hazy thoughts unending

This is where my thoughts subside. / This is where the text resides / That would be lost to sands of time / If pen and paper weren't combined. 42/M/USA/MDNI

[justsomechap]

Chris Isaak Was Right. a haiku:

This world is only

Going to break both our hearts.

What a wicked game.

[zelphafrost]

[justsomechap]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— josé olivarez // natalie diaz

[mournfulroses]

Trista Mateer, from a poem featured in her collection titled The Dogs I Have Kissed

[last-fast-naturalist]

[spitblossoms]

[surqrised]

“I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. And sometimes, when I did a really good job of pretending, I even fooled myself.”

— Ruta Sepetys, Salt to the Sea

[justsomechap]

I wrote more and more,

A million words

So our goodbye wouldn’t end.

Thank you from my core

For simply

Laying down the pen.

[justsomechap]

“If I don’t love me at my worst I don’t deserve me at my best” is my excuse not to seek to improve.

[noctivagant-ghost-deactivated20]

i said i’d stop, i meant to try, but every day loops back again a wound i kiss instead of clean. the sky won’t weep, it only dries, it holds its ache like inkless pen, and hides the wreck behind the sheen.

[fakesurprise]

A thousand dreams, a hundred fears, Too late for love, too soon for loss: There’s no magic in unspoken words.

I bite my tongue and wish for speech, Failing language I’m failing you; Losing answers I’m finding peace.

From then to now and back again; Falling I wish for you before wings No longer afraid of a better world —

Reaching I’m holding the learning of tears, Nothing’s too late if it never was — If dreams comes true we’ll start anew.

[justsomechap]

A flash of warmth within my cheeks That waves “hello!” so quaintly greet… This beacon from which good embarks To shine throughout the dark: You are so bright. I wince; this sunlit merriment Spurs squints but hints encouragement. Now blinded, I suspect much more: I’ve never seen before. You are so bright.

[justsomechap]

If you’re the deep end And I don’t know how to swim, You know I’ll jump in.

[noctivagant-ghost-deactivated20]

you were never mine to lose, but god, didn’t i mourn you like a grave i dug myself.

[justsomechap]

I mourn anew every single day. I refeel the gut-wrenching loss over and over and over.

[poppiesandpromises]

Baloney again

I could eat my own heart out

All this organ meat

You fed me while I was starving

Someone else ate your prime rib

[justsomechap]

“Stab me in the heart.

Again and again. AGAIN,”

My reflection urged.

[letmebethecure]

Holding onto hope

I await a lost message

That will never come

[thertg]

our tears bleed

as lost hearts sing

to dead stars.

—RTG