I only want to say

Things I want to say (18+). Some ramblings and some "poetry", some new and some old. Just here to get my thoughts out into the world.

[sloppjockey]

golem. gouache watercolor painting on paper, 2021

[not-psychotic]

[serotinals]

Under These Hundred Degree Conditions

[factorypomelo]

yeah sure why not

[itsnotquitepoetry]

Today I saw one of the most incredible pieces of art

I thought of noise music

I thought of industrial metal

I thought of my own compositions

I thought of history and future and sound and silence

And I didn't think of you

But then of course

Afterwards

I had to have thought of you

To know that I didn't think of you

There is no growth

In monitoring your growth

Because there is still a "you"

In "the absence of you"

[itsnotquitepoetry]

I slammed three fingers in a cabinet door

My immediate feeling

Was relief

It's not that I'm a masochist

I wasn't aroused by the pain

I didn't even particularly enjoy it

Or like it

It just felt

Right

Correct

Deserved

And for a moment

That throbbing pain

Replaced the constant barrage

Of

"What makes me so unlovable?"

[thirstycrab]

Pomegranate

[ganondorf]

abstract and modern art haters are sooo snobby like klein literally Created an entirely new pigment and then painted a canvas in a way where the brush strokes wouldn't be visible. the insinuation that people with no skill could reproduce that is so annoying because unless you are skilled at color mixing and painting you definitely couldn’t lmao

[jaimeroyalrobertson-deactivated]

i hope it's okay to add this because i think it hits the nail directly on the head

[dsudis]

Honestly, it's like picking up a book and saying "I know all these words, I can type, I could have written this" like there's no middle step between the technical ability and the finished work.

[moarf13]

[reminded]

can’t criticize plastic surgery as an institution because it’s none of your business if a woman wants to “fix” her insecurities. can’t criticize the makeup industry or beauty standards because some women feel good when they shave and wear makeup. can’t bring up the challenges women face in the workplace because some women want to be stay at home wives instead of working. everything a woman does is automatically feminist and we shouldn’t stop to think about the context surrounding her actions because that would be misogynistic. here’s what i had for girl dinner. according to my girl math the barbie movie was a revolutionary piece of feminist media. i may not show it but i feel the life slowly draining from me day by day.

[shdjoh-deactivated20240427]

derealized

watercolor on paper

[lizardsfromspace]

Wordle is running out of words. Only 2,000 five letter words remain. When that supply is exhausted the Creation shall begin. One day the word will be ZHURM, and all shall get it, and all shall understand it to mean "an ache from suddenly remembering a long-ago friend, who meant something to you once, but whose face you can no longer conjure". The next day the word shall be JOROL, and all will get it, and all will know it means "the melancholy confusion of passing by somewhere where you once could have died". The next day it will be GREFT, and all will understand it to be a small brown bird with white streaks found only in South America, and suddenly, it will appear, in the underbrush of the Amazon, in the streets of São Paulo, and all will know that it once was not there, but now, will always be

[txttletale]

Is it more Marxist to be a sadist or a masochist?

FROM EACH ACCORDING TO ABILITY

TO EACH ACCORDING TO HIS NEED

[papayajuan2019]

hope all my organs see sunlight one day. they earned it.

[ivynightshade]

[text id: i am too little, and too much, and never enough.]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am tired of making a religion out of my suffering’.

[bobdylansgayguitar]

did this last night

[dragonflea]

Op I love you for this

[roadmotel]

matthias stom, “the incredulity of st. thomas” (1649) // caravaggio, “the incredulity of saint thomas” (1603) // jenny holzer, “someone wants to cut a hole in you” (1981)