TRIGGER WARNING

Whats up, if you're on this blog you're here to read my life journey BLOCK DONT REPORT ive only made this blog to share my trauma with friends

[itsjusttrose]

Im going to start by saying if anyone on the internet has found this blog randomly without me sharing it BLOCK ME DO NOT REPORT.

This is my new online diary to share with my real life friends what I've been through in the past and hopefully make people feel a bit less alone 💙

So hey what's up, I'm Ro. I'm a 24 yr old from Sydney, Australia and this is me. For now I'm just going to go over what I'm diagnosed with and eventually I'll tell y'all my life story.

At 13 I was first diagnosed with Depression, BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified).

Now over a decade later my diagnosis has lengthened. I now have PDD (Persistent Depressive Dissorder), BPD, C/PTSD (both, from 2 different circumstances), EDNOS, severe ADHD, Agoraphobia, Acute Social Anxiety, OCD tendencies and Fibromyalgia (along with a few other physical disorders). I'm also in recovery for self harm and a few different drugs- the main ones are c0ke and p1lls

[funeral]

Emil Cioran, The Trouble With Being Born

[porcelaindust]

[frogsuggest]

Our Lady of the Damp and Rain

[chloe-blog-blog-blog]

[undercoverlesbian]

list of things that are beautiful & pure:

1.) girls

2.) frogs

[funnytwittertweets]

[gothalbinorat]

this user has an ED but supports and encourages recovery

[itsjusttrose]

My ED says take the stairs but my fibromyalgia says take the lift

[johnwillbegone]

Don't romanticise eating disorders.

It's not just skinny little girls in tennis skirts and tiny waists. Its:

- guys

- those who are over and average weight

- fragile bones

- pale skin

- hair shedding

- lanugo

- bags under the eyes

- bruises

- self harm urges

- throwing up, even if you don't want to

- constipation

- a loss of trust

- headaches and sore throats

- a ruptured esophagus

- rotten teeth

- shrinking and splitting stomachs

- lying

- crying till you can't

- always being cold

- always feeling feverish

- fainting

- binging uncontrollably

- losing mates

- falling out with family

- having no hope for the future

- not being able to focus

- being too tired to sleep

- having vitamin deficiencies

- feeling fatter when you're thinner

- wanting to die

And part of it never goes away.

If you can, get help. Recover. Please, please recover, I'm rooting for you even if I can't root for myself.

[iamquietlydrowning]

[therelatableimages]

[baylea77]

every single person on tumblr should reblog this.

All the words I wish I would have said ….

This^^^^

[tickatocka]

i aspire to be one of those people who are known for always smelling good and treating people kindly

[infpisme]

What I've Learned About Trauma:

It isn't as easy

as being 'something that happened to you'

a package you opened once.

You will wake up in a new zip code,

have to wander your way home,

carry a few of the things you love

to this new place

you live in now.

& so you buy throw pillows.

You put up twinkle lights

and have a big celebration,

point at the open windows

and tell everyone who has ever seen you crying,

“look,

look how I have not caged myself,

look what I have made

out of two paint buckets

and the blessing of my still-here body,”

but, of course, trauma leans into the bar cart.

Spills a drink on the new rug.

Breaks off the door handle on his way out.

Trauma sends you letters,

without warning,

for the rest of your life,

usually disguised as something else—

a medical bill, maybe,

or a box of photo albums

packaged up by your father,

just so you remember,

trauma knows exactly where you live-

who did you think build the house?

- Brenna Twohy