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Internship report - ultimate round

hey !

I’m in a much better place today compared to last time.

And TODAY I AM GOING TO FINISH WRITING THIS REPORT. For god’s sake.

#studying #engineer #internship

To do list 13/08

1) finish sending all the applications I can for my internship in Melbourne

- TESLA, done

- MEDIPASS SOLUTIONS,

2) Ask my school by email if I can send my report a bit letter in order to make it proofread by my tutor

3) finish writing my report for my current internship

4) send it to my sisters to proofread

Let’s do this, I can do it !

Good luck with your day <3

#studying

Hey, I’m not okay, but everything is going to be fine

It’s been a looong time my friends !

SO a few words :

- I’m 22, 23 in 2 and a half months

- I’m currently doing an internship in a famous french aeronautical company and it’s...okayish, I feel lucky somewhat and desperate that it’s finally over ! (it’s been 5 months)

- I have not felt good lately, mainly due to the fact that I’m insecure/self-aware AGAIN

And these past 4 days I binged like crazy because :

- I feel childish, not enough, generally behind in life

- I feel pressured because I feel like I have not done enough during this internship

- I feel pressured because I must finish my report on this very internship like these days, and I didn’t manage well enough so my tutor (from the company) won’t be able to read it before I send it to my engineering school, so it sucks and it’s kinda my fault. But maybe I can find a solution.

- I feel pressured because I will be 23 soon and don’t feel like it, I feel like I suffer my life, I’m not close with my friends and it’s not my fault, I tried to be a good friend.

- I feel pressured because I must find another internship in Australia

- ...but at the same time I’m scared to be “swallowed” by my sister’s family who lives there, as it’s kinda the case here at my other sister’s place. AND I’M 22 !! this latter doesn’t always treat me well, while I really help her, even though I’m not a saint and kind of depressed lately.

I feel like I do all I can,

but it’s still isn’t enough

And oh, I’m supposed to be sick today (well I really felt after the massive amounts of calories I had, and yet It hadn’t happen in MONTHS)

So here I am, trying to get my life together, and trying to find the right things to work on. ONE THING AT A TIME, I WILL MANAGE

#hard times #sad #difficulties #internship #binge eating #binge eating disorder

Monday, January 29. 2018. GOAL REACHED + Study session

I FINALLY did it ! I finished writing my project on the Seveso guidelines this morning at 00:30 or something :D . It makes 20 pages. Soooo happy. My teacher must only read it this wednesday to give me recommendations, if necessary. I hope not though, I don’t even want to look at it again.

This morning I was quite productive as well : went to an english class, the last one before the exam, then went asking information for the paper work concerning my departure from this german school, and then I called someone back in France to make progress concerning my internship thing.

NOW :

*******Study session****

I must prepare the presentation I give on Wednesday about the legislation of GMOs within the UE. I shouldn’t take too long as I already wrote a whole project on it previously. But :

- I must prepare the powerpoint. (about 18 slides, lasting 20′ total, in German)

- I must prepare what I’ll say during these 20′.

- I must prepare a sheet summing it up for the people attending the class

I’m feeling a bit empty, without any courage after yesterday’s hard work. But Friday I go back home, it should encourage me.

I’ll update

#studyblr #studying #study

Friday, 26. January 2018 OUTLANDER + STUDY SESSION

heyy

So. Yesterday I managed to reach 9 pages written on the SEVESO guidelines.

But then I had one class and then I couldn’t get back to it as I thought...bc I jumped in a “streaming-hole” of Outlander.

And I barely slept bc I was sick of everything I had to manage currently (yep, not a very mature coping mecanism for a 22-ear-old).

And today I still went to 2 classes (but one was cancelled, apparently...thanks teacher for the absent notice !). And watched the rest of the 1st season.

And my theory about Outlander is the following : it’s a cheap version of Game of Thrones, adapted for women. BUT I know that a lot of women watch GOT but still. Just look at the actor playing Jamie...YES. You see what I mean. And the sex scenes :o . The more “(?) “ sex scenes I’ve seen in a long time.

BUT for me Outlander is like Nutella, or a sweet version of a serie : it gives you pleasure when you watch it (aww what a couple, aww Jamie <3, aww (blabla) ).

And then you feel somewhat sick of it at one point.

And I think it’s even worse if you keep watching season 2-3-4. That’s what I thought and then I tried to watch season 2 and it’s like I made an overdose of all that “sweety/romantic/greatsex .../crazy and non-believable story *** stuff”.

***crazy scenario : the details of the rape/torture time with Kendall => blurp.

ANYWAY. I shall stop watching that stuff ,and study, no need to recall why (3 exams, 2 presentations in German please kill me and a moving out to organise and a whole tidy up to do)

***STUDY SESSION*************

Tonight, or this night I will finish the first version of my report on the SEVESO guidelines. I’m starting page 10/15 , then bibliography and pictures to add.

I CAN AND WILL DO IT.

xxx

I will update here, I’ll try

#studying #study #studyblr

Wednesday, January 24. 2018

hey (REAL PLAN FOR THE STUDY SESSION further down the text)

So I forgot to update yesterday night but I managed to obtain 8 pages for my project on the Seveso guidelines even though it was tough (I was really tired).

Today passed by very quickly, it’s 4:30 pm and I only went to a class, then walked home, then gorcery shopping not too long, then lunch, then food coma and procrastinating a bit and tidying up my room and “voilà”. Oh and I wrote down some notes about the intership offer I’m STILL waiting for a real positive answer (apparently I’m the “better candidates” according to a serious source :)) .

I really want them to conctact me as I have been making wait for almost 2 weeks another company I said yes to :( ( but didn’t “engage”/sign up for it).

ANYWAY

This morning I gave back my report on my presentation about the european legislation of GMOs in apiculture, so at least I’m done with that :).

Today I want to finish the first version of my project on the SEVESO guidelines, it means writing another 7 pages. It’s doable, I don’t have anything else to do.

The only drawback is that I’m crazy tired. (the reason = “it’s that time of the month”, is that how I should put it nicely ?)

***************ACTUAL STUDY SESSION***********

4:41 pm. Keep writing interesting and structured stuff about the SEVESO guidelines. But only after eating my chia seeds + blueberry soy yogurt (<3).

I’ll update.

#study #studying #studyblr

Tuesday, January 23. 2018 Study session

heyy

I wish you all a wonderful new year ! As I forgot to do so earlier in the month.

Take care of yourself, study/work hard, have fun, laugh hard too and spend time with the people you love.

This year didn’t start well for me but now I am in a better place and I’m positive concerning the future ahead of me. I hope you are as well. If not, I’m swearing there will be better times <3.

I have only 2 weeks left before going back to France and to my engineering school (I was studying this semester in Germany, near Mainz/Frankfurt) and I can’t waiit to go back.

This semester sucked, even though I improved my German this way, at least.

************

Concerning my study plan for these next 2 weeks :

- I don’t have anything more to do in 3 pf my classes (yeah !)

- I must finish my project on the Seveso guidelines, wrote only 2 pages and it must be at least 15 pages long...before this Friday, for specific reasons.

- I must finish preparing a presentation I must give on Wednesday next week.

- I must revise 3 exams I have next week : English for Eng. ; Business English and Sicherheitstechnik (Technics of Security), but it shouln’t take too long.

- I must give a presentation, all set up already, on Friday next week.

************TODAY STUDY SESSION********

- Keep writing my project on Seveso : write at least 7 pages.

I will update on my progress here.

let’s do that ! good luck everyone

Check-in #1 - 6 pm : starting writing page 6/8 min. (in total)

#study #study session #studying #studyblr

My current state of mind

But I must study. The sooner the better. Just not now.

#life

Wednesday 10th of January 2018 Study session

heyy

Happy new year !

So, I won’t tell you my life this time. I’ll say only that I have like 24 days left before coming back to France ; I have 2 presentations, 2 reports, both almost finished, one due this Friday + one project (I’m late on that) + 3 exams (2 okayish, 1 I must really study for).

So I must be efficient.

Today’s tasks : finish (finally !) my report on my env. audit, it’s almost done.

Then : go out to make it look like a proper report //must find a place where they do that

Then : go home and finish my report on my presentation on the legislation of apiculture, I must only translate the intro and the conclusion and read everything one last time.

#study #studyblr #studying

Ils ont moins de 30 ans et chacun une histoire différente.

#sexe #sex #abstinence

Tim Dup - La vie ne vaut rien (reprise d'Alain Souchon)

#musique #music #tim dup

Thursday 21th December 2017 Things to be happy about + Ultimate study session before holidayys.

heyy

*****Personal stuff, keep scrolling if not interested*********

Yesterday I felt mi.se.ra.ble. I honestly am not feeling good currently. I partly know the reason and try to accept it and “work on it”, but it’s the first time in a long time it is that intense. (I’m talking about the will to cry, often, a lot....hum.)

But the fact that I’ve been sleeping only for4 or 5 hours /night only this week doesn’t help either.

REASONS TO BE HAPPY(ier)

(1)

But I’ve gained some maturity, I feel that I know myself more and that I am more “gentle”/nice with myself. Before I would have thought : “oh I pity you/others must pity you” or other nice stuff like that. I don’t do that. That’s at least a good point.

Another great thing :

(2) I’m achieving the goals I had wrote for this week, i.e. finish 3 things, and I will finish the 1st version of the 3rd tonight (now). That means I’ll be able to enjoy at home and concentrate on spending quality time with my family/ and taking care of myself and my mental state.

(3) I received a nice answer from a teacher today.

(4) Several people at the administration of my school helped me quite a lot for a problem I had and were comprehensive with “the girl from France”.

I think that’s all. oh also

(5) I chose to walk back from uni and the weather wasn’t good but it felt good.

(6) I ate comforting foods and healthy foods.

(7) I’m currently sipping on some green tea and I love it.

**********END OF THE TALE OF MY LIFE*****

7:41 AM

Final session on the 1st version of my report on my env. audit. The good point is that I already worked a bit on it yesterday and today earlier. yay

let’s do that

xxx

#study #studying #studyblr

feminismfuckyeah

The soccer gender pay gap is ridiculous

greekgodohair

Assume I’m dead and rotting when this isn’t reblogged from my dash.

queeranne

Remember when Netflix and Tumblr didn’t exist and you read like 10 books a week? Good times.

itsbetweenyouandme

:((

Wednesday, 20th December 2017- I DID IIIIIT !

yo !

Guys, I did it, I finished the first version of my report on the legislation of GMOs in apiculture ! I finished at 2 :30 am or something, but at least I did it, and I sent it to my teacher in order for him to correct it.

Today I rest a bit, then class, then I’ll finish another thing : my report on my environmental audit.

It feels so great to finish stuff I’ve been working on for a few weeks or a few months :o.

Now, resting a bit. I’ll update about my study session of the day.

Tomorrow I won’t really be able to study and I ‘ll have to clean and tidy up my studio, and then : road back home, back to France !! Gosh I need that.

yay !

Have a wonderful day/night

#study #studying #studyblr

Tuesday 19th December 2017 Study session

heyy

So I eventually didn’t study more, but I was content as I finished something.

***personal thoughts, if not interested by it, please read further down the post****

I feel better today, not totally myself yet, but slightly more “into” life, if that makes sense. I’m telling myself that I’ll be at home with my family on Friday night, so in 3 days, and that motivates me to finish stuff before going there.

I’m also a bit anxious about the holidays, I’ve been kind of fragile and sensitive lately, and in my family it’s not good to be like that. Things fo well with them (expecially the parents) if I’m strong, quite fit physically, and generally happy and confident about life.

So I try not to think about it and be confident. Another thing making me anxious is the fact of not having any plan for New Years Eve yet...and I’m not sure I’ll have something. And I just can’t spend the NYE alone with my parents, I would fell (even more, for no reason, or almost) like a loser. I thought about doing babysitting but I found tht kind of sad, and socially not well-seen (If I say that to my friends for instance...). Ye I have friends, but they don’t seem like motivated, since I proposed that we do something togather and I haven’t go any news.

Oh and btw, the other thing making me anxious to go home is that I still don’t have any boyfriend. And I feel that my parents sre starting to worry about that.

And I have no news from a guy I was kind of flirting/going out (?) with. But at the same time he currently has major final exams...but he wasn’t talking much either before.

ANYWAY

Today I’ll study to free my mind gradually, and I’ll go running, and I’ll study again, and I’ll read The Brothers Karamazov.

***********************************THE END*****************************************

THE goal for today : finish the writing of the 1st version of my report on the legislation of GMOs in apiculture. I had written the whole 1st part last Friday so now I must write the 2d.

I’ll start at 11 AM.

Edit : Sooo I did make a good progress and I’m almost done writing this first version.

it’s 9:41 now and I went running for 1 hour (felt great, so happy I’m able to exercice again) and when I went back I decided to eat something (I was juicing since yesterday morning).

I only have the last point/subject of the 2d part left, writing a conclusion and then translating the introduction and the conclusion into German. And send it to my teacher, hoping he will have enough time to read it before tomorrow’s class.

let’s do that :)

#study #studyblr #studying

Monday 18th December 2017 Study session of the last chance

I did almost nothing yesterday :(

So I must to it today. End of story

Goal : FINISH THIS ******* PART OF PROJECT ABOUT GENOTOXICITY OF GLYPHOSATE for god’s sake. --”

and go running when I’m sick of it, without slipping bc of the snow

xxx

I DID IIIIIIT. wow, that was tough.

But in fact I thought I had to write like 3 pages but in fact no, only one would have been enough but I wrote like 2 + annexes etc.

I’m taking a break since 3 PM to 6 PM and after I’ll finish my work on the legislation of GMOs in apiculture in order to send it to my teacher (for his opinion only, not the actual due date).

I feel already better, after this weekend where I didn’t work much :). It feels good.

#study #studyblr

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