that this therapist knew people like this. Cool people.

You scroll up back onto the top of the page to read his bio. There weren't many things written on it, only a few casual information like his age or what country he lives in. His email was also there, where you could contact him. What your eyes stopped on was the very top line.

Surf Instructor.

Your stomach twirled at the thought of standing on a surf board and riding waves. No. That was way too out of your comfort zone. Especially with this guy. He looked way too cool compared to you, he seemed someone that genuinely enjoyed living to the fullest. Someone who had zero insecurities or problems.

You just couldn't imagine yourself surfing with this man. Or even being by the beach with him, your body made yourself nearly throw up every time you glanced at it in the mirror. 

You stopped sucking on your finger for a moment, just to type back a message to your therapist quickly.

you: surfing? no

Short, but it says everything he needs to know. Maybe he might think you are being rude, but… who does he think he is, really? Yes, you are there to ask for advice but if he gives you something stupid like surfing, then he shouldn't be surprised at your reaction.

You don't even have time to put the phone down and continue chopping the tomatoes when it buzzes in your hand, a not so delightful message flashing on the screen.

[phone]: Already booked an appointment for tomorrow 10 am. Be there, the guy’s schedule is way too tight. 

No way back now :) 

You scoff in anger, practically throwing the phone on the counter. It ends up in the tomatoes, but you don't even care about that. What the hell does this guy think? Just because he's a therapist he can't make decisions instead of you. 

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After many many internal fights with yourself, you decided that maybe, maybe he was right. This whole moving out is to test waters, which became… quite literal. Coming out of your comfort zone can be positive, right? You asked yourself this exact question and nothing else while you took the bus to the beach. 

Yesterday afternoon wasn't the most pleasant thing you've ever experienced. EJ came home pretty late, and the lunch you made became a dinner, but it also became cold and sticky. He didn't enjoy it, and he voiced it. 

You were about to cry yourself to sleep, because EJ probably had such a bad day at work. He just started at his new workplace, but it was already stressful for him and it was very obvious that he took the tension out on you with his constant remarks. 

Moving was a shit idea. Spending loads of money on a house in the beautiful Hawaii was a shittier idea. You should've stayed in the gloomy and crimeful Portland.

The sand got in your sandals, and it was pretty irritating having it stuck to your feet and having it between your toes, you couldn't care less about it. 

Your mind was already spiraling on lunch. You should be in the kitchen right now. It’s just a little bit past nine, but you should be already cooking. What if you don't have food on the table by the time EJ comes home?

Will he be mad? 

No, he will probably come home at night anyways. You have plenty of time today. A simple surf lesson won't hurt you or him. But if he finds out you found a therapist for yourself, now, that's a different story. That would mean the end of you. 

You looked over at the sea, the sun had just started coming up not so long ago, and its rays covered the top of the water, making it look like a golden bridge made out of veil. 

You get your phone out of your pocket and take a photo of it. Kind of a weird habit, but you always take pictures of everything you find pretty. Especially clouds. If it looks like something, your phone is already in your hand. 

You closed the camera app and the next thing you do is check the address your therapist sent you yesterday. You let your feet sink in the sand while you do it, your sandals fully covered in sand now. 

“Where the fuck…” You mutter when you type it in the maps application, but you waste no time and start walking again. His workplace was pretty far away from… everything.

You kept on walking anyways, and just a little bit before 10 am you approached the place you tapped in google maps. A house.

That's it. Nothing else. Far away from the other houses or the high skyscrapers. Just a small outcrop of sand that looked like a small island but still, it wasn't because it was connected to the beachside with sand and not water. 

The small island however looked like it was made for that house. A few palm trees were around it, and it was made out of mainly wood and bamboo. The roof was apparently made of reeds, but you weren't exactly sure. 

You attempted to walk closer, and as you approached, you realized this was probably where he actually lived. You could sneak a glance at the inside of the house since the windows were pretty big and there wasn't any glass or curtains that would cover up the sight, just a mosquito net, and it looked like a real home. 

“Hey!” A kind voice came from behind your back just as you were about to go closer to the bamboo house, and it made you immediately turn around.

Just like that, you were facing the boy you’ve seen in the photos. In real life size, he looked way cooler than in those photos. His hair was red, even though in some of the photos it was either bleached or black. It all suited him, but seeing it red in real life made you sure that it was absolutely the best choice to dye it.

Suddenly, you felt tight in your own skin. Too big in your clothes. Too small next to him, but that behavior screamed pick me. You never understood the girls in high school who always complained how ‘small’ they feel. But now, you got it.

You swallowed hard, trying to erase the weird tug in your stomach. Feeling anxious when meeting next people was normal for you, but it was never this bad. It might be because it's just you and him. 

He reached out his hand, gesturing you to shake it as an introduction. You did it, mumbling your name with a nearly trembling voice. 

“Nicholas Wang” He said it back, his voice way more firm than yours. “Nice to meet you”

“Yeah, nice to meet you too” You tried to smile too, but failed miserably.

“So,” He clapped his hands together and looked you up and down “welcome to my place. I guess I should show you around a little bit. You seem nervous”

Your body stills at the call-out, but you don't say anything. What happened? Where’s your voice? You are supposed to spend the next two hours with this man, who is, let's just say… nevermind.

You nod your head and follow him as he gestures the way with a head tilt. 

First, he takes you next to the house. There's a small garage or something like that. It’s like his house, but a smaller version. You didn't even see it at first. He opens up the door, and you are faced with a bunch of surfing boards. 

“This is where I keep my work stuff” He explains “You can choose which one you want” He smirks down at you, but you just glance at his face for a moment. 

When you finished looking around, he closed the door. “Are you nervous?” 

You swallow again, feeling like your legs are about to give up at any moment. So fucking embarrassing. “I- a little bit, maybe. I've never been to a… instructor, to be honest” you giggle, but it has no humor to it.

Instead of laughing, he nods like he agrees or something. “Oh, I get it. But you need to loosen up. I hope I can reach that” 

He smirks and gives a pat to your shoulder, and you smile back too, even though you feel the apples of your cheeks get red. 

You look at the bamboo house, the question not leaving your head. You even decide to voice it out “Do you live here?” 

He nods proudly “Yes, I built the house actually. I used to live here with my friends but they moved away eventually” 

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The waters were pretty calm today, and it was not too sunny. It definitely wasn't on the level where your whole body felt like burning after being in the sun for more than five minutes. 

After around one hour into the lesson, there were more things you could take important notes of. First of all, therapists are right, even when it seems like they don't know what they're doing. They do. Coming out of your comfort zone can be nice, actually, fantastic, you just need to find the right way to do so.

Second, Nicholas is a good talker. This might be because he is a professional surfing instructor, but he knows how to talk to people. You loosened up after forty minutes, and you definitely wasn't feeling as anxious as before. 

One thing for sure, he might look super ‘cool’ in photos, and he is in real life too. But that doesn't purposely mean that he will judge you in your swimming suit, even if you cried over it last night. He also doesn't care about how your hair sits on the top of your head. He is a surfing instructor, a teacher after all. You are not here to make friends.

“You already do so good, y/n!” He praises, watching you lay on the surfing board and swimming with your hands. “If you keep being so good, we might reach the point where you stand up next lesson” 

“Already? Isn't that too soon?” You ask, genuinely shocked. 

He shakes his head, his wet strands of hair flying around his head “Nope. I'm actually not joking, you are one of the best students I’ve gotten”

You tilt your head, swimming closer to where he was sitting on his board. “Do you say this to every single one of your students, or am I special?” 

He lets out a small giggle, dropping his head “No, I don't. You really are special. I guess” 

“Wow, I'm honored” You sit up on your board, now being about one metre far away from him. 

For a moment, he just stares at you. You look down, taking a deep breath. “I can't believe you live like this” 

He widens his eyes, the sentence probably catching him off guard. “What? Like how?”

“I don't know” You shrug “So…Calm. Your life is peaceful. You live right next to the sea, you have always been living here and I don't know. It makes me jealous.”

He laughs awkwardly again, hopping off of the board. The two hours had passed and it was time to get out of the water. You couldn't even believe the lesson was already over. 

“Jealous?” Is all he says. 

You gulp as you step out on the beach, sand sticking to your feet. You don't know what to say exactly. Nicholas seems like such an interesting person with an interesting life. While all you do is cook for your boyfriend who doesn't even come home, just sometimes. The worst thing is that you will probably marry that man. No, actually, the worst thing is that you are attached to him. You can't leave him, he has filled up your life ever since your teenage years. 

“Can I be honest?” 

He looks at you, rather concerned and scared than funny like how he looked the whole session. But he nods, and that's all you care about.

“I feel like I want to know everything about you and your life” 

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two weeks later

EJ comes home way sooner than he usually does, and that kind of catches you off guard. He texted you saying you don't have to prepare any lunch. That's another thing that catches you off guard. 

But that meant you had time. You used that time to go to a surfing lesson. In the past two weeks, you went almost every day if not every day. You weren't sure about the stuff that your therapist said about Nicholas having a ‘tight schedule’ cause somehow when you texted him ‘can i come now?’, he always replied with yes.

That's how it went today too. EJ texted you that he will come home at two pm. He sent the message at eight am.

You went to Nicholas straight away. 

You weren't exactly sure why you were enjoying this whole sport thingy so much. The surfing part didn't even excite you that much. It was probably the easiest sport of all the time, but Nicholas kept praising you about how good you were compared to others. And that made you feel special.

Nicholas was your teacher, but it felt like with all the meet ups every day that you guys have become friends by now. 

The best thing was that you and him could talk about anything. You were keeping it professional and you didn't talk about private life, but everything going on in the world, or just casual stuff. It felt refreshing.

And sometimes, lately, the time you were spending together wasn't purposely surfing lessons. Sometimes he just invited you inside his bamboo house, and you talked. Drank wine. Okay, that only happened once. But it still happened.

You went to him again like always, and you were sitting on his couch, next to each other. You talked the time away quickly. It passed so fast that you didn't even realize that it was already half past two. 

“I’m just saying! The red looks amazing” You say, twirling a strand of his red dyed hair with your index finger. It had already faded out and became somewhat pink, but it still looked good. “Or, hear me out. Pink. Make it pink” 

“Nah, I don't think that's a good idea” He shakes his head, keeping his eyes on you. “It wouldn't suit me”

“It would, what do you mean?” You say, completely protesting against him “Pink is literally the best color. Like, ever”

He chuckles “Fuck no. I still think my blonde era was the best. But pink… it would look good on you” He added, scanning your face with his eyes. 

You look down, dropping your hand from his hair to your own lap. Sometimes he complimented you, even if they were just small compliments like this, and it felt… well… you felt something. It felt good. But nothing more. 

“Thanks…” You mumbled under your breath. 

Nicholas laughed and dropped his hand on your knee. “Did I make you flustered? My bad” 

Your phone suddenly vibrates in your pocket, and it isn't a message. It keeps buzzing, meaning someone is calling you. And that someone can't be other than… fuck. 

You pull your phone out of your pocket with the speed of light, looking at the flashing name on the screen. 

“ej🩷”

Obviously. Who else. Your eyes fly to the time on the top of the screen: 14:34 

Fucking hell. You totally forgot about him coming home earlier for some fucked up reason. Nicholas looks at you with a worried expression, muttering a “What?” when you stand up and rush out of his house.

You mumble a sorry before stepping out and swiping up the green button, ready to get scolded. It happens as you expect.

“Where the hell are you?”

“I can be wherever I want to. It's none of your business, EJ”

“What? You are MY girlfriend and I told you to be home. I prepared you a fucking gift! Of course you had to ruin it”

You speed up with your steps, nearly stumbling as the sand keeps getting into your sandals. “I swear to fucking God, I’m not some home wife…”

“Well, I was about to make you one! And —” 

The rest of the sentence is a blur, you barely even let the words you heard sink in. Make you one? If that means… 

“Make me one?” You stop your steps.

“Yes, fucking hell. I was about to take you out on a fancy ass date so you don't have to fucking cook. And then, I wanted to ask you to be my wife” 

You press the red button and put the phone down. This can't be fucking real. For a few moments, you stand still, feet rooted in the sand, the only sound you hear is the sea and the thoughts in your head going wild.

You don't want to go back there. You want to stay here, because it is so calm. Not like him. He is so aggressive. Why would he want to marry you? 

It's probably not even his idea. He would never take you out on a date, those days are over. There are big chances that it was his passive aggressive mother who told him to do this whole thing. They've been wanting him to have a wife and children for so long. 

You swallow the lump in your throat, anxiety spiking up in your whole body as you continue to walk to the bus stop. You are not ready to have children, you can't have children. Not now. It's just not ideal. Especially not with EJ. You believe his whole family is cursed, and you definitely don't want to pass down those cursed energies to your children. 

The thought makes you want to throw up. The thing is that, if someone was about to ask you about your opinion on this about three weeks ago, maybe you would’ve said yes. 

But you forgot to mention something in the important notes thing. 

Nicholas was the perfect man. You knew this from the moment you looked at his pictures. He looked perfect. But when you met him, yes, you did feel anxious, but it wasn't just that. You haven't felt that feeling in a long time.

The last time you felt that was in highschool, when EJ asked you out. It was a long while ago. EJ wasn't able to make you feel like that since that. 

But every time you are with Nicholas… There's something. It feels like he made you less attached to EJ and his toxic family.

You know you can't think about this right now. You have to go home, maybe make EJ less furious with something, his favorite meal? Just get his mind off of the marriage. You would even have sex with him right now. If it takes his mind off of it, you would do it.

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Your hands are straight up trembling when you put the key into the door, opening it as silently as you possibly could. 

But as you step in and look forward, you find EJ looking at you while he stands in front of the kitchen island, leaning back on it with his arms crossed.

“Where the fuck were you, y/n?” He asks, voice low.

“Nowhere” You simply reply, suddenly feeling your ego spike up.

He pushes himself away from the counter and makes his way to you. “Fucking answer me”

“I answered”

EJ runs a frustrated hand through his hair, putting his hands on his hips. “I just… I really wanted this day to go well and you ruined it for me, babe.” 

“Really? Are you fucking kidding me right now, EJ? Do you know how many days you ruined for me? I've been standing in this kitchen for days to make you fucking lunch, and you don't even appreciate it. You never do.” It takes you so much courage, but you say your thoughts out. You were always the one who got silenced in this relationship, and you are feeling brave today anyways. “Suddenly, you want me to be your wife?”

He audibly gulps, his Adams apple moving down and up. “Yes. We have been together since high school, and...”

“It doesn't fucking matter. You ruin me, EJ. You…I…” You broke down, feeling the tears coming to your eyes. Fuck, no, you can't let yourself cry. Not in front of him. 

“I ruined you?” He raises his voice, now it sounds threatening “I saved your teenage years. Come on, Fuma told me you were always barking about how much you wanted a boyfriend. I thought i would ask you out, so you would fucking stop complaining to my friend all the fucking time”

Your heart drops. He never actually wanted you. It was all an act. It all sets into place now. He never actually wanted to ask you out, he did it so his friend (who was also your friend at the time) won't hear about your problems. 

You simply turn around, forcing yourself not to fall to the ground and cry. You simply turn around, so you don't shout at him and send him back to his mother's pussy. You simply turn around, and walk out. You run down on the stairs of the flat before he could chase you, but no, he would never do that. It's clear now. He wouldn't go after you. 

And he doesn't.

You know where you want to go right away. And you don't even question where your feet take you, right to the bus stop. You step on the floor of the bus numbered as 303. You still don't question. You feel like you finally know what you want.

However, you can't stop the tears falling from your eyes as you sit down next to the window. You don't even try to stop them, you know it would be impossible.

The bus is quiet, no one looks at you, everybody just stands or sits there boring their face onto their phone’s screen. You look outside, admiring the way the sun’s rays fall onto the water. 

It takes twenty minutes to get there. After that, comes the walk you hate so much. Half an hour. Finally, you approach the familiar bamboo house, kind of feeling exhausted from the walk. You and Nicholas for sure grew closer, but you can't help but feel a twist in your stomach. He is your surf instructor. He wasn't your friend, even if it seemed like he was. Or was he? You never talked about private things. Life things.

Despite the hesitant feeling in your feet, and the little voice in your head that told you to turn around and walk back, say yes to EJ and have children with him, you took a step.

Then you decided to not think anymore. Your life is fucked up anyways. In the next minute you found yourself knocking on the bamboo door. Nicholas opened it right away.

“y/n?” he asks, eyebrows going up in surprise. Usually, when you come to his house for a non appointment, you always text him first, but that doesn't happen now. 

“Sorry for bothering you” You try to sound normal, but you can't help the small shake that gets into your voice when you talk. “I just-” you lower your head, avoiding eye contact.

Nicholas steps closer, lifting up your chin to make you look at him “Hey, you are not bothering me” his voice softens.

You look up at him, feeling your eyes getting wetter by each second. His eyes are filled with genuine concern and softness, something that you’ve never seen on him before. He was always soft, but he kept it so professional that you could feel: there was a line that you couldn't cross with him. 

Now, that line seemed to blur, even if just a little. “Can I come in?” You insist shyly, and he immediately nods and stands out of the doorway so you could get in.

You go to his dark brown couch and lay down, practically throwing yourself onto the mattress and burring your head onto one of the soft pillows.

He stands by the kitchen, leaning his back against the counter and crossing his strong arms in front of his chest, making his forearm muscles flex.

Nicholas scans you with his eyes, looking at you laying on his couch and watching as you turn around from your stomach to your back, so you can see him since the kitchen and the cushion was placed across both sides of his house in front of each other. 

As you look at him, you notice that he has changed since you went back to EJ. When you were last here, he was wearing jeans and a black T-shirt, but now he's wearing grey sweatpants instead of jeans. 

“Do you want to talk about it?” He asks, keeping his voice firm but soft at the same time. 

You shrug and bite down your lower lip. Should you? Is it a good idea to talk about this to your teacher? You think it through quickly, but then you realize Nicholas is basically your only friend here in Hawaii. You really don't have anyone else now.

You bob your head.

“So what's up?” He asks casually, turning around so he can get a glass of water for you. “Who called you earlier and why are you all messy now?”

You run your hands through your hair at that, fixing it. “I don't even know how to tell you”

He hands you the glass of water and sits down next to you on the couch, turning his body sideways so he faces you while his arm rests on the back of the sofa. “Just tell me” He shrugs.

“Okay, so…” you began, looking down to gather your thoughts “I already told you why I moved here. Halfly.”

What you told him was less than half of your story. Yes, your father did die and it was a hard pill to swallow. You don't know why, but it was easier to tell him that rather than telling him about your boyfriend. The truth is that your dad died when you were thirteen. That was not recently.

“But there's another thing. My boyfriend, so, my boyfriend and I have problems lately.” That was another white lie. Not just lately, you have been having problems since forever. Now that you know he never actually liked you was even harder. 

He nods, like he understands. It makes your courage come back. “We went to a couple therapist, and he told us to move. He told us that if we move, the new environment would make our problems look smaller or something like that… Bullshit.”

A subtle smirk was playing on his face, but he didn't say anything. “We moved and long story short, he just told me he wants to marry me.”

A silent moment. 

“Oh” Nicholas’s body stills “And that's a problem because…?”

“Because we have been doing nothing, just arguing all the time, Nicholas! He doesn't even come home. But his mother is a passive aggressive bitch, and she probably wants him to have children so she can be a grandma”

“Damn, that's fucked up” He lets out a sigh, putting his hand on your knee to caress it as reassurance. 

Your gaze slips to his hand, and you are hesitant but decide to ask the question that sat on your tongue ever since you stepped in. “Can I sleep here?”

Nicholas doesn't even flinch, he nods right away. “Yes” after a silent beat, he adds “But…”

You sigh, already knowing what's going to come. He will deny you for some stupid reason, or will say that you have to go home at seven am.

Just like he could read your mind, or expression, he says “I’m sorry y/n. But I’m going to Los Angeles with my friends tomorrow. There's a surfing camp and a bunch of kids are waiting for us and-”

“I can go too” You say suddenly, making his eyes widen “I mean, If you want me to, I wasn't being disrespe-”

“Actually, yeah” He nods in agreement “Why not? You can come too”

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You thought the night by Nicholas is going to be somewhat awkward for multiple reasons. First and foremost, you still have a boyfriend! You keep reminding yourself that when you bore into his eyes too much, but fuck, his fault for being so damn good at having eyes. 

Then, you remember that he is still your teacher. Actually, this even slipped out of your mouth yesterday. You aren't sure what was the topic, but you added ‘who am I to expect an advice from you, you are just my teacher’

Now, that was something you weren't meant to say. But he just laughed it off and told you he actually is your friend now, not just a teacher. That made your heart drop to your stomach.

Nicholas is way too sweet with you, and you are not used to this. EJ was never this soft. You couldn't help but start comparing the two to each other last night, as you watched Nicholas drift to his dreams.

The next day you woke up to the smell of pancakes. You haven't eaten pancakes since you moved out from your mother, even though it was your favorite breakfast. 

You also came to the realization pretty quick that you didn't pack clothes. Nicholas offered to give you his, and you gladly accepted his offer. 

Now you were standing in the middle of Honolulu airport with packed bags, trying to figure out which one is your flight and where are Nicholas's friends.

You looked at the board on the top of the wall with a slightly tilted head. “Why are there so many take-off runways? I swear to god there are at least five different letters and ten numbers”

“Right? So unnecessary” Nicholas agreed. 

You set your gaze at your ticket again, checking what was the number and letter you were looking for. P7. The randomly chosen letters didn't help the situation, because tell me who the hell would choose P, B and Y as runway letters?

You were very close to crashing out to Nicholas about this when you heard a yell calling his name from afar. Nicholas and you both jolted your head towards the sound, and you spotted two people with luggages approaching you.

When they reached you, they both hugged Nicholas. You weren't exactly sure if these were the friends he talked about earlier, but they for sure looked like close friends.

Then, the one in the front turned towards you. He was shorter than Nicholas, around the same height as you, maybe a few centimeters taller. His hair was cherry red, just like Nicholas's. He looked like he was some kind of porcelain doll, suddenly you couldn't help but ask yourself how can someone be this beautiful.

He gave you a subtle smile and reached out his arms for a hug. “Hi, I’m Harua” he introduced himself when you both let go, and now you weren't scared to give him a smile too. 

“Hello, I’m y/n” 

“Nice to meet you, y/n” the guy behind Harua speaks, giving his hand out for you to shake it.

He looks way stronger than the other guy, and he is as tall as Nicholas. He wears a sleeveless top and his biceps are showing off pretty much. He has sunglasses on, but you could still see how his facial features were stronger than Harua's or Nicholas's, his jawline was way sharper. His hair was dyed cotton candy pink, which balanced his strong features. 

He shook your hand firmly “I’m Maki”

The next twenty minutes were spent looking for the flight, getting on the flight and casual inspections. Harua and Maki were seated next to each other, while you and Nicholas were sitting on the other side of the row. He let you sit next to the window, too. 

You were more than nervous before the takeoff. You sat on a plane before, but it was always such a stressful and overwhelming experience for you. You chew on your lips until it bled, tasting your bitter blood on your tongue. At least it distracted you a little bit.

“Are you okay?” Nicholas leaned closer and whispered as he squirmed in his seat, finding the right position to sit in.

“Yeah, just a little nervous” You mumble back, not looking at him.

A few moments later you feel a warm hand touching yours, fingers intertwining with yours. Your eyes widen and you look down at your hand, watching as Nicholas's much bigger palm covers it. The plane began to move, and you froze in your seat. Nicholas caresses the side of your hand slightly, his thumb brushing over the skin. 

After the plane was in the air, your body calmed down, but Nicholas didn't let go of your hand for the whole five hours while you got to Los Angeles. 

It was way hotter there than it was in Honolulu. You just walked down on the stairs of the plane, and you were already sweating everywhere. Suddenly, you felt jealous of Nicholas and his friends, because they decided they come in sleeveless tops unlike you. 

A short sleeve tight T-shirt will be embarrassing in a few minutes, and right now you don't even have deodorant with you. Great.

“Jeez” Maki scoffs, putting back his sunglasses on his face as you got down on the ground from the plane and got your bags. “So fucking hot”

“It's the ground radiating the hotness” Nicholas replies “It won't be this hot on the beach” he puts on sunglasses too.

He threw his leather jacket over his shoulder, and the four of you began to walk out of the airport. The camp is not so far away from the airport, and you decide that it would be the cheapest solution if you would walk there. Maki and Nicholas walk in the front to show the way, chatting about some surfing stuff while you and Harua walk behind them.

The first few minutes pass in silence, both of you being too scared to speak. Then, he suddenly turns his head to you. 

“Are you, like, his girlfriend?” Harua asks shyly, keeping his voice low so Nicholas and Maki don't hear him, even though they're deep into their own conversation.

You jolt your head towards him, breath hitching in your throat all of sudden. “What?” you chuckle awkwardly “No, why would I be? I'm just one of his students”

“Oh” Harua says, genuinely dumbfounded “He usually doesn't bring his students to trips like this” he shrugs his shoulders.

“Does he bring his girlfriends?”

“Not really” He says while opening up his handbag and pulling a chocolate bar out of it “We never meet his girlfriends. I wouldn't even call them his girlfriends, they're usually one night stands or situationships” 

This new information hit you like a sucker punch, right in the stomach. You never expected Nicholas to be a guy like that, but honestly it made your mind light up. It felt like… you got curious. You couldn't help but ask more.

“Seriously? He never introduced them to you guys? Then how do you know they existed? I mean the one night stands” 

Harua let out a sarcastic chuckle, followed with a huff “Come on, we are men at the end of the day” he looked at you, but seeing the confused expression on your face, he explained “He brags about them quite a lot. Nicholas is like that. You don't really know him, I assume. How long have you been his student?”

You gulp, trying to remember the date you moved to Hawaii. 

“For around… three weeks, I guess. But we have lessons every day”

“I see” He takes a bite from the chocolate bar then wipes his mouth with the back of his palm “Every day? That's kinda crazy” he side-eyes you “But congratulations, you are officially his longest…” he doesn't finish the sentence, just keeps walking and eating his chocolate bar “Nevermind” he brushes off.

The topic fades into nothingness, but it stays in your mind. You might be a little delusional for overthinking this, but for now you don't even know where to put the things Harua just said. 

Soon, the four of you approach the camp by the beach and you put your thoughts away for a little while. 

Maki looks back at you and Harua excitedly “Wow, it's a big one!”

“So many children too,” Nicholas adds, patting Maki’s chest.

They were the type of people who genuinely enjoyed their job, and that gave you a warm feeling. You don't see this often in today's environment. 

As you got closer to the gate, you came across a security guard. Nicholas did his part of the work and talked with the guard, while you, Maki and Harua started looking inside. 

“Come on guys” Nicholas gestured for you and the guard opened the gate, letting you in. 

The view of the camp amazed you, you didn't even know where to look. There were small wooden houses lined up along the shore, and gravel paths were built between the houses. It was so modern, especially for a camp. 

Suddenly, a woman came up to you, the biggest smile on her face. “Nicholas! Maki! Harua! Nice to meet you guys again. It was a pleasure last time too” She bowed slightly. Then, her eyes set on you. “Oh! I didn't know you have a plus one”

“Nicholas has a plus one” Maki corrected, but Nicholas hit his forearm playfully.

Her smile faltered for a moment, but it lightened up again when she realized. “It’s no problem! You guys are going to be in two bed houses anyways. At least Nicholas will have company” She winks at Maki, who chuckles slightly.

You feel your ears burn with embarrassment, and you are glad your hair covers it at this moment. You wouldn't want any of them staring or picking at you for this. 

The lady then turns on her heels and begins to walk quickly, the guys and you following her closely as she talks about the story of the camp and other probably not so interesting stuff like that. However, Nicholas seems to walk a little slower, matching your pace in the back.

“I'm sorry” He apologizes, though you don't know why “I forgot to tell her. I shouldn't have pushed you in an embarrassing situation” 

“It’s okay, really” You nod and give him a tight smile. If he was such a player as Harua described him, then why was he so soft with you? He apologized for the smallest things. 

You step into one of the wooden houses, where the woman says you should go in. It probably looks like the other ones. It’s almost a perfect square, with a small kitchen next to the door, two beds by the two walls on opposite sites and a small bedside table under the window in the middle, on the opposite wall from the door.

You throw your luggage on the bed and sit down next to it. Damn, it’s hard as fuck. Sleeping will be a problem, you are already sure about that. You glance out of the room through the window. Nicholas definitely wasn't right about it being less hot on the beach than in the airport. The sun beamed down by the sea, not a single cloud was in the sky. You assume it was good for the teachers though, a weather like this is better for teaching swimming and surfing than raining.

At a soft click of the door you turn your head, seeing Nicholas step in after he talked with the woman. He gives you a soft smile, walking closer awkwardly. 

“So, what's the plan?” You ask, breaking the silence.

Nicholas sits down on his bed across from yours, in the same line as you so you two face each other.

“Today we get to know the kids, just basic introduction and maybe a little bit of swimming” He begins, fidgeting with the sheet next to him “Tomorrow, we begin the hard work and practice surfing. But they'll have a break too. So nothing serious” He shrugs.

You nod, taking his words in. Two days at the camp is not a big thing after all, even though you would like to spend more time here. With Nicholas. 

You find yourself looking him up and down, eyes tracing the way he has his head leaned back towards the wall, and the way his Adams apple moves up and down as he gulps tightly. When you look back into his eyes, he’s looking at you.

You squirm in your place, feeling the tension in the room rise up as none of you say any words.

After a few silent moments, Nicholas breaks the silence, head still bumped back onto the wall “Can I ask you something?”

You nod, letting out a hum.

He licks his lips, unsure if he should ask it or not, but he decides it's the best to communicate. “Why didn't you tell me about your boyfriend earlier?”

The question was expected, but you don't have an exact answer. “I don't really know” You say, pulling your gaze off of him and dropping it to the ground “I guess I just didn't want you to know about him”

Nicholas hums, getting up from the bed. “Why?”

“Why are you asking questions like these?” You chuckle, kind of more out of embarrassment than from humor.

He looks back, his eyes dark but he doesn't say anything for a moment. “I'm just curious about why would he argue with someone like you”

He slips into his Adidas shoes then kneels down to tie the laces. 

“Someone like me?” you echo his words, confused.

“Yes” his voice is firm “Someone like you. I mean, you have everything in you a guy could dream of” He stands up and looks back once, but before you could say anything he opens the door and slips out of the house just like he was never there.

A soft click, and the door closes.

Your eyes are fixed on the floor, trying to take his words in. You feel the heat rising up into your cheeks, making them as red as a tomato.

You drink a glass of water before you go after him to the beach, where the kids are already split up in three different groups. One with Harua, one with Maki and one with Nicholas. One group consisted of about ten kids, and you only realized you didn't know what to do when you fully approached them.

The woman you spoke to earlier ran to you when she saw you standing there all alone and told you to sit down on one of the wooden chairs by the bar not so far away from the place Nicholas and his friends were teaching.

You followed her to the bar, and did as you were told so, watching the boys as they were explaining.

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The day passed by pretty fast, but it wasn't a huge surprise since you arrived at the camp quite late in the morning and they could only do the surfing lesson until the sun went down. After that, the wind’s strength rose up and the waves were too big for beginner surfers — kids — to ride.

However, the three guys were watching those waves with awe, feeling disappointed that they couldn't get in the water and ride them.

“Fucking hell, they're so big now” Maki commented, looking out the window like he was a footballer looking at the world cup.

Harua sipped from his beer and made a satisfied sound. “You better stop looking at them, I stopped too because it straight up hurts” 

Maki nods “You are right” he put one of his hands on his chest dramatically, like he was grasping onto his pearls “It hurts” he sniffs jokingly, then turns around from the window and sits down on the floor in front of Nicholas's bed, across from you and Harua who were sitting next to each other in front of your bed.

“When is he coming…” Harua muttered, looking at the door and expecting Nicholas to burst into the room with fresh cans of beer and a card game at any given moment.

“I don't know but now I'm getting bored that I can't watch the waves” Maki picks up Harua's glass and takes a sip from the only glass of remaining beer. 

“Hey!” Harua snitches from him right away, getting on all fours so he can reach the glass.

Maki just laughs, then makes eye contact with you “y/n, suggest a topic or something. I bet you have a lot on your mind”

You raise your brows “A lot in my mind? What do you mean exactly?”

Maki gives a knowing look to Harua, then chuckles playfully, a boyish smile plastered on his lips “Come on, you know what I mean”

He tsks when you don't answer just give him a confused look. 

“You and Nicholas” He explains, and your eyes drop to the ground. “See! that's what I'm talking about” He points it out. “You become all awkward when it comes to him”

You were never an extroverted person, and you felt like you acted awkward with everyone all the time, that's why you didn't have many people to understand you, but this time Maki could read you perfectly. Was he some psychiatrist in his last life?

“Are you guys dating?” He asks again, desperate for answers.

“No, we are not” You shake your head, looking up at him.

“...But you wish” Maki smiles mischievously, and you kick him playfully.

You open your mouth to say something, but the door opens and Nicholas steps in with a bag in one hand and a small pack of cards in his other one.

“That lady was selfish as fuck” Nicholas says, out of breath “She didn't want to give me all the beers”

“Nicholas!” Maki says, nearly yells, like he's celebrating his friend “We were just talking about you”

Nicholas's eyes shift to you for a moment, then back onto Maki’s “Really?”

“Yeah” Maki nodded, sliding a little bit sideways so Nicholas could sit down next to him on the floor. 

Nicholas looks at you again, but his expression is unreadable to you. He's still just as mysterious to you as he was before. His friends have been talking about him, but you still can't see him as the person they portrayed him as.

He brought the card game UNO, which was one of your childhood games. You were glad that you didn't have to go through the painful journey of explaining the rules to you or anyone else, cause that would've taken forever, given that you never understood the rules at first.

Harua opens up a can of beer for everyone while Nicholas shuffles the cards in his hands. 

“Did you guys say beautiful things about me while I was away?” He asks while giving the cards to everyone.

“Yes, of course.” Maki takes a sip, this time from his own beer “I could only say good things about you, Nicho” 

Nicholas chuckles sarcastically “Right”

Maki lets out a hum “By the way” He kisses his teeth, setting his can down “I was just about to get on with talking about your sex life when you stepped in, man.”

The suddenly blurted out words makes your jaw almost drop, you start coughing on the beer. Harua immediately reaches to your back, patting it. 

“Why would you do that?” Nicholas asks him when you were done coughing and they made sure you were okay and not dying. 

Maki tilts his head “You would do it too if it was me”

It felt like listening to a private conversation, you could tell that Maki and Nicholas were way closer than they were with Harua, because he hasn't said any words in the past half an hour in this conversation. Just like you. 

“No, I absolutely wouldn't. Because I’m a good friend” Nicholas smirks at the boy beside him.

“Okay, well” Maki shrugs, pulling the glass to his lips “We all know you want to get y/n laid, I just wanted to prepare her. With words, obviously” 

You are glad there wasn’t any beer in your mouth, because right now you would surely be coughing and choking from it. Nicholas stops looking at his cards and glances at you, getting embarrassed at Maki’s words. 

For a moment, a very small moment, his whole body stills and his shoulders tense. But after, he drops them like nothing happened and ends up chuckling. “Y/n knows nothing about my sex life” he says casually.

Maki’s eyes drift to you, a mischievous glint in them “She would like to find out things about it though” 

“That's true” Harua joins the conversation in the worst way possible, taking a sip from his own beer. “She was asking stuff from me before”

You bury your face in your palms, absolutely speechless by their sudden bluntness. You are not sure if they're like this all the time or is it just the beer.

“Uno” Nicholas says firmly, throwing a red two at the top of the deck. 

“The way you talk about me is really concerning” you comment, looking at your cards. Fuck, you only have blue. You take up one.

“It's not our fault you are being obvious” Harua answers, putting down one of his five cards in his hands. “But this goes to Nicholas too. Seriously, you thought we would let the fact slide that you never introduced any girl to us?”

Nicholas smiles and bites down his lip, dropping his last card after Maki takes up one from the deck “I won” he ignores what Harua said, and stretches his arms above his head.

Harua rolls his eyes and stands up, beer can in his hands. “It's getting late. There will be a bunch of screaming children around me tomorrow, so I should use my time out and sleep.” he states “Maki, you are coming too” He demands, and Maki stands up and follows him out right away.

They leave the house, and suddenly it becomes all silent when the lock clicks. You and Nicholas stay on the floor across from each other, only about one metre between you. 

He looks at you with a straight face, his eyes dark again, just like they were when he said that thing about you being every guy's dream. 

“How many girlfriends have you had before?” You ask him, kind of all of a sudden. 

The question doesn't make him flinch, he doesn't take his eyes off of you either “I don't know. I only remember one”

“You don't know?”

“I had girls but they weren't really my girlfriends” 

You knew exactly what he meant by this, the things Harua told you at the airport flashes into your mind.

“What's your boyfriend's name?” He asks back.

You swallow hard. “EJ”

The thought of him makes you overly uncomfortable, especially now, in this… moment with Nicholas. Even the way he looks at you, he looks so possessive you could bear the sight of this every day. You squirm in your place, your jeans getting uncomfortable.

Nicholas's eyes trace down your neck to your chest, then back onto your face. He gulps, then says “EJ… What a disgusting name”

You couldn't help but chuckle at that, and he cracks a smile too. “Do you want to… tell me more about him?” He asks, suddenly getting shy.

You bob your head anyways. You weren't that vulnerable, but with Nicholas it was so easy. Too easy. You could tell him everything, and this went vice versa.

“What do you want to know?” You ask, fidgeting with the edge of your shirt.

He looks up at the ceiling for a moment, thinking. Then, when he gets the idea, he smirks at you “Do you guys do it?”

You knit your eyebrows. “What?”

He shifts, leaning a bit closer to you so he can whisper. “You know… You said he wants children and stuff”

You shrug, trying to keep your demeanor nonchalant “I— well—” you swallow.

He sees you fidgeting with your shirt out of anxiety, and he grabs your wrist to make you stop. Both yours and his eyes fall to the place where the skin gets in contact, and you look up into each other's eyes at the same time too. He was still leaning close to you, and it seems like he even shifted closer cause now your knees were also touching as you sat on the floor with crossed legs.

You gulp hard as he caresses your palm with his fingers “Stop that” he commands, and you nod.

After a few moments, you finally swallow the lump in your throat and find your voice again. “We do a couple of stuff…but…” you shrug, but he isn't satisfied with the answer.

He looks at you expectedly, something soft lingering in his gaze. “But?” he whispers. He puts his palm on your knee and presses down, tilting his head.

You hold eye contact, swallowing again. “He never liked me enough to do that” 

His eyes drop down to your knees, shifting closer. Then, he gets on fours so he can get even closer to you slowly, pressing a gentle kiss on your jaw. “Does he do that?” he whispers close to your ear, and you feel a shiver going down on your spine at the vibration of his voice.

You shake your head “Usually not”

Nicholas gets closer, this time licking your earlobe slightly. He was shy with it, the lick was so gentle you could almost not feel it. “Does he do this?” he asks after, and you shake your head again.

He moves down slowly, and you couldn't help but let him do whatever he wants to. You were so shocked by this that you didn't even take in what was even happening, not fully yet. 

He hovers over your neck for a while, still being on all fours. He clearly hesitates, but then he decides to do it and he presses his wet lips to your thyroid bulge, sucking on it ever so slightly. You tilt your head back and it hits the edge of the bed, letting your mouth hang open as he works his mouth on your neck, wandering sideways and up and down too.

He backs up after a few wet kisses, just so he can look up into your eyes and say breathlessly “Does he do this, y/n?” 

You shake your head and let your hands get into his strawberry hair, pushing him back and urging him to continue what he did before, chasing the feeling of his lips on your neck.

And he does just as you wish him to, putting one of his hands on the back of your neck so he can hold you while he kisses and licks all over your neck. He sucks on a spot, and you just hope it won't give you a mark.

Then he moves even lower, his lips finding the exposed skin above your t-shirt, aka your collar bone. He licks on it too, you feel like you are entering heaven. When he stops, he lets go of your neck and sits up. “Does he do that?” He asks, this time his voice becomes a little hoarse as he speaks.

You shake your head slowly. You can't stop staring into his eyes. He looks like a cat, but only just a tiny bit. You swallow, finding it hard to speak. Also, you are sure your whole face is red at this point.

“Nicho” you whisper, or whine when you feel his hands on your hips, ready to get you out of your t-shirt. 

He stops immediately and looks at you.

You shake your head steadily, a kind of disappointment in your eyes when you remember Harua's words from the airport earlier, and also Nicholas's, which confirmed the theories. “I don't want to be one of your girls” you say, voice cracking by the time you finish the sentence. “I'm not like that”

He drops his gaze, jaw clenching in frustration. You could see the way thoughts clouded his mind all of a sudden. “Y/n… you wouldn't be just one of my girls” he says, his voice being soft again.

You feel your stomach drop at that, but looking into his eyes you could see that he was telling you the truth. He was being honest and vulnerable, and you found yourself bobbing your head and insisting him to continue. 

Nicholas takes off your shirt in no time, and his eyes drop to your chest immediately. His eyes were filled with hunger, and he shifts and gets on his knees so he can undo your bra too. While he reaches behind your back, you run your eyes through his shoulders and neck, and you sniff him slightly. Nicholas always smells so good, you already noticed that on the first week when you went to his house for surfing lessons. He always wears the same cologne, seems like he knows what he likes and sticks with it.

When he drops your bra to the floor, he backs up again, looking at your freed titties with admiration in his eyes. Then without a warning he lowers his head and sucks on your right nipple. You arch your back at the sudden friction, letting out a breathy moan. His lips wrap around your hard nipple, sucking your titty in as much as he can while he cups the other one softly with his other hand. He massages it, but he's subtle with it. His mouth may be a little aggressive and hungry, but he's a whole other person with his hands. Nicholas for sure knows how to please a woman. “Fuck, y/n, you have the most perfect tits I ever seen” he mumbles, and you feel the vibration in his voice in your whole body.

You close your eyes, sinking in the amazing feeling. Your tit is now fully covered in his hot saliva. When he looks up, his mouth is plump and wet, and it makes your thighs clench together in desperation. 

His eyes are hazy when he asks, “Does…does he do this?” 

“No” you moan out when his other hand cups your other breast too, massaging both at the same time.

You straighten your legs, so now he's kneeling between them. 

“Open your eyes” he commands with a firm voice when he sees your head being thrown back onto the edge of the bed, getting lost in the feeling of his big palms on your tits. You obey him again, opening your eyes just to face him possessively looking down at you.

He lets go of your breasts, and you want to cry out at the loss of his hands. At the same time, you are glad you have time to catch your breath. Not too much though, because he shifts back so he can lower his head to kiss on your stomach, just right under your chest. 

You let out a moan, hands finding his hair again. He licks the spot he kissed, then starts to make a path of saliva with his tongue, going down back to the edge of your sweatpants.

“Babe” he whispers, and you are very near to losing your mind. You look down at him, finding him looking up at you while his mouth hovers above your pants. “Can you lay on the bed, pretty please?” 

He doesn't have to say it twice. You stand up while he stays kneeling on the same spot. Nicholas watches you lay on the bed, head now thrown back against the wall. You spread your legs slightly, teasing him.

He looks even more mesmerizing in the dim light, now that the sun almost fully went down and the only light was a reading light of a standing lamp next to his bed. Clouds were filling the sky, dark clouds. You could hear a few droplets of rain knock on the roof, and there wasn't much light coming in from outside, only the sound of rain and wind.

He smirks at you and puts his elbows next to your body to cage your lower half while he licks on your stomach again, earning a satisfied whimper from you. Nicholas hooks his fingers onto your pants and pulls it down, hinting small kisses at the edge of your lacy panties now. 

You feel your wetness between your thighs, and you are sure he also noticed it. He goes lower, and you watch as he presses his lips to the wet patch forming on your panties. You shift your body lower, pushing yourself to his face more and more. His tongue works fast, and you already see stars even though he only started just now, though a fabric. 

That part kind of feels ridiculous. 

He moves back, breathing heavily as his eyes never leave your core. He pulls down your panties with one move, revealing your aching core. “Please” you mutter, your voice barely even audible but he still hears it and smirks.

He eyes your wet pussy, your juices already dripping down on your folds. “All wet for me, hm?” Nicholas hums, satisfied with the view. 

He hovers closer, his nose bumping onto your clit teasingly. “Have you ever been this wet for him, jagiya?”

“Never” You breathe out, trying to restrain yourself from moaning, but your chest rising then falling heavily betrays you.

Nicholas finally gives your aching core a lick, looking up to see your reaction. Your head flies back, eyes closing in pleasure. A guttural moan leaves your mouth as his hot tongue darts out again, slowly licking you from your hole to your clit. When you look down, you are faced with those pretty eyes that you have been admiring ever since you first saw them.

You never thought you would see them in a kind of situation like this ever, but the fantasy was always hiding in the back of your mind. Now that it finally happened, you could admit that they were an even better sight than you imagined.

“Fuck, Nicholas” you mumble as he gives you another lick, now getting deeper. His nose bumps onto your clit with every lick, but his eyes never leave yours. “Your eyes… they're so pretty”

He sucks on your clit, and your thighs are beginning to tremble. You try to close them, caging his head between your legs, but he stops them and sets them down on the bed with a firm movement, nails digging into your skin.

Nicholas sucks on your folds, and you can't do anything else other than letting the sounds escape you, and letting your hands run through his strawberry hair. You grind on his face when he shoves his tongue inside of you. He stops the movements with his head as you start grinding, riding his tongue in a steady rhythm. 

You already could feel your orgasm getting closer, Nicholas being able to take you to your climax with only his tongue kinda surprising you. But before that could happen, he pulls out of you with his tongue and smiles at you with that teethy smirk he always does. You whimper at the loss, prompting yourself on your forearms so you could see him better.

“You thought I’m going to make you come with my tongue, and that's all?” He asks, one eyebrow going up. 

You gulp, feeling your stomach knotting. 

“If that's the case, you were wrong” he laughs, looking up and down your naked body. “I'm taking my time. If the thing you said is true, you were never really pleased” he grabs your hips, pulling you down from the bed onto his lap. “You deserve to know how good it feels like” you put your hands on his shoulders, and he looks up at you.

All this time, this was the first moment you truly felt conscious about how exposed you were, while he had all of his clothes on still. “What do you mean?” you ask, voice low. 

“You know what I mean” he teases, vaguely rolling his hips — still in his sweatpants — upwards, so you could feel his hard bulge with your bare pussy. 

He looks down at your chest, looking at your breasts like they're the best things he has ever seen in his life. “Jagiya, I always wanted to do this. Since the moment I saw you” he admits, pinching your nipple with two of his fingers, making you hiss. 

He bites down his lips, grinding up again. “Fuck” he cusses before he gestures you to get off of him. You do as quickly as possible, and he takes off his shirt. Your eyes fall on his toned chest, it's not like you haven't seen it before during lessons, but seeing it like this was way different. You would admire it, but then he takes off his sweatpants with his boxers too. 

You gulp again, your throat getting dry at the sight all of a sudden. He isn't that big, I would rather say average. 

But still, this is like your… second time with a man, and you haven't seen cock in a long time, which was kinda embarrassing. Nicholas didn't look bothered in any way, though.

He looks at you and gives his cock a few strokes before asking “Missionary or cowgirl?”

Your eyebrows shoot up at the sudden question. “What?”

“Whatever, just come here” he urges, pulling you back onto his lap by your hips. 

When he sees the hesitation on your face, he lets go of you “Is everything okay? We don't have to do it if you are not ready” 

You melt internally at his sweetness, the constant checks up making you shy. But you would never miss out on this opportunity. Ever. “I'm okay I just… I haven't done it in a long time” you let out an awkward giggle at the confession, but he still doesn't back up.

“It's okay” he says, tucking a lock of hair behind your ear “I will be gentle”

You nod, feeling way better now. You bite down your lower lip when you sink down on his cock, grabbing onto his shoulders with both of your hands. He lays against his bed on the floor, this time he is the one who throws his head back. 

He clearly tries with all of his strength to not move and fuck into you, and you pretty much appreciate that. You try to get adjusted to his length when you fully sink down, taking deep breaths.

“Are you… are you alright?” he asks, voice shaky. 

You bob your head heavily, letting out a whine “Shit, yes, yes I am”

When he sees you calming down a little bit, he begins to move, grabbing onto your hips while he vaguely grinds up, rolling his hips into you.

You let out a small moan, burying your head onto the crook of his neck, your bodies melting onto each other. 

Your chest is pressed against his, nipples still rock hard. He sets a steady rhythm. Sometimes he gets out of his tempo and fucks just a little too hard, but then reminds himself that he has to be soft with you. And he keeps his promise, he is gentle. 

“Fuck, you are so tight” he grumbles out, collapsing onto you as his rhythm gets fucked up again. He fucks deep into you, feeling every inch of your wet pussy around him. He hits your spot with every move too, giving you a feeling you never felt before.

You can't even say anything, your mouth just hangs open while messy moans leave it. You throw your head back, and when you clench around him, he whimpers. 

He lets out small cries amongst his high pitched moans, and you grab him by his hair to tilt his head back and look into his eyes. “Are you crying?” you ask.

He doesn't answer, just frowns with his lips as he lets out a muffled moan again, looking away from you. But you tilt his head back again, grabbing him by his neck and keeping him like that so he can look at you. He speeds up a little bit, but still keeping it gentle while he is feeling you up, you being on his lap, bouncing on him so perfectly. “Does EJ do this? Hm?” he breathes, and you answer with a loud moan as you shake your head.

You look into each other's eyes as you hold him down by his thigh to gesture to him to stop. He stops immediately, breathing heavily. You run your hands on his chest, then on his worked out abs. You lift yourself then drop down on his cock again, making him cuss and grunt. 

“Do that again, jagiya, please” he begs, and you redo your movements from before. You speed up after a few messy ups and downs, earning him to moan out your name multiple times as you ride him.

When he gets used to the rhythm of you using his cock, he kisses your collarbone again, then moves to your neck to suck on it and leave marks all over it. You don't deny it.

“Fuck, I’m close” he mumbles and whimpers again, looking up at you, then down on your chest, seeing the way your tits bounce every time you lift yourself then sink down again. He was enjoying being used like this, he bites down his bottom lip hungrily. He grabs you by your hips and sets you down on the floor suddenly, trapping you by putting both of his hands next to your head while he's still inside of you. 

He rolls his hips, his balls tapping against your wetness every time he bottoms out. “I would never hurt you, y/n” he admits vulnerably, his breath caressing your neck. Your body moves up and down on the floor, feeling the roughness of the rug on your back. It's going to burn later. 

“If you stay with me” he continues “I will never treat you like that— fuck—” he cusses, moving his hands to your hips and digging his nails into your skin as he lifts you up a little bit so he can get deeper in, a better position for both of you.

“Can I…can I come inside you, pretty baby?” he asks you suddenly.

You nod your head, looking up at him with a hazy gaze, observing the way one strand of his hair stuck to his sweaty forehead. He looks down at you when he reaches his climax, giving you a deep and slow last thrust that makes you arch your back. He crumbles onto you, head burying onto the crook of your neck. 

You feel his delicate cum filling you up, covering your walls. The thought makes you come too, your juices mixing together. 

You stay like that laying down a little more, your bodies hugging. Then, after a few minutes of gathering yourself together, he pulls out of you and sits down back against his bed. You get up too, legs trembling when you drop down next to him on the floor, head against the edge of his bed while you both face the ceiling.

Nicholas looks at you with hazy eyes, like his mind is filled with multiple different thoughts at the same time and he can't decide which one to voice out first. 

You reach out your hand, wiping a tear from his cheek. 

He cringes and drops his gaze to the floor, feeling embarrassed by begging and crying to you. 

“What are you thinking about?” you ask, tilting your head.

He looks up at you again, swallowing hard before he milks the words out of himself. “Do you still want to be with him?” he asks, and your eyebrows shot up “I mean, after this”

For a moment, your mind wanders. Did he do all of this to impress you? Because as much as you have a whole damn boyfriend, it might have worked. Then, you remember that your boyfriend is actually a dickhead and you would leave him anytime.

“I don't want to be with him at all,” you reply, shaking your head.

Nicholas straightens his back and looks at you with sparking eyes and a huge smile on his face. “Great. Tell him that you guys are done, and I’ll eat you out again”

You laugh at his suggestion, but deep down you know you would and will do it “Woah, all of a sudden?”

He knits his eyebrows together, like he was confused by your answer. “Yeah? Why not?”

“Over call?”

“No, over text. He was always a dickhead, wasn't he? He deserves it” Nicholas says and reaches up, caressing your face softly. “Right now” he adds.

You roll your eyes playfully before getting up to walk over to your bag and get your phone out. His eyes never leave your curvy body as you stand up, admiring you the whole time.

You quickly type the text onto the chats between you and EJ, but you don't send it yet. Nicholas sees you hesitating, and he pulls you by your ankle, gesturing to get back down on the floor.

He watches your screen when you sit down back to him closely. 

“I don't know what to write,” you sigh.

He shrugs, just wanting this to be over as soon as possible “I feel like you should tell him everything. Tell him that he's an asshole and that you don't want to be with him anymore. Oh, and that you love me” 

He smirks, and you shove him away by his shoulder playfully, but you still type in what he said. Most of the things. 

After a while, you form your text and send it to EJ, but then Nicholas offers to put the phone down. So you two end up talking about whatever, mostly your upcoming plans for the next few days. 

You two decide that it's for the best if you don't tell Maki and Harua right away, and maybe you should try living together for a while. EJ won't leave the house you two bought in Hawaii, and you don't have anywhere else to go. Plus, you have been spending almost all of your days by Nicholas's house, so it's not going to make a difference. 

Now he went to take a shower, and you are sitting by the window sill (dressed up now), watching the rain falling down into the dark night. 

You wonder about a lot of things, firstly about the upcoming days. You never thought Hawaii could bring you so many new opportunities for new starts, in so many ways. You are also not sure if your therapist will like to hear about this whole thing, but that's his problem.

There's one thing that you are sure about: you are happier than ever. You like Nicholas, and just because at first it looked like it was something forbidden, it doesn't mean it can't be fun at the end.

💌 : @trust-me-youll-like-it @cheolscherries1812

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[jaeyun-ie]

[makiiislovers]

WOOF

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[makiiislovers]

he’s the puppiest he’s ever been

[makiiislovers]

i want to write about the new cb “mark me” or smth like that BUT IDK WHERE TO START 😞😞 #sendhelp.

[fumaid]

“things i find extremely attractive” maki ver. !!

[foreveraheartbrokengirl]

[littlesparkequeen]

[makiiislovers]

જ⁀➴ &𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ; ₊˚⊹⋆

⌗ kogai yudai ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⌗ murata fuma ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⌗ wang yixiang ;

꩜ MARK ON ME — ~4,5K words.

➜ synopsis ; who said marks were only made by fist and blood? teeth and lips can do the same job. in better sometimes…

⌗ byun euijoo ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⌗ nakatika yuma ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⌗ asakura jo ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⌗ shigeta harua ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⌗ takayama riki ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⌗ riki wilhelm maus ;

꩜ FIRST TIME — 3,5K words.

➜ synopsis ; you’re in a friend group in &Team, and your silly and campus apartment is like a hangout stop for each of them. They (Maki the most this bitch) always find a way to invite themselves without you knowing.

⌗ OT9 ;

꩜ JEALOUSY, JEALOUSY — MINI-SERIES.

➜ synopsis ; you, a young adult named Mei, sister of Taki and literal punching bag for his little friend group, try not to compare yourself too much to the people around you because: why haven't you had your first time yet!?

⌗ poly/twosome(etc..)? ;

꩜ nothing here for the moment… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

.ᐟ WARNING ;

★ i will not do smut or any kind of sexual content with the followed members (Jo, Harua, Taki). i don’t feel comfortable writing things like that about them, because honestly i just see them as cutiepies and that will HAUNT me if i write smut on them… (BUT IT WILL BE WITH JOY THAT I WRITE FLUFFY FLUFF 😋)

★ i’m open to everything TO THE POINT where it’s disrespectful towards the members, or i don’t feel comfortable writing it.

★ i can write about every group (if i know them) so don’t be shy to ask me to write fan fictions about your favs!! i’ll be more then happy to write about them!

★ and of course send me requests!! i’ll try to do the majority of them!!

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[izzyapricot]

teenage girl canon events

curtain bangs

crying in bathroom stall

7th grade

listening to only one music album straight

problematic crush

[makiiislovers]

「 ✦ 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 ✦ 」

synopsis ; You’re in a friend group in &Team, and your silly and campus apartment is like a hangout stop for each of them. They (Maki the most this bitch) always find a way to invite themselves without you knowing.

content ; Maki x Reader, Weed, Alcohol, Party, Needy!Maki, Needy!Reader, College AU.

word count ; ~3,5k

notes ; 18+ content (mdni). I saw a c.ai chat (imnotheehee) and thought I would write my chat into a fan fic 😜 (FIRST FAN FIC ON TUMBLR 🫪)

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It was noon; you had just gotten up from a nap, and you instinctively looked at your phone, your eyes still sleepy, when you saw 99+ notifications. The last message Maki sent to the group chat really surprised you, making you sit up on your couch. Well, if surprise means stressing because nothing is prepared, and everyone has to be at your house by 9 PM.

— do I know about it?

You wrote in the chat.

— now you know. u have anything to drink @ home?

Maki asked.

— yeah. bring some more tho.

Everyone liked your message, just after it, like everyone was already waiting for you to send it.

You rolled your eyes and leaned your head back on the couch. “I'm gonna kill them one day.” You said under your breath before you got up and started to prepare some snacks and the little hard alcohol you had for them. At least you have to pretend you made some effort.

It was almost nine when you finished putting on your favorite tank top after preparing some mattresses all around your room because you knew some of them would sleep here, and you heard impatient knocking at your door. You sigh and head downstairs, lazily brushing your silky, healthy hair as you open the door.

You could already hear some laughter and loud chatter spilling through the hall of the campus building just before turning the doorknob.

The first to barge in was obviously Maki, holding a six-pack of beer like it was some trophy; he just gave you a friendly tap on the shoulder and entered your apartment, since he owns it. Bitch.

“Yooo! Party’s officially started!” He announced proudly, kicking his shoes hazardously by the entrance.

Being him filed in K, dragging two bottles of rum, Fuma with snacks in both hands, and Nicholas, waving a bit too excitedly for someone who had invited himself to your home, while Harua smiled quietly behind them all.

All four of them entered and greeted you. Harua, closing the line, gave you a hug when he entered, something he always does. And as you shut the door behind him, he was already joining the others in the living room just behind you.

When you turned around and walked past them to go into the kitchen behind the living room, Maki was stretched out on the couch, like a king claiming his throne. Well, he does come to your house often. At least he makes himself at home.

“Do y'all know when the others are coming?” You screamed from the kitchen as you watched them chatting, even if your gaze lingered a bit too much on one of them.

One of his muscular arms took a beer and opened it with one hand. That just aura-maxing action made your heart a little flustered. Classic Maki.

“Juju said in 10 minutes,” Maki said, turning around just a bit. You nodded, looking intensely at the chips.

Just a look at his muscular forearms, which were forcing that can to open, started to make you wet. And that was something you gotta keep to yourself.

You walk back to the living room with chips and a pizza you didn't touch last night because you were too busy studying, and K was already pouring rum into shots on the coffee table.

“Yuma’s bringing weed, he texted,” The oldest said after filling up the last shot.

Fuma flopped down next to Maki, stealing one of his beers without asking. Everyone shares anything at that place.

Nicholas, who was sitting to the left of Maki, leaned towards you as you walked by. “You look tired. Sleep okay?”

You turned your head to Nicholas and smiled faintly as you put down the chips and the leftover pizza. “Yeah…” You said with a sigh. “The end-of-session exams are killing me…” You chuckle.

You turn your head to Harua, who is helping you with the snacks. “If you want, there's still pomegranate juice in the fridge from last week.”

Harua doesn't usually drink. Or never. He's always the most trustworthy when the conversation turns to alcohol and weed.

His face immediately lit up with a big smile. He practically runs towards the fridge to take out his favorite beverage.

While Nicholas frowned sympathetically at your exam complaint and nudged Maki. “Dude, our girl’s suffering a bit from school; got easy on her tonight, huh?”

This idiot was already doing his famous ‘Killing Shot’ or whatever name he imagined for you. Because he knows you can't say no. Maki scoffed but stood up anyway, the shot in his hand. He walked towards you and ruffled a bit of your hair. “Aww, poor baby~.” He lifted his hand, showing you the freshly made shot. “I got just what you need!”

The other guys behind Maki, sitting on the couch, laughed knowingly. Maki’s “just what you need” usually meant something strong enough to relieve every form of stress or so ever.

You chuckled, putting your hands in front of you, blocking Maki from taking a step further towards you. But this dickhead decided it was your time to shine and took a step closer, closing the gap between your hand and his chest.

“Maki, maybe not tonight—” You didn't even have the time to finish your sentence when, with his other hand, he lifted his index finger and put it on your mouth to shut you up. “Hey..” He said, carefully walking forth, so you were walking backward, and you suddenly hit the wall behind you.

Your heart was stammering so hard in your chest that you thought he might have heard it. The pulse from your heart went straight to the tips of your fingers, still on Maki’s chest. You were praying hard that he wouldn't notice how nervous you were because of him.

Then, slowly, he put one of his fingers under your chin to lift your face, and delicately made you drink the shot, his dark gaze never leaving yours.

“I hate you”

You said after you swallowed. His eyes were shining like a predator's, looking at its prey, and a satisfied smile appeared on his face. Maki didn't move an inch from you; he was still caging you. His grin was only growing wider at your comment.

“Liar.” He teased, poking your cheek. “You love me too much for that, pretty girl…”

You didn't know if this man was already drunk or if he had smoked before coming, but that little surname at the end of his sentence made your cheeks flush slightly.

The group interrupted with a whistle and laughed at the scene. It wasn't the first time Maki and you teased each other. It's this way that your relationship with him is built.

“Get a room..!”

Yuma’s fake gag echoed in the living room. The rest of the herd just arrived, swinging the door open and then entering like you do charity. EJ was right behind Yuma, holding a bag that smelled distinctly like pure weed. Taki and Jo followed them a bit behind, laughing at the two in front of them.

You made your way to Yuma and EJ, who were already chatting with the others. As you could see, both of them were already high. Well, it doesn't really change anything for EJ since he's always high.

The youngest of the two was already giggling, his pupils blown wide, while EJ grinned sheepishly and lifted the bag like a piece of an offering. K immediately snatched the bag from his hands. “Finally! My turn.”

Maki abandoned his trap mission and followed you towards the whole group. Yuma finally acknowledged your presence and turned around before jumping at your neck to give you a tight hug. “Hellooo~… You smell so good.” He slurred into your shoulder.

Nicholas snorted from across the room. “Oh boy, here we go…”

You chuckled, with Yuma still around you, as you walked towards a chair next to the couch and made him sit on it. “I told you last time not to sniff whatever Juju’s giving to you.” I snorted before flopping on the couch next to Nicholas.

Yuma pouted like a little child. “I know… But it was freeeeee…” He whined, not even looking at you. He just admired something on the wall. EJ popped down next to Yuma, already rolling another joint. His hands were pretty steady despite being high. Meanwhile, K had already taken a hit and passed it to Fuma.

The apartment was now blasting with music Maki had just put on your TV. You looked at Maki and couldn't hold a dumb smile. This guy always finds a way to hang out with everyone, even if we're all super busy.

You have all known each other since the start of high school; you saw everyone’s crazy phases and got into the dumbest fights, but y'all always managed to keep going with all ten of us. At this point, you are just like a big family.

And of course, you had some crushes on some of them. It never lasted long enough for it to be very serious. They're just too… men. Always stinking and saying shits. But you still had something for Maki. You didn't know why, you didn't know when it started. But all you knew was that he was pulling you closer to him every time you guys were hanging out.

“Hey, K, can you give me the shot in front of you?” You said, nudging his shoulder lazily. The warmth of the alcohol spread through your chest as you took it.

Maki noticed you looking from across the room. His eyes flickered to yours for half a second before he smirked and resumed his conversation with Taki. He didn't say anything. But that look? That fucking stupid look he gives you each time you catch each other looking too much? It still makes your stomach flip after all these years.

Nicholas side-eyed Maki’s glance and subtly nudged you with his elbow. “You good?” He asked. The music pulses harder in your veins now. You nodded, your gaze still on Maki.

“Yeah. Yeah, just… exams.” You chuckled, trying to brush it off because you couldn't feel that way. Not for your best friend of almost ten years.

“How's work?” You turned your head towards him. “Didn't you say you found a new one?” I ask to change the subject quickly. Nicholas brightened up. Great.

Nicholas kept talking to you about his new job, how good everyone was, how well paid it was, etc. But your gaze keeps returning to Maki, who moves to sit on the coffee table and smoke while talking to K and Fuma.

Jo is embedded in our conversation. “Do you get free stuff?” He said excitedly. Your friend next to you nodded. “I can bring you some croissants if you want Y/N. I know you like those.”

You nodded and smiled. You could see Maki's sly grin growing faster than it should in the corner of your eye.

“Guess I gotta start showing up to your place more often than…” Maki said, exhaling smoke before smirking down at you. “For free pastries, obvi.”

His sarcasm was thick. But also so true. Maki never turned down an excuse to see you. (or eat free pastries)

The tension was obviously here. Nobody was talking anymore, and they were looking at the two of you, just glancing at each other. You could feel, for the umpteenth time of the evening, your cheek starting to burn.

“…Can I get a cake?” Yuma suddenly perked up from his high gaze.

Everyone turned their head to look at him and burst out laughing. Maki took the opportunity, when Harua got up to take care of Yuma, to sit down at his bestfriend’s place on the couch, next to you.

You felt something pushing you very slightly. It was Maki, holding a joint between his fingers, obviously offering it to you. “Nah, thanks. I never tried those, and I just drank.” You said, refusing the joint.

Maki raised an eyebrow but didn't push. He just shrugged and hit one himself. You just looked at him—the way his jaw was clenching at the action of inhaling. The smoke was curling around his face in that annoyingly attractive way.

The energy in your small living room was wild. The kind of fun where nothing really makes sense, but it's just fun to be into.

Maki suddenly leaned closer. “You wanna go upstairs? Less noise up there…”

You could feel the warmth of his breath at the crack of your neck, making you shiver. You turned your face towards him. His head was just inches from you. You looked him in the eye, intensely, and nodded. “Yeah… If you want.”

The stairs creaked under your feet as you two climbed. Leaving the chaos of the living room behind. Upstairs, it was quieter, just the muffled bass from Maki's speaker downstairs and occasional laughter.

The moonlight filtered through the curtains as you sat down on the edge of your bed, casting soft shadows on his face as he focused on lighting the joint he took with him. He took a deep pull before offering it to you.

You looked at Maki, then at it. And took it. Maki looked surprised when you took the hit smoothly. “Damn… You’re a natural…” He teases.

He took the joint back, his lips brushing where yours had just been as he inhaled again. The atmosphere between you two shifted. Quieter, softer without the group noise downstairs.

You looked at him, and neither of you said anything for a moment. Why does your heart hurt this way when you look at him? The silence is never awkward with Maki. He studied your face for a moment too, before grinning and nudging your knee with his. “You good? Not too high?”

You could feel that you were starting to be high; it was an okay high. You could feel your vision blur a little. “Yeah, I'm good… Well, I guess so.” You chuckled.

"You're giggly," he pointed out, poking your cheek again before taking another lazy drag. The joint passed back to you as Maki stretched his arms above his head, shirt riding up slightly to reveal his well-traced abs. You didn't complain about the view. You just looked and smirked a little as you glanced at his face again.

Maki leaned down on the mattress. “This feels niceeee…” He sighed.

You nodded along as you let out the smoke. “Yeah it does… No wonder EJ’s always in the cloud all the time.” You two chuckled.

I leaned down too, our shoulders brushing against each other. We turned our heads to look at each other. Since we were both high, this wasn't awkward at all. It was the complete opposite.

His dark eyes flickered over your face, the moonlight making them look almost black. Then, without thinking, he reached out and gently tucked a strand of hair behind your ear.

“Well, thanks, Maki…” You giggled.

Then, without overthinking it, he leaned down and kissed you on the cheek. You love how clingy he is when he's drunk or high. It's just… great. It feels right with him.

He then grabs the joint from your hand and smokes the last hit of the joint. He exhaled the smoke dramatically directly towards your face with a playful smirk. It was the ultimate betrayal.

You took his forearm and tried to push him out of the bed. But because you’re high, you didn't think about the fact that he is stronger than you. He turned the situation and took both of your wrists with one hand, before shoving you on your back and pinning you down to the mattress with your hands over your head.

Maki took the very last hit of the joint and inhaled it, still with his usual grin on his face. This smirk will kill you one day. You moved your lips for him to exhale and blow the smoke in your mouth, which he did.

Without breaking eye contact with you, he slowly brought his lips closer… then exhaled the smoke directly onto your mouth in a smooth motion. His free hand moved to cup your jaw lightly, tilting it just right as the warm cloud passed between you two.

Then suddenly Maki moved away and sat down on the edge of your bed, his face buried in his hands. You look at his broad back with confusion. You start crawling toward him on all fours to take his wrist and make him look at you. “Why did you go, Maki…?”

Maki turned back at the sensation of your fingers wrapped around his wrist. And oh, oh no. You looked so pretty like this. He moved because he realized you two weren't really sober and didn't want to ruin your friendship. But now, seeing you all demanding, feeling the warmth of your bodies through your fingers, he changed his mind. “You're adorable when you're wasted.” He teased.

Maki finally plopped down next to your sprawled-out form again. He propped himself on one elbow to look at your pouty face.

You were now lying on your side, mimicking Maki. You looked away at the door for a second, then glanced back at Maki, who was already glancing at you. His wild, dark pupils from being high were very attractive.

A beat passed.

Then slowly, Maki reached out and brushed a thumb over your cheekbone, an almost feather-light touch. It made your heart skip a beat as you quickly opened and closed your eyes to take in what he had just shown you.

Then, slowly and delicately, he closed the gap between your two desperate lips. The kiss was messy at first because of the weed, but when Maki slid his tongue into your mouth, everything went clear for the rest of the night, like you were now self-aware of his hands roaming all over your body and the warmth of his body now pressed on top of you.

As you two were kissing, you couldn't help but start to move your hand towards the belt of his pants, where a huge bump was starting to grow under all these layers of fabric. You started to caress this bump carefully as you felt him react to your touch.

His mouth found the crack of your neck easily, as well as the sharp edge of your jawline, while groaning. Your hands went up and worked under his shirt at the same time, tracing every single ab he worked so hard on. In one smooth motion, he took off his shirt with one hand before tossing it to the ground like all that mattered right now was to feel your skin under his hungry lips.

“Better?” He grinned, looking down at you before taking off your shirt and kissing you open-mouthed. He left a trail of hot and sensitive kisses and bites all the way from your lips to the crack of where your two boobs joined.

You couldn't help but feel your heartbeat race. Your breath was now less steady as you watched his mouth licking your warm body. “You're so beautiful…” He kept on saying for the rest of the night.

[clleanlliness]

my leg hair has more personality than the majority of this fuckass town

[pupisized]