Confessions

I don't know what I'm doing, this is just some miscellaneous stuff...

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“My mind is a house with walls covered in pain // See my problem is a don’t try to fix things, I just try to repaint”

-NF, Mansion

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a promise to myself

Most days I don’t want to get up because I fear history will repeat itself

And most days I can’t fall asleep because I concern myself with your selfish mindset too often

But today, I won’t let our sunken ship get in the way of my successful voyages to come

And tonight I promise to let go of the past, so that you can suffer in your repentance alone

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I don’t suffer because I can’t understand your reasoning,

I am strong because I refuse to justify your actions and make me the villain

~journiblog

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Your betrayals gave my insecurities their motive

~Journi~

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As I paced the aisles of awkwardness

My feet danced upon the tiles of embarrassment

In the shadows of my mind

I felt a feeling I’d never entertained before

The corners of my imagination desired a companion, but hope was not she

~Journi~

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I've forgotten what my own voice sounds like I've forgotten what it's like for my faucet to not leak I can no longer differentiate between loneliness and being alone I no longer know the luxury of temporary pain

~Journi~