MOTHER

there’s nothing there

[itssootiv]

when you miss me, play Ethel Cain.

[itssootiv]

you have tasted love, and i can’t express this enough.. it tasted sweet

then, you wouldn’t even begin to believe it.. you drank the blood and bit the fucking meat

[itssootiv]

when i grow up i want to be just like the beat drop in Dust Bowl.

[itssootiv]

“will i always be crying during sex with you?” and it’s me talking about my fight or flight but i’m actually a deer in head lights about to get hit by a 16 wheeler

[tankhall]

made this public again, forgot it was even still private lol

[itssootiv]

god sent

[itssootiv]

i’ll go to the gun range and listen to Ptolemaea so i can imagine the target is Isaiah

[itssootiv]

last night i disassociated and cried and listened to Tempest for 40 minutes straight and i think that was time well spent

[tankhall]

2027 ; i will pay you to keep your hand over my mouth

[itssootiv]

[motherrcain]

[itssootiv]

“ When the preacher talks, that man demands his silence

and daddy said, “shoot first, then run and don’t look back”

so take me down to the river

and bathe me clean “

[itssootiv]

“ you’d be a writer

if he didn’t leave all his hell for you

saying if you could,

you’d leave it all “

[itssootiv]

going to be moving to Texas. you know what that means. Waco is not safe from my presence

[itssootiv]

“ that picture

on the wall

you’re scared of

looks just like you “

[itssootiv]

“ to be known the way

you should

is to put yourself

through hell “

[itssootiv]

who knows how much longer i’ll lay on the floor?touch me till i vomit.