The muscular garbageman with a sopping wet p-

He/Him. (capitalised always or it's misgendering) 20+ Trans man. Any donation links in my inbox get reported for spam. I'm gay. 🏳️‍🌈 I fucking love men. 🏳️‍🌈 If you disagree with me, you're homophobic and transphobic btw. And classist because I'm poor as fuuuuuuck. From undisclosed second-world shithole country. The minimum wage is less than in the US. You're literally xenophobic and privileged if you're mean to me while being American. ☝️🤓 Political stance: 3 arrows. :3 Against all imperialism not just "America Bad :/" brand of leftism. Stop looking at the world through an Americentric lens. There's other countries on Earth.

[quastions-i-dont-ask-on-main]

"Why there isn't more trans men in history, contributing to queer advancements?" damn I wonder why people who were previously women that were forced into marriages and into being property either of their fathers or husbands would have a hard time coming out as a trans man. Truly a mystery. Oh wait you're also telling me people that lived their whole lives as men but were outed after they died are actually lesbians that did that to scape sexism? That's so cool. What more are you wrong about.

[beef-estrogenoff-deactivated-de]

"this suicidal person is so stupid for believing nobody will miss them. i remember people i haven't talked to in years lol"

ok but are you present in their life enough for them to realize that?

[beef-estrogenoff-deactivated-de]

we can all say after the fact that we cared for our friend who committed or disappeared or whatever. we can even mean it when we say it. we can think about them. but did we ever act on it? did we ever even make them feel like we were there? "nobody would care if i disappeared" is not a literal phrase. of course they know that people would care. what the phrase conveys is a deep sense of alienation that can't be mended by implying stupidity on their part.

[bjoirdhnn]

Hi everybody.

It pains me to inform you all that we have found @transfaguette He unfortunately has passed on. Thank you to everybody who aided us, reposted, and had conversations with us to help find him. I wish I had better news to share.

He’s at rest now.

Please take care of yourselves and each other. You are loved, you are cared for, you are so much more important than you could ever realize.

Suicide Hotline [phone]-TALK

Trevor Lifeline 866-488-7386

[selenethevampirequeen]

I never met him, but there's something that aches deep down knowing that one of our community is gone. I hope there's something beyond all this for us, so people like him can know real peace.

Just, look, if you're transmasc, nonbinary, transfem, anything; I don't want to lose you, I want you to know happiness here with us. Please, please if you even think of something like this, reach out; to me, to anybody. You are loved. I don't have to already know you to know I love you.

[selenethevampirequeen]

Actually, fuck it, I need to say more for him.

I never met him, I got here after his note, I never got the chance to meet him; but he is the reason I am who I am now.

I saw his note, and it shattered me, and I saw other transmasc people being bullied, and I couldn't just leave it, I can't let this happen again. I can't lose anybody knowing I could have done something. So now I'm fighting, because I could have been there for him, cause I can be there for others like him, because I will never forget I didn't grow fast enough to help.

Through him, through what he inspired me to do, through how he inspired me to grow, I met more transmasc people, as well as nonbinary and xenogender people. Through him, I realized that my gender and identity don't end at femininity, and I've grown as a person because of it, and I'm genuinely a happier and better person because of him.

I owe my identity to him, I owe my current activism to him, and I will damn well never forget him.

I never met him, I never spoke to him, but he changed my life, and I've been hoping beyond all hope that he was still alive so I could tell him that. I'm grateful for him. I'm grateful he lived. I hope there's something, anything, out there for him.

So anybody here, looking at my own profile, remember him with me, and don't forget.

[genderkoolaid]

hey everyone. if you haven't seen it, ansel @transfaguette posted a queued post on his blog, stating that he is likely deceased now after taking his own life. there is a chance he is alive and simply hasn't been able to access his blog, but he stated he was confident in his means, and that his attempt would've been about a week ago. if he is alive, i hope he sees this and knows how much he means to me and many others.

i am deeply saddened by the loss of him to our community. i wish i had been able to know him better personally. i admired him a great deal. i am thankful he was here. i am glad we were both around on this earth for enough time to know each other. he made the world a richer and better place by having been here at all. i can't thank him enough.

suicide is an immensely personal and final choice. he was unhoused, disabled, and without options for a life that felt meaningfully survivable. it was his right to choose to end his life, he expressed this himself. as painful a choice as that choice is, i am glad he felt able to make it with an appreciation for life and a genuine belief in our ability to fight for a world where disabled trans people never have to make this decision out of desperation again. i am glad he went with a sense of peace and love for himself and the world.

His final words on his last post are: "Keep fighting comrades, and never lose your compassion for yourself and others."

if anyone needs it, Trans Lifeline is a suicide support hotline for trans people which will not call 911 on you without consent, and Project LETS has a collection of non-carceral resources. take care of your grief however it needs, take care of yourselves, and each other. he is gone but not forgotten.

[genderkoolaid]

its been about a month.

i feel like its important to share some of ansel's posts from April and May, to provide context in his own words:

i'm sharing this because i myself am a disabled trans person. i have family support, but have also dealt with neglect, being blamed for being a "moocher," and struggling to access official resources and do things the "right way." i've feared how little the people in my life seem to understand how precarious everything feels for me being disabled and trans. how easily i could end up homeless and unemployable. every time i saw him posting about this i thought, that could be me.

please think about disabled trans people. please care about us. please fight for us.

happy pride, ansel.

[genderkoolaid]

Update: Ansel has been confirmed deceased, having been found in Chittenango Falls State Park on July 2.

I really loved this reblog by @selenethevampirequeen and how she commemorates him. He truly left an impact on so many people and will be profoundly missed by all of us. I wish everyone affected by his death the best. Send some kind words to his sister.

[useless-stray]

constantly hearing casual talk of how disgusting and awful my anatomy is from cis gay guys really takes a toll on you as a gay trans man

not trying to force people to like something they don’t like but holy fuck just stop being assholes about it??

[velvetvexations]

I wonder how much I would identify more with sapphism if cis lesbians didn't want me dead for having been AMAB and trans lesbians didn't want me dead for not passing.

[velvetvexations]

"clockability should never be depicted because it's repulsive and trans women should only ever be Beautiful as defined by what cis actresses and models look like"

go to hell tbh

[scramratz]

My weight loss journey has led me to the stinky recesses of edtwt and dear lord these people are miserable. I understand it's a disability but the way they treat people who aren't severely underweight is insane. Ive got really bad chronic depression, but I've never hated someone for NOT having depression.

[luvkthepsychic]

the thing with the whole "well trans men have male privilege thing" is firstly. literally no. but even if you take the example of the "stealth trans guy who passes extremely well so people see him as a cis guy" is that he still has to hide his identity to access that privilege and if someone finds out hes trans that privilege is most likely to be taken away. so it isnt really privilege.

people have probably definitely said this already but even so.

[transcyberism]

Hi I'm stealth-ish at work and people see me as a cis man but it means I literally cannot talk about my childhood at all ever, or my body, it means I cannot discuss my concerns about reproduction/childbirth when people ask me if I have or want kids, it means I have to bind all day every day or risk being outed (I would prefer not to because my ribs have some issues), it means a certain brand of asshole will default to viewing me as someone it's acceptable to make unguarded transphobic and misogynistic remarks to and I have to actively tell them to stop, it means I cannot call my endocrinologist during work hours (i.e. times their office is open) unless I go outside where no one can hear me... it's so fucking exhausting actually but I only do it because being open would be even more exhausting. I am not privileged by this situation I am hiding

[sludgetoxicmilkshake]

The quickest solution to this is to make someone watch Gattaca and ask them the question: "Did the protagonist have the privilege when they were themselves or did they have to lie and hurt themselves to obtain it? Can someone like them intrinsically have that privilege without needing to mask/hide?" I know that no media/metaphor perfectly relates to real life, but I feel that in this case it's pretty similar. If you have to mask your transness to get at male privilege then YOU don't have a privilege. If transmen could be themselves (including being trans) and have it then yes that would be a privilege. In the current vernacular that is a 'product' which you have had to sign away part of yourself to get at. Surely if transmen have male privilege when they mask that means women could also obtain male privilege by masking. In that case if society assumed that an online creator was a guy would that mean that she would have male privilege?

[sentient-noodle]

ofcourse isff is back on her "but think of the poor rapist" bullshit.

[vampiricvenus]

This is literally just Christian ethics with animal ears...

[musculargarbageman]

rly 'fun' how trans male porn often gets categorized under "THE most freaky horrifying shocking disgusting niche porn" and has cishets overreacting in the comments bc trans men are a sideshow attraction to them

and by 'fun' I mean transphobes need to be put in re-education camps so we can all finally live in peace and equality without a fully adult cishet getting his mind blown that "omg trans men exist?? and have sex too?? saur freaky"

[mi-ciudad]

why are these assholes making ai men there are plently of irl hot guys showing their tits and ass and dick root for free

[aflo]

Charlie Kirk's soul was trapped in sora 2 and when they shut it down he got sealed away forever and now he's in there screaming 24/7

[thesituation]

god it is so funny seeing radfems discover that racism spreads thru their ideology like wildfire and instead of thinking abt why that happens like clockwork they just go “guys stopppppp omg stop being racist pls it’s really ruining the appeal of being a terf who judges people’s worth based on biology/phenotype :(“

[angel-derangement]

genuinely and for real if you change your fundamental values because people are mean to you then you’re stupidddddd. “men are going to the right because leftists are mean to them” okay well they are stupid. “so and so became a terf bc trans people were mean to them” stupid behaviour. that was stupid of them. I don’t think “the left” is “failing” men. I think those men are stupid.

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[alivehouse]

every terf blogs got like a cutesy pink blog theme with lisa frank art in banner making posts by the hour like We Need To Secure A Future For The White Race

[greebledgoblin]

i go on bluesky until the liberals piss me off, i go on tumblr until the communists piss me off, i go on twitter until the bitchy reactionary girls and gays piss me off

[greebledgoblin]

bluesky post: we need to stick it to the DICKtator in chief by funding my new ttrpg zine

tumblr post: sexual assault is only traumatic if you have a puritanical view of sex

twitter post: sorry if this isnt woke but the fat dolls are lowkey not serving