💫 * / . . . XFALLENXSAVIOR : vader anakin skywalker .
The corner of Vader’s lips curled into a malign sneer, at Obi Wan’s words. The Sith skidded his feet closer to the Jedi. His golden hues held a piercing glance on the other male, with malice and spite present in his eyes. “ Why shouldn’t I kill you!” The question departed from his mouth in load roar of fury and hate. Lifting up his lightsaber slightly, Vader once again spun his weapon in small circles with his wrist, as it ignited red, before he pointed it once again at Obi Wan’s throat.“ All I ever wanted from you was to be my side and support me but instead you chose the Jedi over me countless times.” He compressed his teeth tightly in anger . “The only time you were beside me was when you watched my limbs burn and did nothing!” The thought cut at him like an open wound. A line of tears wielded themselves from under Vader’s eyelids.
Hurt and betrayal were now consuming the Sith, with agonizing memories gliding through his thoughts. “You were no friend, or even father to me like I imprudently believed all these years, just another enemy, hidden under the pretense of being a Jedi and my master.” [ Kill him. Kill him. Do it] The chancellor’s words still berating at Vader in his mind. “You have no right to talk about what I have taken from you. You took all that I had left “ His voice split in an uneven crack. Obi Wan had always been jealous of his power and the only way the Jedi could defeat Vader was to take Padme from him. With those thoughts circling through his mind , the growing anger intensified .Vader’s arm begun to shake before he lowered his weapon. He kept his eyes on Obi Wan for an extended moment . “ I hate you” He snarled at the other. “ If you become a risk to my empire, I will kill you and that is a promise, master “ Vader turned his back to Obi Wan and began walking back into the streets of chaos.
With the curse now lifted, DC had begun to return to normal as best as it could anyways. The thoughts of everything that Anakin had done, hit at him vehemently. He finally remembered the memories that DC had taken from him. Anakin almost wished to still be naive to everything maybe then it would not hurt as much. It had always been his duty to protect others, but Anakin turned against that, not once but twice. A soft exhale of air departed from the brim of his mouth in sullen despair. Anakin sat silently on a bench. His blue hues glanced into the distance ahead of him, with guilt consuming his thoughts. So many lives were taken at the hands of him,and that brought no more than pain to his soul.
His neck fell down with teardrops yielding themselves from his eyelids to streaming down his cheeks in a line. Anakin could feel the insides of his body crumbling into pieces and all he wanted to do was make it go away, but he could not. The fear of what happened to Padme in the past weak scared him more. Everything was a blur but he can vividly remember his altercations with Padme and Obi Wan and regardless of wanting to end both of them, Vader was too strong. After a long hour os solitary, Anakin sensed a presence from behind, one he knew almost as much as his wife. He lifted his eyes up languidly and glanced at Obi Wan for a moment broke turning away. “Can you please just go” The words were broken. Anakin dropped his neck back down.
how wrong anakin skywalker was . he spoke to ben as if he knew every inch of his loyalty & it only broke the man’s heart at how clearly little faith anakin had in him . YOU CHOSE THE JEDI OVER ME COUNTLESS TIMES . it was his family , all he had ever known & was raised to be . a jedi was what he was to his core , being one was everything to him . he respected their laws & way of life because of his firm belief in it . & yet he would have walked away from it if only anakin had asked . not like this , no , not to the dark ------ but if his apprentice , former or otherwise , had made the decision to seek a life beyond the jedi , kenobi would have followed .
to live with one’s grief is a far greater punishment than death . ben recognized it . vader pulling away from the kill wasn’t anything near to mercy . he closes his eyes once he’s alone . the heat around him somewhat fades . when his eyes open again , the land is still green around him & ash doesn’t poison the air . a shaking gasp falls from his lips . even with how real it felt , he wishes to tell himself it was a dream brought on by his heartbreak . a vision , nothing more .
he finds himself wrong . poison fades , his distress calms within him again & coils to a sleep . he shouldn’t be plagued with hallucination , sight or feeling . if he dips into the aura the force brings , however , he feels something too familiar too ignore . familiar , but strangely not unpleasant . not hateful , like the last he felt the presence . more broken . damaged . like himself .
despite better judgement , he lets himself be drawn to the feeling . the force , a trusted reasoning over anything , assures safety . he stands behind the boy , some odd feet , & though he is asked to leave he keeps still . he can feel his heart breaking , this time for entirely different reasons . not for himself , but for the boy he very nearly raised . for the boy he even loved . a part of him is fearful , but instincts are stronger . ❝ anakin . . . ❞ it feels foreign to say that name again , especially to a man he figured dead . ❝ we may need to speak . ❞
