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🎗Philiah🏳️‍🌈No. 1 Sigma kisser, more on @sigmas-lover🇵🇸 Tip me!

[justphilia]

你好! (ni hao)

My name is Philiah! My main interests are Your Turn to Die, Bungou Stray Dogs, Mob Psycho and Dungeon Meshi. I'm also a selfshipper! If you found me because I interacted with your selfship content, my blog is @/sigmas-lover!

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Checking my straw page is not necessary, but very appreciated!

General knowledge about me:

I’m a major (in my 20's) and I’ve got ADHD.

I am a he/her girlboy!!!

And as the greeting suggests; I am Chinese :)

Fun fact for mutuals

I’m a writer! Did you know that?

Ao3 Account!

List of Mob Psycho Things I wanted to write.

Here’s a work of mine that I very much consider as a good standalone! You don’t have to know the fandom to understand!

Currently writing:

Detective OC story

OC stuff

Pinescone enemies to lover thing

And if you like what I do, consider buying me a kofi :)

Commissions are opened!

[the-irreverend]

And stay safe everyone!

[uniflorasymptom]

New sigma cosplay!

[ryhsrunner]

The four most interesting parts of time loop are when the person kills themselves for the first time, when they kill someone else for the first time (in a fuck around kind of way, this doesn't count if they already were killing people outside of the loop), how they break the loop, and the weeks afterward where they loose their fucking minds in an entirely different, significantly more damaging to the world around them way. And yet I rarely see anything done with that last one. People leave time loops and are all happy go lucky 'oh boy'. Where's the grappling with people you know who will never know you? Where's the knowledge that the safety of the loop is gone, and you can't fix any mistakes you make? That's the good angst I want

[scribbyizhere]

@pillowspace

[pillowspace]

YAY! YAY! YAY! THE HORROR OF A TIME LOOP AND ITS IMPACT!

[holohedral]

i am not well understood. which is also my fault

[celecatto]

i dont let them research me

[benetnvsch]

Happy pride

[hemipenal-system]

"why when someone mentions trans butches is it always transmasc butches? why are there never any transfem butches" well you also post about how you think all masculinity is toxic masculinity so if i'm being honest i think you probably treat transfem butches like shit and they don't like interacting with you

[hemipenal-system]

“what’s with the endless talk about he/him transmasc butches but there’s never the same for transfem butches” well see it’s actually the same reason there’s seemingly a dearth of AMABed nonbinary people! it’s because you treat them like fucking dogshit!

everyone in the trans community, including way too many trans women who call themselves transfeminists, plays this funny little game where if you’re transfemme you have to look as close to being a cis woman as possible and if you don’t it means you have internalized transmisogyny or you’re idolizing transmisogynistic caricatures. there’s “no” transfem butches because if you want to be masculine and transfem, you simultaneously have to deal with all the people who think you’re a predatory man and all the people who think you only want to be butch because you don’t understand your gender and the way it’s oppressed well enough.

it’s harder to find masculine trans women because being a masculine trans woman fucking sucks. ask me how i know this

[luckyladylily]

Yeah, it's a fucking problem. It's really insulting coming from everyone else, but how vile the trans femme community is to any trans woman or trans femme who is masculine feels like a personal betrayal. Being stabbed in the back by the people who should have your back most. I'm not even masculine by choice but it's really fucking clear the online trans femme community isn't for me anymore.

[callizinc]

When the story has a sequence where the characters each get personally tortured with their exact personalized greatest fears and traumas

[lakeyyyyu]

Responding this screenshot, yknow, cause, yknow.

[midnightinshadow]

[alamochaaa-a]

you so androgynous it's like if a man and a woman had a baby

[raibura]

Be honest do you think your mental illness/mood disorder makes you more creative funny or interesting

Yes

No

Results

Voting ended on4h

[kaylmao]

[kaylmao]

[ava-deb]

@lgbtqcreators​ creator meme: [5/8] lgbtq+ celebs "I had to free my own mind of what, at that time, what I felt like masculine adrogynous energy looks like. I was living in my own binary, and I was like there's no way that I can be androgynous with bigger boobs now. How I feel inside is the thing that I needed to work through." — JANELLE MONÁE

[annabelle--cane]

I think the core difference between the book and movie versions of ryland grace is that, while both are desperately afraid of taking action, book!grace's fear stems from the fact that he doesn't want to be hurt, whereas as for movie!grace it's that he genuinely thinks he's incapable of doing anything meaningful.

compare how they react to remembering they were forced onto the ship:

in the book, he stands around in numb ashamed shock at his cowardice for a minute before deciding, against rocky's better judgement, that they should voluntarily subject the hail mary to a six g force again to get the lab equipment up and running instead of just waiting eleven days to get back to the blip-A, and it hurts him a lot and he ends up passing out from it. he locates the problem in his memory as being that he was too caught up in concern for his own wellbeing, so he tries to counterbalance it by opting to do something bizarrely personally risky so they can get back to work more quickly. his refrain in his memories is "I don't want to die."

in the film, he remembers it all and then he's back to his old self when saying his farewells to rocky. his emotional vulnerability is gone, his walls are back up, he tries to leave without saying a real goodbye before rocky continues the conversation, and he rejects being called "brave." all his weeks of learning to do the scary thing so he can care for someone and be cared about are just gone. he locates the problem in his memory as being that he as a person is simply not brave; he lacks the gene for it and isn't capable of real accomplishment; he'd thought he could grow and change and he was wrong. his refrain in his memories is "I can't do it."

[annabelle--cane]

the same thing shakes out in the two versions of the scene where he convinces stratt to let him stay on the project after the "astrophage are water-based" fiasco, or, as I like to call it for short "watergate." let us examine:

in the book, he suddenly gets terrified that a good portion of students are going to literally die of starvation in twenty years, so he storms back to the lab and demands that stratt (the most powerful person in the world, has all possible authority, commands the actual US army) give him some astrophage to study. stratt initially thinks this is because he's upset that his one original idea / thing he staked his whole career on got disproved and that he wants to soothe his ego by doing further high-profile work, and while she's sympathetic, it doesn't make her budge. what actually convinces her is when he says he doesn't care about his ego or the fact that he was wrong and that he's really just here to try and save his students. the last time he got publicly shot down he just retreated from the source of humiliation so he wouldn't have to face it, so being willing to square up with the scariest woman alive and go back into this field for the sake of others despite being known as infamous within it is a big change in form for him.

in the film, he tells stratt he's the kind of annoying self-advocating person she's looking for, but then he shies away from it when she asks directly if he wants to be on the project. that's not a question she really needs to ask, obviously he wants to be on the project, he wouldn't have started this conversation with her if he didn't, so her asking isn't actually a measure of his desire but rather a test of if he really has the backbone he's claiming to possess. his first response of "if you think I can help..." is very true to form, he's shrinking back from admitting his own want by asking someone else if they think he's competent enough to be worthy of what he wants, but when prompted again he says "yes, I want to." it's uncharacteristic for him because willingly engaging in something challenging and high-stakes implicitly says he desires it and thinks he can handle it.

and--this is the fun part--him saying that in the movie is what lets stratt accept him onto the project, but it isn't what convinces her; she's already left him the samples at that point, she already knew she wanted him as an asset, but she needed him to prove his want to confirm that he is the kind of person she thinks he is, which he does.

[eptck]

you have to be kinder to people with memory issues.

you have to be kinder to people who are slow processors.

you have to be kinder to people who don't understand your jokes.

you have to be kinder to people who forget important dates.

you have to be kinder to people with cognitive decline.

you have to be kinder to people who were always this way, too.

you have to be kind. you have to be kind.