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lydiaajeffries‌:

“Things are better now. A lot better.” Lydia nodded as she leaned on her side. “I think Nate is really starting to forgive me for being the worst human alive now and I’m just hoping we can get back to a the place we were at before I ruined everything.”

“You’re not the worst person,” she sighed before nudging her friend as hard as she could, which isn’t a lot because she’s weak af right now. “You just... were put in a difficult situation and had to come up with some kind of solution.” she let her head fall gently on her friend’s shoulder. “I know what that’s like, trust me. It doesn’t mean you’re an awful person, you were just put in an awful position.”

lydiaajeffries‌:

Lydia hurried to her medicine cabinet to grab some pain pills for Jodi. When she returned she frowned at the other girls question, finding the idea that she could ever get sick of Jodi ridiculous. “You can show up on my doorstep a sloppy mess for the next 50 years and I’ll still be happy to see you every single time.” She handed Jodie the pillows as she took a seat on the bed. “Besides you’ve been with me through pretty shitty times so it’s the very least I can do in return.”

“Which reminds me,” she bit down on her lip and took another sip of water before looking back at Lydia. “How have you been feeling about... everything? And... I mean, how are you and Nate?” she frowned slightly. “Is everything okay with you two again?”

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Lydia couldn’t help but laugh a little as she struggled to open the bottle, but after a few moments took it from her and easily removed the lid. “There you go, pretty.” Smiling softly at her words, she laid down beside Jodi. “I wish I was there too. Although I’d like to avoid the awful hangover I’m sure you’re experiencing rght now.”

Jodi mouthed “thank you” before taking the bottle back from her friend and taking a few big chugs. “I don’t blame ya,” she laughed slightly before wincing and placing her head in her hands. “Got any Aspirin, nurse sweets?” she watched as the girl walked over to her bathroom to grab her some medicine. “You ever get sick of me?” It was a random question, but one she had been thinking about lately. “I mean, I would be, especially showing up on your doorstep as a sloppy mess.”

#Im pretty sure her nickname was sweets.... but I HONESTLY CANT REMEMBER LMAO

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jodigibbs‌:

Let’s just say Jodi got hella drunk and is now just laying in Lydia’s bed cause she slept over cause she was too sloppy to go home, ok thx.

Anyway, Jodi looks up at the brunette before groaning and covering her eyes with her arm. “Could you not lecture me right now?”

“Who says I’m lecturing?” Lydia rolled her eyes and handed Jodi a bottle of water. “Drink this. Maybe I just want to hear about what a good time you had.”

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Jodi half smiled, grabbing the bottle from her friend, attempting to open it, but failing. “Little help?” she asked, waving the bottle slightly. “I wish I could remember,” she mumbled. “I wished you were there though, I remember that much.”

lydiaajeffries

“Did you enjoy yourself last night?”

jodigibbs

Let’s just say Jodi got hella drunk and is now just laying in Lydia’s bed cause she slept over cause she was too sloppy to go home, ok thx.

Anyway, Jodi looks up at the brunette before groaning and covering her eyes with her arm. “Could you not lecture me right now?”

jodigibbs

"Are you taking his side against me?

lydiaajeffries

“No, of course not! I would never.. I just think you should try to see it from his perspective.”

jodigibbs

She made a face. “And what exactly is Nate’s perspective?”

lydiaajeffries

jodigibbs‌:

She made a face. “And what exactly is Nate’s perspective?”

“His perspective is similar to yours. You both want the same thing. My happiness.”

jodigibbs

lydiaajeffries‌:

“His perspective is similar to yours. You both want the same thing. My happiness.”

“And is doing this really making you happy?”

#IDK EITHER OK BUT IM ROLLING WITH IT #maybe they're talking about her job *eye emoji*

jodigibbs

"Are you taking his side against me?

lydiaajeffries

“No, of course not! I would never.. I just think you should try to see it from his perspective.”

jodigibbs

She made a face. “And what exactly is Nate’s perspective?”

"Are you taking his side against me?

#look i miss jodi and lydia pls love her

lydiaajeffries

“Are you kidding me? We’re not ‘fine’!”

jodigibbs

“---I’m uh...sorry? ... What did I do now?”

lydiaajeffries‌:

Lydia felt like she was going to be sick. She didn’t want to tell Jodi what happened, not one bit. Instead she wanted to repress the entire experience so deeply, it’d take hynosis to bring it out. But she had to– she had to get it out and aside from Nate, Jodi was the only person on the planet the girl trusted. “I did something really bad.”

Jodi felt a lump form in her throat, she was getting more and more anxious. “Wh---What kind of bad thing?” she got closer to the girl. “Lydia, are you okay?”

lydiaajeffries‌:

“You remember the whole.. cam girl stuff I told you about months ago?”

She nodded slowly. “Yeah...” she could see her friend was having trouble trying to explain everything so Jodi placed her hand on top of Lydia’s. “C’mon, you can tell me anything, sweets.”