Kaiser short character study/a few headcanons (I was bored and hyperfixated lolol) feel free to tell me if this is ooc
1. Whenever he looks in the mirror, he sees himself becoming more and more like his father. He tries to convince himself that he was better-looking than that horrible, dirty monster, but over the years, he realized it wasn’t about looks.
It was how he had manipulated others and gained pleasure from the despair of others.
The description was familiar. Too familiar.
So he went through books and books of psychology, trying to understand his father. Him, too.
It’s definitely directly connected to his trauma, yes.
But he knows that. He’s aware of it.
Yet he can’t do anything to change. It disgusts him that whenever he looks in a mirror, its like his father’s blue eyes are looking straight at him. (he prob hallucinates about it idk)
So he generally hates mirrors, but stares at himself. Sometimes to analyze himself or to secretly space out.
Maybe it can also be why some people think he’s a narcissist (maybe he is, but there’s definitely more to it or just a good, well-written reason as to why I dunno)
2. Kaiser has emetophobia, and is terrified at the thought of throwing up.
He sees vomiting as complete surrender and a sign of weakness. Because it makes him feel weak and small. He hates the feeling in his throat and the disgusting taste in his mouth. He also hates how it makes his body go numb, and how he no longer has control over his body.
The thought of vomiting or being weak makes him feel inferior. disgusting, even. (based off a fic I read)
3. He tugs on his rattails when he’s alone.
Most of the time, when he’s stressed or anxious, he’ll play around with his rattail, twisting and curling it around his finger. If he can’t help it and he does it in public, he pretends to appear bored or stoic, even when he’s nervous or overwhelmed. It’s a defense mechanism, and he’s good at disguising it
4.He rehearses his lines, predicts/imagines conversations with others (usually for Isagi) and always prepares responses. He practices in the mirror.
Every single movement is calculated.
His movements are all slightly exaggerated, his grin only hitting a certain point of his face—heck, even the speed and length of his strides are intentional. It sometimes even has a pattern.
He does this because he feels like he has to be the one with the strongest presence.
he needs to constantly keep his emperor persona on no matter what.
He is extremely manipulative. He will gaslight others even when he’s wrong, making himself seem like the victim.
He sees no one as his equal, and even sees people who are ‘close’ to him as dogs who fuel his ego, especially Ness who he constantly keeps on a leash because he needs to constantly be in control.
He has a superiority complex.
In private, he sometimes has panic attacks and when at his lowest, chokes himself.
He has never mentioned his trauma to anyone. No one knows what he went through.
Ness probably tried bringing him to a therapist out of concern three times but he walked out of every single one and scolded him.
He has alot of knowledge when it comes to philosophy and psychology. He began studying psychology to understand his past but his knowledge in psychology and understanding the human mind helps him manipulate and maintain his control over others, since he knows a lot of ways how to
Thinks of himself as undeserving of love and affection, but also sees it as an inconvenience and unnecessary.
He always has his guard up, and his emotional barrier is practically unbreakable.
Kaiser is genuinely so interesting yoooo I find his complex personality fun frfr
I need to see a fic like this hrrtghhhgeesssdfgggtf I can’t write one myself
I am the kaiser 👑👑👑🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
