by manonpaardenkooper
sheepfilms
Misplaced Lens Cap

Kaledo Art
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
Cosimo Galluzzi

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#extradirty
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Love Begins

izzy's playlists!

❣ Chile in a Photography ❣
official daine visual archive

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roma★
Peter Solarz
Monterey Bay Aquarium
Aqua Utopia|海の底で記憶を紡ぐ

shark vs the universe
Claire Keane
Sweet Seals For You, Always
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by manonpaardenkooper
I love expensive things like: time, loyalty, and love.
life is so hard, guys. so, so hard.
it is so mortifying to be perceived. but it will get better - just have to keep telling myself that daily.
Even if I didn’t have a solid plan, in the back of my head, I always assumed I’d kill myself.
Now I’m an adult and people my age have their lives in order and I’m stuck here, confused, because I never planned to be alive and I’m so far behind.
I feel like I’ll never catch up.
Hey all.
I want to make an addition to this. I made this post a long time ago.
I’m currently back in university, and I’ve made so much progress with my trauma. I’m in a loving relationship.
Things can and will get better. It’s not too late.
Nothing is perfect by any means. But I’m happy I’m still here and didn’t kill myself. I hope you get to that point, too 💕
The addition is important! I see the original post circulating a lot, but the addition is important!
New addition two years later. I’m still going strong!
I’m getting married. I’m still in that loving relationship.
I’ve learned that there’s no real timeline. It’s okay. And while it sucks that I lost time, there’s still so much for me to experience and enjoy.
Newest addition. 7 years after the original post!
I got married last month! My dog is laying on me snoring. I’ve learned to have healthy friendships and relationships. I’ve learned that I’m not alone and that even when things are hard, I’m going to be okay.
Hey,
Have you ever been writing and it feels like every word you put on paper is just wrong? How do you get past that?
You get all the wrong words down.
Then the next day when you have your mojo back you fix them and find some of them were the right words after all.
that’s how i feel about my graduate thesis!
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RATING: RELIABLE
The above is from this article from The Guardian. The images are from MYA Network. The caption on their website reads:
Source: ‘When a sperm and egg get together, the body creates tissue in order to support the developing pregnancy. Here are photos of that tissue from 5-9 week pregnancies. This is called the gestational sac, and it’s like the “house” for the pregnancy. Inside this sac there are cells that have the potential to become a fetus but there is no visible embryo at this stage. We rinsed off the blood and menstrual lining (decidua) for these photographs.’
The published images sparked a lot of debate, leading to the story being picked up by other news outlets. For example:
Source: ‘Last week, the Guardian published images of pregnancy tissue after abortions in the first 10 weeks of pregnancy. The small size and appearance of the tissue were shocking to many. We have all absorbed, knowingly and unknowingly, the pervasive anti-abortion narrative that a pregnancy resembles a tiny baby starting in the earliest weeks. Though an early embryo can be seen under the magnification of ultrasound, it can take months for it to be perceptible to the naked eye.’
Source: ‘People have responded in disbelief, citing the (magnified) images they’ve seen on ultrasounds. […] ”Think of the illustrations on pregnancy and medical websites. The Mayo Clinic, one of the preeminent medical organizations in the country, shows week-by-week illustrations of embryonic and fetal development without any context of scale, like the rulers in the MYA photos.’
As stated in the article, whilst people talk about a ‘heartbeat’ at 6 weeks, there is no heart developed at this stage - only a group of cells that will become part of the heart.
Source: ‘But what exactly do we mean when we talk about a “fetal heartbeat” at six weeks of pregnancy? Although some people might picture a heart-shaped organ beating inside a fetus, this is not the case. Rather, at six weeks of pregnancy, an ultrasound can detect “a little flutter in the area that will become the future heart of the baby,” said Dr. Saima Aftab, medical director of the Fetal Care Center at Nicklaus Children’s Hospital in Miami. This flutter happens because the group of cells that will become the future “pacemaker” of the heart gain the capacity to fire electrical signals, she said.’
It should also be noted that the images show an embryo, not a fetus, until the 9th week.
Source: ‘In human pregnancies, a baby-to-be isn’t considered a fetus until the 9th week after conception, or week 11 after your last menstrual period (LMP).’
The co-founders of the MYA Network responded in a New York Times article.
Source: ‘Many people, even those who support abortion rights, did not believe the photos were accurate. Some insisted we had deliberately removed the embryos before taking the photos. The images weren’t consistent with those often seen in embryological textbooks, magnified on ultrasounds or used in anti-abortion propaganda; these enlarged images are not what you see with the naked eye after an abortion. A Stanford gynecologic pathologist has validated our photos, but many people could not believe the pictures were presented unaltered.
I’ve never seen pictures like this.
Utrecht Centraal Utrecht, Netherlands
Would you say you're cynical and bitter from seeing everything that you have through nursing? I remember you talked a lot about how hard it was to deal with before! How do you think it's changed you?
hi friend!
i think the first thing to know is that i work on a unit where we have a broad range of patient populations. we have patients who come in, are made comfort care, and die. we have patients who are having an elective procedure and go home. we have patients who are coping with a life changing diagnosis. we have IV drug use patients who need open heart because of endocarditis. we have people come in who deal with alcohol abuse, and end of withdrawing in the hospital. and then we have everyone in the middle. within those groups you’ll have your asshole family members and patients; “i’m going to take my anger out on you because i’m angry at the world” family members and patients; manipulative family members and patients; but also a lot of kind family members and patients. and so because i encounter a lot of different types of people in a very intimate, vulnerable setting, i can differentiate the people who are rude because they had a shitty day, and people who are rude because they’re just an ignorant POS. because illness can make you quite literally crazy.
i think nursing has also reinforced that i can’t judge a book by their cover. some of my kindest patients have been patients who came in for IV drug abuse and that had to get surgery and treatment. and some of my worst patients have been “successful” people with no history of any sort of drug or alcohol abuse, and end up treating the people around them like shit. i don’t allow peoples’ history dictate how i approach them. i approach everyone with respect and watch how they react to me and take it from there.
that said, i have simultaneously lowered my tolerance for bullshit, and expanded my compassion. seeing the horrible suffering that i have has allowed my heart to grow even bigger. i am much more compassionate than i used to be. but on the flip side, it can be difficult at times to have patience and empathy for first world, privilege problems. and that doesn’t mean that i invalidate what people go through- i know that your problems are very much real, your struggles are very much difficult. because it’s all relative. but depending on the day (such as today lol) i have to shut myself off from that because i know that i am not my kindest person, because i have run out of compassion after three shifts in a row, or after taking care of a woman who lost two legs to a fucking horrible infection, or after comforting a young person who found out they need a new heart.
but i think that my lower tolerance for BS has also made me a stronger fighter and advocate for my patients. and that has aided me in quite literally saving lives- pushing for patients to be moved to ICU level care because they’re deteriorating; arguing with providers to incorporate more pain modalities; putting dangerous patients in their places with the appropriate measures.
sorry this is rambly, but in short, i would say i am definitely more cynical and realistic than i was, but not in a bitter way- more in a “i’ve seen a lot of hurt in the world” way that makes me appreciate my life and the joys i can have.
Poems Christina Rossetti London Macmillan and Co 1896 New and Enlarged Edition [First Complete Edition printed 1890 this being the 7th reprint]
Several illustrations by Dante Gabriel Rossetti who also designed the distinctive gilt blocking to the binding
Rossetti wrote “Remember”, which I did in school.
“When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.”
living in the suburbs is like mall. Movies. Mall again. Go to target. Go to gamestop. Back to the mall. Barnes and noble. Back to the mall. Chili’s. Back to the mall. Eat hot chip. Lie. And I’m SICK of it!!!!!
I’m sorry god please forgive me I would give anything to go to Barnes and noble and then dinner at Chili’s with a lava mountain cake please lord take me back I’ll never complain again
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“I’m too busy to be lonely,” declares “Granny” Eva Barnes Henderson, who at age 83 lives alone in a small, time-weathered house near the banks of the Buffalo River.
National Geographic - March, 1977
“Make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty.”
— Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild (via books-n-quotes)
On the list of things ABSOLUTELY NOBODY HAS EVER ASKED ME FOR. Here’s the dialogue from the TV show that the Young family are watching in Episode 3, before Adam heads off for an early night.