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obi-wan kenobi. thirty-five. jedi master. general for the grand army of the republic.

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IAIN DE CAESTECKER // have you met OBI-WAN KENOBI yet? HE is now THIRTY-FIVE years old CIS MAN HUMAN, originally from STEWJON but typically reside on YAVIN IV. after everything they've gone through, they show loyalty to THE JEDI ORDER. they are best known for being a JEDI MASTER, and i hear they’re grown pretty STEADFAST yet also JUDGMENTAL at times; i hope they survive the galactic war. (SNOW, 25, MST, SHE/HER)

L O A D I N G : // …  8ABY : MONTH TWO … //

after trilla suduri informed him that he was about three decades in the future and dropped him off at naboo, obi-wan reunited with padmé amidala. obi-wan learned not only about the tragedy that had befallen the galaxy because of his shortcomings but also about the good that he had to look forward in this new reality, luke and leia, ahsoka, the promise of a new jedi order. anakin. not everything was lost. 

upon learning that the order was being rebuilt he did not hesitate to join the efforts and joined them at the new temple at yavin iv. reuniting with childhood friend kylia horne. 

as crisis arise across the galaxy with the jedi being framed for the kidnapping of padmé amidala, all order aligned force sensitives cast their votes to elect a new high council —smaller and with plans to be more delegating and to include every member of age in the decisions taken— obi-wan joins master jocasta nu, and his former padawan now jedi master, ahsoka tano, as members of the high council. 

in the aftermath of the plot against padmé and the new temple being compromised, obi-wan search for answers brings him face-to-face with anakin skywalker. the boy he raised and trained. apologizing for failing him before, obi-wan promises anakin he will stand by his side.

obi-wan reunited with commander cody, his right hand man during the clone wars, and the only constant to the life he remembers. with the galaxy on the brink of chaos obi-wan wonders if perhaps he should tell cody the truth about his feelings.

during a supply run to check in with jedi knight cal kestis, obi-wan experiences the tear in the force as sernpidal is destroyed along with the countless of lifeforms. 

after rumours of a certain enemy-turned-ally showing up on pantora, obi-wan is reunited with asajj ventress, who fills him in to some details no one had thought of mentioning before. shortly ventress would reunited with quinlan vos and obi-wan would insist they both join him at the temple at yavin iv. 

when communications with belkadan are lost, cody takes obi-wan and luke skywalker to the listening post to investigate. what they find on the surface is one of the most terrifying things obi-wan had ever faced. barely making it out alive obi-wan recovers in the temple’s medbay before making an announcement to every force sensitive —light, dark, neutral— across the galaxy, an invitation to fight together or die alone.

life day celebration is meant to be a symbol of hope, obi-wan understands the importance of attending as the hapes consortium relationship with the jedi is rocky to say the least. finally deciding to talk to cody —after his near death experience on belkadan— the words die on his lips at the stroke of midnight as the creatures he faced with luke on belkadan descend upon the crowd. 

with his lightsaber in the armory vault, along with the weapons of every person in attendance, obi-wan knows they do not stand a chance. making the hard choice of leaving the battle in the ballroom, obi-wan heads for the armory. running into armitage hux along the way, obi-wan’s own words of working with unlikely allies get put to the test. 

after a few trips and some well positioned blasts, obi-wan gets the weapons to the main fight. where he promptly returns to, fighting side by side with family, friends, and foes alike.

it is in the midst of battle that obi-wan is reunited with his grandmaster, blue light saber in hand, and the force signature obi-wan had not felt since his master’s funeral. it only took seconds for obi-wan to decide he would trust master dooku with his life. helping as many people onto his grandmaster’s ship, including a severely wounded cody, obi-wan escapes what remained of hapes. 

obi-wan insisted that master dooku returned to yavin iv and rejoined the order. relieved to have someone he could count on to trust with and share his concerns and troubling thoughts without feeling like he was being a burden. 

after excruciating moments of uncertainty, obi-wan is allowed to finally see cody at the medbay, in the middle of his grief and pain, obi-wan begs the force not to take cody from him. and the force listens. 

despite knowing that there are more important things in the galaxy than two people in love, obi-wan is not afraid to start a relationship with cody, as he is after all the only other person in the galaxy who just as obi-wan would put duty and the greater good before anything else. 

with the looming threat of the creatures hidden from the force ever present, obi-wan investigates whatever leads might help them understand the enemy, setting up meetings across the galaxy, obi-wan plans to reunite with lando calrissian, mon mothma, zeb orrelios, paz vizsla, commander bly, and jedi master avar kriss. 

when the creatures finally reveal they are called the yuuzhan vong and comms go down in the entire galaxy, obi-wan reaches out to whoever is willing to help. his last memories were from a time where the war was tearing the galaxy apart, maybe this time the fight would unite them all against a common enemy. 

character intro.

[skyguygeneraltano]

I just know little Padawan Anakin would subconsciously speak in Obi-Wan’s accent when around him and Obi-Wan doesn’t talk about it, in fact he finds it endearing

It wasn’t until Mace was talking to Anakin and hear little Ani with Obi-Wan’s vocal cadence and slight Coruscanti accent and he is just “???” because Anakin has only been at the temple for a month? Why does he sound like baby Obi-Wan?

Even when Anakin is a full grown knight, he would slip in this habit when giving report to the council and they are just “yep yep that’s still Obi-Wan’s baby”

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Y'all depression is depressioning

[wookieewhore]

obi-wan: nicely done, anakin.

anakin: thanks dad.

anakin:

anakin: why is everyone staring at me?

ahsoka: you just called obi-wan ‘dad’. you said ‘thanks, dad’.

anakin: what? no i didn’t, i said ‘thanks man’.

rex: i’m pretty sure you called him dad.

obi-wan: do you see me as a father figure, anakin?

anakin: what?? no! if anything i see you as a bother figure ‘cause you’re always bothering me!

cody: hey! show your father some respect!

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Anakin: How do you always look so calm ?

Obi-Wan: Oh, I'm not. People just can't tell when I'm panicking because I'm always panicking

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[madamejocastanu]

   Jocasta had returned to Yavin from the event on Canto Bight, glad she had the time to relax at the urging of Master Depa. Now however that she was back, there had been something nagging at the back of her head, something that only Obi-Wan would understand to an extant. So, she sought out her fellow council member, smiling when she found him. 

“Obi-Wan, would you care to join me for the walk around the temple’s edge amongst the trees? I have been reflecting on a matter, and I think your thoughts would be invaluable.” 

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        so maybe it hadn’t been very jedi like to have place bets on the races at canto bight, but as long as he had not influenced the outcome obi-wan knew there should not be a problem. it was no secret the jedi order was trying to distance itself from the republic, and with the republic resources spread thin across the galaxy, a few credits would do them good. force knows there were a lot of things needed at the temple. 

       would he ever not feel like a padawan trying to sneak into the restricted archives section whenever master nu called his name? obi-wan didn’t think so. ❝master nu❞ obi-wan greeted her with a courteous nod, ❝of course. it would be a pleasure to join you for a walk❞ he said falling into step next to her, ❝is everything alright?❞ a silly question obi-wan realized, considering the current state of the galaxy, but something about her words seemed, well, personal.

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( cody​ ):

“I will. I swear Obi-Wan. I’ll do my best, you know that.” Cody assured his Jedi. He couldn’t promise, and surely Obi-Wan understood that. Combat was too unpredictable to be able to make promises. 

Cody had no idea how long had passed since Obi-Wan had left for the armory and he had ended up pinned to the wall. His shoulder ached, most of the bleeding stopped by the pike impaling him. He was down to one arm though, and only the blaster he had picked up prior. He had settled for simply picking off guards who were going after fleeing civilians, playing dead when the others got too close.

But he could tell he wasn’t going to last much longer. It was too much damage for him to walk out of here under his own power, and every time he shifted to shoot, the edges of his vision greyed out a little more 

He would hold on though. He had to. He couldn’t leave Obi-Wan after he’d just gotten his Jedi back. 

           how could something be seared into one’s mind and yet be a complete blur? that’s how obi-wan felt this entire night was being. as he rushed people to the few last standing ships, obi-wan allowed himself a respite. it seemed small crafts were able to sneak pass the devastating vessels of their attackers, the focus had remained on the big ships, but obi-wan still found himself using the force to help a couple of vehicles through. 

         ❝make sure we are ready to depart in no more than twenty minutes❞ obi-wan said to the young fighter in front on him, she had identified herself as saw gerrera’s ward, having met saw in his youth obi-wan could only imagine the kind of man he grew up to be, and how capable someone raised by him must be. ❝i’ll do one last sweep and send whoever i find your way. if i’m not back in thirty minutes you leave without me, do you understand?❞ she truly was saw’s ward as there was no argument, just a nod and a determined look.

       obi-wan felt the pull of the force, it was leading him back to the ballroom, while the fight was far from over, their main objective which was getting the civilians out was almost complete. live to fight another day, a voice that sounded very much like master qui-gon said in obi-wan’s mind, what good are you to them if you are dead? but the pull was strong, and obi-wan could not ignore it. walking into the ballroom obi-wan understood what the force had been trying to tell him. 

        ❝cody... force please, please❞ obi-wan prayed and rushed to his commander’s side, ❝oh cody. it’s going to be okay, it’s going to be alright❞ he tried to reassure cody, ❝how are you so calm?❞ obi-wan joked, it was a good thing though, obi-wan was freaking out for the both of them, ❝i can’t pull it out, not here, you’ll bleed out❞ it was a miracle that obi-wan could still think clearly in the midst of their situation, ❝i’m going to have to cut it, and then we can make it to the ship❞ obi-wan ignited his lightsaber and cut one of the ends, ❝close your eyes❞ the jedi asked before moving to slice the pike from the front, ❝alright, stay with me, stay with me.❞

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canto bight, racetrack party obi-wan kenobi & mara jade (( @mvchinery ))

         while the number of displaced force sensitives had increased, obi-wan still felt guilty about asking when did they come from, specially if they had suffered through the age of the empire. so he usually waited until hints were dropped before asking point blank. but the presence he had felt was powerful, and one he had not yet met. so he had no option but approached them.

        ❝excuse me, i don’t believe we’ve before, i can sense your connection with the force, it’s strong. were you ever part of the order?❞

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canto bight, racetrack party obi-wan kenobi & vantir cessin (( @vantircessin ))

         perhaps placing the bets had not been the best idea —well he had not lost the credits and while the order was not suddenly going to be swimming in credits, he even had a good amount to take back to the temple, what had worried obi-wan was the opinion might have of a jedi placing bets. memories of quinlan and master qui-gon getting them out of impossible situations by the grace of a well placed bet flooded his mind, lost in his thoughts obi-wan slammed into someone, almost spilling drinks everywhere, almost.

        like second nature obi-wan waved his hand to stop the drinks mid-air, gracefully collected them and offered an apologetic smile, ❝it would’ve been a disaster if i had ruined that outfit❞ obi-wan said to the person he had bumped into, placing a drink back on their hand.

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Jaster wasn’t much for gambling often, the Haat Mando’ade hadn’t had many credits to begin with and Jaster had always put whatever money he did have towards their needs.

But he needed a break from the chaos that the galaxy was descending into, and he found himself on Canto Bight. Not only could he relax, but a place like Canto Bight might be a good place to find some work should he want some.

Jaster certainly hadn’t expected to see a Jedi among the crowds of drunks and bookies, but there he was. Making his way through the crowd, Jaster grinned “Master Kenobi, I can’t say I expected to see you here. Didn’t think Jedi were the gambling types.” He laughed.

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         betting on the races had not been a part of obi-wan’s plan, he was attending the event to keep an eye on the other guests, even if he knew there would be no way to sense if they were going to be attacked —a fact he had stopped bringing up, perhaps the people needed a moment of relaxation— it was better to be on site than having to travel across the galaxy if something were to happen.

        obi-wan smiled recognizing the voice, he was pleasantly surprised to find jaster here, sure there were familiar faces all around but not many obi-wan liked to engage in conversation with. jaster though he had liked the moment they had met.

        with a small chuckle obi-wan said, ❝well my master used to say the force will provide❞ the jedi nodded,  ❝opportunities to make some credits. he never let good odds pass, and it’s no secret the order is not what it was, we need the credits❞ he said with a small shrug, ❝what about you sir, came to place some bets, or just enjoy the cocktails?❞

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( jaster​ ):

Obi-Wan Kenobi. Now that was a name that Jaster had familiarized himself with over the last days after Jango had begrudgingly filled him in on his part of the war that had led to so much death and suffering. (He was still upset and disappointed with his son, cloning, really?)

“Jaster Mereel,” he introduced himself, shaking Kenobi’s hand with a smile “I’m sure you don’t get many Mandalorians approaching you jetii.” he chuckled, glancing down at his armor that marked him apart from most.

A grimace crossed his face as Kenobi admitted that not even the Jedi knew much “Well, I certainly don’t want it reversed considering I had just been shot several times with a laser canon.” Jaster said dryly. “Though perhaps your force had a hand in me running into you. I hear that you were very kind to all my grandsons despite Jango’s foolishness.” 

          ❝pleasure to meet you mr. mereel, and you’d be surprised❞ obi-wan let out a small chuckle, ❝and i’m not even counting the meetings i cannot remember❞ he added, the last thing he wanted was to confuse the mandalorian even further, but it did help that at least they were aware of something at play, it took obi-wan quite some time to finally admit that things were not as he remembered, the emptiness in the force for starters. 

         ❝i do not mean to sound so cavalier about it, but that’s one of the most popular occurrences❞ obi-wan said refraining from adding and the better of the options, as having years missing from your memories while others remember everything, well obi-wan was still not used to it, ❝being brought back from the moment of one’s death❞ the jedi offered his most genuine smile, ❝which of course is what’s leading people to think of it as a second chance...❞

      obi-wan tried his best to hide his surprise, it had been a while since he had felt the need to use that particular force ability, but he did not want to discourage any further conversation with jaster, they seemed like a remarkable individual, so instead of focusing on the ‘oh you are jango’s father’ bit he turned his attention to the honorable men that had fought by his side. ❝the force might have had a hand in that too❞ the dark side of the force, but the force after all, obi-wan would be more than glad to share how it turned out they were all pawns in a galactic game of dejarik ❝they were formidable honorable men, history might call them soldiers, but they were our friends...❞ 

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( @generally-scheming ):  

A rare glimpse of vulnerability flashes in his eyes before Hux banishes it behind his usual stiff expression. (He's hard pressed to recall an injury, physical or otherwise, that anyone has apologized for.) Life debt or no, this sanctimonious Jedi has hit far too close to the mark. He turns the non-sequitur over in his head, studying the man's irritatingly sincere face, and lashes out in the dark. "Save your platitudes, General Kenobi. Ah, but they aren't for me, are they? I wonder what you're so desperate to apologize for that you would try to comfort your enemy."

       obi-wan could think of a dozen places he would rather be —a cave full of gundarks for example— than across from armitage hux, a man with an ability to show nothing but disdain on his face despite what might be happening around them. obi-wan should’ve known better than to bring up such a topic, because no matter how much he disliked hux, the general had a point. ❝i don’t believe there are enough words in basic for the apology i owe the galaxy❞ whether hux knew what obi-wan was talking about, it didn’t matter, obi-wan knew his faults and regrets, mistakes he could never take back but could try to amend. 

        ❝the jedi do not have enemies, not really, we protect life, and that includes yours and that of the members of your organization, politics aside, we need each other to fight this threat, if we cannot fight together, we are going to die alone…❞

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@fearlessenator said: ❛ i think we deserve a soft epilogue, my love. we are good people and we’ve suffered enough. ❜

           the smile on obi-wan’s face could hardly be contained, there might be years he no longer remembered but it was as if his soul recognized padmé’s, and maybe it was true that their souls transcend time and space, because it seemed to remember that the one standing across from him was his best friend.

          ❝i think the force agrees with you❞ he said reaching out for her hand, bringing it up to place a light kiss before giving it a light squeeze, ❝this second chance we were given❞ he shook his head lightly, ❝we are so close, one more fight, one more fight...❞

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( cody​ ):

Cody could feel the guilt coming off of Obi-Wan at this point and he huffed. He would have to work on that. Eventually he’d get Obi-Wan to understand that not everything that went wrong in the galaxy was his fault. It was a good thing Cody planned on spending the rest of his life near Obi-Wan.

“You are the man I think you are Obi-Wan.” He murmured, reaching out once his jedi was close and taking his hand, squeezing gently. “You are and you always have been.” he said, getting himself upright again and pulling Obi-Wan in, pressing their heads together.

“And us talking about things isn’t going to stop me from recovering.” he pointed out after a moment of silence, just keeping Obi-Wan close to him. “For all of Fett’s inability to show feelings towards someone who wasn’t Boba, talking about our feelings won’t actually kill me.” he teased.

          obi-wan made a mental note to argue about cody’s words at a later moment, right now that conversation would have to be shelved, a part of obi-wan regretted having been so selfish and voicing some of the things that had been in his mind, the last thing that he should’ve been feeling was pride, pride was not a jedi emotion, but to hear cody —one of the best people in the galaxy that obi-wan had ever met— say those words, what else was obi-wan supposed to feel?

            thankfully feeling cody’s forehead pressed against his was enough to distract obi-wan from the ugly emotion he had been close to allow himself to feel, instead there was only love. there was hardly anything obi-wan could do by allow himself to smile, if months ago he had thought about this moment he would’ve believed it to be impossible. and while there were more important things in the galaxy than two people in love, obi-wan knew cody shared his views about the greater good. 

          ❝it might if you don’t lie back and stop putting unnecessary stress on your injuries❞ obi-wan said bringing a hand up to lightly rest on cody’s chest, gently guiding him into a resting position, ❝and i don’t think we are nearly done talking about our feelings, are we? but i will try to do it from your bedside rather than wander around the room❞ obi-wan knew the conversation was soon to turn well as most conversations always turned, but they had to talk about it, ❝i believe the one thing that might actually kill us are those creatures that attacked us...❞

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it   was   a   difficult   conversation   to   broach,   the   life   crystal   that   hung   around   his   neck.   he   felt   some   shame,   but   the   force   had   brought   it   into   his   path   and   he   had   learned   not   to   discount   anything   the   force   told   him.   not   only   was   obi-wan   wise   beyond   his   years,   he   was   one   of   the   only   people   in   the   galaxy   that   the   jedi   master   currently   trusted.   a   weary   sig   left   his   lips   as   he   approaches   the   door   to   his   quarters,   fingers   gripping   the   crystal.   “   master   kenobi   ?   “   he   calls   out,   tapping   his   knuckles   against   the   door,   his   travelling   cloak   still   on   from   his   trip   to   takodana   “   there’s   something   i   wish   to   discuss   with   you.   “   

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          obi-wan was trying no to freak out about the increasing amount of stuff in his room, he had told himself it was because he had to cross reference, and consult back, from one source to another, but in reality there was only so much he could blame on it, and not on his inability to take a break if even to put away some of the ancient texts and holos, even a few stone tablets, that he had tried to use to find anything that might be of use against the yuuzhan vong. the voice calling for him and the knock took him by surprise, sure he felt safe to let his guard down while at the temple, but he would never admit that he did not sense someone approaching. 

        ❝grandmaster❞ obi-wan said to himself as he stood up from his place on the floor where he was currently poring over a book in a language he had not seen since he was a padawan, of course even without the distinctive voice, obi-wan would’ve recognize his grandmaster force signature, ❝master dooku, of course come in❞ obi-wan had rushed to the door, and was currently trying to make space for his grandmaster to sit somewhere, ❝is everything okay master?❞

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( ahsoka​ ):

for someone who was a padawan through the clone wars, who was a padawan to one of the greatest jedi general the clone wars had seen, to.. someone who had, really, been forged in war, the shift to a different kind of life hadn’t been an easy one for ahsoka. hiding, running, constantly knowing too much attention would get her trapped and killed - or worse, given what had happened to others, tortured into inquisitors, forced to work for the empire. ahsoka had needed time and.. opportunity to help people, to really help and protect people to understand what her life was supposed to be. what it might have been able to be before, had the clone wars never happened. it had taken her even more time to get used to that, to combine that with her choice to work with bail and the resistance. but it all seemed.. normal, it all made sense. she never really thought about it, never had to - not until now.

“i never.. thought of it that way.. it was never - out of obligation, or out of what a jedi was supposed to be, in hopes that i might become that again. it was only ever.. what i needed. what felt right, for me. after the empire rose, i - didn’t feel as though i had a path to follow until i found a way to help people.” on that ship she’d essentially stolen - borrowed, borrowed, not stolen - after the mess on raada, following a distress signal she had no business following - except she hadn’t been able to ignore it, in the end. it was that which gave her a new direction, a.. reminder, of who she wanted to be. the teachings instilled so deep in her, even after the order had been destroyed. but - can that really be enough? to return to a life she’d willingly walked away from? “you.. had reasons, i’m sure. you wouldn’t do something like that without cause, obi-wan. of that i’m sure, at least.” letting out a sigh, ahsoka offers obi-wan a sad sort of smile. “i never - did anything i did with the hope that it would lead me back to the order. to.. come back, after all this time - i’m.. not sure, if i’m being honest.”

        as obi-wan listened to ahsoka’s words, her rebuttal of behaving exactly as a jedi is supposed to, only convinced obi-wan that out of them all it had been ahsoka the one who truly embodied what the jedi order had set out to be a long time ago. no politics, no personal gain or vendettas, but the simple idea of helping others because it was the right thing to do. ❝ever since padmé told me what happened, i could not stop thinking about how we failed out, the council, the order, how i failed you, i should’ve fought harder for you, protected you❞ obi-wan gave her a small smile, it was taking him a while to reconcile the imagine of the bright eyed talented little girl and the battle hardened woman standing next to him, ❝but as hard as it is to accept, now i understand, your choice, walking away, leaving the order was more of the jedi way than most of the things the order was doing at the time...❞

      taking a few steps closer to ahsoka obi-wan placed a hand on her shoulder, he was so proud, not that he could take any credit, ❝you don’t have to stay, you have no obligation of course, but you are needed, specially if we continue with the rebuilding efforts, the worst thing we can do is not learn from the mistakes of our past...❞ it would be hard, obi-wan knew, to try and build the order again, from the ashes of their failures, and it was arrogant to think they would know what mistakes to avoid, they had to put some way to keep everybody in check, and how could they hope to gain the public’s trust if those around had missed the last decades of conflict, ahsoka would be the ideal, but as always obi-wan would leave it to the force, it would be as it always was, the will of the force.