dear reader,

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

080224˚ ༘ ⋆

day 14/100

i remember it’s still the start of july, and i’ve already been hoping for july to never end—well, it did. i’ve been crestfallen that august is a back-to-reality month for me, and i don’t want it yet.

i wrote down some vocabulary words to remember since they’ll be part of the language proficiency test i’ll be taking. i also planned for august and all the realities i’ll be going through. i just want to get through it !!!

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𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖

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[iyrndwrcte-0177]

Hey. I just wanted to ask what app are you using for the screen time and the organisation that I usually see in your posts? Thank you.

hi! i use the app ypt - yeolpumta! it’s a really great app to track studying time. it has a planner where you can add your to-do list, insights where you can see the time you spent by day, week, or month in different pie charts or views, and theme settings where you can change the color or theme of the app. i hope it adds a bit of fun to your studying as it did for me ✩˚｡⋆

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

Firstly, when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (no pressure though! positivity is cool)💛

questions like these about myself are often difficult to answer—one should know oneself best, but i sometimes find myself uncertain. i feel like i’m still in the process of understanding myself and learning how to receive love. i know someday, i’ll truly love myself endlessly; i might even surpass this list and reach a point beyond the character limits of tumblr in trying to describe all the things that make up my beautiful existence.

*๑♡՞ 5 things i like about myself:

1. i like that i’m a deep person. i choose to see things on a deeper level and find meaning in even the most ordinary things.

2. i like that i remember. as i find meaning in things, i remember the things most people would ignore and forget. i remember conversations, intricate details, and small moments. i write to remember.

3. i like that i love math. i love numbers and appreciate the process of solving complex problems using formulas.

4. i like that i’m humble. i don’t boast and prefer to remain low-key, allowing my actions to speak for themselves without seeking attention.

5. i like that i desire growth. i have many fears, but i strive to face them, get out of my shell, and grow. i want to improve and evolve to become my highest self.

thank you for this askkk !! it reminded me that there are actually things about myself that i like and that i am likable, lovable, worthy of love—we all are ❤️‍🩹

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

072924-080124˚ ༘ ⋆

days 10-13/100 (more like trying than productivity 😅)

i wasn't able to post for days again, (≖_≖) and just like that, it’s already august.

i spent the past days attempting to show up for myself—to do the grinding that i said i was going to do. i wasn't able to accomplish all the to-do lists i set each day, and each day was filled with just a series of attempts.

the final days of july were simply me trying. now, there are only days left before one of the entrance exams i’ll be taking and days left before the school year starts. i really hope to take action on the changes i seek, for nothing changes if nothing changes. i will exceed mere attempts and truly accomplish. it’s august, and i hope for change. there will be change.

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

072724-072824 ˚ ༘ ⋆

days 8 & 9/100

i spent the weekend studying, dedicating longer hours than i have in previous days. even so, i still haven’t managed to study as much as i spent on my last week, but issokkk abwbdbdn :p

i’m slowly learning to let go. saturday night, i FINALLY sorted through all the papers i’ve kept from past school years and get rid of those i don’t need anymore or don’t spark joy. it’s difficult for me to get rid of things i feel like i’ve become a hoarder because i feel each one seems to hold a memory. idk if i’m weird hahahahdh, in fact i still kept some of the papers aaaa but at least i managed to get rid a lot because i don’t have anymore storage to keep everything. slowly, i hope to curate an inspiring space for myself with only things that serve me and bring me joy.

i’m filled with awe when i understand new things. perhaps, i’m a person so deep, made to seek and understand. yesterday, sunday, i focused on studying biology and reviewed mitosis and meiosis, and although it may seem simple to some, i feel satisfied that i’m now able to grasp how these processes work and it made me want to understand more things in depth hahhshs˳·˖

that’s it for days 8 and 9 of this 100 days of productivity challenge. i hope to keep updating everyday, though i fear i might skip some days. still, i’m determined to keep going ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ

today, july 29th, i just got home and am starting my day at 7:00 pm. well, it’s never too late to start (ᗒᗜᗕ)

to-do list:

study more biology topics

reward myself by watching an episode of the kdrama i’m currently watching (taxi driver)

review the math solutions from the test i answered

edit: i didn’t accomplish any of these :c wbhwhdb

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

072224-072624 ˚ ༘ ⋆

days 3-7/100

i haven’t been able to update and post in the past few days, nor have i been able to study (っ- ‸ - ς) but i figured that i will still include these days in the 100 days of productivity challenge, as i believe that doing good things for myself, aside from studying, is also productive ♡

⛆ it has been raining for the past few days, and while rainy days usually encourage me to stay indoors, i spent some time outside with my family and took this picture.

i find joy in the rain. i enjoy long car rides. i love musing. and i truly savored this opportunity to muse during our car rides while it rains (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ )

౨ৎ i also took some time to reflect on the past week—celebrating my wins and identifying areas for improvement. i hope to focus more on studying in the upcoming days, as entrance exams are fast approaching, and a new school year will soon begin for me !!

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

072124˚ ༘ ⋆

day 2/100 7h49m

today, i focused on studying earth science and surpassed the 5 hours and 59 minutes of screen time i had last week, and i enjoyed it (⟡ᗜ⟡) !! i find that i truly enjoy studying when i see it as a journey of discovery and understanding. i crave knowledge—i want to learn, to know what was once unknown to me, and to explore the depths beyond mere appearances. this is one of the reasons i hold on to, so i keep going during moments of low motivation ~✩‧₊

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

072024 ˚ ༘ ⋆

day 1/100 6h45m

i set a goal to study for as many hours as my screen time from the previous week, with the intention of transforming my habits and making better use of my time. last saturday, my screen time was 8 hours and 14 minutes. although i only managed to study for 6 hours and 45 minutes, it’s still an improvement compared to how i spent my time last week 𓂃⋆˙⟡

i also took a pre-test and realized there’s still a lot i need to review and learn, and it feels like there’s so little time to cover everything. this makes me regret not starting earlier, yet i find solace in the fact that i’ve finally embarked on this journey; starting now is definitely better than not starting at all, and as a person who tends to regret a lot, i suppose i must remind myself of this frequently (,,>﹏<,,)

[iyrndwrcte-0177]

⏳ 26 days left. (???!!!)

(GAGO LESS THAN ONE MONTH NALANG PALA MERON AKO TO STUDY FOR UPCAT PERO WALA PA RIN AKONG NASISIMULAN) (pls pls tell me may chance pa rin :c)

pwede ba? ‘wag muna? teka lang, ayoko pa.

this song has been out for years, and yet, it still reflects exactly how i feel currently. if i could encapsulate my perpetual habits and feelings into lyrics, this would be it. i often procrastinate and postpone tasks. my to-do lists usually stay as lists, never ticked off. starting is really the hardest part for me—it's daunting and frightening.

now, i’m realizing that time keeps moving forward, and it won’t stop just because i want it to. now, i’m left regretting over the time wasted.

but do i want to waste more time regretting over the time wasted?

i can't keep postponing; nothing gets accomplished that way. i’ve been idle for far too long, and i refuse to continue this way and burden myself with more regrets.

dear self, magsisimula na talaga ko. paninindigan ko na talaga ‘to. i will show up for myself. i will do the things i said i’m going to do. i promise.