Just Another Gay Nerd

Charlie. 26. he/they/she A blog with a theme? Never heard of her, but generally I blog about DND (CR, TAZ, D20, WBN), IWTV, Musical Theatre, Dan and Phil, Redwall, and whatever else is pinging around in my brain at the time

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

It’s killing me how angry iwtvtwt is getting at the clips of Daniel being a POS in Talamasca. Oh no, are the people being awful on the Awful People show?? Should we tell everyone? Should we call Anne Rice

[funeralspirit]

who am i, louis? am i my history i have endured? am i the job i do not want? no one has painted me in over 400 years.

[are you companions] yes. [no.]

i want you. i want you more than anything in the world.

are you asking, maître?

i artlessly assumed companionship, which was wish-fulfilling delusion rooted in childhood conflict.

they were my coven for 200 years. and i could not count on your love lasting as long.

i will spend my life making it up to you. [you'll never make it up to me] i know.

the room's soiled and once again, i'm here with mop and mindlessness to clean it up!

if you wanted to escape from this prison of empathy i’ve locked you away in. all you had to do was ask.

louis thinks i'm boring. do you find me boring?

you left me for death.

i preserve louis' happiness even when he won't or can't.

come to me.

i could talk until the end of the world about what you've destroyed here.

i love you, lestat.

and i locked those words away for the next 150 years. until you came along and shattered that lock.

and i thought if i'm not with him i am nothing.

everyone gone. you hear them but you can't see them.

everything that gives you happiness, gives me, louis!

my name is arun and i'm an addict.

i have been enduring intense conversation with myself.

i wish to read you something i've written from the deepest regions of my soul [you have no soul]

i look for the vulnerability within the object.

i am your maker! i cannot get into your head any longer!

it wasn't my love for louis. but it was love.

i want to be your maker. i want to give you half your life back. help you walk in the sun.

my first memory. i'm being run down by slavers in delhi. my second... an eager black hole.

i think i might be a room without walls, floors, a ceiling. an infinite nothing.

i've seen it all before. i've seen too much, louis.

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Shout out to Dr. Fareed Bhansali for being willing to put up with Psycho Homotrons 1000 2000 3000 and 4000 for the sake of his unethical vampiric scientific research. Bro has not had one good day since Louis hired him but he has been getting RESULTS and DATA

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Absolutely phenomenal text to receive from my DND group the one time I miss a session while they’re mid-heist

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Peak comedy to make Antoinette the record keeper at the Failures table, they really made her type all that when my good bitch only has nine fingers 😭

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Bestie who hates Armand has not started watching season 3 yet and I know I’m not gonna be able to defend myself when they get to ep. 7 because unfortunately Armand is at his hottest when he’s being the most evil he can be and they’re gonna have a field day with it

[fortis-non-feroxx]

We are the apocalypse.

[creatingblackcharacters]

Just because it came up yesterday too, I always thought that the way the fans completely divorced AMCs Claudia from her Blackness was a very insidious form of misogynoir that I admit, was new for me (within a fan space).

Like, everyone "likes" her! But in that very "girl boss girl power" white feminism way where they erase everything about the source of the power out, in order to subsume it. And it's weird because to me, it showed that, just like how they did with Louis, they did not engage with how Claudia's Blackness was another important part of her story. Despite it being quite spoonfed in season 2, tbh.

Think about it. Claudia is 1) Black, 2) female, 3) queer, and 4) trapped in a child's body, forever. This is like, the torment nexus of Lacking Power and Autonomy In Society 😭 Going unheard, that resentment against the world for not taking her and her needs and her desires seriously, from inside the home and on. Of having to build a wall of strength and resilience to protect herself, of always Taking Care of Business because her goof ass brother certainly isn't gonna do it! Of having to grasp power her own way, because it will never be considered for her. Yet, somehow still a threat.

To me, AMCs Claudia is a very beautifully written example of a Black Woman that is Angry, who would be treated like an Angry Black Woman. So many of these fans HATE real world Claudia's! Because I've seen her rage and exhaustion, her fire to fight (Akasha's too), in so many of us. And yet we don't get the girl power, girl boss label- until it's time to Need us. Otherwise, you're just a Bully.

And so it was so bizarre witnessing people just... Water that down for her. To not even bother to notice it, outside of "angry at men". Idk. One of those "your favorites would hate you" situations.

[creatingblackcharacters]

Idk, I think if y'all knew just how frustrating and unprotected and how disempowering (while at the same time forcing you to have strength and power to survive) Black girlhood and womanhood can be...

[mellowmaidenhairs]

crystal kingdom designs i did right before i got burnt out and realized i hate doing character line ups

[knight-in-shimmering-armour]

If my daughter's ghost, who I forcibly conjured up btw, said alllllll that to me about the suffering I had caused her in life and death, I'd bury myself for a century. Not romance up my husband 5 minutes later, but hey that's just me. 🤷🏽

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Lestat probably: Boy, if I had a nickel for every time a fledgling got turned around the same time his brother killed himself, blamed me for it, and then teamed up with other vampires to kill me, I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened twice, right?

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Devil’s Minion Fans: we can’t wait for Armand and Daniel to finally properly get together they’re gonna be soooooo crazyyyy 🥰

Devil’s Minion: *immediately turns one of Lestat’s bandmates against him, exposes Gabistat, decapitates Loustat with zero warning*

Devil’s Minion Fans:

[sillystigmata]

Feeling normal.

[yaoiblackmold]

If this was a normal romance Daniel saying "prove it" would prompt Armand to kiss him like he means it but because this is a weird freak4freak dynamic Armand just started listing out all the different times he stalked Daniel over 52 years. And Daniel being the freak he is actually looked moved by that confession.

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Hey Assad how does it feel to be the funniest guy alive

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

TC and Lestat’s relationship is so important to me. She gives him shit when he’s being pretentious. She pitches new songs and he builds off what she’s offering instead of shutting her down. She’s concerned about him burning in the sun but goes along with his crazy schemes. She hates Gabriella on his behalf (Yoko Mirren killed me lmao). Where Alex and Salamander worship him and Larry hates him, TC treats him basically like an older brother. In the TVL songs where Lestat is at his most vulnerable it’s her voice that rises above the music to support him, to the point that she’s essentially the voice of Claudia in Stained Glass Eyes. She’s not enough to save him from himself, of course, but she’s the beating heart of the band. How apt for a drummer.

[itsallaboutthebirds86]

Theory— Larry and Alex call Lestat “Singer” because before they knew he was a real vampire they thought he was just really committing to the bit going by Lestat 24/7 and not telling them his “real” name and they thought he was being really pretentious and refused to play along