Tim: You have to fucking ask that? It's a yes or no question. Not some sort of stupid mental game. Would you stay or not? Full answer, no hiding behind anything.
Jason: Well, you asked if I would stay only if you asked!
Tim: Fair, but... for fuck sakes Jason, we've been dancing around this for years. You never outright commit or agree to jackshit. What am I supposed to do?
Jason: You haven't either!
Tim: I have an entire drawer set aside for you. I tell you I love you. I let you into my home. And you don't think I'm committed? Get out of here.
Part two (of three) of my Fu x reader fic drabble thingy!!
Im not in love. So donât forget it. đś
After some overthinking.. you decided to take a break away from Fu because of unwanted feelings. Like feeling more not just friendly feelings. Youâre just scared confusedâŚ
You can still feel his skin on your lipsâŚ
You smirked but it fell quickly. Then cringed at your self. One of your hands running over your face. Jealousy isnât only a sign of romance right? But just friends doesnât seem exactly right either. Okay so what happened was..
You just returned to HQ from doing nothing in particular but just out alone. Dinner should be done soon. So instead of grabbing a snack you opted to wait in the hangout room. As you approached you heard loads of laughter and running.
The doors were already open as laughter bounced down the hallway getting louder as you got closer. Fuâs sixth sense went off as he stopped to stare at the doorway. âWhat are you doing?! Amo told you not to stop!â Amo lightly but not really pounded her fist on Fuâs head.
Pillows, cushions, blankets all across the floor. Furniture moved to the sides of the room to make a clear space. Everyone teamed up into pairs. Stacked. Playing chicken presumably. Others sitting on the edge probably the ones who got out quicker than the others.
The only ones left standing being Remlin on Guita, Rudo on Gris, and Amo on Fu. Rudo sparred with Remlin. Gris on his knees to even out the playing field because the two kids are short. Fu running circles not to get caught. Rudo knocked them down grinning and telling Gris to stand up and charge to Amo.
âHey youâre back!â Riyo spotted you. You walked over to her and Zanka. âGreat. Itâs about to get ten times louder in here.â He said side eyeing you. âWoah Zanka hold your applause.â You replied with a half ass grin, eyes darting between him then Fu.
Riyo seemed to notice before dots started connecting. Meanwhile, Fuâs eyes also kept darting between the pair in front of him and you and Zanka. It was the last battle but it wasnât as exciting due to how awkward it is. Rudo and Amo were I donât even know how to explain it.
Awkward, obvious, and flustered?
Not a crowd thriller. That was until Riyo cheered on Amo. Fu also looked at you for maybe some sort of encouragement. You stared at them and Fu felt as if he had done something wrong maybe? Your eyes were so distant. Like you were in thought? Your eyes were on him but you werenât looking at him if that makes sense.
Fu getting caught up in his head as well caused them to lose and fall. Rudo and Gris taking victory. People cheered but you walked up to Fu. The boy stood up to help Amo up but you stopped him. Arms wrapping around his neck from behind. âI missed you.â You cooed in his ear.
Fu stiffened but smiled nonetheless. Playing with his fingers. Rudo helped Amo up as she congratulated him on the win. âAre you gonna play next round?â Rudo asked. âYou totally should! Iâm sure Zanka wonât mind if you took my place. Imma sit this one out.â Riyo offered ordinarily. But with a plan in mind.
You turned towards them. Fu still in your arms while you stood behind him. Resting your chin on his shoulder. You opened your mouth, wanting to decline but someone else spoke before you. âOr you can have Fu this round. Amo will take someone else.â Amo said innocently but it still struck a nerve.
I donât need permission heâs already mine.
You smiled but that didnât reach your eyes. âIâm tired so Iâll pass on this whole thing. Iâm going to go to my room actually.â You faked tiredness. There it was again, the feeling like Fu did something wrong. âYou can stay and have fun.â You mumbled against Fuâs neck.
âYes ma-am!!â Fu shouted so loud it made everyone look. His face went red and you just smiled before leaving. You went to your room. Not feeling like eating anymore. And thatâs why youâre here now.
You could still feel the warmth of his skin. Letting out a giddy giggle before slapping your face. This is why you donât do romantic stuff. Itâs frustrating. You donât even know why you felt so possessive. Itâs not actually like you two are dating.
Despite feeling- jealous - you held no ill feelings towards the two. The only person youâre mad at is yourself. Not just for feeling this way. But also thinking about Fu like that. But the most feeling you feel right now is cringe. You felt cringed out for even feeling jealous.
Your ears perked when you heard the door handle jiggle. You forgot you locked the door. Opening to reveal non other than Fu himself. Fu held a plate of food and his other hand looking like he was about to knock.
âHey.â He nervously gave you a smile. âI got you food.â Fu held out the plate for you. You stared at it happy before your stomach turned. âIâm not hungry.â You put the plate to the side before taking his hand and leading him to sit with you. Fu smiled at your touch and followed you unknowingly.
You two sat on your bed. Letting go of his hand but his not letting yours go. Itâs now or never. âWe should take a break.â You exhaled quickly. Fuâs heart dropped. âWhat?â He asked mindlessly. âI need time to myself.â So basically she hates me and thinks Iâm annoying.
âI can switch rooms, you stay here.â She doesnât even want to share rooms, she wants to be as far as away from me as possible. Fu started shaking and you noticed. You always do. âYou can follow Enjin. Heâs bossy.â She thinks Iâm clingy and repulsive! âOkay..â Fu said looking like a puppy that got kicked.
This is good.
After a while apart you can forget these unwanted feelings. Theyâll go away and you and Fu can continue being friends. Romance isnât your thing you have other things to worry about like being the best and brightest star. It doesnât make you stronger sulking in these feelings.
So for the next week thatâs all youâve been doing. Ignoring the feelings and even your friends. Didnât have time to talk too busy over working your self again. Work out, do your job, and pass out. Thatâs how you spent your free time. Yup. Itâs what you wanted right?
Fu on the other hand was going through it. The first night alone he stayed in the room for the rest of it. Next day Follo came to fetch you for a mission but only found a sad Fu. Follo being not the best at comforting people called for backup (Gris). Once Gris asked what was wrong Fu started bawling all over again.
âY/n hates me and never wants to talk to me again and itâs all my fault for being clingy and annoying. I donât want to lose her, not Y/n. I donât know how to live without her! I donât know what to do!!â Fu cried as his drawn on mask started to run again with what little pigment was left.
After good advice and a suggestion to take it easy, Fu finally fell asleep. He slept a lot that day and stayed in your- his room. Gris made his way to find you. But to no avail.
The next day he caught you to ask what was up but you waved off his concerns. He asked around but nobody knew anything.
The day after Riyo came to talk to you after Grisâ questions and how she noticed you werenât very present. Which is usually a big sign something is up because youâre always present. But you apparently talk in riddles when youâre upset because she didnât understand what you meant by.
âItâs just a silly phase Iâm going through. Iâll be over it in a few more days. This is just a minor setback.â What ever that meant. But she was still there when you need.
One more day forward you started to crack.
âWhat!?â You asked. Although maybe it is best if you didnât go. âThey left early this morning. Theyâll be back in a few days.â Semiu hummed. The cleaners for team Akuta plus Fu left for a few day long mission. âWhy wasnât I invited?â You asked a bit bitter.
âBecause I wanted to have a chat.â The boss said walking into the room. âIâd love to but Delmon actually needs help watering Tamsy! Fun fact Delmon is the reason Tamsyâs hair sprouts to the side like that. Very important task..â You started to step away but Korvus put his hand on your shoulder.
âYou can talk to Semiu if it makes you more comfortable.â He offered. âSemiu gay as hell I donât think she can help with boy problems.â You shook off the suggestion. âMy sexuality does not limit my wisdom.â The woman raised a brow. You sighed and reluctantly talked.
âI am just worried for FuâŚâ You mumbled and the two adults shared a look. âOh? Whyâs that?â Bossman asked. Damn it. Semiuâs choker com rang. It was Enjin with loud music and lots of laughter. He was calling to ask about directions or something. You didnât listen. You only heard Fu laughing.
Oh, so he is okay. Thatâs good!
You pushed Korvusâ hand off your shoulder gently. âIâm okay really. Get a little of track but now Iâm back on it. Speaking of, I should go train more.â You said with a solemn smile. âHaha donât tell me the great Y/n is afraid.â The man said with a small chuckle. #reversepsychology
âMe afraid? Nothing scares me!â You tried to laugh it off but for some reason his word pissed you off. âOf course not. How could I expect anything less from the kid who laughs in the face of danger.â Korvus patted your head one last time before leaving.
Me? Afraid? What would I even be afraid of?
The whole day you spent in your mind more than usual. You even stopped training early to think. Youâre not afraid. Boss man is right, I laugh when Iâm faced with something scary. Labeling what Iâm currently feeling as afraid is stupid. Afraid of what?
Is he implying Iâm afraid of feelings? Not me Iâm in my prime I canât be committed to just one thing. Even if that thing is a person. Who you miss. And have been struggling to maintain consistency since departure.
Itâs not departure if itâs only for a short time. Itâs not like you moved to canvas town. But even the thought of being far away makes you feel icky. Okay maybe the thought is a little frightening. But! The thought of loosing him is even more scary. Maybe even the most scariest thing you can think of.
i seek to love, and proceed to run away when i sense a feeling of affection, a warm sense of peace. i was not made to be loved, i was not made to love.
i refuse to feel happy, sane, or calm. i ask to be understood, and when i am, i ruin my life some more.
i thought following God's word would fix some part of me, but i will always be a disaster. I'm the one responsible for my destruction, and I could not care less.
Kylux Enemies with Benefits: Hux feels (1) emotionâ˘, which makes him want to break up with Kylo. He doesn't want to hurt him, though, so he acts in such a way that Kylo will have to break up with him. Kylo, ever the mind-reader, knows what's going on, and acts obtuse, so Hux will have to learn to communicate.
