'A' hoarder

Current obsessions- BBC Merlin, Game Changers/Heated Rivalry, AFTG| 21 | disabled

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I think I havent done an actual introduction post so here we go

Hello unlucky onlookers!

I am a writer here to feed my brain rot and occasionally post about my actual writings and ff as well as just ships I adore and things I read and vent and well, hang around, lazy about, blahblahblah

FANDOMS I HAVE/WILL POST ABOUT: Marauders, Percy Jackson, Stranger Things, F1, Merlin, Young Royals, Awae, AFTG, 9-1-1, Klance, TSOA, Étoile, Game Changers, Project Hail Mary

Find me on Ao3 here for some fics but most will be posted first here as well as some one shots, fluff and just in general, more stuff might be here.

MORE ABOUT ME

I'm Latin and speak spanish and english fluently, bit of french and asl. I am Aroace agender, I L O V E music to an unhealthy point. Im disabled, I have two dogs but want a cat. I was a high intensity athlete before the chronic pain kicked in (so I got REAL good athlete au's), I studied film and quit uni (in it again) while I work full time, I ramble. A lot. Like a lot. As you can see...

So thats all you have to know about me and CONGRATS you know more about me that most!!

I love questions, especially about my work. If you have prompts or have one shot ideas Im always open for more! I'm always open for new mutuals and, yeah, thats about it!

Have fun on my page and good night!

Little disclosiour

Vent posts are also very common here, mostly about said disabilities and just my depression in general, some dark thoughts that can be triggering can be found so if your not comfortable with that then this may not be the page for you and thats completely fine. My mind can go to darker places sometimes so please take with caution most of my writings and posts. It's not *dark* dark but take it with a grain of salt?

Anyways, thanks for stopping by and have a great day!

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Oh god, its starting

*opens doc*

[hrgifs]

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Learning a new language for self fulfillment, wanting to communicate with more people, desire to learn: Boo, boring, overdone and uninspiring

Learning a new language to interact with more fandom: Intuitive, whimsical, absolutely brilliant

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having supportive but homophobic parents is weird bc I want their imput on my book but its about lesbians and i dont wanna get disowned. Like cmon guys :/

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Life is hard but at least I dont have the yakuza chasing me after my mome stole a shit ton of money and spent my entire life running only to watch her die and be recruted by someone who is also part of said yakuza and eatched my dad butcher a man when we were kids but doesnt remember me and then bad mouth said yakuzas son and have all that hiding be for nothing as they drag me back and I have to get torchured by them and then sliced and burned by my fathers people and then play against them and win so the older brother shoots the youngest in front of me and then be indebted to the yakuza for the rest of my life, so its not that bad in the end

[bambistjames]

non-writers will never understand the mental illness of writing an entire conversation in your head while doing dishes and then forgetting every word the second you open a blank doc

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do you think if Merlin was an actual person still wondering earth, and as a sidequest did the BBC Merlin show, would he feel a sense of vindication or regret seeing (read: ao3 fix its) all the ways the story could have ended if he told Arthur about his magic?

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Is anyone else getting an error opening ao3 or it loading suuuuuper slow or is it just me?

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I miss who I was before the pain sm guys its not even funny

[moonleafy]

Everyday (1-2 times a year) I persist through the horrors (talk to a doctor about my chronic issues) and succeed (cry for 10 hours after)

[1anonyymous1]

a feeling you just cant explain..

[itsmisshighhorse]

Grief accompanied by a deep longing.

I can't explain it.

(loss)

[spending-life-pretending]

when I’m watching the quirky ballet show my mom likes and I can feel the blorbo disease spreading inside me every time that obnoxious but earnest little french freak and his absolute pathetic menace of an american choreographer think about each other onscreen

[thatsthewrongwallcraig]

Write it shitty, write it scared, write it without a clue but don't you be so spineless and have an AI write fanfic for you.

[eyra]

works made by AI are not fanfiction, because they’re not fan-made. you didn’t write shit. you didn’t create shit. you are not a writer; you are not a creator. this isn’t art, this isn’t storytelling. this is just embarrassing for you.

if a single line of your work was made by generative AI then you should be fucking mortified.

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Guys, im in the trenches (reading Klance)

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Chapters: 6/7 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Maddie Buckley Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Maddie Buckley, Bobby Nash Additional Tags: Chronic Pain, Buck deals with the long term effects of him almost dying multiple times, Hurt/Comfort, dealing with chronic pain, Bucks blatant disregard for his health, Evan "Buck" Buckley Needs A Hug, The Buckley siblings are best friends, Pre-Relationship, Minor Character Death, Happy Ending, Established Relationship, We skip the get together woops Summary:

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Im actually so insanley proud of how this chap came out.This has tk be the hardest thing ive written (and re-written) ever probs. But its been a very hard chap to write because it deals with a lot I'm still struggling with. Especially as i had to see it from Eddie’s (or a non chronically ill) person. In my little self centered brain, I still struggle with the thought that my illness and pain can cause others discomfort bc a) I'm in pain and can't verbalize that and b), I have never had that care or a person who sees me or believes me (or simply acknowledges) my pain. So, for me, “acknowledging” is having to scream and yell to be heard about my pain, throttle them until the information is understood and still having to fight for this acceptance and additional care they have to provide  (with bitterness from them or still residual disbelief). And that's not… nice. 

But, well, these dumbasses don't have that. And idk how to writer that :’) (also welcoming people's suggestions for changes that need to be made or if something is not written very well or could be harming, please tell me) As the general thought for fanfics, I am fully using this as my own therapy (I did cry while writing this stfu) bc this is for me mostly but I hope one of yall finds comfort within it as well

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AO3 COME BAAAACKKKKKK