I am Jhay Dee

Stick around and maybe you'll get to know some parts of me ;)

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Sometimes life will present you with 2 different paths, both of which you wanted to take. But when you pick a path, you can never have the other in the future. And that’s the thing about choices. They’re hard because sometimes, you never know which one leads to what you yearn the most.

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Hmmm. I wonder how I had it years ago.

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See, this is what I'm afraid of - that you can easily hurt me even without you trying.

JD

[astoldbyamelia]

WHO WORE IT BETTER ?!

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Omg. This set me laughing.... Hahahaha

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Don’t explain. People only hear what they want to hear.

Paulo Coelho (via psych-facts)

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Stay with me. This is what I need, please?

My Heart (Paramore)

[hoodhoranhemmings]

Michael: “hi”

Me: *takes out phone*

Michael: “do you want a picture?”

Me: *opens Pokemon go*

Michael: “are you trying to capture… Pokemon?”

Me: “no I’m trying to capture your heart”

[jhaydeetoots]

Sometimes life will present you with 2 different paths, both of which you wanted to take. But when you pick a path, you can never have the other in the future. And that's the thing about choices. They're hard because sometimes, you never know which one leads to what you yearn the most.

[jhaydeetoots]

How Love Feels Like.

"What was it like?" Manon asked quietly. "To love." 

For love was what it had been - what Asterin perhaps alone of all the Ironteeth witches had felt, had learned. 

 "It was like dying a little every day. It was like being alive, too. It was joy so completely it was pain. It destroyed me and forged me. I hated it, because I knew I couldn't escape it, and knew it would forever change me......." 

- Queen of Shadows (Throne of Glass book 4 ) - Sarah Maas

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Yeah, but broken isn’t the same as unfixable.

Marissa Meyer, Winter (via soggywarmpockets)

Yes :)

[jhaydeetoots]

"For what is living when the only person you're living for is already living for another life."

Random Thoughts

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There's always that one person, no matter how long you guys were apart, no matter the distance and no matter how the person feels, you'd always have feelings for him/her.

Random Thoughts

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Shit happens. You happened.

Jhay Dee

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every teen after missing like 300 calls from their mom

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I miss these people #failedparty

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UNKNOWN #3

Siya.

Siya yung dating skinny love ko :)

Paano? Kasi I was heartbroken and then he came to the rescue. He helped me. Not to move on but to regain my pride :)) Malaki talaga pasasalamat ko sakanya. Pero di jan nagsta-start yung kwento namin.

Kasi, super crush siya nung barkadako dati. Tapos that time, I didn't really like him that much. As wala lang? Ganun? And he's off limit coz crush na crush nga siya ng barkada ko. And that time rin, I was madly inlove with 'someone' (HAHAHAHA. Sa mga nakabasa sa mga past posts ko, baka alam niyo na kung sino si 'someone'.) Pero sabi niya that time, crush niya raw ako. Kaso kasi... para sakin, napakaimpossible. You see, he is one of the guys saamin na gusto ng marami and me? Ako? Crush niya? HAHAHAHA. Parang joke lang. So basta yun. So naging kami nga ni 'someone'. And then, ayun, nagbreak kami at nabroken heart ako malamang. At he was there. Tapos si friend na dating may guso sakanya, sinuggest niya itong 'plan' na to para naman maligtas pride ko nun. So, okay.. Sige, pero kasi di ko gustong siya(yung pinaguusapan natin sa post na to) yung kakasabwatin ko kaso itong si friend na ito, kinausap siya na kailangan ko raw ng tulong. Oh, edi ayun, nagtext and yun, npilitan akong sabihin situation ko so he helped. Pero sabi niya kay friend, baka raw ma fall siya sakin. Kaya naman nagdecide na akong tama na. kaya mejo iwas iwas nlng hanggang sa makamove-on na ako. Pero namimiss ko rin siya from time to time.

Ang nangyari after a few months. LOL. Basta last yr :) Accidentally kming nagkita sa paradahan ng jeep papunta samin at doon ulit nagstart :)) Bale, naging close ulit kami. At nanligaw na rin. Grabe </3 Di ko alam gagawin ko nung sinabi niya yun. Ang saakin ksi, hindi ganun kalakas feelings ko sakanya. So I asked him for time to decide if paliligawin ko ba or what. At dun naman sinumbat sakin ng mga magagaling kong kaibigan lahat ng mga advices ko =.= Haynakoo. So in the end, I took the risk. So after a while, naging kmi. Sa kanya ko ulit naramdamang maging "alive". And those times na naging kami, I fell deeper :3 Nadevelop talaga ako sakanya. I learned his personality, etc etc. Pero ito ha, di ko siya nagustuhan dahil sa physical look niya. Well, maybe yeah, pero that's not the frist thing I liked about him. Bsta, ayokong sabihin kung ano yung first thing na gusto ko sakanya :P

Now you wonder anong nangyari samin? Well, kunting background muna, siya kasi, may parang childhood sweetheart na crush niya simula palang nung elementary sila :) Sweet no? :') Tapos silang dalawa, parang on off on off daw hanggang nung HS. Ang mali ko kasi, di ko muna inalam kung kumusta sila. Lagi kasing sinasabi niya pag inaasar ko siya sakanya is "wala na. tapos na yun" or pag inaasar ko siyang 'muling ibalik' etc etc, sinasabi niyang, "wala na ring pagasang ibalik". Kaya naman, hindi ko na naisip na........ YUNG NEXT NA MANGYAYARI. Hahaha. Tama na background. Bsta yun. Soo.... friends na raw ulit sila. Walang kaso sakin yun nung sinabi niya. I mean, i trust him and that time, it would be okay for me if he left me for her. Di rin biro yung ganun katagal na pagsasama nila db? Kahit on off on off? Hahaha. Pero he told me he will never leave me for her kahit pa raw sabihin niyang gusto siya nitong balikan. And so, I just said okay. And I thought it's really okay </3

After I guess 2 months, parang lumalamig na kami =.= He became too busy, I have a hectic sched, etc. Nursing ako eh, mga klase ko is hanggang 6 ganun ganun. Tapos mga klase niya 2:30. Pero marami naman daw siyang requirements. Haaayyy.. Bwisit. lagi nalang oras ang problema ko sa mga relasyon XDD. At di ko na siya maramdaman -.- Siyempre, emote emote din. May something kasi eh. Malakas intuition ko na.... basta. Feeling ko kasi, may feelings pa siya sa babeng sinasabi ko. Kaso kasi, HINDI NA OKAY PARA SAAKIN eh. Di ko to sinabi sakanya ever :/ Hanggang ngayon. Ewan ko lang pag mababasa niya.

Basta ganun, naging okay na rin kami. Ang next naman, ako siguro ulit problema. Malay ko. Nakakapagod na kasi. Para kasing ako nalang yung supportive gf? Or maybe nainsecure lang ako kasi well siya, he could be the dream of any woman, while me? Pssshhh.. Alam kong di ako ganun. May isang beses, off ko kasi. Wala akong duty so bumisita ako sakanila (sa skul nila). And then di rin kami nagkita agad nung nadismiss sila kasi may ginawa pa sila so.. ayun, hinintay ko. Mga 1 hr lang naman (Okay lang kasi nandun din mga kabatch ko nung HS.).. Tapos nung nagkita na kami, akala ko naman solo ko na siya (LMAO. The word), hindi pala. Kasi nagpapasama siya sakin pumunta sa ganito para sa 'ganun'. Basta, ayokong sabihin kung ano :PP Edi syempre, anong magagawa ko? Edi oo nalang ako. Tapos nung nandun na kami, syempre, di ko solo. May mga kausap siya eh. Mga tumagal kami siguro dun ng 1 hr ulit. Tapos nung paalis na kami, sabi niya, "okay lang bang hatid na kita agad? may tatapusin pa kasi ako eh." Aww </3 Kahit ayoko sana, syempre, sasabihin ko paring okay lang. Alangan namang sabihin kong ayoko db? May tatapusin nga daw siyang requirement. So.. sige. Fine.. Nagpahatid ako. Tapos yun, the next week, hormonal kasi ako. Tinotopak. Monthsary namin. Hinintay ko kasi talaga message niya.. WALA. WALANG SIYANG MESSAGE. I mean, siguro napakababaw db? Pero di na nga jami nagkikita lagi, di nagkakatext nang madalas, pagkatapos pati monthsary di man lang maggreet? =.= Siyempre nainis na ako. Grabe sakanya ko lang siguro naraasan na magtampo nang ganito. Hahahahaha. Pero di lang kasi yun basta tampo na pa-baby effect. Nasaktan ako eh. Nag greet ako sakanya nang gabi ng mismong araw ng monthsary namin bago ako matulog. Gabing gabi na yun, tapos tinulog ko nalang kasi alam kong di rin yun magtetext. Halos parang 2 days na siyang di nagparamdam. The next day, walang pasok so lumabas ako kahit umuulan. Mejo nag-solo flyt (Sorry, ako kasi pag tinopak lumalabas kahit mag-isa eh depressed pa ako kaya..) then after a while, tinawag ko na rin si isang friend at pumunta sa bahay ng isa ulit na friend at nagsulk nalang ako sakanila. LOL. Tapos.. sa gabi nun, saka nalang siya nagtext. Nag g-greet ng Happy Monthsary. Tapos may sinabi pa siyang: "akala mo nakalimutan ko?" HAHAHAHAHAHA </3 Geee. Well, ganun siguro talaga. Ako naman itong si hindi na talaga okay kaya di muna ako nagparamdam ng ilang araw.

Tapos after mga 3 days siguro yun? (can't remember), nagtextan na kami hanggang sa nagdecide kaming magcool off. Mga ilang araw din na cool off kami, namiss ko siya at alam kong ayaw ko pa siyang bitiwan. Pero nung tinanong ko kung pwede ng mag-usap, ayun... narereject naman ako lagi. Umabot kami ng 1 month na ganun. Tagal din no? Wala kasing time. Tapos nung naapagdecide na siya, nagsuggest na siya ng mga araw na paguusapan namin. Pero sa mga days na yun? Di siya magtetext, kaya ako ang magtatanong kung tuloy pa kami pero in the end, sasabihin niyang 'next time nalang' </3 Araykupo. TMga 3 times na ata akong naganito saknya?  Kaya yung decision ko sanang ayaw ko pa siyang bitawan? Ayun, nawala.. Para kasing wala lang sa kanya eh :))

So nagbreak nga kami.

Pero alam mo? Hindi lang kasi ako ang may skinny love. Pati siya. Kasi skinny love niya rin pala ako.

Mahal niya parin si ex niya :)) Kahit di niya sabihin, alam ko yun :)

*PS: Di ko na to binasa ulit. Sorry kung masyadong mahaba. Di niyo naman kailangang basahin eh :))