Remember in like 2018 or smth when jojo siwa’s hairline was like receding cause she always wore it in high, tight pony tails?
Well im honestly surprised it hasnt happened to rumi yet. Girl has been wearing that braid for the last 20 years and somehow every follicle on her head is still there
Know I'm not a good person and I just have self control
Because like I just recorded a 14 minute voice memo that boiled down to "I hate you, kys" listened to it back, realized it was kinda crazy and deleted it
At no point in the recording of that message did I think "hm, I'm being a bit mean and insane" I just kept going...
At least this is not and not two years ago or it would've probably ended up sent, why am I like actually evil?
Saw one of those "what did you survive this year?" posts and I'm not trauma dumping in someone's reblogs so.... 2025 recap because its been one thing after another I swear
January: deeply deeply depressed and disappointed I'm alive considering I attempted suicide like the month before. I'm also sad because I realized my boyfriend has never called me pretty and I'm scared he thinks I'm ugly but according to our friends he constantly tells them how pretty I am.
Overall fine but little did I know what was coming for me....
ALSO my favorite soda got ruined for me.
February: my boyfriend and friend got really close and constantly spent time together and everytime I wanted to hangout it was "can't I'm with [friend]" or "I'm with [friend] but you can join!" and I'll admit I maybe took it harder than necessarybut....
It comes to a head on valentines day when he ignores me for five hours straight and I cry like 6 times in school. I'M WORRIED. I message our friend to check on him, he replies to friend instantly, I crash out, he apologizes and says he'll make it up to me. The date to make it up to me turns into a group hangout with the friend who he's been ignoring me for and that friends partner(who is also our friend.) He keeps encouraging me to go to bed because I seem delirious and tired(I've cried my eyes out 6 times at that point and drank 0 water.) I decide to leave the hangout and go to bed because I'm pissed off and feel unwanted. I sob for the seventh time that day before finally going to sleep.
The rest of the month is fine outside of teen angst
boyfriend is attentive
March: my phone breaks and my dog dies.
More on my dog dying my dog dies because he ate SOS pads and my parents took him to the vet on their own and putting him down without letting us know anything that was going on or letting us say goodbye and lowkey just coming back home and telling us they put him down.
I am still mad about it.
My phone dying means I get to talk to my boyfriend less.
April: New Phone!! Yay!!!
Boyfriend is distant and borderline mean with his teasing. Talks to friend more than me again.
My parents are fighting and I'm in the middle of it trying to play both sides because my brother used to be my moms emotional support but he invested in boundaries so now I have to be overly involved with both of my parents.
My mom is now forcing me to sleep in her bed because my father is sleeping in the guest room
Oh hey new friends!!! One of them is a trans chaser and keeps calling me her twink.
May: My attendance is so bad I'm being threatened with not moving onto the next grade level and my teachers are all separately giving me the generic "you're too smart to throw away your education like this, I know you know the material, your scores on the assignments you do do say so, why cant you just apply yourself and do all your assignments?" speeches.
I confront boyfriend about being distant again, he blames it on me.
My friends are accusing me of being an addict because of how often I'm high. they aren't incorrect but they also aren't correct.
I feel like really ugly
June: boyfriend asks me stop getting high, I agree.
Every other sentence is "I miss weed"
I break up with my boyfriend for two seconds(weeks) and then take him back because he was confused and sad.
My mom decides to homeschool me(this is bad)
July: I was with my grandparents for a few days and my grandpa was very interested in fatshaming me
can't remember anything happening other than that that and hating the rest of the month, I was just like sad for no reason I guess.
August: good month!!!
Everything is jolly except for the fact that I'm lowk reentering the ana trenches
I spend my birthday with my friends and it was pretty cool, so yay.
I may or may not be having a sexuality crisis
I get really into kpdh
I spend like two weeks with my grandpa whom is a raging alcoholic and also same grandpa who fatshames me from time to time. It's surprisingly pleasant!
My aunt gives me a few driving lessons so hey there's that
I meet an older girl who also has a shitty boyfriend and and we bond
September: Still highkey not eating lolsies!
Older girl is officially my best friend and I officially have a crush! I help her through her break up with her shitty boyfriend.
I realize I'm a lesbian and decide its unfair to my boyfriend to keep dating him so we break up.
She and I start flirting, we do NOT have an appropriate age gap.
The flirting is very much not appropriate
She tells me she wants to take her time with me and not jump into anything and is overall super cool and fun and sweet and pretty.
I meet one of the pookies
October: I got groomed, rip
Still starving myself
I REALLY get into kpdh
I meet pookies! Plural!
My parents leave on a trip
My phone breaks AGAIN
November: my parents come home!!
My mom has a psychotic break or something, gets arrested twice, one time the state decides to press charges on my father's behalf
My mom starts living with her parents a few hours away until the arraignment.
December: my mom is still being fucking crazy
My dad is sending me back to public school!
Life is pretty peaceful for now, I'm just tired and stressed like all the time. The smallest things set me off, it's kinda embarrassing
So first, I spent a whole week on this drawing, but also 10 minutes on it in total, it was supposed to be wayyyy more complex but I did /not/ like drawing it so I just massively simplified it. The person in the foreground looking up at the art is me! And I acc have the blonder hair tuft in a more browner blonde hair irl! My fave art piece of the year has to be the K. Howard one or the one above it. Though I really like the one right of the K. Howard one to! And that's all the yappery I have for this drawing C: