This passage reminds me of the thin line between self-worth and desire. The final questions “Isn’t this worth it? Isn’t she worth it?” both can be taken within the context of sex (which is exactly what’s happening in the passage).
Isn’t it worth it to feel this good? To have someone’s undivided attention on you, IN you. Knowing you’re making them feel good too. Aren’t you worth it?
Sometimes it’s easy to directly connect sex to self-worth. That feeling is like a drug, especially if it’s not getting validated anywhere else.
But desire does not equate to self-worth. Only YOU can decide your worth. This happens through your actions, the choices you make, the choices you don’t make. The choices that were really hard to make but you had to do it, FOR YOURSELF.
This scene hit home for me as I’m someone who teeters between self-worth and desire time and time again. The desire always seems worth it. I’m mentally mature now, I can handle it. I LOVE myself, so long as I’m guarded I can get what I want from this.
Wrong.
I forgot that I’m a romantic. I can’t take my feelings out of anything even if I think I’m pretending. (I LOVE YOU! 😭)
And I get my feelings hurt in the end no matter what.
I know I’m worth it. And there are many ways that aren’t sex to validate that.
So, is it worth it?

















