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newest addition to the pretty templates !!! i think this may be top 3 for me… background: nate archibald invaded my dream last night even though i decided months ago that i probably wouldn’t be shifting to gossip girl and it felt like a sign! idk what else to say chi… i’m easily swayed🤣

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thinking about making a custom dr where i’m in a matriarchal coven of witches. maybe i’ll use beautiful creatures as inspo… maybe a lil american horror story… hmm… it could also just be a branch of a custom dr i was shifting to in summer of 2024 but that was vampire based. i hardly remember it. still, its been on my mind recently. we’ll see.

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what the script is giving rn… i decided it’s gonna be based in beautiful new orleans (bc duh), we’re all gonna live in a compound together. i’m gonna figure out background stuff today after doing my readings but i’m overly excited to shift here yall (and i haven’t shifted in like over two weeks bc of my schedule so i’m tryna go here asap!!!)

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you’re unable to drop your old story and that’s why you struggle with manifesting shifting.

so i know it’s been a long while since i posted a long little shifting help post but that’s because i been doing what i want! however, to this day i still get dms and comments asking why people aren’t shifting even though they’ve been using the law of assumption for x amount of months.

and it’s my personal belief that one of the biggest reasons is because while you’re using the law of assumption, you’re not using it to create your new reality but to cling to your old story.

you still haven’t moved past it. you still carry resentment. whether that be toward yourself for “failing,” toward time, toward other shifters who’ve gotten their results or led you “astray.” even toward shifting itself because it hasn’t happened in the way you’ve wanted it to yet.

you can’t make your new story click because underneath them are the assumptions: “i’ve been trying forever.” “i’m still here.” “why isn’t it working?” “i always end up waking up here.”

that is your story. that is what you’re actually identifying with. and every time you repeat it, you’re just giving it a stronger hold.

you try to start over and overwrite it, but the second something doesn’t go your way, you immediately return to the old story because it’s familiar to you. because it feels like home.

and your new story feels unnatural because you haven’t let yourself live there yet. you haven’t taken the time to heal the damage your old story dealt. it’s like placing brick over mold, thinking that simply covering it will take away the stench.

it doesn’t.

and before somebody says “but i’m saturating my mind with my new story x amount of times a day!” i’m not talking about repetition. i’m talking about identity.

who are you when you’re not affirming?

are you someone who micromanages your thoughts? always anxious about thinking the right things? always searching for a new method or direction? can never live in your present state for long without reverting back to something negative?

if so, it’s probably because you haven’t forgiven yourself yet.

a lot of you are trying to control every thought because you don’t trust yourself anymore. you think if you loosen your grip for even a second you’ll undo all your progress. but ask yourself why.

it’s because you’re still identifying with the version of you that “didn’t know better.” the version that spiraled. the version that thought drinking a gallon of water would be the key. the version that thought moving an inch could ruin everything.

you haven’t realized that person doesn’t need to be protected anymore.

that’s why you keep trying to control everything. control feels safe because if you’re always watching yourself, maybe you’ll never become that version of you again.

but conscious creation isn’t about controlling yourself every second of every day. it’s about trusting the identity you’ve chosen enough that you can free your thoughts. even if they’re negative. because you know, deep down, that they don’t matter.

so forgive yourself. that’s it.

forgive yourself for not knowing what you know now. forgive yourself for the months or years you spent feeling stuck. forgive yourself for every time you doubted yourself.

stop treating yourself like a lost cause.

stop trying to fight your old story and simply let it be old.

your past is not evidence. stop living like it is. choose the version of you that you know yourself to be. you don’t owe your old story loyalty just because you’ve spent a long time living it.

it’s served its purpose. now let it go.

that way when reality asks you: “who are you?”

you can stop answering with who you were.

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i think this weekend i will reinstate shufflemancies to my reading options! (the five people in the corner who’ve been waiting for their return cheered) but i’m gonna do them a lot differently! since i won’t be using cards much and purely my clair senses to figure stuff out, i think they’ll be more of a “list of downloads i receive per song” instead of a full essay like my other readings tend to be (because yall know i like to yap) and that will just make it easier for me to keep my promise. i know they were super popular when i still did them and that was over a year ago now but yeah… that’s my update! when i do update my form, i’ll reblog this

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my form is updated!! there’s three shufflemancy listings on there and examples of what you can order (in case you know you want a shuffle but aren’t sure what intention or focus to put down). i’m excited to bring this back for y’all and already got one order! wish me luckkk & happy shifting!! <33

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MEET ME IN THE TOWER — HOGWARTS DR

This is my slytherin social sphere in my 2003 golden trio dr! AKA the people I hang out with most going into my 3rd yr…

DRACO MALFOY | Draco and I have a closer bond than people would assume. We genuinely care about one another even if we never say it. We understand each other in ways other people don’t. I’d choose his company over a lot of people’s, despite our disagreements and his general dislike of my romantic choices…

BLAISE E. ZABINI | Blaise is not just my closest friend but also my twin. And because he looks different from movie canon + I don’t have nearly enough images of him to fit this aesthetic he’s just gonna be faceless (deal with it!!) Anywho, I don’t think there’s really a single person who dislikes my brother. He’s very fair and doesn’t care for drama. People see us as a dynamic duo so if I’m the Slytherin Princess, he’s Slytherin’s Golden Boy. But our reputations never get in the way of how we see each other. He’s still just B to me.

KATERINA BELISOV | Katerina is fascinating because as much as she is warm, she’s equally sad. At school she’s seen as vibrant, and charming, and utterly impossible to ignore, but I think that makes her feel a little lonely. She’s a sister to me despite her having a twin of her own. And with sisterhood, comes a few ups and downs which we definitely have had in our 3 years of knowing each other.

PANSY P. PARKINSON | Pansy and I talk 24/7, usually about what the Owl recently released or whatever new gossip she found out. But aside from that, our friendship is pretty stable. Pansy’s just always around. Whether she’s complaining, sharing her opinion, or scheming, she’s usually nearby and always down to hang.

DAPHNE GREENGRASS | Daphne is a sweetheart around me and a bitch with everyone else. Straight up. But I will say her reputation is quite impressive and if she wasn’t one of my best friends, she’d probably be my nemesis. Luckily, we’ve known each other a long time so I’m one of the few people she trusts and enjoys being around.

LORENZO BERKSHIRE | Lorenzo and I always have a good time. He’s one of those people who can talk me into things I normally wouldn’t do. He’s also one of my flirtiest friends, though I’ve told him I’m not interested. But even then, at any party, I somehow find myself right there next to him. Our dynamic is a little complicated as a result.

MILES BLETCHLEY | Miles surprises me. Beneath whatever typical Slytherin reputation he has, he’s a big softie. He’s also quite protective of me. Maybe that stems from me being an extension of his friendship with my brother but still. He’s the kind of guy who, when he likes you, genuinely cares about your wellbeing and tends to look out for you in small ways.

THEODORE NOTT | I’m still getting to know Theo as he only recently decided he wasn’t too cool to hang out with us. For now, we’re both just kinda watching each other. He’s very quiet even when he’s around people he’s comfortable with but he’s far from shy. He just likes to watch people. I get the feeling he’ll become more important as time goes on, I just don’t know how…

next post on hogwarts will likely be my dr intro! also, i have so many more friends than this including some other slytherins in my dr who aren’t canonically slyths (george weasley is one!!) but this is just my primary group. also a lot of people look different from canon. so that’s something to keep in mind.

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twd dr yap sesh!

okay so boom. i already posted on tiktok but i promised i’d do it here too. was gonna make it aesthetic and shit but i’m sick as a dog and ain’t nobody got time for that rn… i’m 25 in this dr. i’m an aquarius. it’s 2019 and the outbreak started in august 2014. it’s currently june in the dr as well so beginning of summer. i live in chesapeake va and that’s also where my group lives as well. i’m only gonna talk about my background and future because this is a group dr and i wanna respect my friends privacy 🙂‍↕️

but basically i’m a real southern gal like grew up raised by my grandparents who had a farm and such. both taught me how to live off the land and gave me useful knowledge for the apocalypse tbh so i never really struggled (apart from the loneliness). my grandparents did pass during the outbreak (not because of the virus but because my grandma didn’t want either of them living thru that and neither did i so i essentially put them out of their misery before they could suffer).

that also kinda brings me to how the virus works. in my dr, we’d already been privy to the virus because the company that engineered it (accidentally) was being sued and it was all over the news for weeks. the thing is, the company also hid important documents that very explicitly stated the deceased individuals infected with said virus were reanimating so erm… you know how shit travels so yeah. before we knew it, everything was being overrun. now since i lived on open land in the country, we weren’t really too scared about getting infected just because but when people began running further south and looting and such, it was clear that this situation wouldn’t be containable. plus our government is shit so.

5 years post outbreak, the country is still in ruins but there’s enough survivors with enough skills that we’ve made a sort of new system of living. va specifically is kinda ruthless in terms of large communities. there aren’t many “good” ones, most are corrupt and that’s actually where a few of my group escaped/got kicked from. i removed myself from an early community within the first year because i didn’t wanna abide by anyone else’s rules. i also didn’t go back to my grandparents farm and traveled further south (to where i am now in chesapeake) because i couldn’t bear living there without them. i do still carry a pic of my grandma with me, and i have my granddad’s shotgun and his cane (which has a katana in it! and my cr grandpa had a similar cane so i thought why not). i ended up finding an abandoned cabin in the woods near water, cleared out any walkers that were there and have been living there for about 4 years or so. inspo pics:

i only travel when i need to. for supplies mostly. and occasionally a survivor will pass by my territory so i’m not completely alone. also, i’ve recently come into possession of a dog. i call him dog. he doesn’t have a collar but it was clear to me that he was trained and an adult so it made no sense to try to rename him. he comes with me when i do supply runs. here’s dog!

here’s some personality info about me that i copy and pasted from my script lmfao: at my core, i’m not reckless or chaotic for no reason. i actually care deeply about loyalty and building a community, and that desire guides all of my actions. i plan months ahead and i need stable people around me otherwise i slowly start shutting down. i don’t like wasting my energy on pointless drama or impulsive decisions. i’m the kind of person to make sure everybody’s good before i can relax. i can be unnaturally calm when things are going to hell. i may seem not all there but i’m deeply logical when it comes to jumping into action. i can also become stubborn as hell when i think i’m right or when i’ve already invested into something or someone. i don’t give up easily, even when maybe i should.

around the group, it’s sometimes hard for me to be vulnerable. i adapt constantly depending on everybody’s moods and needs but don’t take time to manage my own. i’m seen as dependable and emotionally intelligent. i know exactly how to influence people when needed. i know what to say, how to calm people down, how to redirect conversations, how to make people trust me. there’s a part of me that feels responsible for keeping everything in order.

i’ve built a bit of a reputation. people see me as difficult to control but highly competent. i’ve adapted so deeply to this world that normal life before the outbreak almost feels like a long lost dream to me now. i’m comfortable in danger in ways that would horrify old me.

and scene!

now when it comes to how i dress i’m usually in denim, a tank, and some boots. i’m not super extra and i don’t wear accessories. va is pretty temperate/warm aside from the thunderstorms usually so i also don’t mind having my legs out usually. and because i don’t live near a bunch of walkers, i’m not usually layered up the way some of my other group members would be. example of a summer fit:

now let’s get into my s/o’s because i got two here but i don’t meet my second for quite some time whereas my first comes thru relatively quickly. it’s logan and erik (xmen) and yes i’m tweaked. now logan was apart of this old stupid ass community and he was growing tired of them bc they was hella strict and also not empathetic towards mothers and children. so when chaos broke at the group (alarm bells for walkers went off) his dog got lost in the chaos and ran off and he went after him. now, if you remember from earlier i mentioned how i came into possession of a dog. and yes, the dog was logan’s! that’s how we meet. he tracks his dog back to me a few weeks after he ran off. and ofc, because he’s a stranger with a big gun walking up on MY porch, the interaction isn’t the kindest. but we compromise and i let him stay for a few days because we need muscle anyway.

now for erik. i don’t have much info on his background but i believe erik worked at the company that created the virus. he wasn’t high up but he was a whistleblower of some kind and he knew about the classified shit before anyone else. now 5 years post break he’s running his own community and has a nicely built community. when we run into each other it will likely be a year or so after my initial shift in point. and we do have tension as well. he doesn’t like the way i run my group and i don’t like the way he runs his. but because we’re now occupying the same territory we’re either gonna have to go to war over it or find a middle ground.

both logan and erik have similar personalities to their canon counterparts. this is how i imagine them to look in the dr (my pretty middle aged men ugh) and i got some tropes for yall HOLLON!

logan and i’s tropes: 9 of swords, 10 of cups, 8 of swords, the emperor neutral, the star, page of swords, 2 of pents, the sun, the devil, ace of swords, 10 of pents.

beauty & the beast, break up to save them (my side), enemies to friends to lovers (kinda, more just defensive initially), yearning, protector, slow burn, emotionally constipated man x emotionally avoidant woman, everyone loves a bad boy, forced proximity, i hate everyone but you (his side), lovers in denial, opposites attract, sworn off relationships, will they or won’t they, touch her and die (YES GAWDDD), soulmates

erik and i’s tropes: death, 5 of wands, page of wands, knight of wands, 9 of pents, the hanged man, the moon reversed, 10 of cups.

dark past, enemies to lovers (like actually lmfao), forbidden love, opposites attract, love/hate, emotionally intelligent woman x emotionally intense man, protector, mutual fascination, you see through me, we keep finding our way back to each other, political/philosophical tension, redemption, sworn off relationships, star crossed lovers

in terms of survival and shit, i’m not super worried because it has been 5 years and most of these zombies are gonna be decayed asf. but there will be the occasional new zombie that we run into and we’ll be able to tell bc it can run and shit. there’s about 65% of the population that’s not immune then 25% that are immune and about 10% that aren’t immune but have a delayed transformation. so basically, they won’t die immediately from being scratched or bit, BUT they now carry the virus within them and once they die, they’ll turn. those ones are the scariest ones bc we’ll end up coming across quite a few people who claim immunity and we won’t truly know until they die. but me and my group are immune. women aged 21-34 are also mostly likely to be immune/resistant (idk why we just scripted that okay) and yeah! if y’all got any questions pls ask them, i love talking about this dr!!! ciao!

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.𖥔 ݁ ˖ the Dance. 125 AC.

❝ The beauty of Therena of House Garros was known throughout all of Westeros. Daughter of a Dornish Prince and high Valyrian lady, the Sand Dragon is what they called her. King Viserys held great fascination for the princess and her kin, believing House Garros to be remnants of a forgotten Valyria. ❞

FROM THE MAESTER’S RECORDS.

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I shifted today out of pure annoyance! You can shift regardless of your physical and mental state!

I woke up around 10am mildly irritated because someone (my father) was talking too loud. I also had minor cramps due to menstruation (tmi, I know). I put on my fully charged AirPods, set the intention to go back to sleep and shift, and I did!

I was in a parallel reality for a few days! I went on a family trip to Canada and came back to New York to attend my classes. Funny part is that I didn’t even see my dad, the person who annoyed me earlier. He was busy at work and didn’t go on the trip with us.

My family was also planning my engagement party. I was wearing a nice big oval engagement ring. I didn’t see or interact with my fiancé so his identity is a mystery for now. Maybe I’ll shift back to that reality to find out. Anything can happen!

Today’s experience reminded me that you can shift while:

happy

sad

angry

annoyed

uncomfortable

tired

in a loud environment

It really does not have to be perfect or ideal. Use anything you can to motivate you! Today I used annoyance as motivation, and tomorrow I may use something completely different. I’m going to shift regardless!

Hope this motivates anyone struggling right now. Happy (or annoyed) shifting!

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your fear is not your future, it’s just a state. but you? you are still becoming.

(i get a bit confessional here but please bear with me, there’s a method to my madness)

so late last year into earlier this year, i was shifting very consistently. i had even revamped an old marvel dr and decided to go there at the end of january and then i shifted there at the beginning of february after focusing on it for about 10 days. it was a dr that was barely scripted. mostly just vibes and a pinterest board holding me over (which is how i prefer things nowadays). the first time i shifted there it was everything i could’ve hoped for. i was truly on top of the world. but then i shifted back about 4 days later and had an experience where a friend of mine died. i’ll spare you the gory details but shortly after his funeral i shifted back here because i couldn’t handle the media coverage on it anymore. and though i left the dr, the feeling persisted and continued to wreck me. one, because before shifting to the dr i didn’t even know he existed and two, because it brought up some old trauma and grief i have here regarding my best friend’s murder in 2021. so, as anyone likely would’ve done in my situation, i took a step back from shifting. i didn’t want to think about shifting and i definitely didn’t want to think about going back to the mcu. i still don’t at this point in time.

for a few days afterwards, i was in heavy denial and trying to be normal about it but a huge fear began festering under my surface emotions about not being prepared for shifting or what my drs have in store for me. and that was a lot for me to admit to myself because—if you’ve followed my journey—you know i’ve worked my ass off to get to a healthy place in shifting. and this just felt like a major step back.

so look. the reason i’m sharing this isn’t because i want to demotivate or fear monger you.

i heavily contemplated talking about this online for months because that’s the exact thing i don’t want to do. i figured that when i was ready to share it, i would make it a learning moment. but when that time came that i felt ready enough, i had nothing good to pair it with. nothing that i felt i learned or gained from the experience. only pain and fear.

that is, until now.

after talking with my guides and a close friend here who also shifts, i had an epiphany about getting past emotional “blockages” or fears we have built up around shifting. and it’s basically that emotions aren’t a reliable indicator of how close you are or of what you’re actually going to experience.

you see, i allowed my fear to hinder me from shifting to any of my drs for months now. and while i had two pretty inconsequential shifts, the fear persisted in the back of my mind that if i stayed in any dr for too long, something like what i experienced in mcu was going to happen again. but on top of that fear, i began feeling as though i’d never get past this. this reality, i mean. that i’d always back out of shifting because my nervous system was “shot” and i was easily triggered and yada yada yada… but i’m learning now that that’s so far from the truth.

this pain that i feel will pass. it is passing. and i don’t have to live in it like its my permanent home. it’s just something that i’m feeling, it’s not who i am. as all emotions are just things we feel, not things we are. so i guess what i’m saying to you, dear shifter, is to remember that no matter what you’re feeling, you are capable. you are still going to shift. and it’s still going to be everything you dreamed. there’s no emotion that you’ll forever be encased in. if you feel desperate? that desperation will pass. sadness? it will pass. anger? it’s already gone.

but what i think a lot of us accidentally do is treat emotions like proof. like if we’re afraid, then something bad must happen. if we’re desperate, then we must be far away from shifting. if we feel disconnected from a dr, then maybe we’ve “lost” it somehow. but emotions are not prophecies. they are experiences. temporary ones at that.

and i think for me personally, i began associating being here with separation. if i wasn’t getting dreams, symptoms, signs, or “progress” every day, then my brain would start spiraling into “it’s not working” or “i’m losing connection” when in reality, nothing was gone. the connection still existed. i was just scared. overwhelmed. emotionally exhausted. and because i care deeply about my drs—because they feel like home to me—that emotional attachment would sometimes turn into urgency. this feeling of “i need to get there right now.” and when i couldn’t immediately satisfy that feeling, i’d spiral even more.

but you can miss your dr and still be connected to it. you can feel fear and still shift. you can feel confused as ever and still be making progress. because your dr is never separate from you, no matter how you may “feel.”

sometimes your nervous system is just tired. sometimes you need a break without it meaning that you failed or lost your ability or are “blocked” forever.

i also think some of us accidentally turn shifting into an emergency. we start treating every night like pass/fail. every attempt like life or death. every emotion like a sign of something. and i don’t think that’s healthy for us in the long run. especially if you’re like me (bpd baddies represent) and never feel things half assed.

you do not need to be emotionally perfect to shift. you don’t need to eradicate fear to shift. and you damn sure don’t need to force yourself into toxic positivity 24/7 to shift.

you are allowed to be human during this process.

and maybe the real lesson for me in all this was learning how to stay human without beating myself down. learning how to love my drs without overwhelming myself about them. learning that “not being there right now” doesn’t mean they’re abandoning me or i’m missing my shot. because i think for a long time, my nervous system interpreted not shifting as loss. and those are not the same thing.

your dr is not gone because tonight you didn’t get there. your connection isn’t broken because you had a bad week. and you aren’t failing because you’re feeling difficult emotions.

you are still becoming.

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you didn’t fail, you just didn’t shift.

and yes, there is a difference.

the definition of failing is “a weakness, especially in a person's character; a shortcoming.” and this definition is going to serve as the baseline for my point about why you shouldn’t conflate “not shifting” with failing.

not shifting is simply an outcome but failing is a judgment of self. when you say “i failed” OR you begin cycling through various thoughts that make you believe you’re incapable of shifting, you’re not just describing what happened but assigning meaning to it as well. you’re saying that something about you is lacking. that you did something wrong. that you’re not capable.

but that’s simply not true. you just didn’t shift. period.

nothing about that sentence implies weakness or that you’re incapable. it’s just a neutral observation of what occurred.

but the moment you label it as failure or treat it like failure, you turn a neutral experience into something personal. something that now feels like it reflects badly on who you are instead of just what happened.

and that’s why you’re disappointed each time. because in the back of your mind, you’re still treating the shift like something you’re incapable of getting. you still feel it’s above you in some way and that’s why you hold onto the shame of not making it. you don’t categorize it as a neutral “i didn’t shift” but a personal “i failed to shift.”

that disappointment is just the result of you processing not receiving something you pedestal—even when you “worked” for it. but i’m here to remind you that you as a person, as a soul, did not fail. you just didn’t shift… and that’s okay.

we have to stop equating these two things because it makes the entire process feel way more serious than it actually is. you already have every tool within you. you already shift with every decision you make. so holding onto these past attempts as an identity of failure just turns something that should be fluid and natural into something that feels like a test.

but you shifting is not a barometer for how capable you are. you’re not losing points every time it doesn’t happen. so don’t apply extra meaning to simple things. just say what happened.

“i didn’t shift last night.” and then move on.

and if you can’t do that without applying an identity of failure around it, i’d rather you not address it at all. work towards freeing yourself from the judgement. practice your self concept. speak LIFE into yourself. it will free you from a lot of pressure.

when you remove the weight, you stop making it harder than it needs to be. and shifting has no reason to be this hard.

persistence post for when it “doesn’t work”

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THE ECLIPSE OVER NABOO AKA STAR WARS DR

. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁. 𝘢 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘰, 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘨𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘹𝘺, 𝘧𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 …

₍ 11/7938 ₎ — ₍ 04/7953 ₎

lived a girl named kaurinna [kor-in-ah], the crown princess of naboo, born into a galaxy of never ending war. though her planet was known to be a peaceful one—advocating for the end of the violence and unification of all—the republic’s endless conflicts crept into every corner of her palace. so while she learned early from her etiquette classes that charm and poise could shield her from many a thing, only strength could keep her alive.

before her birth, kaurinna’s family had publicly endorsed the current chancellor of her time. of course, he was a just a rising senator from their own world then. one they busied themselves defending, funding and trusting that his ascent would finally do away with the chaos of the galaxy. for years, it seemed wise. that is, until planets her family had long supported before him were left to starve beneath his advised military occupation. you see, naboo had always been loud in their advocacy but with the chancellor’s power growing, their resistance had become discreet. it wasn’t that they suspected him or planned to rebel—they only wanted to share bread. they thought their compassion in the face of chaos wouldn’t be seen by palpatine.

but unfortunately, that level of optimism costed them everything.

once the republic reshaped itself into something unrecognizable, accusations against them arrived swiftly and without warning. they were the first of many to be made an example of what this suffocating empire did to those who faced the emperor’s wrath. the crown family of one of the galaxy’s most beloved planets had been framed for treason. falsified paper trails of their conspiracy against the empire were found and suddenly, they were to be executed for their crimes. a trial was broadcast to trillions in the galaxy—if you had a tv, you saw it—but it served no justice. only spread the message to those who may oppose the new regime that if even this royal house could burn, then they were no different. and the galaxy watched as said royal house was reduced to just a cautionary tale.

but this was not the end of the naberrie line… on the eve of their execution, while the palace awaited their sentence, kaurinna was smuggled off-world, her identity severed from public record. by morning, her family would die in the name of order. by nightfall, the empire would have its message. but it would not have her. and that is what her family cared about.

₍ present day/7961 ₎

now 8 years later, coruscant is the city where the empire’s golden boy resides. anakin skywalker—the chosen one who ended a war that had devoured 25 years of childhoods, despite only having lived 17 of them himself. to the public, he is both brilliant & relentless. and his work with the emperor has results. crime is lower. all planets have been reintegrated into the empire and there’s finally a unified system. the younger generation will never know of the infighting experienced within the disorganized republic. it’s peace times, indeed.

but anakin shares his success with another, darker crux of his personality. one the public was never meant to know. vader—the emperor’s most powerful enforcer. the shadow, the myth, the sith lord that’s dispatched only against those with the greatest ability to resist.

jedi.

but anakin was not always so willing to become his darkest side. and kaurinna—now kauri—knew the whole of him once. to her, he was the overconfident prodigy with a whole lot to prove. the prodigy who’d been taken to her palace as a boy when palpatine required jedi escorts and always opted for the noble obi wan. the boy who, as they aged, wrote untraceable letters to her between campaigns admitting his one wish was to be by her side again. the one who confessed frustrations about the jedi code just looking for someone to understand him. she had seen the effects of war on anakin long before he was able to admit the effects himself.

in those years, she gave him a perspective he’d come to appreciate long after her family had gone to ground. it was one that reminded him who he was outside of the prophecy. outside the expectations of the jedi and even palpatine, who’d grown quite attached to the boy. and for a time, as he fell for kaurinna, anakin felt like he’d actually live up to something better.

but as many stories go, a disruptor had other plans.

at first, the attachment between the young lovers was encouraged behind closed doors by the wicked chancellor. two promising youths, close in age, bonded by the understanding of great burden and a tether within the force that grew stronger day by day… but as anakin’s power grew, so did the chancellor’s possessiveness. kaurinna did not destabilize him the way palpatine had hoped. she made him question more than just the jedi’s teachings but palpatine’s himself. kaurinna advocated for anakin’s truth and no one else’s. she’d become a link to the young apprentice’s salvation, not his deterioration. so the meetings became less frequent. the assignments more demanding. the war more consuming. palpatine engineered their distance so that when the time was right, anakin wouldn’t follow the future heir—he’d follow the king.

a year after the lovebirds’ final meeting was when everything for anakin changed. a conflict, seeded far from the senate’s attention, consumed tatooine and his mother in its violent fallout. he had endured war his entire life, but this was different. in his mind, it was preventable by strength the jedi refused to wield. her death was the first step to radicalizing him by confirming every fear he had ever carried. that power withheld is protection denied. and the people of the republic needed protection more than ever.

so while the jedi continued to pull away from the war, more and more, anakin pushed for conviction. for justice. for revenge. and revenge is what paved the way to anakin’s dark side.

the order’s caution gradually became framed as complicity where palpatine offered direct action. their patience became cowardice in the young knight’s eyes and suddenly, his hatred wasn’t aimed only at those responsible for shmi’s death but the jedi themselves. because of their weakness, anakin felt true sorrow. and he couldn’t just talk himself out of it. not this time. not when there was so much distance between him, the order, and his love.

anakin’s descent into darkness came on mustafar where obi wan, once mentor and brother, stood against him. when their tragic duel ended with anakin disarmed—literally severed from the arm he had trained with, the arm that symbolized his knighthood—his old master walked away believing he had spared him but anakin survived believing he had been left behind. humiliated that he was unsalvageable to a man he once valued most.

and his mind seemed to permanently split that day. the man the galaxy reveres was forged over years of war, but the rage within him—carefully nurtured by palpatine—crystallized in the moment he felt most alone, right there on mustafar.

anakin’s third tragedy was when he learned of the presumed demise of his love and her family. though, hope was not all lost as the connection he’d felt with her had never truly severed, even after all their years apart. to him, that meant there was a chance she was still alive. and that possibility alone kept anakin from completely surrendering to the dark.

still, the empire became impenetrable in that time. and anakin skywalker became one of its most precise instruments.

so when whispers of coordinated resistance began surfacing from coruscant itself, he pursued them with near obsession, convinced he’d find remnants of the jedi. and while he was technically right—chasing 2 jedi in a group of 5 force users (plus boba fett)—what he did not anticipate was that the force signature woven through those operations would feel familiar… warm… achingly kind?

and on the night he expected to finally corner the rebels, anakin set foot on the same ground as only one.

but only that one mattered.

it was her. she was alive.

for the first time in a long time, something made sense again.

but the moment she reached for her weapon and an amethyst colored beam ignited in her hand, anakin realized the predicament he was in. the girl he once loved stood before him, alive, but as the leader of the resistance he had been hunting.

and more troubling than even that—

the girl he once loved was wielding a lightsaber against him.

anakin stared at the blade, then back to her, as he found himself questioning aloud,

“𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵?”

dividers

itsisa03

ABSOLUTELY COOKED DOWN

jazuzzle

actually you can just decide right now, that you shifted before. you shifted 3 years ago. you shifted for the first time 1 week after finding out about shifting. you shifted 100s of times, you shifted 1000s of times, you lived 300 years total in other realities.

you shifted to every dr you scripted, you shifted every time you had a self insert daydream about your favourite shows, you shifted every time you fell asleep to a guided meditation. you shifted every time you counted to 100 before falling asleep, you shifted every time you fantasized about your s/o, you shifted every time you saved a pin on your shifting pinterest board, you actually woke up ecstatic instead of disappointed every day. you shifted every time you had an affirmation session. you shifted every time you read a 10000 word shifting post on tumblr. you shifted every time you realised you were in a dream and tried to affirm that you are in your dr. you shifted every time you saw a youtuber say shifting is fake and every time you read an anti shifters tiktok comment.

rewrite your shifting journey. you are not someone who has never shifted ever in their life. you are not someone who researched shifting and wrote scripts for over 2 years but never actually shifted. you can actually post shifting storytimes and dr introductions and answer asks, and write long posts about loa and shifting and you can post success stories because they are fully true.

breathe easy because you have already shifted. you actually already have everything you wished you had for the past 7 years. you actually dont have to spend your birthday wish on the same thing every year. you dont have to worry about shifting before a deadline because you already shifted. yes it is more than possible to change your past and revise your shifting "attempts". they were actually successful experiences.

jazuzzle

you keep thinking you haven't shifted until you see a different bedroom in front of you. you're letting that be the proof. you say: "i am shifting right now, i am in my dr right now." but every time you open your eyes and peep to see whether or not you shifted, you see the same bedroom as usual and think: "oh, guess i haven't shifted after all. im still in my cr."

why are you letting the 3d decide what shifting means? you're giving 3d the power to decide when you shift. and maybe that's why nothing's working. the 3d is not alive, has no consciousness, is not a powerful creator like you are. the 3d is fully stagnant. all that is changing and is alive is YOU. all that has the power of decision is YOU. you are surrendering your power and giving it to an inanimate object, so don't act surprised when the object doesn't get up and change your life for you. nothing will happen because it's not alive. you are.

so in conclusion, YOU decide whether or not you shifted. you have the power to decide that, the 3d doesn't. if you project your ability to change your life, onto the way your bedroom looks, well nothing is changing because your bedroom doesnt make decisions at all. you can say right now, "i am in my dr" and you would be fully correct.

orasdiarie

hi, i keep doubting and focusing on the how because i kept getting rejected from the jobs i have always wanted and i am unemployed and there's no source where i can actually get money from, people around me are broke too, no matter how much i keep looping my affirmations, i just can't seem to accept it as real, even if i don't believe them but the affirmations do not sit right with me even after affirming constantly. please give me some advice on this :((

For the ones who still Don't Get It (LOA)

Example 1:

(Person who still doesn't understand loa)

"I want to be rich. I will manifest it."

-> affirms for 2 hours in their favor: "I'm so rich. I'm so happy money isn't a problem for me. My bank account is so full of money, and I love this high paying job of mine. it is done because I said so and manifestation isn't a progress. I'm so happy." <- their 4D is set on this assumption & identity now. They are rich with a job. The 3D finally has a blueprint of what to copy. The mirror has an identity to match.

-> the remaining 22 hours of their day: Checks the mirror as if mirror isn't going to mirror their identity as someone who is checking rather than being. Complains from the identity as someone who doesn't have their desire (which is persisting) and giving the 3D a different blueprint to copy. Forget The 2-hour saturation session they did. It's erased by now.

circumstance happens: immediate submission to it.

"Why am I so broke? Why are these jobs rejecting me? Gosh, broke people are all around me, it's almost like I keep aligning with this identity and reality? I just can't believe in this." So, the only possible option left is to just dig the hole deeper, apparently. Undid every affirmation and went right back to the old story. The 3D will mirror that 100% perfectly.

(Ape sees mirror. Ape thinks reflection is separate from self. Ape tries to fight mirror and is being aggressive. Ape gets aggressive because it thinks mirror is attacking it unprovoked. Unaware that it is all Ape.)

Example 2:

(Person who understands LOA)

"I want to be rich. I will manifest it."

-> the remaining 22 hours of their day: The 3D isn't treated as authority because they know the mirror ain't nothing but a reflection of them. They know that if they choose an identity in the 4D with loyalty, the 3D will push out that reality. They know circumstances don't matter because they are based on assumptions, and they are actively changing assumptions to create new ones. Everything they say & think repetitively aligns with the fact that they are rich and with a job. The 2-hour saturation session they did was simply to saturate the subconscious to build the new assumption into feeling natural. Everything else aligns with the assumption, they know it is done instantly in the 4D. Forget the 3D, it only copies.

Job rejection: "I'm so happy I have my job. I love getting paid." if they accidentally think from the old identity, they catch it. "I'm happy with my job and money. I don't know who that was about, but it can't be me, I'm employed and paid. Try someone else."

Sees $0 in their account: "Look at how much money I have. I will forever be grateful. I love being blessed like this."

not believing/doubts: "uh... no one needs to believe i'm rich for me to be rich. sucks to suck, doesn't not make me rich. still employed. still paid. you must got the wrong one."

A job declined? Who decided that? Who assumed/affirmed that? They're broke? That's an assumption they won't ever allow in their 4D, cause they know how the game works. Nope, got the wrong person. Nope, they explicitly said they were rich and employed, sorry, wrong person.

Keep in mind, they believe none of their words. Assumptions lack belief. You can assume things of people & make accusations with no proof. It's law of assumption, not law of fact/evidence.

(Ape sees mirror. Ape suspects reflection is from self. Ape moves its arm to witness the accuracy of this mirror and begins to understand how a mirror works. No threat, no stress, no outside worry. That is ape in reflection & ape's active actions. Ape trusts self because reflection is Ape's. Nothing will scare Ape in mirror, if Ape does not scare self. Aware that it is all Ape.)

You are example 1, and that can change so long as you're not addicted to complaining and persisting in your old story rather than you're new one.

That's what It means to understand being GOD & standing on business. Not eating your own words like a bitch at the face of a literal mirror that is only. copying. you.

the more you repeat these assumptions, in the form of complaining, find the same in the 3D and are shocked, have u truly understood the concept yet or is the 3D still God over you and your words?