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I found the solution to my husband not being interested in sex lately.

Have lesbian affairs. He previously stated he didn't see that as cheating he just doesn't wanna hear about it. So when the cat's away, or more accurately, at work, the other pussy's will play....together ;)

struggling

I just realized what it is that's troubling me so deeply. I was prepared to face ANYTHING the world threw at Sam and I. I can handle anything we face TOGETHER. But what if what's hurting me and making me sad is coming from him and he doesn't know how to fix it??? what then? I'm not so prepared for that. Not at all. I don't know how to fix this. idk what I'm doing wrong

it feels like all the passion and desire we held together is just gone. there is no drive to be physically together. there's no pull on his end to be with me in that way. I feel like his fucking roommate and idk how to deal with it. every time I confront him he gets SO defensive. but that isn't helping solve anything. what do I do?

what do u do when all u want is passion and desire and TO BE WANTED by ur husband and you never fucking get it??? what do u do when every time u try to initiate something and be sexy he gets MAD that ur "pressuring him"??? I'm sorry I want a fucking husband not a roommate? idk what to do. it's making me bitter and idk how to stop that happening. I'm not satisfied. I'm not happy. I love him more than life but he's letting me down so much.

have you ever been really frustrated with with your partner because they seem to have NO LIBIDO at all while you're literally BEGGING for them to want you??? My husband and I are going through that now. he just isn't feeling interested or sexual in any way. I understand he works Anton, he works over 10 hours a day and I GET THAT. But I go to school I take care of our home I take care of our bunny I do laundry and dishes and my schoolwork and IM TIRED TOO. But I also want to feel like A WIFE. I'm sick of feeling like his fucking roommate. I'm frustrated and hurt and angry and I just want him to want me! I dress sexy I come onto him I do everything I can think of to make him want me. but it isn't enough. he just isn't "in the mood" according to him. and it's making me angry because I do EVERYTHING a good wife does. and it STILL isn't enough?! I don't get it. am I not sexy enough? am I not desirable enough? do I not out enough effort into it? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?? I just want intimacy and passion back in our life. I feel like it's dead and idk why. we don't love each other less, we aren't less attracted to each other, we aren't harming each other or lying or cheating or ANYTHING BAD. we are good partner's to each other, except in this respect! he doesn't serve my needs in ANY WAY. and idk why. it's making me angry and bitter and I drink too much because I want to forget and it ISNT WORKING. I just want our passion back.

#personal

straight up fuck this class. I bust ass writing this paper and follow her instructions and she has the fucking audacity to email me and tell me I didn't follow the guidelines because I didn't use enough terms from the book in my essay and I'm "consistently vague" no the fuck I'm not and SHE NEVER GAVE A NUMBER OF THEM WE HAD TO USE. Like you don't get to give vague as fuck guidelines and then when someone's paper isn't EXACTLY what you wanted you grade based on guidelines YOU NEVER GAVE US IN THE INSTRUCTIONS. C- my fucking ass. I absolutely NEVER have gotten less than a B on any paper I've written in my LIFE. Writing is what I'm good at, always has been. But apparently not to this woman. She literally has tried to fail me all semester even though I've gone above and beyond on every assignment.

journalofajunkie

Ever since you told me you hope to propose to me by the holidays this year, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it. How lucky I am, how happy I am, how excited I am to get to be your fiancé and eventually your wife… I never thought in a million years that I’d be saying this at this point in my life, but I know in my soul you are the man I am meant to spend my life with. I love you more than I even thought possible, and every day I feel my love for you grow deeper and deeper. If these past few difficult months have showed me anything it’s that I never want to be without you like that again. You have me completely - heart, body, and soul, and I wouldn’t want it any other way. I will love you for the rest of my days.

I keep imagining different scenarios of you proposing, me saying yes, us picking out our rings, me finding the perfect dress, and finally getting to walk down the aisle and see your reaction as you take in the sight of me walking towards you all dressed in white just moments away from finally becoming your wife. I have never looked forward to anything so much before, I absolutely cannot wait for this day to come. Every time I go see you we talk about our future and our plans and you introduce me as your fiancé-to-be and I smile like a fool because I’m just so happy to be with you and to know you want this and me forever, nothing makes me happier than knowing that. We certainly don’t have a perfect life, nor do we have an easy one, but what we have is worth every struggle we’ve been through and will face in the future a hundred times over. You mean everything to me, and I can’t wait to share the rest of my life with you. I love you more than anything in this world, and I’ve never been more grateful for anyone in all my life. Thank you for loving me truly and completely and for choosing to spend your life by my side, I couldn’t be happier to have you. You’re my best friend, my copilot, my partner in crime, adventure buddy, lover, and soulmate and I’m so lucky to have found you.

journalofajunkie

so he proposed for real June 26th 2018. I was out to eat with my mom and he kept calling me asking when I was coming home and he made me think there was some kind of emergency so I raced home after dinner, little did I know he wanted to know because he wanted to make sure I didn't run into him leaving the jeweler ACROSS FROM THE RESTAURANT I WAS AT, so I get home and I'm asking him what's going on and I go to plug in my phone and I'm like "hang on lemme get this plugged in first....." and I then around and BAM out comes the little box and the diamond ring. "do you still want to marry me?" and of course I said yes!

journalofajunkie

I can’t wait to go home to you every night and wake up with you every morning. I can’t wait to make you blueberry pancakes on a Sunday morning and give you sleepy goodbye kisses before you go off to work during the week. I can’t wait to have our first Christmas in our own little home together. I can’t wait for all of it, I can’t wait to spend my forever with you.

journalofajunkie

We did it. We really did it. We had our first beautiful Christmas in our own home, we made countless batches of blueberry and m&m pancakes on the weekends, and every day I kiss you goodbye before work. We spent so many long years searching for the light at the end of the tunnel, and now we're living in it.

andrdgrlfrnd

do you know how fucking relieving it is to not be addicted to drugs anymore like fuck i keep seeing posts from addicts and finding money to get drugs and then getting the drugs is SO FUCKING EXHAUSTING

sobrietyplease

True

journalofajunkie

now I'm basically sober I feel this so hard. if someone isn't bringing the drugs directly to my door I'm not even gonna try to get any lmao

journalofajunkie

I’ve never read a horoscope that made me cry before but this one did. I’m working for so much right now, my baby and I are working for so much right now, and reading this helps me believe we can do this. I will get clean, we will find work, we will find a place to call home, and we will finally make it. Honestly if they weren’t always so painfully accurate I wouldn’t believe in horoscopes, but mine are always so spot on it’s scary, so I really hope nothing’s changed there and that’s the case with this one because we fucking need this. We need to make it. Please let this be for real.

forev3r-st0ned

I’m a virgo too babe!

nytek9-deactivated20181129

Sept 9th three of us #virgo

journalofajunkie

Oh really? I’m the 10th!

journalofajunkie

update - it's 2019 now and we made it. we have a home and a house and a car and a bunny and a big diamond ring and I graduate soon and Sammy has a good job. we did it. we really did it.

I'm broke af and all I want is to get high like wtf why does this always happen to me

flowertaurus

i don’t need boys, and i don’t need girls, and i don’t need friends. because i have heroin, klonopin, cigarettes, frozen yogurt, and coffee

queenheroin

it pisses me the fuck off when people brag about all the dope they do and all the fun they have, and they just started doing it

“just sniffed like 3 lines man i’m fucked up!!” yea you just started doing it idiot, hit me up in a few months and tell me how fun it is now

“i’m only gunna use it once in awhile i’ll make sure i don’t get addicted and i’m never ever gunna shoot it up that’s nasty” sure buddy, keep tellin yourself that idiot

journalofajunkie

People like this drive me crazy. Like quit while you're ahead bud. You're gonna get fucked in the end.