the media is consuming me

if I'm not thinking about the Mediator I Simply am not thinking //

[jessedesilvatruther]

I hope someone logs onto Tumblr dot com and searches the mediator or Jesse de Silva or Suze Simon and finds this blog and thinks she's just like me fr

[habaebiti]

the way this is genuinely life changing stuff for me

[ss10009]

Things don’t go so well for Suze that night at Mariner’s. And then they get worse. Way worse. Post-Remembrance.

Dragging out the husk of the dead Mediator fandom just to post dark fic should probably be illegal, but here I am doing it anyway.

Remembrance-era blackmail fic. One-sided Paul/Suze and (mutual, of course) Jesse/Suze. Very much rated E. (And very much dark fic/dead dove do not eat.)

This is chapter 1 of a longfic that’s ~75% done with planned weekly updates.

[moon--boy]

large, carmel-by-the-sea home overlooking the pacific. previous boarding home. perfect for renovations! 5 bed + 4 bath makes this the perfect home for a  family of 6 + dog! only slightly haunted.

[iluvromance]

i’m still not over the PTSD jesse must have after everything he’s been through. he lost his family at age 20. he didn’t have interaction with ANYONE for a hundred and fifty years, he had to see his house become occupied by strangers and his family move away. he wasn’t even on that great terms WITH his family when he died. that’s just so fucking insane, and yet despite all that, he’s chosen not to be bitter about it, but to help the girl who has taken over his room deal with ghosts. i mean, given the circumstances, you’d assume he’d be a total asshole and haunt her or whatever, but no, he’s so patient and funny and gentle.

the fact that he’s still putting people before him like he did when he was alive (with maria and his father’s decision about him inheriting the ranch) despite everyone who wronged him is so admirable and sad. all hotness aside, i really respect jesse as a character. he truly carries the series. i mean, this guy gets angry if you call his cat ugly, HOW CAN YOU NOT BE OBSESSED WITH HIM?!

he really is the only man.

[uncertainglobalfuture]

Suze and Jesse as Mitski Albums

Susannah Simon: Be The Cowboy

Did not even have to think about it. Mitski chose the title of this album kind of as a joke; it meant for her to yield the confidence she'd admired in men before, to be her own cowboy. Susannah is definitely her own cowboy, no question about it.

This album is the most sonically upbeat, too. Common motifs are beauty, feeling unloved (at least, not loved in the way you wanted, which is very Suze in Haunted), loneliness, seeking peace. All of this are things Susannah faces continuously.

Plus, the demo version of "Why Didn't You Stop Me?"? The way it's only slightly dissonant and distant-sounding? It's ethereal. It completely resembles the in-between space between the living and the dead, which, of course, Susannah can walk through.

Jesse de Silva: Puberty 2

Puberty 2. Puberty: a period of adjusting to your new body, new life, new terrible knowledge. And no one tells you this, but surviving it means you can survive pretty much anything. Of course, Puberty 2. Going through all of that again, it seems to imply. Isn't that what Jesse goes through?

Title aside, this is one of Mitski's most depressing albums, sonically speaking. It's like the speaker in most of these songs knows they'll be left behind, alone. It's a lonesome album more than usual, and that is never the problem the speaker is trying to get over. There are worse things they have to deal with, but the loneliness is something they have already accepted, for the most part. Just like Jesse.

[jessedesilvatruther]

Twilight by Meg Cabot

[jessedesilvatruther]

Omg I’m rereading the mediator books for the millionth time right now, I’m so glad I found your blog hehe

Involve me please. DMs are open. In fact. I’m thinking about them right now.

[baraphalloplastyclinic-deactiva]

I actually do think we should discourage women from becoming housewives. Do not become financially dependent on a man. That's how a lot of women ended up dead over the years. A man gets violent suddenly and you have to choose between homelessness or potentially dying at his hand because you have an enormous gap in your resume and no degrees or certifications or anything that will help you pursue a career that will allow you to be financially independent. He owns your bank account. His name is probably the one on the car. Try and leave and he can report it stolen. Where will you go then?

Don't become a housewife.

[theorangepdf]

getting fixated on something is funny because the first like week i have an insatiable need to tell everyone i know about it and spread the good word but by weeks 2 and 3 it becomes so intense and personal that even hearing it mentioned in public makes me sweat as if a dark secret was alluded to

[cherryys]

(in the voice of a guy that will defy fate to save you) i don't care

[shnehollander]

when the sex is a character analysis

[fag4got]

boy u need to put ur brown eyes away theyre catching the light in such a way that makes me wanna put a baby in u. i cant even do that. this is torture

[jessedesilvatruther]

Ghost Jesse: Susannah :( you didn’t even ask the poor soul’s name, you should try to be a bit kinder to these lost beings who seek your help 😞 😔😞😔

Alive Jesse: Yes, I always keep the exorcism kit in the trunk. ✝️🩸And there is a gun too :)

[ididnineeleven]

my favorite stories right now

[viewparadise]

It's all fun and games and laughing at BookTok until you can't get on AO3 anymore, as someone who likes both romance and fanfic.

[pitbolshevik]

remember when steve from blues clues was upset that people thought he died in a car crash, not because people thought he was dead but because they said he was driving a dodge charger and "that's a cop car"

[pitbolshevik]