-Jalanpagi

Amor Fati.

[jalanpagi]

Love is never painful.

Expectations are.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

The Art of Yearning

The image of your eyes stays in my mind for so long, reminds me of the breeze in the balmy afternoon whenever I look into them.

Your gaze offers me a cozy home, the space I have been longing for too long; safe enough to show you my agony, comfy enough to tell you my life story.

Your eyes whispered that on your side is the only place I should ever be.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

I am searching for the promised happiness, grasping into the shadow of hope, just to find out that the glimpse of heaven I was searching for is within myself.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

Is it peace,

Boredom,

Or loneliness?

It has no label.

It's all about your state of mind.

You decide.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

I keep you like the small pocket of my jeans.

Barely noticed, never really being stuffed with anything.

But I bring you along, everywhere with me.

From my casual city strolling on Saturday morning,

To my latest adventure across the continent.

I let you there, untouched, almost unrecognizable,

a tiny part that makes my jeans a whole.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

Oh how magnificent it is to be certain in life,

To be sure,

To know the answers,

Without drifting away in the ocean of uncertainty, constantly tossed by the wind of infirmity.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

"Maybe in another life", I love that phrase

It whispers;

"I love you that deep, I would never want you to sacrifice anything"

"I love me that much, I won't turn myself into someone that I am not"

So, maybe there's a life somewhere, my love

Where we finally find each other

And this time, we stay.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

"It will pass."

It won't.

I won't let it.

You're a fragment of my life. You are a part of me.

Always, and forever will be.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

It's not that I can't forget my past, let alone forgive them.

It's more because the chaos was so familiar, I will never let it find me again.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

I think we are always becoming, until the very end.

We change, quietly, relentlessly, into strangers of our own past.

Maybe that is why, you miss the old you,

And I long for someone who's no longer within you.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

In this beautiful, once in a lifetime chance,

I don't want to live the safe choices.

I am going to live the life that is meant for my soul.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

Is there anything more chaotic than the riot inside the firstborn daughter's mind?

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

I couldn't help but keep searching for your love and existence everywhere I go,

In the cold thin air when I went to work this morning,

In the heavy clouds, in the wild flowers along the pathway.

I couldn't help but keep finding your beautiful soul everywhere I go,

In a baby's unguarded smile, in a strangers kind words towards me when I was about to give up.

I couldn't help but keep loving you, the you beyond the mortal flesh.

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

We never meant to hold each other's hands forever,

It was a pleasure to encounter your beautiful soul, my love

Have a nice and beautiful journey ahead

Remember me once in a while, will you?

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

Everyone's talking about how the child version of us would be so proud seeing what we're doing right now.

But could I have a word with her? I really want to look the little me in the eyes, and asking her a permission:

"We've done great, we were doing our best. And after all this, could we just go home and live our simple life? In the end of the day, it's the life we deserve; the life we always long for."

-Jalanpagi

[jalanpagi]

JIWA YANG JELITA

The beautiful souls scattered across the earth

Possessing various kinds of beings, every now and then

Shapeshifting as laughter and anger, they meant to be encountered

Not to be kept nor to be owned,

as the beauty of experiencing the very life is to love, let go, and live on.

- Jalanpagi

[quotefeeling]

“Don’t start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday. Every day is a fresh start.”

— Unknown