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𝒓𝒖𝒏 𝒓𝒂𝒃𝒃𝒊𝒕, 𝒓𝒖𝒏 𝒓𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒅

── .✦ 𝑳𝑬𝑷𝑼𝑺 𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬𝑺 ⋮

𝗛𝗲𝘆𝘆, 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝗲 𝗟𝗼𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗼𝗿 𝗔𝗹𝘆𝗼𝘀𝗵𝗮, 𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝘆 𝗩𝗼𝗶𝗱. <𝟯

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𝗜’𝗺 𝗮 𝗳𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗸𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝘆 𝗜𝗥𝗟, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗶𝗱𝗰 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗼𝗹𝗲𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 𝗼𝗿 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿, 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻’𝘁 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗹𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗲𝗶𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 ( it’s ridiculously hard to bother me ). 𝗜 𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗵𝗲/𝗶𝘁/𝗺𝗼𝗼𝗻.

my kin list

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𝙞 𝙖𝙢 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙣 𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙖 𝙙𝙚𝙞𝙩𝙮𝙠𝙞𝙣—𝘾𝙤𝙡𝙪𝙢𝙗𝙞𝙣𝙖 𝙬𝙝𝙤,,,

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𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙢𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩, 𝙄 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙖 𝙨𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜 (@iridescent-sovereign) —𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙄’𝙢 𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙛𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙤𝙬 𝙣𝙤𝙬. ♡

𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘱𝘥 & 𝘯𝘱𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘶𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘭𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘺, 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 ʅ（◞‿◟）ʃ

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𝙄 ’𝙢 𝟭𝟳, 𝙙𝙚𝙢𝙞𝙖𝙧𝙤𝙖𝙘𝙚, 𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙡𝙪𝙭 (𝙢𝙖𝙨𝙘 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙩𝙢), 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙡𝙚. 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙪𝙚𝙙, 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙡𝙪𝙘𝙠—𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙞𝙩’𝙨 𝙖𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜

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『 𝐥𝐨𝐲𝐚𝐥 𝐤𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐲 𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞, @cryopeacock 』

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the only dni I have is dni doubles of my kins, i block freely otherwise ...

tags & other userboxes beneath the cut

#— 𝘴𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘯’𝘴 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘮 ⋮ ℘ ┊#yanblr #yan blog #irl yandere #irl yan #actually obsessive #jiraiblr #jirai posting #jirai lifestyle #jirai kei #jirai

petrichor--dreams

ɢᴇɴᴜɪɴᴇ ᴏ̨ᴜᴇsᴛɪᴏɴ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ... ɪ ᴍᴀʏ ʙᴇ ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴅᴜᴍʙ ɪᴅᴋ ... ʜᴏᴡ ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴜʏs ғɪɢᴜʀɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴀɴ ᴛʏᴘᴇs / ʏᴀɴ ᴍʙᴛɪ s ? ᴄᴀɴ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʟɪɴᴋs ??? ɪ ᴡᴀɴɴᴀ ᴘᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ɪɴᴛʀᴏ ᴘᴏsᴛ ...

#— 𝘭𝘶𝘯𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘳𝘣𝘪𝘵 ⋮ ℘ ┊

omfg why does my body feel like it’s falling apart again I literally have work to do I don’t have time for this shit

“oh lohen just rest” unfortunately if I also stop moving it’ll hurt more like. holy fuck I need to be put down or like make a new body from scratch or smth

#— 𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘤𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘴𝘦𝘥 ⋮ ℘ ┊#jiraiblr #jirai kei #jirai lifestyle #jirai posting #jirai #jirai blog #landmine jirai #jiraiblogging #chronic illness

fictus-vulp3s

Don't you ever forget where you came from.

We may roam these streets, but the woods, the sea, the mountains, they call us back.

They say the old gods are gone, but we're still here, aren't we my love?

#— 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯’𝘴 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 ⋮ ℘ ┊

the-final-messenger

when death takes my hand, I will hold you with the other and promise to find you in every lifetime

#— 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘨𝘰𝘥 ⋮ ℘ ┊

Hi lohen ur very cool

Heyy, I know right I am very cool,,, thanks for reminding me~ ♡

#— 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘢𝘻𝘦𝘳 ⋮ ℘ ┊

skirkmaxxing the way everything hurts from nonstop physical labour all day

#— 𝘴𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘯’𝘴 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘮 ⋮ ℘ ┊#jiraiblr #jirai kei #jirai lifestyle #jirai posting #jirai #jirai blog #landmine jirai #jiraiblogging

THANK YOUfor the spam!!!

Of course !!

#— 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘢𝘻𝘦𝘳 ⋮ ℘ ┊

What is it like to be a deity in the body of a human? You told me a little bit about it before, but I would like to know more. Does it cause you body dysmorphia? Does it make it hard to function sometimes?

Hm… I’d say it brings more negative feelings than positive ones, in all honesty. This body is rather unfortunately laden with various issues, chronic illness, and other complications. It’s quite unfortunate to deal with. I’ve had numerous medical operations because of it—why should a being such as myself be so unlucky as to be cursed with a body like this? Perhaps I’ll never know.

It does, in fact, cause a rather wide range of body dysmorphia as well. The best way I can describe it is like wearing a costume that is much too small for you. It feels as though every bone is either far too large or far too small to fit properly, as if everything has been squeezed into a shape it was never meant to occupy.

There is also the matter of the mind. This body is, in a sense, plural due to the various traumas that have affected it, so I am not always the only one whose thoughts and feelings I have to consider. Having to think and make decisions on behalf of an entire collective can be rather exhausting in its own way. I am accustomed to being a singular entity—or at least close enough to one, so having to account for other minds within the same vessel is… an adjustment, to say the least. Of course, I have such experience from my canon—but there’s more than 50 others sharing this body, so it’s much… more of a bother.

Mortality is another difficult aspect. I sometimes forget that pain can have much more severe consequences in a mortal body than I am accustomed to. I can endure something and assume it is insignificant, only to realize later that I have pushed the body far beyond what it can reasonably handle. I’m still not entirely accustomed to having physical needs, either—eating, drinking, sleeping, keeping warm, and so on. They can feel rather tedious when you are accustomed to simply existing without them.

There is also the loss of freedom. I was once able to exist wherever I wished, do as I pleased, and create whatever I desired. Now, I am confined to a single body in a single place, with far more limitations than I am accustomed to. I can no longer simply do something because I wish to do it; I have to consider whether this body is physically capable of it, whether I have the time, the resources, or whether some mundane circumstance prevents me. It is rather unfortunate to have the desire to do something and simply be unable to because of such limitations… Even things as simple as having to walk somewhere, being unable to carry something, becoming tired, or being prevented from doing something because this body refuses to cooperate can be rather a bother.

And yes, it makes functioning rather difficult, nearly all the time. Unfortunately, my host family isn’t particularly understanding of it, so I often find myself having to simply “power through” whatever pain I happen to be in at the moment.

I do apologize for how long this is—I tend to get a little carried away when given the opportunity to speak about such things, and I wanted to honor your thoughtful question with a thoughtful answer. I thank you very much for asking. :)

#— 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘢𝘻𝘦𝘳 ⋮ ℘ ┊#— 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯’𝘴 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 ⋮ ℘ ┊

idk when you'll get this but auahuegehe hey brother :3

snezhnaya was so peak minus r*nova

-@cryopeacock

LMAO real real

I still have to play ts… but I’m so busy… hhhhh

#— 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘢𝘻𝘦𝘳 ⋮ ℘ ┊#— 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘦 ⋮ ℘ ┊

lemon-labia

such bullshit

#— 𝘭𝘶𝘯𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘳𝘣𝘪𝘵 ⋮ ℘ ┊

dispenser-of-provisions

My life is pointless without you

#— 𝘭𝘶𝘯𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘳𝘣𝘪𝘵 ⋮ ℘ ┊

һᥲ᥎ᥱ ᥡ᥆ᥙ ᥱ᥎ᥱr ⍴ᥣᥲᥡᥱძ ᥕᥙ𝗍һᥱrіᥒg ᥕᥲ᥎ᥱs?

I have, actually! I rarely play nowadays, it just doesn’t really have my interest anymore, but I do kin Chisa and Galbrena. Maybe one day I’ll get back into it…

#— 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘢𝘻𝘦𝘳 ⋮ ℘ ┊#— 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯 ⋮ ℘ ┊