Stuff And Junk

🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️Trans Woman, she/her🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

[minty-mori]

[persbaderse]

before my egg cracked, i had noticed that trans people were often pro-accessibility and up-to-date on the needs of disabled people, but i hadn’t seen any inherent connection between the two (other than the obvious minority-looking-out-for-other-minority thing). but now that i’m trans and medically transitioning, and i have to constantly repeat myself while talking to doctors and nurses, and explain things about my own anatomy to medical staff who should already know this, and having every single problem i might have blamed on my “condition” so nothing i say is taken seriously, all of the sudden i have a little sneak peak into the life of someone who has to deal with this all the time. like shit bro, being disabled probably sucks ass, someone should do something about this

[persbaderse]

happy disability pride month, we all deserve autonomy and respect and access to medication

[dusk-posting]

people will treat you like an object that completes tasks on command and is broken if the tasks are slow or wrong and then when you start feeling like an object that complete tasks (sad, empty) they get angry at you for looking visibly experiencing the life they are forcing you to have

[fairyinthetrees]

constantly on my life's mission (learning how to be nice to myself)

[the-haiku-bot]

constantly on my

life’s mission (learning how to

be nice to myself)

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[bumblebeebats]

Sometimes little pleasures in life are loadbearing. Whenever someone is like "If you'd just give up tea and coffee and sugar and--" im like I'll stop you right there. Because if you finish that sentence i am going to kill everyone in this building and then myself. If i have to face the horrors of the world without my little jar of caramel flavoured instant coffee i am going to go full American Psycho. Believe it or not, my main priority in life is not to have perfect teeth or be an Olympic athlete or look like a supermodel, but to actually enjoy living, because I spent far too long not doing that and it royally sucked. And boy, some people don't like hearing that. Particularly dentists

[quasi-normalcy]

Mel Brooks on taking studio notes:

[fairycosmos]

fucked that you can’t fix other people especially when you really care about them. Oh so im just supposed to be there for you while you suffer. like a useless cunt gargoyle

[uncollaredcat]

reblog to make your tits bigger and more gropeable

[miiilowo]

having feelings that contradict your morals is soooo fucking annnoooooyyyiiingggggg. can the emotions and logic department get on the same page im tired of having to like strangle myself into being a tolerable person

[trans4trains]

[zulashur]

Cider is like if beer transitioned and stopped hating herself

[chrispypineappleburger]

Saw this and thought of sharing it because it is very beautiful

[the-haiku-bot]

Saw this and thought of

sharing it because it is

very beautiful

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[earthwalkerr-deactivated2026052]

ill be unstoppable once I finally heal this gaping wound

[play-now-my-lord]

going on HRT is a serious decision you should make with the utmost gravity. people might think you're cool, badass even. You might find yourself happy with your life, approaching the world with newfound wisdom one way or another. It might be what you want. It might get you off. It might just be a cool story to tell people. I, myself, found the initial experience was like I had sleepwalked through a nightmare for a quarter century - and for the first time, not just the first time I could remember but actually the first time, I was awake, and the sun was shining, and the world was beautiful. So obviously all of those are risks

[traumasurvivors]

I think anger gets a bad reputation in trauma spaces a lot of the time.

People will say things like, "Holding onto anger isn't healthy," and I understand what they're trying to say. If years go by and anger is the only place you're able to live, it can absolutely keep you stuck.

But I also think there's a difference between staying angry forever and allowing yourself to be angry while you're healing.

For a lot of survivors, anger is actually an important part of recovery. It can be the moment you stop blaming yourself. The moment you stop minimizing what happened. The moment you realize that you deserved better.

Many of us spent years making excuses for the people who hurt us. We focused on their trauma, their intentions, their struggles, and their pain. We understood them so well that we forgot to make room for our own feelings.

Sometimes anger is what creates that space.

That doesn't mean anger should be taken out on other people. It doesn't mean every angry reaction is healthy. But the feeling itself isn't automatically a problem.

Sometimes anger is simply grief with boundaries.

Sometimes it's self-respect showing up for the first time.

And sometimes it's a necessary step on the way to healing.

[traumasurvivors]

If you're sex repulsed as a result of a trauma, that's completely valid. But I want to also talk about hypersexuality, because that's valid too. And for a lot of us? We can be a bit of both whether that's both at the same time, or perhaps going back and forth.

You aren't wrong, dirty or broken for being sex repulsed, hypersexual or a mixture of both.

[demilypyro]

Hey, asking for some media analysis assistance here: Everyone is hyped about Jax TADC being a trans woman, but it feels kinda "bury your gays" to me. Like, the Vibes(tm) were there before she abstracted, but there was no confirmation at all. The only narrative exploration we get of her being trans is after her death, and it's just the final tragedy of her arc and a bridge for Pomni's arc rather than any lead-in to a more complete understanding of Jax as a character in my view. I guess you could argue that her arc ended where it was always going to, but it feels pretty bad that the trans woman is revealed as trans right as she fucking dies and exits the narrative so her only influence is everyone else grieving her. But everyone else I talk to is happy about this narrative beat, rejoicing, and so on. What am I missing?

(if you don't want to publish this because it's spoilers, understandable, no worries)

I mean, frankly, I think that's just kind of an uncharitable interpretation.

Long story short, Jax's death is kinda the point of the story. Jax didn't just die *because* she was trans, she died because she couldn't trust others enough to overcome her personal trauma, and that's where the tragedy comes from. She was punished for sharing something personal with her mother, and that trauma meant she couldn't make genuine connections with the people around her. She became isolated and self-hating, and then died alone. It's a realistic, common tragedy for someone traumatized in the way she was. She's not being killed off at the last minute for being too queer, in fact I'm willing to bet that's why it's left "ambiguous." Jax died without any of the other people in the circus or anyone in the audience really understanding why, and we only truly come to understand why she acted the way she did because Pomni works so hard to find out. Jax being trans is an important part of the recipe here, but it's not the sole reason she died.

People are happy because this is a very human story. It's a sad one, but it's real, it's true to life. Our stories are often sad. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't be happy to see our stories represented in such a big way. Digital Circus started out as a super tiny production, but it became gigantic almost immediately. How many indie web shows do you know that have theatrical releases? For a deeply human story about a traumatized trans woman to play out on such a big stage... Like it or not, it's a landmark moment. So of course people are happy. It feels like we got away with something huge. This doesn't typically happen.

[captain-price-returns]