jake bryant

"guilt upon the conscience, like rust upon iron, both defiles and consumes it, gnawing and creeping into it, as that does which at last eats out the very heart and substance of the metal."

[keelymullen-blog]

[reaches for his hand] Thank you. And if it’s any consolation, I don’t think you’re a lost cause.

Maybe not a poster child, but not a lost cause.

[j-bryant-blog]

Well, thanks. I try.

[keelymullen-blog]

Yeah, I know Drew… Do you really think he’d help me?

[j-bryant-blog]

I don't see why not.

He helps me, and I'm pretty much a lost cause.

[keelymullen-blog]

…You’re right. I’m sorry for snapping, I’m just…freaking out a little.

Anyone I might know?

[j-bryant-blog]

Don't worry about it, I'd freak out too if I were in your position. Probably, Drew talks to anyone and everyone, but he's one of the best.

[keelymullen-blog]

I’m scared, Jake! I’m terrified of making a wrong move because I made a bad judgment call during my choosing ceremony! I don’t want to let someone control my life, but I don’t think I’m capable of passing myself off as a real Abnegation by myself!

I need help.

[j-bryant-blog]

I get it. All I'm saying is don't be so quick to give up, 'cause once you do you're going to have to live with whatever they push on you. And waking up to regret every day is even harder than it sounds.

Unfortunately, I'm not exactly the poster child for Abnegation. I do, however, have excellent reinforcements...

[keelymullen-blog]

I don’t know if I can..

[j-bryant-blog]

I didn't peg you as the type to let someone control their life because they thought they weren't capable of doing it themselves. Maybe I was wrong.

[keelymullen-blog]

[places her hand on his cheek] I need to fit in as much as possible. If there was any way for me to do that without having to get…married.. I’d do it in a heartbeat. But denying their request would only make them suspicious.

[j-bryant-blog]

Well, maybe you just need to prove to them you can be a model citizen on your own.

[keelymullen-blog]

I think they want to set me up with an Abnegation born, since I’m not exactly a model citizen..

I hate this.

[j-bryant-blog]

If you're not a model citizen, I'm surprised they even let me stick around this long.

Don't worry, Keels. We'll figure something out.

[keelymullen-blog]

I gave up control of my future when my blood hit the stones.

I’m stuck.

[j-bryant-blog]

I just don't get it. Usually it's only Abnegation-borns that have to do that kind of thing, since their parents set it up.. why you?

I think it's pretty damn selfish for them to dictate everyone's damn life.

[keelymullen-blog]

Jake, it isn’t—

The elders are talking about pairing me off soon.

[j-bryant-blog]

Pairing you off? Why can't you just say no? 

Unless that's what you want, but somehow I don't think that's the case

[keelymullen-blog]

This…might be a one time thing, though..

[j-bryant-blog]

Guess the feeling isn't so mutual.

Just.. forget it even happened.

[keelymullen-blog]

I mean, it is for an Abnegation, but…I’m in the same boat as you.

[j-bryant-blog]

Glad the feeling's mutual.

[keelymullen-blog]

We just…probably shouldn’t do this in public. Stiff code, y’know?

[j-bryant-blog]

Crap, right. Okay.

Is it bad that I almost don't care?

[keelymullen-blog]

Relax. Don’t overthink it, okay? I’ve actually been wanting to do that for a while.

[j-bryant-blog]

Shutting up now.

[keelymullen-blog]

[smiles] It’s okay, Jake. Really.

[j-bryant-blog]

R-Really? [scratches the back of his head]  I mean, I don't want to make things weird so we can pretend this never happened if you want... Or we can pretend it did. Except it actually did so we wouldn't be pretending. I'm making it weird, aren't I?

[keelymullen-blog]

[j-bryant-blog]

[pulls away] I... I'm sorry, Keels. I.. I'm stupid.

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