I’m trying anon bc I’m a bit scared…social anxiety and all that other stuff. Also because I’m new and this is my first ask to you.
Not a lot of good things have found their way to me. My mother is trying to deny my hypertension diagnosis and refuses to get me meds for it, my bpd has been a pain in the ass, and I keep thinking that all my friends hate me so I’m instinctively pushing them away by not talking to them. But some rational part of myself knows they don’t hate me.
But the good things that have found me so far have made me much happier. I’ve been indulging in a ship I really really love (destiel) and the show it’s from (supernatural), I’ve been eating really healthy, even more so than I usually do and I haven’t had urges to do sh in a while! I’m a month clean!! Im planning to go shopping for some clothes for when school starts and im really excited about that.
Uhmmm I yap a lot. I might go out of anon sometime soon. Also how’s your day been mama? If it’s been bad, I’m sending some hugs and love your way <333 You’re super sweet!! Can I say I love you mama? /p
Hello, and welcome, baby!
First off, I wanted to say I'm very proud of you! Not only for coming here, but for being a month clean, too!? And eating healthier That's huge, and probably takes a lot of strength!! Your mom denying hypertension is kind of silly; isn't... isn't it genetic? Forgive me if I'm wrong! But I'm very sorry, sweetheart :( At the very least, you got the diagnosis, yeah? It probably feels a lot better putting a name to the face... or the condition?
I don't know if anyone has told you this recently, so I will. You're very brave. and very strong. I've had many friends who struggle with BPD, and I've seen how strong they are.. it's inspiring, really! Especially as someone with suspected borderline,,
I don't think your friends hate you; first of all, why do you think that? You don't have to tell me, but try putting someone else in your position. if their friends treated them like that, do you think the friends hate them? Even then, I'd recommend to go and talk to them. A lot of things can be resolved so, so easily if we just talked to one another,,, I know it's scary, but at the end of the day, in my opinion, its better to talk it out than to not know what the issue was; on both sides.
I've heard of Destiel through some of my moots! I'm glad you found something that makes you happy,, and really, we need a reprieve from our daily lives,, somethings through fiction, or other!
Ahhh! Sorry for such a long response,,, I try my best to respond to every detail,, since it's all very important to me! It's okay to talk here, okay? whenever you want, If I'm not under the weather, I'll be here! And even then, I'll respond to you as soon as I can, so don't think you're bothering me, okay?
Thank you very much! And yes, you can! Mama loves you too!
