Philip and Aurora Chapter 4
“Mr. O’Donnel!” Mrs. Strickland shouted. “Sleeping again. No one sleeps in my class. If you’re not interested in my class, well then, door’s always open.”
“I’m sorry ma’am. Just...” I apologized and try to explain but...
“No more reasons. Now answer the problem on the board.”
After answering the question, I got back to my seat. I don’t know why but I remembered our memories.
“You really didn’t understand finding LCD?” she asked.
“Yeah, duh!” I said. “Not just LCD. Whole math! I really don’t understand the point of studying math. I knew how to add, subtract, multiply, and divide.”
“Yeah. Whatever. You really hate mathematics. While me, I really love math.” She bragged.
“Opposite attracts!” I said. Yeah, she really love math. She even wanna be a math teacher.
“Bro, you okay?” A husky voice asked. Suddenly my senses were back. It’s dismissal. Day’s over, finally.
“Oh yeah. What’s up?” I greeted in response to him, Carllyle. We started to walk out of the room.
“I’m great. But you, I’m asking you.”
“Yeah. It seems that you’re not with you. Like your mind is somewhere out there.”
“Nah, I just feel sick.” I lied. As we were walking to the locker hall, we saw something nasty, disgusting, and inappropriate.
“Sick? Or sick of love?” Carllyle said.
“Love? I don’t need love. Love doesn’t exist. It’s just chemical reaction in our brain. There’s no such thing as love. A true man doesn’t need a babe” I grumbled. I walked out of the locker hall. I can’t take it. Carllyle followed me.
“Yep, dude. Can’t you see them? They’re disgusting. They’re kissing. Almost making love. Showing their love in public. In school.” I growled. I just can’t understand her. I mean them.
“Dude, not a big deal. NOT A BIG DEAL. We’re seniors. 18 above, it’s legal.” He reasoned.
“But please not in public.” I sighed. “I gotta go. Maybe I need some rest.”
“Aren’t we...” He probably plan something like hanging out with him, but... “Fine, I think you really need A LOT of rest.”
I came home at 4:36 in the afternoon. Sun’s almost down.
“How’s school?” My mother asked.
“Great.” I lied. I walk straight to my room.
I lie down on my bed. I closed my eyes then sleep.
It was 7:21 when I woke up. As I open my eyes, I saw my diary/journal/whatever you called beside my head. I tried to move cause my body aches. I get the diary/journal/whatever you called and stand up. I walk to my study table and sat on the chair. I rubbed my watery eyes before I opened the diary/journal/whatever you called. I started to continue reading it.
Can we skip to the part when Gellie and I are still sweet, inlove, and you know. Fine, I’ll just summarize. Every month we had a special date. Like we’re going on a restaurant. But, let’s skip to the part I gave her flowers, chocolates, and a big teddy bear which she named it Ellie. El for Elyar and Lie for Gellie. Let’s skip to the part I slept with her every weekend. Let’s skip to the moment of our kisses, cuddlings etc. Let’s skip to the part we went into a beach with our family. Let’s skip to the part of our graduation. Let’s skip to the part we were holding our hands while promising that we’ll be together until college. Skip to the part we were biking, bonding, malling, walking, running. Probably skip everything.
I woke up with a big smile on my face. I don’t know but I’m in a good mood today.
A good day to bike. I started biking. I passed at Ellie’s house, well I passed here almost everyday. But this is different. As I was biking, someone shouted.
I stop biking and look back. The voice doesn’t seems familiar but how does a stranger know my name.
“Elyar.” The girl with dark hair and dark eyes said. Her smile is familiar. She wore sparkling yellow dress. She seems familiar.
“Ellie?” I asked like I’m not sure if it was her.
“Yeah. How are you? Wow. You really changed a lot. Shoulders broader than I expected. Voice deeper. Height taller. Face, well face. You look more mature and handsome.” She look at me from head to toe, as if I’m new to her.
“Well, yeah. Thanks. You too. Uhm, more beautiful. And more talkative.” I blurted. We laughed.
“Oh yeah.” She raised an eyebrow.
“I mean. You... You...” I bit my lower lip.
“Nah. Just kidding.” She punched my arm. “So can I join you?”
“You busy? Aren’t you going anywhere?”
“Just a moment. I’ll go get my bike.”
We biked together. While biking, we were chatting about our lives. How’s my place? How’s London? How’s high school here and in London?
“Well, life at London is good. At first, it was hard. You know home-sickness. But I just got used to it.” She said.
“Oh. So don’t you have any friends there?” I asked.
“Of course, I have at least 3 bestfriends. Rache, Sadie, Liz and Emma. They’re all kind. We hang out a lot. They’re ok.”
“Oh. Uhm. Can I ask you a question?”
“Yeah. Sure. But before that can we take a rest for a while on the park?” She requested.
“Oh yeah. Sure. That’s a good idea.”
She sat on a bench in the park, while I bought some snacks at the food stands that we could eat.
“So what were you saying?” she said.
“Ah, yeah. That can I ask if...”
“If?” she asked with mouthful of chips.
“If you have or had, you know a boyfriend there?” I finally asked.
“Boyfriend?” she laughed. “No, I didn’t have one.”
Gosh thanks. I don’t know why, but I was relieved. After all, I have a girlfriend.
“But I have a suitor. His name is Adam.”
“Adam?” I almost swallow my food without even chewing it.
“Yeah. Adam Smith.” She added. I coughed. Is he an economist? Reincarnated. “You okay?”
“Yeah. I’m fine.” I can feel my nose were getting red. “So about him?”
“Well, he’s cute. Blonde hair. Got this appeal. He has a good taste in fashion. He has this sparkling blue eyes. Dimples. He’s quite muscular. A jock type, actually. But, I just don’t know if he’s really serious, you know with me.” She explained.
“What do you mean great?” she asked.
“Great. I mean, great you have many friends and... and a suitor. I think your life there is great.” That was close.
“Nah. I almost died there.”
“Yep. A guy once offered me drugs. But, duh, I don’t use drugs. So he tried to punched me but good thing that my brother arrived.”
“Then what happened with the guy?”
“Well, luckily he got jailed.” She said.
We did chat a lot. But as I was writing this, I forgot some of the thing we had talked. I just remember her smile, beautiful and gorgeous face. Little didn’t I know, It was already 12:03 afternoon. I forgot. It was in my head earlier. Oh gosh, I’m dead. I check my phone. 32 missed calls from Gellie.
When I reach the mall, I was nearly dying. I look around but she was nowhere to found.
Someone knocked on my door. “Yes?”
“Don’t you wanna eat?” She asked in response. It was my mother. She cocked her head in.
“Uhm. I think so. I think I don’t have the apetite.”
She finally get in my room. “You know what since you came back home, you seems tired, not just physically. I know this cause I’m your mother. So would you mind telling the truth?”
“Nah. It’s just... It’s... It’s Gellie” I stuttered.
“I saw her and her boyfriend.”
“You still love her?” She asked.
“Yeah. But I...” I answered.
“You know her. Just remember what she just wants to you. She did not love you. She’s not worth loving. She’ s...”
I cut her words. “Yeah mom. I know. I just don’t know why I felt pain whenever I see her with other boy. I don’t if I still love her or I just kept forcing myself to. After all she’s my first love.”
“First love never last” she muttered. “You know what, you shouldn’t be thinking of this. Why not join us in our dinner. Food’s almost ready.”
“Yeah. Good idea.” I agreed sadly.