I've realized that most of the time people misinterpret my words & guestures so it makes me think that maybe I have to change how I interact w/ them. It doesn't mean that I will change myself, I will just adjust myself. Honestly, I don't know how. I know that I cannot control what people might think of me but I think I still have the responsibility if it already affects their feelings. I realized something that I never thought would happen. I thought of it many times and figured out myself what's really going on. Honestly, I couldn't believe so I extended my observation then I've realized that I was right. At first, I didn't know what to do. I felt bad because they are important to me. I couldn't blame myself because what was on my mind was different. And it is also not right to say it is their fault because maybe there was something wrong on my part for them to think those but I wasn't aware of that. That's why I said before that I want to make things right. I was thinking of ideas how, to make them understand my part and I hope they could figure it out themselves. I even posted in public something I shouldn't have just to clear something. I think I must not say sorry for what had happened but I will still apologize if ever what had happened caused them pains or confused minds. I love them and they are the people I want to keep in my life so I will post this even if I might look insane in the eyes of the people who couldn't relate and not related to this. -- from the bottom of my heart. 03/24/2018