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Can i just kill my self?

May tawag or word ba sa you want to end your life but you’re scared but you still want to do it anyway?

I dont deserve this. I dont deserve to be sick. Dapat i’m enjoying my life, not suffering.

Today I woke up feeling weird. I’ve been like this since the start of 2019. I don’t know why. I wake up late recently. Hindi naman ako tinatamad mag trabaho pero parang ang hirap lang bumangon at pumasok sa work. My antidepressant is not working. Feeling ko lang yun. I’m not sure. Pero iniinom ko pa rin siya. Let’s get this straight. Been thinking of ending it again. For 3 weeks, iniisip ko siya. I don’t know why. Am I going back to my old habit/s? IDK.

Bakit feeling ko hindi ako masaya? Palagi akong pagod pero magaan naman load ko sa work. Palagi ba akong pagod kasi nag-pe-pretend lang akong masaya?

I love my fiancée so much. Like I super love her and I would risk and do anything for her.

I just feel sad and alone right now.

I don’t want to be the burden of everything. Ayoko maging pabigat sa kaniya. Kaya tinatago ko na lang. Right now, parang malungkot ako kasi malayo ako sa kaniya ngayon pero pag kasama ko na siya, to be honest, I just pretend to be okay. Or kahit sinong kaibigan na nasa harap ko now. I just pretend to be okay.

I don’t want to go back to my therapist and my doctor kasi ang mahal. Nag titipid ako for my wedding. For OUR wedding. Ngayon lang talaga ayaw ko maging pabigat sayo.

I love you so much and I’m so sorry. I hope you understand me.

My hands are numb but i need to work.

This fake happy face, hindi siya nakakatulong pala.

January 21, 2019

I’m not worthy of this life. My meds are not working.

Help.

timhortons

… it’s 2018 and I’m still on tumblr

‪Im just tired. Im tired of myself. Im tired of people. Im tired of trying. Im tired of proving something. Im tired of all the pressure people give me. Im just so tired of everything. I just want to rest.‬

Fucking deadlines. Fuck advertising!

Help

I just want some time for my self. That's all I need right now.

I'm so tired of everything. Work. Money. All. I have no time for myself. I just want one weekend that I'll be staying at home and do nothing. Or play video games. And sleep. I feel so down lately. Everything is negative. I'm not like this before. I dont know why. Kasi napupuno na ba ako? Pagod lang ba talaga ako? I dunno. I talked to my mom about my current situation. Nope. No help received. Or like, a good advice from her. I ended up telling her "i'll fix my problems myself. I'll handle this." Which i fucking cant do. Oh well. The saddest part is, i think my girlfriend is getting tired hearing my shit lately. Hay. Wala na ba akong makausap dito? Hi. Some serious shit happening in my life lately. Hello. I'm tired. I just want to rest forever.

starwars

“Carrie holds such a special place in the hearts of everyone at Lucasfilm it is difficult to think of a world without her. She was Princess Leia to the world but a very special friend to all of us. She had an indomitable spirit, incredible wit, and a loving heart. Carrie also defined the female hero of our age over a generation ago. Her groundbreaking role as Princess Leia served as an inspiration of power and confidence for young girls everywhere. We will miss her dearly.” -Kathleen Kennedy http://www.starwars.com/news/carrie-fisher-our-princess-passes-away

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refinery29

Rest In Peace, Carrie Fisher. Iconic Star Wars actress Carrie Fisher died this morning. She was 60

Billie Lourd, Fisher’s daughter, confirmed the death today in an official statement. Issued by family representative Simon Halls, the statement to People reads: “It is with a very deep sadness that Billie Lourd confirms that her beloved mother Carrie Fisher passed away at 8:55 this morning.” Her legacy is incontestable – and probably a lot more than you knew.

Rest in peace, my princess.

#princess leia #star wars #carrie fisher

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