I was fine at last before you brought backs the angst
I'm not saying it's your fault
but neither is mine.
Is it too bad for wanting you a little bit afar?
.
Is it cruel to want you near
but not too much,
to want you to be okay for your own sake
but also mine?
.
And I just wish you were okay
so I could tell you how much you hurt.
To ask you to stay apart
from the life I built when you gave me the back.
.
It's driving me insane,
the love and rancor
your pain and my own.
To keep it quiet 'cause yours is worst.
.
Do you even know how much you hurt back then?
Are you aware how much you hurt today?
Do you see in my eyes that I wish you weren't I
every time you come by?
.
Are you truly blind?
Or did you forget
you left me behind
without a second glance?
.
I wish I could fill the hole
you all made in my heart,
which I thought had healed,
with other than regret.
.
I wish I could tell you,
but your pain is worst.
I guess I'll keep it quiet
like the time before.
.
I'm not longer sure which pain is yours and which is mine.
Did you really not know how much I was you?
It was silent but I had hoped you would've seen.
You're the mirror I reflect in.
.
Why do I feel so mean by putting myself first?
It's not your fault, but it's neither mine.
I guess I'll keep it quiet
because you're worst.
~By someone who desesperately needed to let it out.
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Well, I have no idea if this is well written since is the first poem I do and English is not my first language. I really liked it and thought someone else could use hearing it so here we are, hope you enjoyed it :)
Have you seen how in Prythian map Spring Court is at the bottom and Nigh Court at the very top? And how Rhys is the most powerful high lord?
I believe the courts are arranged from the least powerful (Spring Court) to the most powerful (Night Court) and that power reflects on the court's high lord.
Evidence:
Even with Tamlin joining us, it was too many people for him to winnow us directly. -Chapter 9, ACOWAR
Bron, Hart, and three other were to join us. - Chapter 9, ACOWAR (This is a total of 11 people)
The Summer Court soldiers and Keir's legion could not fly, but tarquin dug deep into his reservoirs and winnowed them along with us. -Chapter 56, ACOWAR
I cannot think of anything more right now but if u do, feel free to add it!
the sheer offensiveness of rereading something you wrote, discovering that, hey, it’s actually pretty good, and then reaching the end, wherein you realize that if you want more you actually have to write it
Parallels between Crescent City and Throne of Glass
There are spoilers ahead
Maeve
I haven't read KoA yet so I might not be aware of the full meaning of this one but hear me out.
During ToD it is said that Maeve's power is known as some sort of star eater or something like that, I don't remember exactly.
Later in Crescent City we are told about this demon or monster who is litteraly a star eater (I read this in spanish so the translation might be wrong but u get the point).
And in ToD we learn that Maeve travelled around lots of worlds and so did her husband and brothers-in-law. I'm no saying they're the same person but this cannot be a coincidence.
The starborn Sword
Also, I've been wanting to talk about the Sword of the Starborn and its dagger companion which was supposed to be lost too long ago and maybe in another world. I saw some people say it is Azriel's Truth-Teller but I'm convinced it is the dagger Nesryn finds in one of the towers she and Sartaq visit:
Nesryn studied the short-sword in her hand, the metal shining as if imbued with starlight, interrupted only by the carvings down the fuller. “I wonder what the markings say.” -Tower of Dawn, Chapter 33.
Leaving Sartaq to pick one for himself, she fastened the short-sword to her belt as she approached the far wall and the scribbled dark writing along the bottom. -Tower of Dawn, Chapter 33.
She even takes the short-sword with her. Unless she loses it during KoA there is a chance this is the actual Starborn dagger/knife (i don't remember what it's called). This would be really important if we ever have a crossover-book with those series.
So I'm rereading Queen of Shadows and just got to the part where Chaol meets Rowan, and gosh darn it I wish we'd gotten a Rowan pov for that. I want to know what his first impression of Chaol was, what went through his head. Ugh. Do you have any HCs for what that meeting might have been like?
Oh boy do i. These are literally just thoughts plucked from Rowan’s head.
- It isn’t particularly a secret that Rowan Whitethorn isn’t fond of Chaol Westfall.
- Nobody calls his queen, his bloodsworn, his carranam, a monster and gets away with it.
- ‘I’m gonna deck this motherfucker if he so much as lOOKS AT HER WRONG’
- ”He won’t bite,“ Aelin croons. Lie. He would bite, Aelin knows that firsthand.
- ‘Breathe wrong, motherfucker. I dare you.’
-Rowan keeps his eyes on Chaol the entire time, silently daring him to overstep, daring him to come for his queen in his presence.
- His thoughts are just strings of ways he’d be able to kill someone, ways he’s previously killed men more skilled than Chaol.
- ‘I impaled a man on a table. I can crush this one’s skull with my shoe.’
- ‘Bold of him to assume a sword would be any sort of protection against me.’
- Rowan also finds himself momentarily distracted by his queen, anytime she flips her braid over her shoulder, or taps drags her fingers over the map.
- ‘Huh, I never realized Aelin had so many freckles.’
- ‘Gods above, that nightgown last night.’
- or the time she stands, nonchalantly flipping a dagger over her knuckles. It’s the hottest thing he’s ever seen.
- He’s pulled from his thoughts when Chaol gives Aelin a look of mild annoyance, ‘I will put that quill through your eye, you human filth, don’t test me.’
- ‘I will crush him like a grape, make him into wine, and then drink that wine in celebration of his ending if he so much as looks at her-’
- ‘As her bloodsworn and carranam, of course. She’s my queen and only my queen.’
-’But…I wonder what color her nightgown will be tonight.’
IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT KIND OF WRITER YOU ARE YOU CAN BE WRITING: POEMS, FANFICS, IDK NORMAL FICS, NOVELS, SHORT STORIES, IDK ANYTHING!! JUST REBLOG!!!
What do u think the b stands for? Boring? Bouyant?
I just read like four different posts invisibilizing bisexuality.
Some examples because I'm really mad about it:
Bisexuals in a hetero relationship have no right to invade LGBTQ spaces
An answer to the one below
Why would you occupay space in a socially opressed community if you are well comform with heterosexuality? What a bullshit
There was this other post where someone was complaining about how people tend to act like it's the end of the world if some bi girl ends up with a boy and this was one of the answers:
but there's no cute lesbian-ness and that's what makes it so gr8
And, honestly, fuck you all. You're just as opressive as straight people is and IT SHOWS.
Just because a bi person is in a “straight presenting” relationship doesn’t mean that the bi person is straight or “fixed”. If a woman wanted only women, she’d be a lesbian. If a man wanted only men, he’d be gay. Bisexuals are cool with both, regardless of “percentages” or whatever. It also doesn’t mean we all like threesomes, but some might. Just love who you love. As long as both (all, if you are into that) are consenting adults it is nobodies business. A bi person might feel mostly homosexual attraction, but a certain amount is hetero attraction, or reverse or even, or fluctuating amounts. It is all bisexual. It also pisses me off when people act like bisexuals can’t be loyal. Yeah, straight people are just known for wonderful loyalty, gays and lesbians too. It’s those gosh darned bisexuals ruining everything. (sarcasm, just to be clear). Humans seem to not really like grey areas, and that is exactly what we are.
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