playlists playlists playlists!!
hello all, how i've missed you. i hope all has been well!
as always, i have playlists for you :-) they're not super fandom-specific this time around, but for the feelers. the ultimate shout into the void. i see you.
"you lean in to hear, him patting your head:" https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1FebN7ZrHKWomISAMynSCa?si=8d72e8dfb570435b
this one is a playlist i made when i thought i was "just friends" with someone. you know that intoxicating feeling when you're alone in the cold air with someone you think could be your soulmate, but you're not sure how you feel?
"shining just for you": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6W2o3aU8qPvAuQDCnEpmHf?si=aca1e29a8f524a1f
this one is themed! (ish). i made this playlist based on "Z" by Therese Anne Fowler (A MUST READ), so it's a lot of songs that remind me of the 1920s. I also mashed this with a 1920s-esque story i wrote last spring.
"if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow (AND IT'S ALRIGHT NOW)": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1yzylopHYYOsKCIbAlk2CG?si=3ee9a0fbfa154fd8
this is the vibe that you feel when you are just after something devastating, and you're starting to remember the sun when you wake up. it's all okay, it always has been.
"you seem much more yourself around him": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6IxWA3lMo93eDOI2DDUlNF?si=ab831d4191314f09
i couldn't go a season without a HEARTSTOPPER playlist!!! this one is from season 2, and i apologize that it is not as long as my first one.
"and damn, i'm doing it well": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6IJbaWD3cnr260XMVy47bD?si=eed2728162d94428
i may have appeared to make a playlist for every stage of grief, this one being a little bit of anger. when someone leaves you, once the sadness and self-consciousness fade, this is what's deep down--for a while. the bone-shaking, red-colored blind rage where you need to scream at the wall in the shower until you feel like you know you're better off.
"i didn't get it, but now i do": https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0UXIVy5uLcM9ebwto2f4B0?si=8f09a257ef0d44dc
this one is a bit more personal-- when you find out that one person you wanted (the aforementioned potential soulmate, who everyone under the stars tells you is interested but you just can't believe it) tells his best friend something (with the intention of you never finding out). he tells your friend, who then (of course) tells you, and it's all you've wanted to hear. it's yearning. feel me?
it's the feeling of going into his room for the first time and feeling the impact of all of the memories made there that you'll never feel. the people that have been there. the intimacy shared.
the feeling of passing by his building and getting a rush in your stomach in the spring sun. getting a text and smiling and not knowing why. getting a mention of this person and feeling giddy. meeting them and getting excited. how it feels like alone time with them. but you're only friends, of course.
there are also a few seasonal ones, which you can check out on my page :-) https://open.spotify.com/user/25dub4t598ocamsh393rmmwop?si=a7f189979f144197
i hope you are all feeling so so deeply. it's good.
